canon fired up

late first-wave millennial shipper Current dumpster fire for all things Destiel

[autisticgayngel]

Canonverse Castiel-centric/pining/loving Cas fics

some of these are Dean's POV and a lot are alternating POV, but all of them really delve into Cas's emotions and his love for Dean. All canonverse and all happy endings. Categorised by post-confession, pre-s15 curtain fic and other canon-era. Descending word count within each category. If anyone has any recs for things I should add lmk!

Post-Confession Fics

things happen (they do, they do, and they do) by sobsicles 28k rating E

Everyone has recced this, and for good reason, it's stunning. Cas gets back from the empty and Dean sort of lets him down gently and is very worried about breaking his heart. Despite this Cas is finally able to express to Dean how much he loves him and takes full advantage of this. He's earnest and sweet and so intense about it, but also incredibly hurt about the lack of reciprocation, though he tries to hide it. He does get the love he deserves in the end and it's so good!

closer (isn't close enough) by fleeceframe 18k rating E

Again, Dean's POV, but very much focused on how much Cas loves him. Has the gorgeous Cas line: “When you are hungry, you eat. When you are tired, you rest. When you are dirty, you bathe. But what are you supposed to do with love?”

My unintended by DeanaWinchester, Jeanne_de_Valois 10k rating E

Really good Cas POV, he’s obsessive and insecure but also deeply loving.

my heart a compass by lagaudiere 10k rating T

The empty torments Cas with visions of Dean and of the family he longs to have with Dean. Dean saves him.

I said show me something by ilovehowyouletmefall 7k rating E

Sparked by the debate about whether or not Dean thinks Cas can feel. Cas is hurt by Dean saying he thought he couldn't feel and vulcan mind melds to show him exactly how he feels about him. It's a really interesting exploration of both of their feelings and fears.

Gift by thisisapaige 2k rating G

Very sweet little fic of them trying to work things out once Cas returns from the empty.

Pre-s15 Curtain Fics

take the long way home by dothraki_shieldmaiden 95k rating E

Dean tries to retire with his family but finds himself alone as Sam and Jack take a road trip and Cas goes hunting in order to prove he's still useful as a human and to avoid thinking about his feelings for Dean. Really agonising and harrowing at the start as they both feel so rejected and miserable. Cas gets into situations where monsters use his feelings for Dean to attack him. Eventually, they're able to tentatively work out their feelings and settle down together and it's very sweet.

Morning Glory by edgarallanrose 26k rating E

Dean and Cas retire together. Cas becomes a beekeeper and Dean starts to use the honey he makes to bake goods, which they sell at the farmer's market. Cas is very much in love with Dean but it takes Dean a bit longer to work things out.

Other Canon-era

A Winter's Tale by NorthernSparrow 64k rating T

This one hurts a lot, so fair warning for that. Cas falls ill while human and homeless and is hospitalised. Dean finds the journal Cas kept as he struggled to survive in this time. Pre-Destiel but Cas does write a lot about his feelings for Dean. Sam and Dean shower Cas with love and kindess as he recovers. Also a destiel epilogue that is very sweet and fluffy.

In the Shadow of your Wings by Enochian Things (Salr323) 57k rating E

Cas confesses his love to Dean post s11 finale but the timing is terrible and Dean is very repressed about it all and breaks Cas's heart. Cas gets an Italian man of letters boyfriend in an attempt to get over it and Dean is insanely jealous (which Cas is oblivious to) but they all have to work together to try to save Sam from the BMOL. Dean eventually gets his shit together and treats Cas the way Cas has learnt to understand he deserves.

That Black Dog Ache by SaltyWords (agent4hire22) 28k rating E

This is very much Dean's POV but I'm putting it here anyway because it has a really intense love confession from Cas, which I'll include an excerpt of that drives me insane:

'“I listen to your music, and I close my eyes. I try to imagine I’m in the Impala, hunting with you. And, sometimes,” his throat jumped, “I lay on your bed. I think about what it would be like if I got to have a place on it beside you... If you ever let me get close enough.”'

Kelp!I Need Somebody by andimeantittosting (Saylee) 27k rating E

A really sweet fic in which Sam, Dean and Cas go to investigate a case on Jesse and Cesar's ranch. Switching POV with really good mutual pining as they tentatively begin to realise the other feels the same.

Being Dean Winchester by Anonymous 26k rating E

Set early s4, Cas has to possess Dean temporarily. While doing this, he has to work to hide his feelings from Dean. Cas is already obsessed with Dean and in love with him but is embarrassed by it and struggles to keep Dean from seeing all of this, especially when Dean wants to have sex with someone while Cas is possessing him.

Après by imogenbynight 24k rating E

Set after the angels fall in s8. Cas falls to earth in Paris and realises he's in love with Dean. Dean comes to get him and they find love together in Paris.

desiderium, lost by atlasian 20k rating T

Castiel confesses his love for Dean and Dean tells him to move on. Cas tries, fairly unsuccessfully, before Dean gets it together.

No Other Worthy Quest by MajorEnglishEsquire 15k rating E

Cas just loves Dean very much.

'“For fuck's sake,” his skin is heating. Cas can feel it. “Stop saying lovey-dovey shit.”

“I know,” Cas rolls his eyes. “It’s so mortifying for you when I want to tell you I love you. I’m using all my self-restraint, I promise not to embarrass you.”'

The Arrow by jscribbles 12k rating T

Valentine's day and Cas has been hit by a Cupid's arrow and is literally sick with love for Dean.

and all this devotion by dothraki_shieldmaiden 10k rating M

Dean gets hurt on a hunt and Cas takes care of him in a cabin. Very sweet, delightful Cas POV of him being very much in love.

Cuckoo And Nest by komodobits 10k rating E

Cas struggles to work out why Dean deems some things meaningful and some things worthless, and where he fits into this apparent dichotomy. Really gorgeous and agonising Cas POV that deals with their constant issue of Dean just wanting Cas to stay and Cas wanting Dean to want him to stay but they're both too afraid to express it.

Breathe by turningthepages 9k rating G

Dean and Cas platonically sleep together to help with Dean's sleep. Cas both likes the situation and longs for it to mean more.

First Date by aeli_kindara 9k rating T

Dean asks Cas on a date and they're both trying very hard to make it all work. The sequel is stunning too.

'Dean says, “We should do that. Go on a date.”

Something in Castiel’s chest fuzzes, like static on a TV, and stops.'

weights on my ankles by dothraki_shieldmaiden 9k rating M

After 15x3 The Rupture, Cas goes back to Rexford. While there, he thinks about how Dean hurt him all those years ago and how he hurt him more recently. Partly a 9x6 Heaven Can Wait fanfic-gap fic.

Let it Linger by OmniscientOranges 8k rating M

Cas starts sleeping with men out of jealousy when watching Dean pick up women at bars. The way the fic describes how in love he is and how hopeless he feels about it is both agonising and very sweet.

He Thought He Was Reckless by MajorEnglishEsquire 8k rating M

Cas plays up injuries so that Dean will coddle him. Self-woobification from the Angel of the Lord and it's so sweet!

Something to Protect by Sass_Master 6k rating G

Cas tries to work out how to make Dean feel less unsafe so that he no longer has to jolt awake. Sweet, tentative intimacy and Cas enjoying it so much.

lonely hearts. by outpastthemoat 5k rating G

Deals with Cas accompanying Sam and Dean on hunts and feeling incredibly lonely and longing to be with Dean. He finds solace in romance novels.

Some People Would Call This Romantic by almaasi 5k rating G

Human Cas goes to the beach and finds it rather overwhelming. Taking a romantic walk with Dean along the beach is also overwhelming.

The Tea is Decaf by mnwood 4k rating T

Really sweet! Cas and Eileen talk and gossip about Sam and Dean in the bunker at night over tea.

A Place to Rest by Inessencedivided 3k rating G

Dean and Cas talk through things after the Stuck in the Middle with You love confession. Cas cries some more.

White Noise by domesticadventures 2k rating G

Cas struggles with feelings of worthlessness in the aftermath of Lucifer's possession.

Receipts by surlybobbies 1k rating G

Cas writes little notes about how much he loves Dean on receipts from meals they share together. Dean finds them.

[dotthings]

Jensen Ackles:

Walked into the S15 writers room with a list of people he wanted back

Back when everyone thought the series finale was going to include a lot of beloved familiar faces, he said in the New York Daily News, “I’m excited about it...I think it pays credit to a lot of things that have gotten us to where we are today.” (We know now his issue right along has to do with Dean’s fate)

Has been mister “get the band back together” more than once

Has, unprompted, said Destiel positive remarks on panels

Has, unprompted, talked about Misha, praises Misha, calls Misha “a dear friend”

Spoke a whole eloquent paragraph on the value of the different characters and relationships on the show

Was the one who urged Bobo Berens to complete the Kaia arc

Showed open enthusiasm for Wayward Sisters and said “I want to help tell that story”

Is not going to be the least bit annoyed about fans who say Misha is a 3rd lead

Showed his happiness and joy and relief when Misha was brought back onto the show in S7

Has frequently spoken warmly about the Dean and Cas bond and Cas’s emotional impact on Dean

High-fived Misha over “brokebacknatural”

Talked about filming a “western slash rom-com” with Misha

Was visibly excited about 15.18, openly supported Misha and that story, he and Misha showed each other fan reaction videos to the confession, Jensen said of the hand-print “that’s going to make someone scream in their apartment” and knows and appreciates how much Destiel and that bond between Dean and Cas means to fans

Has always been vocal about his love for his cast-mates and how he likes having those characters around, praises them as actors and their characters

Appreciates and supports found family and expanded cast

Jensen Ackles is the bro bond team free will found family cas fan wayward sisters supporter deancas king, and he is mostly the biggest Dean fan. My receipts are Jensen Ackles himself. His highest priority is Dean, he’s not about ship wars and he’s not against anyone. He cares about the whole show and has demonstrated that over and over.

[stonelions]

this one has been done before right i’m like 12 years late to the show i’m sorry. anyway, it felt appropriate 

[omniscientoranges]

Cas just makes me go a little crazy because like, he's not just old he's ancient. He's literally one of the oldest, oldest things in the whole universe. He's been alive since the dawn of creation billions of years ago but he tells the Winchesters with absolute certainty "the things that we've shared together, they've been the best part of my life." I can't even fathom that. Cas is like, older than every single tree on the planet, a majority of the stars in the sky (some he might even have helped put there), and humanity itself - and spending about a decade with Sam and Dean has been the best part of all that time.

And not only that, he falls in love! He literally spent an eternity and a half being god's little heavenly warrior and he meets Dean and just, immediately falls in love with him. Like, no matter exactly when you think Cas fell in love with Dean the fact is that the time he knew him was so short compared to the rest of his existence that it might as well have just been love at first sight. 12 years up against billions. That's a fraction of a fraction of a fraction - but he still did it! He saw humanity evolve from fish on a fucking beach and then he falls in love with one. I quite literally cannot imagine that.

Like you are divine you are primordial you are worshipful you are unfathomable and you are in love with a man who wears novelty socks and knows all the words to every led zeppelin song ever written. You are a supernova coveting a speck of stardust and when he smiles at you, you feel butterflies in your stomach. You're older than the ground you both are walking on and you think he doesn't love you back - but the worst part is that he does and you don't know you're wasting time. For the first time in your incomprehensibly long life you have something you want to hang onto and you don't know you're letting it slip through your fingers. If there's anyone in the world that's had an abundance of time it's you - but you'd trade all those billions of years for just one second where he holds your hand and kisses you but it's a fucking tragedy because you don't know he wants that too. You don't know you could have that if you asked. You may be ancient but you are not all-knowing because if you were you'd wake up every morning wrapped in his arms and lean on his shoulder while he makes breakfast. You're old and you're getting older but for once you want to stop and take it all in, take him in, because you meant it when you said this has been the best part of your life. He's been the best part of your life, all 13+ billion years of it.

[smoothoperatorleclerc]

Dean wasn’t sure exactly when it happened. When they went from Dean and Cas to DeanandCas. How they went from sleeping in separate beds to sleeping in the same one. How they went from brushing fingers against shoulders to pressing kisses to cheeks and ghosting their mouths against the corner of each other’s lips.

It was a slow progression.

Until it wasn’t.

Until one small little thing was a sudden jarring moment in Dean’s mind. They’re together together. And it’s so innocuous. This little moment that Cas doesn’t even realize.

They’ve been sharing things for weeks. Jackets. Blankets. Food. All of it happens without Dean even noticing. Besides, he was always stealing fries off of Cas’ plate, so it wasn’t really a surprise when Cas started stealing onion rings from his plate.

But this. Right now. Watching Cas get up from the warm cocoon of their bed sheets and proceed to open Dean’s drawer of clean clothes before stealing a pair of Dean’s clean socks. That was monumental. Cas doesn’t even realize he’s doing it, too busy rambling on about taking Jack bowling: “Isn’t that something normal people do? Talking of, I’ve never been bowling, either. Have you been bowling before, Dean? It can’t be too hard, can it? Isn’t there some sort of system used for kids to help them knock the pins down? Maybe we should use that for Jack? Or maybe he’d been fine without it?”

Dean doesn’t want to admit he’s tuned out; Cas’ words a white noise in the back of his mind. Because he can’t tear his eyes away from Cas’ hands. His socks in Cas’ hands. It’s a ridiculous pair with little burgers on them; nothing like the normal black socks Cas wears every day. Dean’s caught between shock and awe at the way Cas unrolls them, bending down and sliding one sock on and then the other, all the while never breaking his babbling about bowling and the history behind it.

And still, Dean can’t stop staring. They’ve shared clothes before. In fact, Cas is currently wearing one of his old AC/DC shirts; something the angel has taken to sleeping in every night since borrowing it two weeks ago. And just last week, Cas had draped the trenchcoat over Dean’s shoulders when they were on a hunt sneaking through the Michigan woods in early November; the angel noticed Dean’s shivers and immediately combated it by sliding the trenchcoat over Dean’s shoulders to warm him up.

None of that had made Dean stop and stare. It had been natural. As easy as breathing. But this. This was different. This was Cas taking Dean’s socks like they were his. And it’s at that moment Dean feels like his lungs are burning; thoughts swirling as the recognition dawns on him and settles like liquid gold burning through his veins. He’s in love with this dorky little angel currently stealing his socks.

And he doesn’t mean for the words to slip out, not while Cas is still rambling about bowling and if they could convince Sam and Eileen to join them; blissfully unaware that Dean has just had an epiphany.

“I love you,” Dean says on an exhale, the words tumbling out into the space between them.

Cas immediately cuts off mid-sentence, turning to fully face Dean with a look of starstruck surprise. “What?” he barely manages to say before Dean is getting up from the bed and pulling Cas into a kiss.

“I love you,” Dean repeats against Cas’ mouth, feeling Cas’ dopey smile pressed against his lips.

“Love you, too,” Cas murmurs right back without any hesitation, kissing Dean with enough fervor to leave them both breathless and dizzy.

It’s ridiculous, how a single pair of his socks could hold so much meaning, but it’s surprisingly them.

Later, when they’re at the bowling alley as Jack is taking his turn at knocking the pins down, having dragged Sam and Eileen along to their little adventure, Dean snakes his hand down to settle on Cas’ ankle, where a peek of his socks with their silly little hamburgers can be seen where Cas’ pants have ridden up.

“You like stealing my clothes that much that you’ve taken to stealing my socks too, huh?” Dean teases.

Cas looks from the socks to Dean’s face, before a flush creeps up his cheeks. He shrugs, trying to play it cool, but his facade wavers as he leans into Dean’s space; pressing their lips together. “What can I say? I love your clothes as much as I love you.”

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[goth-dean]

Misha you can’t just say stuff like this

[4evamc]

Whaaaa…..

Misha Collins !Wtf,dude!!

[shatteredatthealtarofwinchester]

“Dean is not in love with Cas.” My ass!

Let’s not talk about eyefucking, staring at each other, liplicking, gentle facetouching and other acting and filming choices. For that part I highly recommend the cinematography of Destiel by @lulu-zodiac​, it’s a masterpiece. We all know it’s there 24/7 and it’s a deliberate choice of representing Destiel in a romantic way.

https://lulu-zodiac.tumblr.com/post/640773359938961408/the-cinematography-of-destiel

Let’s talk about arc facts. I am sure as hell I missed a shitload. Feel free to add in the comments. And nope, it’s not in the right order, it’s pure chaos popping into my mind right now.

Cas’ Leviathan death

Dean being heavily alcoholic, highly depressive after Cas died.

Dean keeping Cas’ trenchcoat even while using different cars.

1st purgatory

Dean searching a fucking year for the angel in purgatory, having no intend to leave, having no clue if he’s even alive.

Dean praying to Cas every night. Every fucking night. For a fucking year.

Dean being heavily traumatized after not being able to get Cas out of purgatory, seeing and hallucinating him everywhere, not being able to cope.

Dean adjusting himself when Cas walks freshly into the room.

Smiling in front of Cas, showing emotional weakness when he can’t see it.

No words needed.

Cas’ stabbed-by-Lucifer death

Dean screaming, Sam holding Dean back so he can’t go after Cas the same way Dean was holding back Sam in 01x01 so he can’t go after Jess.

Dean screaming again, collapsing on his knees next to Cas’ dead body.

Dean not even being able to admit Cas is dead, breaking in the middle of the sentence while talking to Sam.

Dean being 100% dead inside while burning Cas’ body.

Dean praying to fucking God, BEGGING to bring Cas back, mentioning Cas before his own mother. Full vulnerability, never seen Dean like this before. 

Dean being self-destructive, heavily alcoholic, highly depressive, suicidal, he lost his fucking will to live when Cas died.

Dean actually wanting to die when Death herself shows up.

Deans fucking 180 degree mood change when Cas is back from the empty. Seriously, rewatch it, you have to see this.

Cas being Deans “pretty damn big win”.

I recommend reading: https://shatteredatthealtarofwinchester.tumblr.com/post/638875942565150720/im-not-a-fan-of-being-talked-into-something

2nd purgatory

Dean falling on his knees, crying for Cas, praying, begging. Again no intend to leave without him, even if just minutes are left.

Dean desperately wanting to tell Cas something while knowing there are shitloads of enemies after them and the portal closes any second.

Inbetween stuff

The Cain/Colette Dean/Cas parallel.

The Amelia/Benny parallel.

The Ishim/Lily Dean/Cas parallel.

Deans reaction to Cowboy Cas.

Deans reaction to Doctor Cas.

Dean making the fucking mixtape for Cas while knowing this is exactly how his parents fell in love.

Dean making Cas watching movies he likes.

Both-sided “I’ll go with you.”

Dean standing at his car, watching Cas Steve.

Dean going after Cas and protecting him when he’s with Ishim.

Several people reading Deans mind, saying Dean hopes Cas will return to him.

MOCDean not being able to kill Cas, breaking the written fate.

Charlie sensing Deans feelings for Cas and even for Benny.

Dean sitting on the floor after Cas’ confession the whole night, sobbing.

Dean not answering Sam’s call the next morning.

Lucifer appearing to Dean as Cas while knowing he always and only appeared as dead lovers.

Dean confessing “There’s things, there’s people, feelings, that I want to experience differently than I have before. Or maybe even for the first time.”

Deancas being the only real arc that grew outside of Gods control.

Dean being clearly in shock when meeting Castiels wife.

Dean smoothly accepting that Cas goes through his private stuff, his backpack and even his jeans pockets.

Dean asking a gay couple how it is to settle down with a hunter.

Dean being more focused on Cas than Amara.

Dean panicking when Cas isn’t answering texts and phonecalls.

Bitch, if this isn’t love, I don’t know what is.

[captain-flint]

Buddy boy, you’ve got what they call sex appeal.

bonus:

[vmous97]

if anyone can out-stubborn dean, it’s cas. (x)

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[we-stan-misha-collins-deactivat]

Omfg the head tilt is so cuteeee

[george-ryan-ross-iii]

Hi just a friendly reminder that it's now exactly 9 years since the most iconic destiel video (Angel with a Shotgun) was uploaded, which has 2M+ views

[winchester-reload]

A moment where Cas learns that blanket forts aren’t just for Sam’s kids, but that they’re a magical date spot, too…

This necessary dose of fluff brought to you by my latest Patreon commission winner @burrsmom. Thank you for this wonderful prompt, my friend. I hope these soft boys keep you smiling for a long time, and thank you for helping me bring it to life.

[we-stan-misha-collins-deactivat]

Omfg the head tilt is so cuteeee

[past-regrets-and-wings]

Oh no you hurt Dean Winchester and Castiel knows it was you S4 vs S15

[qwertyfingers]

a couple people asked for fic recs and no one asked for any specifics so I’m just throwing out all the ones I really liked. a lot of this is pretty explicit so uh, apologies if that’s not your thing. I’m gonna recommend specific works, but I also highly recommend checking out the full archives of rageprufock, saltyfeathers, komodobits, sass_master and schmerzerling

The Girlfriend Experience by rageprufrock – practically required reading for destiel fans. Very sweet and endlessly re-readable.

Four Letter Word For Intercourse by bendingsignpost –  this one is a LOT. modern au. Dean goes to university in his 30s and meets Cas, they become silent study partners in the library. Dean calls a phone sex hotline to help figure out if he’s really bi. Very long, very interesting. Really good character analysis imo and sex scenes that are interesting to read in a way that many fics are not.

All Things Shining by askance – I have to preface this by admitting I haven’t finished reading this yet. It’s very intense and I keep having to take breaks to do other stuff. Really beautiful writing style. The whole fic has this absolutely mesmerising soft, autumn-sunshine feel to it. Like that dream sequence in mission impossible: fallout where they hung silk down an entire street to film the soft-focus sunlight.

like moses and batman and james dean by saltyfeathers – This one is hard to put into words tbh! Viscerally upsetting in the very mundane way that trauma is in real life; it’s cathartic and meaningful rather than depressing, but it is an intense experience. If you like reading about Dean learning how to let himself be loved this is one for you. I really appreciate the ending avoiding the copout ‘everything is better and they don’t have problems now’ that people sometimes fall for.

Put Up Your Dukes by saltyfeathers – This fic is pure, concentrated sexual tension. The author’s internal voice for Dean is the absolute peak; manages to tie together his emotionally constipated trauma-repression with the inward funnyman persona endemic to ADHD, and the dialogue for all the characteris incredibly lifelike.

The (Mostly Accidental) Courtship of Dean Winchester – HANDPRINT SCAR AS AN ANGEL MARRIAGE RITE!!!!!!!! This fic is fantastic in all ways but this alone is reason enough to read it imo.

So Says The Sword by komodobits – this is THEE fic of all time. It’s like a prose-poem novel. Literally everybody should read this. Essentially a prequel to deancas meeting in canon, reading this fic makes everything about Cas in canon make you feel like a wild monkey in a too-small enclosure.

Professional Couple Only by saltyfeathers – FAKE RELATIONSHIP CASEFIC. THEY HAVE TO GET A HAUNTED APARTMENT TOGETHER.

No Kingdom to Come by domesticadventures – The only quarantine fic I’ve read and it’s magnificent. Dean and Cas become friends with beneftis, Cas builds a garden, and Dean is stupid until he isn’t.

You Can Take The Man Out of Hell by saltyfeathers – short and sweet, knifeplay with no cutting. V good.

Granted by aeli-kindara - the luck curse isn’t fixed in a pool hall; they just have to stop taking things for granted.

snippets by saltyfeathers – post falling, Cas is happy with Dean but struggles with adjusting to being human and not an angel. Very bittersweet and beautiful.

Long Way For Feet on Broken Glass by  saltyfeathers – 9x06 episode coda

Everyone is Trying to Get to the Bar balder12 – INCREDIBLE true form Cas fic

never or forever by almaasi – adorable family dinner fic with the wayward sisters plus sam, cas and dean. Teeth-achingly sweet and lovely

der untergang by schmerzerling – dean smith/stoner cas. horny and brilliant

tired starlings by aeriallon – EVIL DEANCAS NATION RISE UP. Like the season 5 alley fight scene as a long drawn out sex scene. The leadup to the sex is also very good; it’s all about cas being confused by emotions and humans and tired and frustrarted by losing his grace, and mark of cain dean being an idiot and also an ass. It’s a very good fic

Bron-Yr-Aur by mrbluesky – WTF GAY LITTLE JACK!!!!! dean takes jack out for a drive, and jack tells him about himself, and cas facetime buttdials them because hes a sweet old man. One of my all time faves everybody please thank ezra calamitysongs for their contribution to literature

Cuckoo and Nest by komodobits - Dean being obsessive about his possessions is my exact SHIT like yes go girl give me the crumbs of my ADHDOCD theory I will eat it up thank you. Dean’s weird about his stuff, and Cas worries too much about how he fitsinto

unknown quantities – Cas kisses Dean for the first time when he gets hurt on a job, and they just kind of happen. Dean has a crisis about it, because he’s Dean/

Then and Now by komodobits – Childhood friends-to-lovers au; a trope that often aggravates me but komodobits managed to knock it out of the park as always. Its about the more than a decade of pining and growing apart before finally coming together for me luv <3

Don’t Ever Change by whelvenwings – dean realises he’s been dating cas retroactively, and takes him for a real date

All I’m Asking For by sass_master – short, cute, mistletoe kiss.

Smoke and And Mirrors by schmerzerling – Dean and Cas are both military veterans. Neither of them are handling it well. They meet, get high together, and start learning how to not be so fucked up together. Be careful of the warnings; Cas has hallucinations with detailed body horror/gore.

Diamond Star Halo by jad – consensual possession!!!!!! the Ultimate trope

Games of Skill and Fortune by aeli_kindara – I adore this fic. Dean lets himself be possessed by michael in order to fight the apocalypse world michael’s destruction. Michael is fucked up from his time in the cage, and dean has to rehabilitate him. Really, really interesting fic and one of my all time favourites

One White Lie by komodobits – cas pretends to be a jehovah’s witness to talk to dean. V v funny and chill

Second Childhood by cloudyjenn – sam gets de-aged and dean and cas have to look after him while he grows back up

all this and heaven too by ftmsteverogers – trans dean!!! bittersweet and cathartic read, for me. cas is very loving and supportive. Really well written.

Made Manifest by schmerzerling – Trans Dean; Cas brings him back from hell different to how he went down. Looooove the prose here.

The Tunnel of Love by xylodemon – Dean and Cas have to make out in a tunnel of love for a case. This fic is GREAT.

Along My Restless Palms by sass_master – I remember enjoyign this one but its already slipped from my brain too much to say much beyonf that. Dean fantasises about cas a lot.

New Testament [just more of the same ‘verse] by outpastthemoat – this one is hard to describe in a way that does it justice. Beautiful, wondrous prose. I love love LOVE how Cas is written in this one. He’s sad and weird and not used to experiencing pain, and Dean doesn’t understand him at all but he loves him. Something about the fact that they have such a hard time with living a life but they fall into eachother anyway is just. Chef kiss.

Build a Home by domesticadventures – theres a lot of greatness to this fic, but dean getting really into reading yelp reviews for restaurants is one of my favourite points of characterisation ever and I’ve started mentally slotting it into every fic unintentionally.

if this is your final destination, welcome home by saltyfeathers - 10x18 episode coda, really lovely

Holding This in Mind by sass_master – it’s 12k words of fisting! Have fun :)

[alicerovai]

I really had fun doing these stupid comic strips redraws!

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