Galaxy Town: Ep. 4 - It's the beginning of a New Life
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After a heavy rain, Rainbow will show up!
Earthing is kinda similar to travelling. Really adventurous but sometimes you will feel tired, also sometimes you will feel happy and proud about you coming this far. And yeah! I'm here after my biggest heart broke. I got a close friend, we were known each other for 2 years. And this February, he asked me out. I was really happy cause, I really started to catching feeling for him and it's happened. I think it is the best decision I made for my life. He is a kind, cute little man but with a strongest heart. Giving up is not his life style. To me he is perfect in every way.
I observed him over that two years, not because I'm gonna make hi as my partner, but because I wanna know about who I'm gonna closer with. Its normal for me. Observing humans and analysing there behaviours. Maybe the things happend in past were old, but it will happen again. We can't decide our future. We just living beings who trying there best to live a happy life.
And yeah he did it but differently. He was different, different like me. Its just like meeting someone I know for the long time. His behaviours, the way he analysing humans, and some of weird cute little stuffs doing at free times. He just like me as a human form.
He helped me a lot with my work. When there no one else, he stayed. Waste his time to teach me some of mathematics theories. I'm someone no one can understand. I don't know how he knows me well as I do. I never felt sad easily but if I felt he will notice it around 1s. He just like a total sensor thing. He can say whats going on me just looking at me. And I realised he is the one. He is the one I looking for! Yeah! He is... After catching feeling for him, I never felt tired as before. Everything feels like a calm song like "Caribbean Blue" by Erya...
I never thought I will get this close to someone. As an alien, I'm supposed to stay alone, doing my own things. But I felt wanted. I want to stay behind him. I want to look and and watch him. I want to be his wify. I think I'm not anymore that person who can from another planet. I felt same as human. I can feel how they feel. And I wanna be like them. I'm totally stopped here. I know this isn't the way I thought I wanna end up. But somehow he did it. But I really got worried. Sometimes I felt like "Am I ruininghis life? Am I wastinghis time? Am I trouble to him? Am Idisturbinghim?". I felt like I'm some kind of bug who came to ruin his life.
I'm not same as regular human. Every side of me different from them. He is same as me but not at all. I'm someone worrying about the future and he is someone working hard to make a wonderful future. I really felt guilty for this. I don't know whats the point of being like this? I wanna be free. Free from everything. I felt soo alone when I'm thinking. Yeah I know it's same to humans too. But being a reason to someone's down fall isn't good. I'm afraid for that. I'm afraid to make his life worst because of me. I don't wanna make him sad. I want him to be happy. I kinda felt like I'm gonna lose him. What if he get ride of me? I don't know! Time will decide it. And I'm here to see whats the decision. I really loves him soo much. I even can't imagine a life without him. But I felt I'm like a bug who gonna ruin his life. I'm really afraid for that. I don't wanna be someone I loves down fall.
Sometimes I wanna disappear and make my closers to live their life as they want. Earthing is really wonderful but sometimes you will feel sad because you cared too much!
I LOVE HIM SOO MUCH!
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