the familiar keys jingling & currently being thrusted into the keyhole are enough to make you perk up from where you sat at on the couch that swallowed you.
ââm home, sweetheart.â someoneâs had a long day, judging by the sunken, navy eyes & the gruff tone in his voice that makes it sound like a growl with every word.
âhi, i missed you.â youâre immediately met with the sight of him plopping down with his back towards you, scooching back until he feels your shins. your head tilts in confusion as he hooks his hands around your calves & lifts them onto his shoulders where your knees rested.
ââŚyou okay?â
âlong day.â
thatâs when you feel him lean his head back between the doughy flesh of your thighs & a pressure from his hands against the sides of your knees, is he squishing his head?
you chuckle from the tickle of the tips of his silky hair against your lap.
âweirdo, what are you doing?â
he snorts at the name & leans his head against your left thigh gently, his eyes shut in exhaustion.
âso now iâma weirdo for being between my girls legs?â
âno,..youâre a weirdo for squishing your head with them!â
âoh, so a weirdo for loving my girls thighs?â
ââŚughâ
he feels you lean back against the couch, taking it as a sign of victory for him in your little âweirdo battleâ & he sinks deeper between your thighs, sighing at the soft cushioning.
heâs unaware of the soft gaze from behind him, but it shows through your fingers which now gently scratch at his scalp, earning a grumble from him. âfuck, baby..â
itâs almost funny with how fast he manages to sleep, judging by the limp tilt of his head which now feel 2 pounds heavier against you & the soft snores that emerge from his parted lips. so cute.
âsleep well, baby. okay?â
you softly chuckle at his peaceful state & swipe a hand under his bangs to pull it back & you place a kiss on his forehead as if he wasnât a six foot something sorcerer who kills people for a living, but the most delicate thing made of glass.
and to you, he was. but thatâs only for you to see!
the familiar keys jingling & currently being thrusted into the keyhole are enough to make you perk up from where you sat at on the couch that swallowed you.
ââm home, sweetheart.â someoneâs had a long day, judging by the sunken, navy eyes & the gruff tone in his voice that makes it sound like a growl with every word.
âhi, i missed you.â youâre immediately met with the sight of him plopping down with his back towards you, scooching back until he feels your shins. your head tilts in confusion as he hooks his hands around your calves & lifts them onto his shoulders where your knees rested.
ââŚyou okay?â
âlong day.â
thatâs when you feel him lean his head back between the doughy flesh of your thighs & a pressure from his hands against the sides of your knees, is he squishing his head?
you chuckle from the tickle of the tips of his silky hair against your lap.
âweirdo, what are you doing?â
he snorts at the name & leans his head against your left thigh gently, his eyes shut in exhaustion.
âso now iâma weirdo for being between my girls legs?â
âno,..youâre a weirdo for squishing your head with them!â
âoh, so a weirdo for loving my girls thighs?â
ââŚughâ
he feels you lean back against the couch, taking it as a sign of victory for him in your little âweirdo battleâ & he sinks deeper between your thighs, sighing at the soft cushioning.
heâs unaware of the soft gaze from behind him, but it shows through your fingers which now gently scratch at his scalp, earning a grumble from him. âfuck, baby..â
itâs almost funny with how fast he manages to sleep, judging by the limp tilt of his head which now feel 2 pounds heavier against you & the soft snores that emerge from his parted lips. so cute.
âsleep well, baby. okay?â
you softly chuckle at his peaceful state & swipe a hand under his bangs to pull it back & you place a kiss on his forehead as if he wasnât a six foot something sorcerer who kills people for a living, but the most delicate thing made of glass.
and to you, he was. but thatâs only for you to see!
-> smut/nsfw, afab! reader (has a pussy, no pronouns used), unprotected sex, requested
The first time Tim fucks you without a condom, itâs life-changing.
Heâs tired, limbs feeling like lead after a long night of patrol. The sun outside is already kissing the horizon when he shows up at your door.
Itâs a blur from there, Tim mumbling against your lips about how bad he needs you, how he needs to feel you.
And then heâs burying himself inside you, head dipped into your shoulder, pressed chest to chest with you while he fucks into you.
He finishes inside you, feeling your walls flutter around his cock, listening to you mewl in need. And something inside of him snaps, changes. Like youâve set a fire in his chest with kindling he didnât even know was there.
He watches the cum drip out of you, collecting it on his fingers and slipping it back inside of you.
Heâs insatiable after that. He needs to keep you full, using his cock to plug you up with load after load of his cum.
Even long after youâre overstimulated, heâll kiss along your collarbone, murmuring in your ear.
âDoing so good for me,â he groans. âDâyou like being stuffed with my cum? Feels so good, huh?â
Heâll go until heâs spent, collapsing on top of you in the bed.
He breeds you daily, bending you over a counter, his desk, your bedâwherever he can get you. He fucks you real good every time, getting you to finish first because he knows itâll take better that way.
Then heâll pull up your panties to keep the cum inside, kissing your neck and giving your ass a cheeky smack.
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Synopsis. Venomâs had enough of his hostâs racing heartbeat and tĂghtening pants around you. So he does what any good symbiote would do - help Choso lose his vĂrginĂty, of course!
Pairing. Choso Kamo x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem!reader, Venom!Choso, best-friends-to-Iovers, PlNING, hĂŠats, he has tattoos and piercings, Venom in bold, first times (for Choso), PĂSSYDRĂNK CHOSO, oraI (fem. rec), spĂtting, ĂnapproprĂate use of the symbiote, LONG tongues, rĂding, dĂşmbifĂcation, making it fit, size kĂnk, tummy buIges, creampĂes, cĂşmplay, MARATHONS, matĂng presses, overstĂm, squĂrting, cĂşmming dry, proposals, biting marks, pet names, swĂŠaring.
Word count. 8.5k
A/N. Inspired by this ask and this post by the lovely @/screampied.
âYou like her.â
âShut up.â
âYou want to fu-â
âShut up.â
âHeh- loser.â
And Choso was genuinely contemplating smashing his head against the nearest wall, if only it would yank out that damn parasite- âOi, I can hear you.â -he had the misfortune of picking up.
Weeks - though, it felt like years - weeks since heâd wandered into his usual hiding spot at the abandoned Lady of Saintâs Church for a moment of peace and quiet; except, he wasnât alone that day. Too busy poring over yet another sketch of your dazzling smile to notice-
âYour pulse rate spiked- youâre thinking of her, boy. You want her.â
But itâd been weeks since heâd had peace and quiet after thisâŚalien symbiote had forcibly attached itself to his body that day.Â
And the worst part was that he wasnât even wrong.Â
âS-so what?â Choso hisses out. âShe deserves better than me anyway.â Wincing at the sheer predatory amusement in Venomâs voice as he purrsâÂ
âI have a planâŚâ
.
.
.
Your best friend was acting strange.
Given, it wasnât anything out of the ordinary for his fawn eyes to linger on you just a little more than whatâs considered appropriate for a âfriendâ, or for him to burn with the prettiest blush whenever you caught him.Â
But these days it was almost like he was avoiding you on purpose.Â
Taking the longer routes after lectures, being struck pale as a ghost mid-conversation, always muttering away underneath his breath.Â
Hell, one day you even had half the mind to jokingly ask him whether he was talking to someone you couldnât see - to which Choso had sputtered and all but sprinted away from you.Â
And here he was right now - towering right at your apartment doorway in just a snug undershirt and the sexiest grey sweatpants.
âCh-Choso?â Your jaw drops slightly at his disheveled, heaving state.Â
Milky skin simmered with a sheen of sweat that made his dark tank top glue to his broad chest, chestnut strands of his bangs falling out of his bun to hide his eyes from you, almostâŚfeverish.
Frantic gaze bouncing off the beefy arm heâd kept leaned over your doorframe for support, âWhat happened- are you sick? Are you drunk?â A quick glance at the clock showed that it was well past 12AM, âAre you okay, Cho-â
And then he flinches.
Fuck- he flinches as if the sound of that very nickname falling from your cute lips made his entire body shudder with a thousand bolts of lightning.Â
Baritone voice hot and murky once he utters, âBabyâŚâ
Oh.Â
You could feel the goosebumps starting to slither down your spine already, and you tug nervously at the paper-thin pyjama shirt you had on. Too-aware of the fact that it was the only thing you were wearing other than your thin panties- damn.
Noticing the way that every minute movement of yours seemed to make Chosoâs pants grow heavier; you dare to take a step closer, and it only makes him grip onto the mahogany doorway until it splinters.Â
Teeth grit. Nostrils flaring. Barely holding himself together.
Gasping, âCho?â
âI need you.â
âWha-â And itâs the last thing escaping your mouth before Choso surges forward like heâs being jerked, movements twitchy - desperate - he falls a few steps forward until heâs in your heated proximity.Â
Your saccharine scent so sweet that heâd be on his damn knees if you hadnât clawed a hand on one of his flexing biceps- a gruff whimper departing from Chosoâs plush, pink lips. âK-kiss me.âÂ
Oh, fuck.
You watch with a carnal sort of desire at the way that he scorches with a breezing blush all the way from the tips of his ears, down to his collarbones. Fisting your dominant hand in the flimsy cotton of your best friendâs undershirt, just the tiniest, weakest tug makes him gulp.
Now that he started, he couldnât stop.
âKiss me- kiss me, p-please.â Heâs finally darting his hazy peripheries up from the floor to look at you, you, and only you. Dragging in a deeeep breath of your air, his half-lidded pupils were begging- âKiss me, baby.â
Youâre humming, the curved edges of your fingertips curling âround Chosoâs nape and pulling him in.Â
Heâs melting.
Heâs melting and melting into the kiss - as if heâd been dreaming of this for just as long as you have. Even longer.Â
Strong, sturdy hands wrapping around your waist to tug you against his hardened front, you gasp at the sweltering hot temperature he was radiating. Already feeling beads of perspiration starting to form across your forehead-
Heâs sucking in a sharp breath, âNeed to- need to tell you something.âÂ
Words huffinâ out through glides of his berry-pink lips across yours, each one wrenching out like it pained him to part from your candied mouth with each sloppy mwah! Blindly, he slams the door shut with the heeled back of his foot. âThereâs- a- a thing-â
Youâre grinning once his voice breaks - breaks, as soon as youâre sipping on the cold spherical piercing homed at the edge of his tongue like your favorite gummy candy. âAâŚthing?â
Through a slightly-cracked eyelid, your gaze sinks down between Chosoâs thick, meaty thighs. Instantly feeling a wave of sap flood your mouth at the massive cylindrical bulge that tightened his sweatpants uncomfortably.
He was just too cute.Â
âA âthingâ, hm?â Youâre breaking off to smirk, twisting a silky lock of his hair around your index in a way that makes the looming man in front of you shiver. Chasing and chasing your lips- he was so weak for you.Â
Giving in, youâre just about getting ready to kiss your best friend silly once more - but what meets your ravenous mouth isnât his soft, plump lips anymore.Â
No, it doesnât even feel human.Â
What instead greets you is something frigid and slimy. Something that crushes you to him with a strength tenfold of what Choso had been using - almost animalistic - until youâre lurching back and gaping at the fact that your feet were now dangling almost two whole feet off of the ground.
Snapping your head to his face and-Â
WhatâŚtheâŚf-
âDonât scream!â In a startling split-second, that black mass of goop masking Chosoâs face slithers away in tiny tendrils to reveal, well, Choso.Â
And honestly, youâre not sure if that wants to make you scream even more or just shuts you up completely. But whilst you ogle whatever it is in front of you, Choso keeps plowing on.Â
âThis- ah, this is what I meant by aâŚthing.â Heâs stammering out nervously, dark brows crinkling with nervousness as he watches on for your reaction. âBasically- a few weeks ago- my body got infected by this alien thing- a âsymbioteâ, it said, and I-â
âImproved.â
Youâre feeling that temptation to exhaust your lungs with yells once more as Chosoâs swallowed up within that dark matter.Â
Muscular and big.Â
Except this time it was formulating a mouth - all wide and decorated in tiny, jagged canines - and slanted white eyes with not a pupil in sight. A dexterous tongue gliiiides down the crevice of its sharp mouth, glittered with strands of slobber. âWe are Venom, pretty girl. And you smellâŚâ
Venomâs voice was deep. Coarse. A rumbling bass that made the very bottom of your stomach quiver- youâre distracted only by the growling sniff he lets out. Monstrous ivory eyes locked right between your heated core-
â-delicious.â
OhâŚhe was reaching well near eight feet and twitching from the inside out once Choso fights to regain control.Â
âA-as you can see-â Smiling sheepishly down at you - you blink, and your best friend was suddenly back. Eyes hooded, mouth snarling, looking ruined. What the fuck. â-he really seems to like your scent and itâs driving me-â
âStop talking, boy, and mate the girl.â
âShut up.âÂ
You blink almost owlishly in disbelief, and in somethingâŚelse, as you feel your thighs clench together. A slight motion that Venom surely doesnât miss, if the way that Chosoâs lungs heave with more gulps of your sweet, sweet leaking pheromones was anything to go by.
And then, youâre finally piping upâ âLetâŚlet me see that tongue of Venomâs again?â
.
.
.
âA-are you sure? W-weâre best friends, and Iâve neverâŚâ
Youâd be rolling your eyes at the repeated question if it wasnât for the fact that Choso Kamo just looked so pretty when he was knelt obediently at the very foot of your bed.Â
A thin sliver of sweat sliding down his temple, breaths coming out in heated gusts, slender hands balling into a fist and shivering once you smear your legs open just a fraction more. Twitching, white-knuckled like he was forcing himself to not just ruin you right then and there.Â
âMhm.â Youâre nodding, and the very action is enough for him to snap his eyes down where your cotton panties were starting to dampen and swallow. âPlease, handsome- donât be coy.â
It was almost too good to be true.Â
But, fuck, Choso wasnât waiting around âtill he wakes up from this dream.
With so much pent-up eagerness that he felt his lips twist into a sleazy grin- Chosoâs crawling himself the few inches it was to stuff himself nose-deep between your pretty legs.Â
âO-oh.â
First it was the tiniest tug on your restless hips, then it was a sniff- and then it was a bite of his honed, glossy pearly whites over the lacy lilâ bow homed on the hem of your underwear. A throaty groan snarling through his teethâ âOh, babyâŚâ
That did it-
Quick as a flash, heâs snagging his teeth on the flimsy fabric of your panties and all but tearing it off of you. Rip-rip-ripping to simply push its tatters to the side, Choso doesnât even fully take it off before he was simply drooooling.Â
Gulping and gulping the scent of your leaking hole.Â
âSweet.â He gasps out, words taking on a dark edge. And you swear the chocolate color of his irises looked as if they were almost glowing, âSo sweet.â
âHurry, the symbiote hungers.â
Sharp jaw ticking as he ignores Venomâs request, the fattened pad of his thumb spanks down on your swollen pussylips and spreads you all wide open. Cock twitching at the deafening wet squelch! that chimes once he gathers copious wads of saliva and spits.Â
All over your lustrous cunt, slicking out a mess so great that it was already starting to form a puddle underneath your silken sheets.Â
âAnd mine.â
âTch.â
And Choso wasnât just greedy - he was outright gluttonous.Â
âYouâŚyou taste this sweet, baby?â
âOh- ohhhh fuckâ!â Youâre shrilling out a syrupy moan once his chilly tongue piercing flicks at the tippy-top hood of your clit like a lollipop. Taking extra care to press down hard so that it has you thrashing-
âThere? Sâthat good?â Heâs roaming his mouth over your puffed-up lips eagerly, yearning. Not knowing what he was doing, just addicted. âYouâre so wet, baby- sâthis for me- r-really, really fâme?â
He just couldnât believe it- and the only answer heâs getting is a few soft gasps of oh! and yes! Spit nâ whines overflowing your tongue with every slap of his textured tastebuds. You couldnât help but nod your head down and admire just how drunken Choso was as heâs suckinâ away on your perky clit.Â
The hollows of his cheeks sucked-in and flushed red, spit-glossed mouth wrapped snugly âround your sensitive nub.Â
Youâre whimpering, head thrown back at the grunts he muffles out between your legs.Â
âM-more, Choââ You mewl out in a tone that makes his tensed hips rut forward like an animal, immediately grinding against the firm base of your bedframe. Fuck. Snaking a hand down to intertwine with his mussed-up bangs, and tugging them free of his bun- âWanâ more.â
âMore.â
âHear that? I wanna taste.â
His tongueâs so thirsty - throat so parched - that it lets out the most sinful sluuuuurp at the very first slobbery drag from the dewy base of your quivering pussy, openinâ up your plump folds so widely agape to lather down on the very top of your clit.Â
Nodding and nodding and nodding- grinding up to tease the mushy tip of his tongue past your slippery folds just the tiniest bit. âMore- please.â
And itâs not like Choso didnât hear you - fuck, itâs that youâd broken him.
Because it happens in a singular nanosecond, it happens so fast youâre seeing cartoonish stars in your vision when heâs hauling you halfway across the bed like some glorified ragdoll.Â
Thighs thrown over his shoulder, trembly hands guided through his sweaty scalp, mouth wolfish-Â
âKeh. No wonder youâre a virgin, boy.â
âSh-shut up.â Heâs answering out loud, sending the most electric buzzes down your spine as he nips on the fleshy slope of your pussylips. His own ears pop! as the pointed curve of his chin hits your treacly cunt with a smack of skin-on-skin, so deep. Nose-deep till those lined tattoos on his face.Â
Ready to suffocate if he has to.
âOi- give me a taste, and Iâll give herâŚmore.â
Upper lip glueing to your pussy, Chosoâs making you scream every time the sharp ends of his fangs snag on your clit. âShut up shut up shut up-â
âCh-Cho?â Fuck, it takes you every ounce of strength in your body to lift your head up from your creaky bedsprings. Glassily eyeing the way that his grip on your hips turns bruising with semi-circular claw-marks of his, âEverything hah! alright?â
And shit- he breaks off slightly from your dripping wet pussy once- twice. Thrice, each nâ every time letting off a pained grunt that forces him back to stuff himself at his favorite spot between your legs.
He couldnât even break off to speak. To breathe.
Still murmuring his response at the outer edges of your saturated core, with so many numerous strings of slick dangling from his rovering, swollen lips. Gingerly, âItâs V-Venom, heâŚwants a taste too.â
âOh.â
And shit- Choso didnât need Venomâs superhuman abilities to notice the instant that youâre growing so much wetter. A silky torrent of sap gushing out of you to lacquer your inner thighs like a fountain, already making him lurch- and suck and suck up every pearly droplet.
âIâŚâ Youâre starting off, lip chewed underneath your teeth in a way that almost makes him jealous. The memory of his extravagant tongue still fresh in your mind, â-wouldnât mind.â
âOh? WellâŚâ
â-about time.â
As Choso lets Venom take over, you canât help but gasp.
Oh, you were never getting used to this.Â
He was about two feet taller, hulking, monstrous. And the only thing more lecherous than that toothy grin he wore was his tongue - sliiiiding out all its endless inches and swaying teasingly to nâ fro in midair. Big.Â
So, so big.Â
âEyesâŚâ Heâs looming over until scalding hot breath humidifies your features, tonality so gruff that it rumbles your very bones. Oh, he already knows of his effect on you - can flick his tastebuds out and taste it in the saccharine air. âLungsâŚpancreasâŚâ
The curly, reddened end of it stingingly slapping down on your thigh, Venomâs tongue is oh-so-long enough that he can lace it all over your shivering leg and wrench them further and further openâ
âPussy.â
And then it feels like youâre being split apart- just a few solid, thorough inches of Venomâs slimy tongue burrowing past your puffy folds, keeping your jolting legs pinned firmly by a few of his Stygian spirals.Â
One taste. One taste is all it takes.Â
Youâre being rendered utterly stupid by the swashing flicks of his pointed muscle stirrinâ up your insides, wriggling in circular slurps around and around and around your gummy walls. Scarfing you down until his tongue reaches the very gooey bottom of your cunt and kisses your cervix.Â
So hard that youâre pushed up the mattress and heâs forced to wrap a few tendrils that reel you back down again.Â
âHeh, finish line.â
âWhat- ohâŚoh my god-â Tears drip down in constant rivers from your heavy lids, wailing whimpers breaking off from your larynx at every smack-smack-smack he left on that spongy end. Further pushing aside your panties, retracting aaaaaalll the way back to thruuuust- âY-your tongue is sooo big.â
âSo many snacks. How good.â Heâs tittering out with a thundering pant, spiked ends of his canines littering your skin with gnawing bites. âHow delicious. HowâŚâ
Heâs sloshing his tongue almost aggressively inside, whacking your g-spot in-between his barreling journey to fuck you with his tongue just as much as he wanted to with his cock.Â
Lolling sloppily, thrusting, dragging the ridges of his tastebuds across your g-spot.Â
And it takes you a few more vulgar strokes, it takes you the sound of that familiarly melodic voice for you to flap your tear-heavy lashes open and finally look once more between your legs. â-mine.â
Itâs almost as if both Choso and Venom couldnât decide on who wanted to make out with your soft, candied pussy more.Â
Because it was your best friendâs pretty upper half of his face peeking out from between your splattered legs, but Venomâs mouth that was pumpinâ addictively past your rubbery entrance. Over and over.Â
âN-ngh pleeease!â Comes out your repeated record of whines, every mushy gyration so good that you canât help but rock into every second of his frenzied cadence. Creeping down one of your hands to smear your pussylips wider with a soppy slurp so that he could go even deeper, âI-itâs so good- donât stop donât stop.â
And the look in Chosoâs dark eyes is the most raw glint of disbelief that youâve ever seen.
Unsteady thighs clenching as he hits his v-line against the wooden board of your bed and grinds, unwilling to angrily fist his raging cock the way he ached nâ leaked to, unwilling to take his hands off of you for a mere second.
âN-no no, move that hand, baby. Lemme see her- Please.â Youâve never seen your cute best friend dare to be so rude- urgently swatting away those few fingers of yours to replace with his own knobbly, greedy ones.Â
Pressinâ on your weeping, swollen clit with the flat end of his digit - youâre coating his chipped black nail polish with so many layers of goopy slick that it trickles down to his wrist.Â
And oh, youâd almost forgotten just got many frigid metal rings that Choso wore on his hot fingers. Sappily nuzzling the inside of your left thigh the very moment heâs slipping his middle past your widely messy hole and curlingâ
 âHow could I? How c-could I stop?â Heâs muttering away - octaves higher than youâre used to, hitting and hitting your bruised and battered g-spot at the very same tempo that Venom was, too.
Double whack after whack that made your spine arch curvaceously off of the dampened mattress, icy edges of his rings scraping your walls. Choso just salivates at the heavenly sight of you below him, âHow could you even- think- Iâm-â
â-addicted.â
And Venom chooses just this precise moment to make your stupidly muddled mind remember his presence until you canât think at all.Â
Prolonging his plumply constricted tongue - using his symbiotic powers and extending it even more feet stuffed inside your tightly cozy walls, slashing the very tip to become split-ended.Â
âPretty. Pretty pussy.â Heâs groaning out carnally, and your throat rips with a scream once heâs starting up a thrusting pace that flicks at your weeping cunt with those two slithering ends of his monstrous tongue. âDonât know whoâs prettier- you orâŚâ
Youâre shivering then - shivering at the windy gust of air inhaled once Venom tugs you even closer by his black coils and sniffs. Breath hot, his French kiss on your pussy hotter. â-her.â
âFuck- fuck, youâre making such a mess, Choso.â
âMhmmmmââ
Shifting between both his tongue and Venomâs - every transformation had you dizzy. Alternating between Venomâs hard, almost violent thrusts with his split-end tongue to Chosoâs sensual tickling of his piercing into your most favorite spots.Â
Glittery slick and spittle dripping down like a glazing polish, Chosoâs swallowing down every sweet gumdrop like heâs a man starved.Â
Like a damn dog in heat, every pant of the honeyed pheromones between your legs was driving him fucking mad. Making his hips thrust-
âSh-sheâs drooling almost as much as ngh- me, baby.â Heâs fighting back that damn parasite for more more more of you- for every squelch! once heâs mazing his second, third lengthy finger inside.Â
Searching for your g-spot like treasure trove - hitting and hitting, youâre so pretty and gone that Chosoâs chuckling. âRide it.â Pap-pap-pap goes his hits to your delicate, most tender spots, faster. âRide it- yeah, ride mâf-face like itâs yours, baby- ride it.â
âS-shoooo muchââ And you donât know whether itâs the torrents of slicked saliva falling from your mouth or the sheer overstimulation that has you jumbling up your syllables - but itâs enough to make both Choso and Venom grin. âItâs so ngh- haaaaââ
âSheâs close.â
âFuh-fuck.â Heâs spitting into your drooling lips, right above your pulsating nub. Ringed digits so thick that it makes your knees shake and weaken. Sloppy. âFaster. Harder. Use me, baby-â
Again and again and again.
Your brainâs fuzzily stupid by the time you finally recognize that familiar twist at the bottom of your tummy, too. Blubbering out an unsteady, âP-please! Mânot gonna- ngh! last, Cho.â
âI know- I know I know I knowâ make a mess.â Heâs spitting out once more, letting a wad of saliva stream straightly down your slit and liiicking it all up before Venom overtakes him to keep on probinâ your entrance fully. Swirling every speckled tastebud until it was like the symbiote was trying to brand youâ
And with a gluttonous swipe at the fresh beads of slick homed on top of your nub, Choso wastes no time before pinching your clit-Â
âCum. Cum on my tongue, baby. Mine.â
-and making your field of vision simply shatter with tears once youâre crashing into that built-up high.Â
âShit- shiiiiit. I-it feels so good, Cho- Iâm- nghhh IâmâŚâ It was an orgasm like no other- fuck, any of your toys were paling in comparison to Choso and hisâŚparasite.Â
Fully himself now, you gawk with your mouth unlatched into a sagging oh! at the primal way that Chosoâs prominent Adamâs apple bobs with each eager swallow. Thin lines of sappy slick falling from the pink, puckered corners of his lips and waterfalling all down the side of his damn throat.Â
âTh-thaâs it-â His sopping wet tongue drags uuuup nâ down your open folds to trawl you through your euphoria, every lolling flick of the curled end jostling against your thoroughly-stuffed folds.
Pumping, pounding your glutinous walls until theyâre sticking to his barreling digits like adhesive, the metallic band curving his fingers smooches your g-spot softly. Dimly-lit molten eyes widening at the sheer ribbons of sap youâre letting off with every white-hot bolt of pleasure.
âThis- this is all fâmeâ?â Heâs crooning out, dazed. Letting his jaw fall open with every quiver youâre instinctively clenching with your cunt, âAll for me- me. More- more, baby.â
âFor me, you mean.â
Choso- Venom- Choso just keeps on alternating their slobbering drags of your hips until youâre completely wrung dry. Even the tiniest spank of their rugged tastebuds making you squeal with overstimulation, tears pinpricking behind your eyes.Â
âAw, c-câmonââ Your best friend slurs out in a tingling, pussydrunken tone - so gone that his perspired head falls nâ cuddles your thigh. Begging, âM-moreâŚ?â
âBut ChoâŚmâsensitive.â
And heâs perking his head up like the thought didnât even occur to him - only then do you get a final, filthy look at your best friend after so long.Â
Grinning, he sucks on each of his polished, soppy fingers. Each and every one - looking right into your dilated pupils, âThat was my first time.â
Fuck.
He was pretty.Â
Granted, you always did know that, but right now - with Chosoâs dark strands of hair hooding his half-opened gaze, what little you could see of his eyes gleaming, cheekbones burning scorched red - he was dreamy.
Heâs wearing your saccharine wads of slick like a medal of honor.Â
Thickly coating everywhere from the tattoo on his nose, to the lower half of his face, to bubble all down his jaw. A slippery wire of it spills from the corner of his mouth as it starts moving, an almost airy tone seeping into his voice. âI-Iâm never wiping this off- hey!â
Before he knows it, Venomâs tendrils dart out to filthily lick off the remnant excess his host cherished so much.
Grinning, âDelicious.â
Fighting back his damn alien acquaintance, you stifle a giggle as Chosoâs rosy lips jut out into a pout. Lifting his knee onto the bed- well, grindinâ it right between your legs so that heâs putting pressure on your throbbing slope.Â
Fleshy thumb and index squeezing your cheeks together, âSpit in my mouth.â
âWh-what?â
âSpit-â His sweaty forehead sticks against yours, humid breath clouding up your senses. And you could count every long lash, every smudge of his dark eyeliner. Hiccuping, â-in my mouth.â
And the moment you do- fuck, the moment youâre pursing your spit-glued lips to let out a saccharine web of saliva that slops right down his pinkish tongue with a splat! So loud and filthy and sinful that Choso only as the time to breath out a shallow âfuck!â before heâs cumming.
Burning hot and feverish. Right then and there to create a dripping damp spot in his trousers- âOh shit. Oh shit oh shit oh shit- youâre t-too-â
âGreat going, virgin.â
âShut up-â Choso grits through clenched teeth, desperately trying to heave his breaths back into some semblance of normalcy. Failing, once you immediately reach over and tug his sweatpants down-
He was cumming and cumming so much that youâre met with a white, streaming wet mess that gleams down both of Chosoâs meaty thighs. Theyâre shivering with each ribbony string of seed that oozes down his long limbs, âO-oh, so pretty, Cho.â
âOho? Sheâs an interesting one.â
âI-I knowâŚâ
And youâre not just talking about his orgasm.
Because when youâd imagined - on those long, lonely nights - that your best friend would be bigâŚyou didnât expect that heâd be big.Â
Damn near ten- no, maybe even eleven inches of fat, hot girth that swelled his mushroomy tip to be as cutely pink as a strawberry and just as thick.Â
Your mouth waters as you follow the winding lightning patterns of his puffy veins, oh-so-prominently bloated that you swear you could count every throb-throb-throb.Â
And what- what was that?
No, you werenât imagining it. Choso Kamo had a tiny studded Prince Albertâs piercing right near the tip-top of his bulging cockhead. Cold and sparkling underneath the dim bedroom lighting.Â
Mindlessly, youâre darting over to swipe one of your thumbs across a creamy bead of cum thatâd started drenching his dark happy trail.
âO-oh.â Choso grunts at the look on your gorgeous face once heâs letting his chubby balls twitch nâ soak your skin with yet another splurging streak of seed. Again. Just from you touching him. âNo oneâs ever touched me like this- fuck!â
And you just had to find out whether he tasted as sweet as he looked.
Planting your mouth over his juice-capped head with a wet plop! you hum with utter delight at the caramel salted taste of him. Aching and pulsing underneath his piercing with just the tiniest kitten lick to his leaking orifice.Â
âDo it, boy.â
âWh-what?â
âDo it. Iâm inside your mind, do it.â
And Choso really wouldnât have considered being that rude - really.Â
He really, really wanted to take his time slow nâ sultry with the one person whoâs been the girl of his dreams from the moment he met you.
But fuck- Venom was jerking his body so that with the slightest rock, heâs rutting like a fucking animal deep inside the hot cavern of your mouth. Staining a milky white lipgloss around your plumpened lips, pushing his seed insideâ
Venom wanted to see you choke.
âM-mmpfâ!â And you canât lie about the way the sheer force and heady musk of Chosoâs v-line made your thighs squeeze.
âThatâs it- cry. Cry on my cock- atta girl.â
âFuck! Iâm sorry-â Heâs panicking from above as your pretty nose detaches from the curly black tuft of hair at his toned pelvis. âIâm sorry Iâm sorry, baby. Are you-â
OnlyâŚfor all his concerned apologies to shrivel up on Chosoâs tongue when he catches the way youâre smiling.Â
Cockdrunk and stinging at the back of your throat with the way that Venom had actually elongated Chosoâs already-massive cock just a few more centimeters by accident. Oh, fuckâŚ
The hazed look thatâd crept into your eyes as you look up makes the towering man shiver. Striking him to his very cock, âCâmon- fuck me, Cho.â
âCâmon. Donât wanna disappoint the pretty girl.â
Choso doesnât even remember getting rid of his undershirt, his sweatpants, everything but his silver rings and necklace - but what he does remember is the way your eyes had widened just the slightest fraction as you took in all of him.
Shit, was he sculpted by the Greek gods or what?
You could count every one of his eight, toned washboard abs - making the broad width of his pecs look so thick. So engulfing as they tense nâ ripple once your best friend slouches sexily on top of you to pull off your cotton t-shirt.
âOh.â Heâs gasping- youâre not wearing a bra. Completely naked underneath him except for the lecherous remnants of your torn panties still hanging on.Â
Ones that he keeps on - even when you try to shuffle them down with a whine - once heâs flipping the two of you over to let you straddle his slenderly sculptured hips.Â
âKeh- this position.â
âShut up and watch.â
Blushing and pretty.
Chosoâs teary lashes knock against the apples of his cheeks as he blinks furiously up at you, throat scratchily raw. Gulping more of your scent, âR-ride me, baby.â
âChoââ Youâre sliding the mounds of your ass gingerly against his aching hot length, shudders skittering down your spine at the sheer size of him pressing up into you. âY-youâre so big, though- donât know if itâll fit.â
âIâll make it fit-â
âA-am I actually that big?â Heâs whispering, in awe. Watching with damply bated breath as heâs spanking his cock against your right ass cheek with a wet smack! smack! smack!
Pointing that curved, bulbous tip right between your pussylips and sliiiiiding it up nâ down so that youâre coating him in all your sweet juices, Chosoâs guiding his girth until your hole was quivering for something - anything.Â
Him him him.Â
Panting at the first squeeze of his reddened, blushing tip- âOh, you feel like th-this?â His pitched voice wavers almost as much as his heavy eyelids, falling apart with just that first taste of your perfect cunt. âFuh-fuuuuuck fuck fuck fuck! Baby- you feel like this?â
This was heaven.
And heâs spurting out a few stray wads of cum just from feeling your velvety walls, letting it thwack! against your goopy innards nâ stick to your trembling folds.Â
âYou got it- you got it.â Chosoâs voicebox cracks with a lilâ whimper at that snug resistance, âYou can take it- you can take it. Iâll make it fit.â
âOh- oh my god- Choso- Choâ!â
âSâit too biiig for my girl, hmm?â Croaking out in unison with the aged bedcoils of your mattress, each and every time Choso jerks his hips off the bed and pushes. Just to fit in. âBaby-â Choso gasps as you throw your head back with a mewl at the sheer size of him.
His painfully-aching cock was so big that just the stoutest inch being bullied inside was enough to make your vision blotch with white. Rounded circumference stretching nâ stretching your slick-flooded walls stupid- âIâm sorry, baby- sorry sâbig. But youâre my girl- my girl can take it- you canâŚyou can take it.â
Itâs inch by overlarge inch.
Chosoâs scraping his way down your walls so sensually that you could feel your fuzzy brain sparking every time one of his prominent veins was draaaagging a zig-zagging pattern along.
Curled toes twitching with each passing second, âS-sâit almost all the way in, babyâ?â
âMhmââ And youâre just letting out the cutest cry once he finally eases himself all the way in, practically impaling you. Head throwing back, tits bouncing, cunt overspilling.Â
âHmmmâŚmaybe this position isnât so bad.â
Choso didnât disagree, but it took every single shred of rationality left inside of him to push back Venomâs rasping voice and wrench out a desperate thrust. Allll the way from the globular ends of his ruby-red tip till your sensitive pussy tickled against his soaked-through happy trail.
Tenderly caressing your palm down his hardened front, âI-itâs inâ?â Your hitched tone makes his eyes roll back, and yet- and yet, heâs fighting to bring them back down nâ watch your gaped bounces back into his sloppy pace. âItâs in. O-oh my god, c-can feel you all the way in hck! here.â
Heâs just so big.
And youâre swearing that Choso only fattens himself even bigger, fatter, wider once you slide your hand about halfway up your tummy. Feeling for that one spot he was bruisinâ right into your spongy cervix.
Biting his lip not to cum again, âYeah-â Youâre jostled ever-so-slightly on top of him as heâs sucking in a deeeep breath, âYeah yeah yeah- you got it. Y-you better take all of it hngh! Take every. Single. Inch.â
Every vein, every sliding ridge, every throb that was bucked into your readily-awaiting entrance- Choso wasnât just mazing open your cunt-Â
He was spearheading you with such thorough thrusts that made your back curve backwards just so.
âTch- Iâd fuck her even better.â
âNo you w-wouldnât.â
Lazily weaving tendrils start tickling your outer pussy, threatening to slip nâ slide their greedy way past your lips. âIs that a challenge? Summon Venom, if you dare.â
âWhatâs he saying, Cho?â You coo, tear-shimmered lashes blinking adorably down at his internal argument. And as if he could ever say no to you - hell, the response is dripping from his tongue before he even realizes it.
Grouching out, though he couldnât deny the way his own cock was jolting at the very idea- âH-he wants a try, tooâŚsays heâll be even better.â
A cockdrunk smile plasters itself onto your face- âProve it.â
And you were right in your prediction - Venom didnât just make Choso meaner, it made him bigger.Â
So big, in fact, that the bawling tip gently kissinâ your g-spot was instantaneously skidding past to give your cervix a longer, harsher probe.Â
So hard that youâre sure thereâs now a permanent crater of his exact meaty circumference. And youâre being filled with the distinct feeling that Venom couldâve gone bigger - he just didnât want to break youâŚyet.Â
Draping across his oversized pectorals, youâre nothing against his over eight foot height. âY-youâŚâ
Those slimy raven molasses covering his half-fucked face once more to form a rude Cheshire-cat smile. âMe.â Planting an Earth-shattering, mind-numbing ram youâre feeling all the way in your lungs, his pulsing length is so widely thick that Venom has to bite down on his lips and manhandle you for his thrusts to move to and fro. âI am inside your pussy, greedy girl. Me.â
Flicking his dexterous shaft to brush your tingling g-spot, heâs using his powers so much that you could almost feel yourself bonding with the symbiote, with Choso.
âI know every inch, nerve, and spot inside of you. I can make you scream-â Coiling mass contracting to barrel your elastic walls even wider, youâre rightfully crying out at the way he molds himself deliciously into your very walls.Â
âNghhh- fuck! Fuck, y-youâre in sooo deep-â
Stealing your sweetened scent, making him heated. âHmmm, kiss me.â
But that didnât mean that your best friend- yourâŚChoso was going down that easy.
In a few more brushstrokes of his ravaging cock against your softest spot - before you can kiss him - Chosoâs blinking back the cobwebs of his symbiote so that his face spies out. Only the lower half of his body - his length - partially-coveredâ
âKeh- annoying.â
âShouldâve- shouldâve done this sooner-â He hisses out through a narrowed pant, flecks of spittle flying angrily across the non-existent space between your two faces. â-done this muuuuch sooner- you h-have no idea.â
âO-oh nghhh fuck fuck fuckââ The backs of your thighs ache after every slamming pap! youâre bouncing back into his swervinâ hips.Â
Pounding away like he was crazed, every jackhammer only makes Choso grow more feral. Every swab of his prolonged cock inside your silken pussy feral-
His rummaging, fat-tipped shaft was so large that you could feel the way his ridged cockhead scraped your cervix with his studded Prince Albertâs, roaming like a searchlight to spot your most favorite angles.
Eyeliner practically staining down his cheeks now, âShouldâve fuh-fucked you the moment I ngh- met you. Shouldâve fucked you r-right there on the lecture table in front of everyone- sh-shouldâveââ Youâre squealing once his doughy, ringed fingertips dart down to toy with that pretty lilâ clit of yours. â-shouldâve let her drive me hck! crazy sooner, baby.â
Oh, he was babbling.Â
Cooing, you slither one of your hands through the dampened valleys of his dark hair, âAwwwâ d-drivinâ you crazy, Choâ?â
âYes.â Heâs seething, heâs heaving. Saturated pheromones driving him mad, he canât help but flop his pierced tongue across your lips and suck. âS-sânot even that damn parasite anymore-â
Pace growing sloppier by the minute, barely even noticing when those same digits coddling your clit had started to twist and turn in shape. Overtaken by Venom and his meeeean tendrils that alternate between dragging on your overstimulated clit and slipping insideâŚ
âSh-shitâ Venom?â
âSayinâ another manâs name when I-Iâm here- nghââ Chosoâs nosebridge crinkles as he teases you, watery honeypool eyes dropping down to where your glossy hole was swallowing him whole.Â
Mouth falling into an ah! at the way Venomâs wisping vines were still wrapped snugly to smooch your walls wiiiide open. And fuck- fuck, the sight. The sight of you bulging with all of his staggering cock still taking in more, more, more of him.
âI seeâŚâ Heâs giggling - giggling, glassy eyes boring dead-on up at you through his curtained bangs and oh- they were shaped into hearts. Baritone voice rasping as one of his veins itches your walls, snagging past your underwear. âGreedy girl.â
Itâs almost as if you didnât know whether it was Choso or Venom taking over now, only fucked dumb with every sharp jut. Both his cock- his tentacle-like strands spreading you open, targeting your g-spot over nâ over with his plummy, split-ended tip.Â
Digging inside, scouring so wetly.
Spread twice as open that the squelch! squelch! squelch! of it resonating each nanosecond was quickly becoming Chosoâs favorite song.Â
You were damn near shattered.
âI-Iâm so close-â Youâre hiccuping through your salty tears, brows scrunching at the stormy wave of bliss that was surely oncoming. â-f-fuck! Choso mâgonna cum.â
âFuck- fuck, mânot gonna last eitherââ His response comes out guttural, and itâs just so sexy the way that heâs forced to gnaw on the strawberry gummy texture of the inside of his cheeks to stop himself from filling you up right then and there.Â
âBreed her.â Venomâs voice thunders out enough for the both of you to hear, excitement spiking down your spine and straight to where your pussy was drooling. âI know you want to. I know you both want it.â
Shocked, Choso sounds as if he could still barely even believe this was all real. âI-is that true, baby?â Tentatively craning you over to drag his lips softly against yours, âCan I reallyâŚinsideâŚmy girl?â
âMhmâ please- please, I wanâ it all insideâ!âÂ
âG-get ready.âÂ
The plush, cushy tip of his cock outlines a water-logged line straight down your cervix as Choso leans further into the bed. Feet planting down flatly so that he can pressurize his powerful, inhuman hips to thrust-
âSheâs about t-to be full- so full.â You can feel such pangs of desire as his teeth pull back into a primal snarl, tear-glinted eyes locked permanently where his red, swollen cock was disappearing between your legs. âSo full that you wonât even remember what it ngh- feels like w-without me stuffed inside this cunt.â
Squirming with a yearning for sweet, sweet release once he hovers a fingertip over to about halfway up your tummy and draws an invisible line there.
âH-here.â Deepening it with the pressure of his rude digits, Chosoâs right hand still rolls over your clit with a few shapes of hearts. Once. Twice. Thrice. âGet ready hereââ
Whining, âIâm- Iâm gonna-â
Before Venomâs slimy tendrils pinch it once more and youâre cumming- and so is he.Â
But Choso doesnât even realize it - doesnât even remember to breathe the very moment youâre creaming all down his pummeling cock. Such cute twitches taking over your body as you shut your eyes and riiiide it all out.Â
Using his sloppily saturated shaft like a dart that was pokinâ the bullseye of your pussy again and again. Every brushing skid straight across slapping your g-spot repeatedly to drag out your high with a squeeeelch.
And Chosoâs licking his lips at the glossy lathering that glued to your folds, then - and only then - catching sight of the dollops of creamy white that was frothing out of your glistening entrance.Â
Thick and hot.Â
Every splat! of his ribbony sap hits the back of your pussy like heavily condensed cream, swashing inside of you like a sizzling second skin. It feels so filthy to have his mess beading down your walls and forming such a soaking ring âround his bulky hilt.Â
Your meaty folds spread to smear the puddle that was forming up his happy trail, âYou- you feel so good inside.â
âO-oh-â Almost thankful as Venomâs dark strands push aside your torn, sullied panties further for his host to take a better look. Blushing all the way to the tattoos across his nosebridge, âAâŚa creampie.âÂ
Heâd cum- heâd really, really cum - inside of you. Pressing down on the prettily jiggling tummy bulge he was fucking into you- and itâs enough to make you scream. âWant more.â
And youâre just tapering off from your own orgasm, eardrums nearly popped yet still managing to register those words. Clenching, âWh-what? Will it- hngh- even fit, Choso?â
âNo- nononono it will- it will.â Urgent, rapidly heâs flipping the two of you immediately over to hover on top of you and rut- like an animal.Â
Youâre gasping once your head plops down on the soft mattress, heels struggling to cling onto Chosoâs sweat-laminated hips until heâs trekking his beefy arms underneath and hauling them over his shoulders. Bending, bending, bending into aâ
Oh, a mating press.Â
He had you manhandled like some lawnchair into a mating press. The sloppiest of its kind, heâs using Venomâs tendrils to lock your ankles together in just two blinks of his eye.
âI can make it fitââ Growling through the tiniest gaps of his grit pearly whites, he kisses his forehead to yours and inhales that sweet scent of yours still permeating the heady air. The chilly heard pendant of his necklace hits the front of your chin and makes you keen. Rough, rugged through punctuating rams, âI will- I will I will- itâll fit- It will.â
Shivering and shuddering.Â
He struggles to even focus his eyesight on you properly - and Chosoâs heated maw droooops at the deafening squelch! your pussy pushes out once he sinks all the way back in.
A thick capping of white syrup rising all the way to the top once his massive girth once more fills out your every nook and cranny. Heâs still so ravenous that the sight down there is enough to make his mouth water.Â
And this position, this angle made Chosoâs elongated shaft lean into your g-spot so bruisingly that with only a few more strokes youâre cumming again.Â
Fleeting, and faster than you both know it.
Itâs only once Choso sniffs at the air and grins that he realizes the rapidly pulsing ba-dumpâ! of your velveteen walls was because youâre beinâ his good girl and cumming once more.Â
Heavy breeder balls striking the treacly slope of your cunt until they were raw and red - youâre sure that the both of you are bruised everywhere. His thighs on your own, your ass on his pelvis, you canât even wriggle your ankles free because Venomâs keeping a firm grip on them.
Rendering you at the full mercy of Chosoâs thrashes dragging out your high, âP-please- fuck- it just f-feels too good, Cho-!â
âSâgood- sâgood-â Heâs flushing out in something that looks like a mix of relief and need. No sooner milking himself on your tightly clenched pussy until youâre being filled all over again.
This time with white, wispy ropes of seed that ache his sensitive shaft to spray out, still coating your gummy walls with viscid layers upon layers. So much.
âSo good fâme- so good. Look how much sh-sheâs ngh- suckinâ in, sooooo full and- and warmâŚâ He was practically twitching right now, trembling. âJusâ look at that greedy girl.â
You couldnât even be moved without feeling all its wads splosh inside of you.
And he still wanted more.Â
Yelping, your legs struggle to shut once his sloppy cadence turns even sloppier. Lazier.Â
âO-one more-â Chosoâs puffing out in a clouded pant, âKeep- keep those pretty legs hck! open fâme- I beg. Mâbegging- take it, baby.â
Vein-covered forearms placing attractively upon either side of your head to lace right on top of your crowned scalp and push- Weaving wines of the symbiote winding down to furiously pump his cock.
To bloat himself up oh-so-thick straight after two whole orgasms, flying up and down up and down up and down to make his cherry-red divot start weeping once more. âOne more- one more.â
âNghh fuck fuck- Chosoâ!â Your lower lip wobbles cutely at the carnal glissade of his washboard abs down your own front, he was so strong that you could count every flex and ripple. âS-shooo sensitive-â Eyes shuttering tearfully, you can only jerk your hips up weakly. â-so much. Too much.â
âNever too much.â
Venomâs voice speaks up from somewhere, and youâre feeling the snaking, slimy journey of his tendrils twistinâ around your tits to grope. A greedy handful that teases your hardened nipples soâ
âLess talking. More fucking.â
âW-woah-â Choso breathes at the sight before him. You were ruined in only ways heâd seen in his wettest dreams - and itâs not like he was doing any better. Because the way your hips were movingâŚâB-birthing hips- look at h-her take that big fuckinâ cock. So pretty- so pretty so pretty so pretty.â
Youâre so overstimulated that even the slightest brush of his lightning bolted veins makes you gasp- tears springing up to your eyes. âF-feels soâŚoh.â So good, his stamina was maddening.Â
âYeah? Yeahhh? Sâall for you- only for you-â Purposefully pressing up close so that your poor clit gets rubbed over by that patch of tawny brown at the base of his abs.Â
And by now, even Chosoâs swivellinâ cold piercing was molten hot and drawing wet slides of cum across your walls. Fervently.Â
He was fucking you like he couldnât get enough - would never possibly be able to get enough. Every thrust had him pushing you down once more after the papping recoil, gliding your feverishly sweat-slicked bodies against each other because Choso couldnât bear to part. âOnly for you only for you only for you-â
So gone that he almost doesnât even register Venomâs deep tone muttering in his earâ âThree.â
Every heated bang of his mushroomy tip plummeting to the back of your overspilling cunt was meant to milk himself. Over and over, heâs tempting out just one more orgasm - just one more to fill you up with more cream. âTwo.â
And in your rambling stupor, youâre being drilled into the mattress so spellbound that you donât even notice the way your unfastened mouth nibbles on Chosoâs sexy silver necklace.Â
âOne.â
Gnawing on for dear life as you squirt.
âOh.â
Simply spraying him with a voluminous heap of your sweet, sappy juices - Choso has the mindless audacity to crane his head even further downwards and catch whatever stray remnants hit his awaiting maw.
âF-fuckâŚâ You feel like youâve just been put through ten thousand wringers and milked dry from your poor, tingling core. Gushing and gushing- itâs almost embarrassing how much youâre leaking around Chosoâs meaty base.Â
Well, embarrassing for everyone but ChosoâŚand Venom.
He was mesmerized - he was hypnotized. A glistening few droplets of pussydrunken drool slipping from the corner of his mouth as he just watched himself get drenched in all your torrential orgasm whilst he emptied out for the third- fourth, fuck he doesnât even know - inside you.
Raw, and messy - milking himself until heâs hitting a damn dry orgasm.Â
âO-oh.â Choso doesnât even know what to fucking say above your cutely trilling mewls, every languid pump of his flinching cock sending massive shockwaves through both of you. He blushes, âOh.â
âThat was fun. Now, make her yours or I will.â Venom grumbles, the symbiote already starting to take over Chosoâs body with its blackened mass.Â
And the man jolts- remembering all at once that this was you you you underneath him. Thumb absent-mindedly reaching down to write his last name over the mess spurted across your tummy.Â
You, who heâs wanted all his life-Â
âM-marry me, my girl.â
The smile that breaks across your face is one heâll remember for eons.Â
âI love you, too, Choââ Youâre purring, tucking one of the mahogany strands plastered onto his forehead behind his ear.Â
âI love you.â Heâs bursting out at once- rose-pink lips wobbly and wet against your own. Heâs kissing you like he needed you to breathe, âI love you- oh, how I love you.â
âSatisfying. But we need more.âÂ
âDammit.â
And Venom doesnât care - Venom cackles to himself as he seethes in yet another gust of your honey-dipped scent and pulls out. The sensitivity startling through your body is so shocking that heâs shooting out a dark web that attaches your hips to the bed. Unmoving.Â
But, of course, he takes his leisurely time to stroll near the edge of your bed. Monstrously hulking over it to sweep apart your bloated pussylips and watch the way Chosoâs cum driiiiips out.
Now completely encompassing his bodyâ âA three course meal. Yum.â
He was far from done.
Youâre sobbing at the sloooooow draaaag of his glistening, large tastebuds down your weeping hole. Unapologetic and primal. âF-fuck! Your staminaâŚâ It was truly monstrous just how pent-up that he was right now, being pushed off by your new boyfriend- fiancĂŠ? for so long now. Â
Holding you tight with a few tendrils âround your waist to keep you from runningâ
âWeâre going to keep this one.â His long, venomous teeth sink into your inner-thigh, not toxic to you. Not at all, but claiming; and the feeling was as good as cumming again. âYouâre ours now, pretty girl.â
⤡ ăsukuna desperately trying to get the hot lifeguardâs attention using his nephew yuuji. you, the lifeguard, are not very impressed. ËËË
the sun was a merciless bastard, baking the sand until it shimmered. you, perched high on your lifeguard stand, were the only relief in sight. sunglasses perched on your nose, whistle glinting, you were the undisputed ruler of this stretch of beach and sukuna, sprawled on a towel like a lazy lion, was utterly captivated.
heâd been watching you for an hour. the way you scanned the water, the authoritative tilt of your head, the way your sun-kissed skin looked in that red swimsuit. he needed to have you. but you were a quite literally blind to his want and every attempt to get your attention had failed.
âoi, brat,â he grunted, nudging the pink-haired teenager next to him with a foot. yuuji, who had been happily building a rather lopsided sandcastle, looked up, sand clinging to his nose.
âwhat, uncle sukuna?â yuuji asked, squinting.
âsee that lifeguard?â sukuna didnât point, just jerked his chin in your direction. âi need her to notice me.â
yuuji blinked. âso⌠go talk to her?â
âdonât be a simpleton,â sukuna scoffed. âsheâs too focused on her job. we need to create a distraction. maybe an emergency.â
yuujiâs eyes widened, immediately darting to the calm ocean. âa real one? is someone drowning?â
âno, you imbecile. a fake one.â sukunaâs eyes glinted with a terrible plan. âyou. youâre going to pretend to drown.â
yuujiâs face fell. âwhat? no! thatâs mean! and what if i actually get in trouble?â
âyou wonât,â sukuna said, his voice brooking no argument. âitâs shallow. just flail around a bit. act pathetic. itâs your specialty.â
âit is not my specialty!â yuuji protested, but sukuna had already grabbed him by the back of his swim trunks and was dragging him toward the water.
âjust do it, you little shit. or iâll tell your mother about the time you tried to use her good kimono as a cape.â
yuuji groaned, shoulders slumping in defeat. âfine! but you owe me. like, a lot of ice cream.â
he waded into the water, looking back with a look of pure, theatrical dread. then, with a sigh that could be heard from the shore, he started flailing his arms and yelling in the most unconvincing way possible. âoh no! help! i am⌠drowning! augh! water!â
sukuna watched, ignoring the urge to cover his face with secondhand embarrassment eating him alive, in favour of waiting for you. but you didnât move much, leaned forward in your seat and when you saw yuuji standing and then deliberately falling in, you just gave a slow, irritated shake of your head, and went back to scanning the horizon. your expression was clear: nice try, kid.
sukuna couldnât even blame you.
âuseless,â sukuna snarled under his breath. yuuji stopped flailing, a look of utter humiliation on his face as he walked back to the shore, dripping and defeated.
âshe didnât buy it!â yuuji whined.
âgee i wonder why,â sukuna deadpanned as he slapped the back of yuujiâs head. he walked over to the edge of the water where yuuji stood, then, without a word, he shoved his nephew squarely in the chest. yuuji, caught completely off guard, toppled backward with a surprised squawk and a dramatic splash, landing in a shallow dip that was, admittedly, just a little deeper than he was tall.
âhey!â yuujiâs head broke the surface, coughing and sputtering for real this time, his eyes wide with genuine panic. âwhat was that for?!â
but sukuna was already looking up at your stand, a smug, expectant grin on his face. now, he thought. now she has to come.
he saw you sigh with profound annoyance written on your face. you slid down the side of your stand and began walking toward the water. sukunaâs heart did a triumphant little flip. finally.
you strode past him, not even sparing him a glance. you walked straight into the water, up to your waist, and hooked a strong arm around confused yuuji and guided him back to shore.
as you deposited him safely on the sand, you finally turned to sukuna, your gaze sharp and icy. you leaned in, the smell of coconut sunscreen and salt water filling his senses, making him feel dizzy for a reason that had nothing to do with the sun. his plan was working⌠wasnât it?
âdid you just seriously push him in?â you asked, your voice even.
sukunaâs grin only widened. he leaned in closer, his voice a low rumble. âi just wanted to get your attention. youâre a very hard woman to distract.â
âiâm a lifeguard,â you said flatly. âitâs my job to see through bullshit.â
âthen you must see iâm serious,â sukuna said, his red eyes locked on yours. âthe kidâs fine. i wouldnât actually hurt him.â he offered a dismissive wave at yuuji, who was currently trying to cough up a lung on the sand behind them. âheâs tougher than he looks. the point is, i got you down here. and since youâre here, how about we skip the near-drowning and you just let me take you out for a drink?â
you stared at him, a storm of irritation swirling in your eyes. your lips pressed into a thin line.
âyou are an ass,â you said, poking a finger into the center of his chest. sukuna resisted the urge to grip your wrist in his hand.
sukunaâs grin was utterly insufferable. âand youâre hot. so, what do you say?â
yuuji, finally recovered, scrambled to his feet. âuncle sukuna! iâm telling mom you tried to drown me!â
âshut up, yuuji,â sukuna said without looking away from you. âcanât you see iâm in the middle of something?â
you crossed your arms, your gaze flickering from his arrogant smirk to yuujiâs indignant, pouty face.
âyou guys look weirdly identical.â
âno, heâs uglier.â âno, heâs uglier!â yuuji and sukuna both say in unison.
a small, reluctant smile finally tugged at the corner of your lips. you shook your head, the fight draining out of you. yes, he was an absolute menace, but he was also, infuriatingly, very, very charming. heâs been told so many times.
âone drink,â you said, holding up a finger. âand if you try to drown anyone else to get my attention, iâm having you banned from the beach. permanently.â
sukunaâs smile was triumphant. âagreed. i only need one chance.â he glanced over at yuuji. âsee, kid? patience is a virtue.â
âyou pushed me into the water!â yuuji yelled.
âwhatever, loser,â he turned back to you, his expression softening into something almost genuine. âwhatâs your name, pretty?â
you told him, along with your number, and then you walked back to your stand, the whistle swinging against your chest. sukuna watched you go, a satisfied smirk plastered on his face. heâd gotten what he wanted, after all.
18+, ab-riding, praise, aftercare, pet names (baby/babygirl, sweet girl)
YOU'RE DRAGGING your leaking, aching cunt across the hard lines of his torso until a squelching sound emits with every movement of your hips. he's simply laying there, an amused smirk playing at his lips as a result of your desperate whimpers. this usually happens when he's too tired or injured after patrol to fuck you in the way you crave.
"such a needy girl, huh?" he teases, resting two heavy, calloused hands on the fat of your hips. "jesus-" he huffs a low, gravely chuckle, entertained by just how much you're leaking. "makin' a goddamn mess, baby" he tuts, admiring the glistening slick smeared across his front.
you're so close, the friction of his firm, warm skin against your sensitive clit is making your nails dig in to his pecs. he knows when you're close before you do, always kept track of the way your body nearly loses control.
"you gonna cum like this?" he asks, "don't even need my help, huh?" he cups your cheek, making you lock eyes with him as your grinding grows sloppier. you couldn't care less about the embarrassment anymore, it's so intoxicating getting off on him like this, all while he sits back and watches.
your pathetic noises only grow louder with each grind, with each swipe of your pussy across his abs. "j-jayâ m'gonna cum" you breathe out, clenching your eyes shut. you can feel his clothed, throbbing cock, probably making a sticky mess in his pants with pre-cum, pressing against your ass every time you move, a sign that he's getting off on this just as much as you are.
"i know, babygirl" he coos, leaning up slightly to press soft, fluttering kisses to your neck. "you can let go f'me, sweet girl" he purrs, brushing the hair from your flushed face and simply admiring the way your expression is twisted in pleasure. his precious girl, using him to get off.
your breath hitches when your orgasm finally comes crashing over you, leaving you twitching against him. he holds you through your high as you cry out, his name heavy on your tongue. he's bucking his hips up, trying to get in any last stimulation before you collapse against him, exhausted. "there we go" he speaks softly, gently, as if he's coddling you.
"you feel better? hm?" he asks, "not so needy now, i bet." he chuckles lowly, and you're too fucked out to retort back. a calm settles in your bones as he holds you, rubbing soothing circles into your back and kissing the crown of your head. he'll make sure to take care of you properly once you've both rested.
mdni, afab! reader (no pronouns mentioned). reader is sapphic in hakkai's. DARK CONTENT (nonconsensual voyeurism and filming, stalking, break-in, some victim(?)-blaming in tora's), somno (mention only).
perv! hakkai, who knows it's all sorts of wrong to lust after his sister's best friend, but he can't help itâ you're just so cool. you even helped set up his big sister's fan club at school. he took it upon himself to ask mitsuya for advice on how to approach you, the poor baby, but he knew in his heart that he'd never muster up the courage to ask you out. that's how hakkai found himself with his ear pressed to yuzuha's bedroom door while you were over hanging with her, listening intently for the sweet sound of your voice with his hand wrapped around his thick cock, his other hand tightly clamped around his mouth as he tried to get himself off quickly as to not get caught. this would just have to be his little secret!!! now, imagine the surprise when he hears you moaning on the other side of the doorâ his big sister's name on your lips, no less!
perv! sanzu, who's been obsessed with you since the day you told him to fuck off. what can he sayâ he's always wanted what he can't have (oh, haruchiyo, what will we do with you...). he couldnât help but stalk you, talking creep shots of you from afar when he knew you weren't looking (canon... have we seen that pic of sanzu pulling his phone out at mikey from the alley? lil fuckin' freak :p). his camera roll is full of flics of you, and the worst part is he's not ashamed of it in the slightest. that quick (and mildly embarrassing) tumble down the stairs he had to take just to snap a shot of the little lace panties from under your short skirt was so worth it, by the way. anything to get a look at the shape of that pretty, perfect pussy.
perv! kazutora, whose been putting those breaking-in skills to good use. he canât deny it; thereâs an endorphin rush he gets every time he sneaks into your bedroom, especially while youâre sleeping so softly, your body just a crumpled mess in the sheets. he likes to rummage through your laundry basket for your dirty panties and take them like souvenirs. you can bet the desperate boy holds them up to his nose and takes a good, deep sniff while he clumsily fists his cock late at night to the thought of you sleeping serenelyâ and as much as i hate to say it, each soiled pair goes right back in your dirty laundry pile after because heâs convinced you would have stopped him sooner if you didnât want him sneaking around you this way. i mean... you must know he's got the hots for you, right?
18+, ab-riding, praise, aftercare, pet names (baby/babygirl, sweet girl)
YOU'RE DRAGGING your leaking, aching cunt across the hard lines of his torso until a squelching sound emits with every movement of your hips. he's simply laying there, an amused smirk playing at his lips as a result of your desperate whimpers. this usually happens when he's too tired or injured after patrol to fuck you in the way you crave.
"such a needy girl, huh?" he teases, resting two heavy, calloused hands on the fat of your hips. "jesus-" he huffs a low, gravely chuckle, entertained by just how much you're leaking. "makin' a goddamn mess, baby" he tuts, admiring the glistening slick smeared across his front.
you're so close, the friction of his firm, warm skin against your sensitive clit is making your nails dig in to his pecs. he knows when you're close before you do, always kept track of the way your body nearly loses control.
"you gonna cum like this?" he asks, "don't even need my help, huh?" he cups your cheek, making you lock eyes with him as your grinding grows sloppier. you couldn't care less about the embarrassment anymore, it's so intoxicating getting off on him like this, all while he sits back and watches.
your pathetic noises only grow louder with each grind, with each swipe of your pussy across his abs. "j-jayâ m'gonna cum" you breathe out, clenching your eyes shut. you can feel his clothed, throbbing cock, probably making a sticky mess in his pants with pre-cum, pressing against your ass every time you move, a sign that he's getting off on this just as much as you are.
"i know, babygirl" he coos, leaning up slightly to press soft, fluttering kisses to your neck. "you can let go f'me, sweet girl" he purrs, brushing the hair from your flushed face and simply admiring the way your expression is twisted in pleasure. his precious girl, using him to get off.
your breath hitches when your orgasm finally comes crashing over you, leaving you twitching against him. he holds you through your high as you cry out, his name heavy on your tongue. he's bucking his hips up, trying to get in any last stimulation before you collapse against him, exhausted. "there we go" he speaks softly, gently, as if he's coddling you.
"you feel better? hm?" he asks, "not so needy now, i bet." he chuckles lowly, and you're too fucked out to retort back. a calm settles in your bones as he holds you, rubbing soothing circles into your back and kissing the crown of your head. he'll make sure to take care of you properly once you've both rested.
Thinking about ghost who never realized what dom-drop is despite always being a dom...
Truthfully, ghost doesn't know anything about kink. What he knows he learned in shitty divebars or in the back alleys with strangers that felt like every wrong decision. Spent his time rutting into people he met hours before, hands around throats or blades to skin between growled insults.
He learned he had to take care of them afterwards, that part came naturally. Ghost never had anyone take care of him.
He knew, deep down, that he was the sick thing. For wanting to hurt people, for getting off on it. Of course no one asked if he was okay, he was the one who hurt them when they asked, not the other way around.
Then you come along and you're different from the others.
You talk to ghost days in advance, ask him what he's comfortable with and purse your lips when he rattles off a list of everything he's done. When you take ghost to bed, it's different. It's good.
Intense is the only way he can describe it. Intense and intimate and real, your skin beneath his hands and your blood pooling into a fresh bruise. It's precision and connection and euphoria with you beneath his hands.
When it's over, ghost is already drawing away.
He knows what comes next. The anger, the shame. The disgust with himself for every enjoying such a thing, for allowing him to believe you wanted it too.
"Hey, hey, siâ" soft hands break him out of it, forcing ghost to look at you. Your cheek will surely bruise tomorrow, but your voice is tender when you say "thank you. You did good."
"Whâ whatâ?" Ghost furrows his brow, stomach rolling.
"Thank you. You did right by me. I loved it." You press a kiss to his nose, then wince when you stand up "help me run the bath, yeah? I think it's big enough for us both."
Later, when ghost is snuggled against you in bed still warm from the shower, he'll think oh. This is it, huh?
This is that warm good feeling everyone online talks about. That feeling of belonging and love. Ghost kisses the back of your neck, and for once he doesn't question if he deserves to touch you after everything he did.
Jason Todd, whoâs in love with you long before he ever knows it. Who knows your exact coffee order by heart, but thatâs normal enough, right? He insists on walking or driving you to and from wherever you have to go, but thatâs just because heâs a good guys who would make sure anybody was safe. He always pays for anything you want whenever youâre out together- even when you get fed up and snap at him that you can do it yourself- but what use is his money if itâs not being spent on someone as good as you? He knows the second he sees you what kind of mood youâre in because even if he isnât always the best at reading or managing his emotions, he would know what youâre feeling the second he glanced at you. But this is all normal, right? It doesnât actually mean anything.
warnings: nsfw â mdni, reader is anatomically female, brief dry humping, female masturbation, vaginal fingering, cunnilingus, sexual fantasies, implied penetrative sex, mild language
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it was supposed to be a lazy morning. no work, no elaborate plans, save for a night out with your friends later on. you and jason were simply lying in bed, wrapped up in each other like usual.
his lips found the skin of your neck with ease, slowly dragging the fabric of your t-shirt down your shoulder to kiss the newly exposed flesh. you weren't sure how you ended up on your back with his lips peppering warm kisses across your skin and his hips lazily rutting into your core, but hell, who would dare to complain about this hunk of a man on top of them?
just as he started peppering kisses across your hipbones, ready to drag the thin fabric of your panties down your legs, his phone started buzzing aggressively on the nightstand.
"the hell?"
you sighed as he reluctantly sat up, the heat between your legs growing unbearable. dick's voice came through, ragged and out of breath.
"jay, how fast can you get to the manor?"
he looks at the way your eyebrows knit together; either worried or horny, or perhaps both.
"uh," he hesitates. "i'm a bit b-"
"doing your girlfriend doesn't count, kid," dick presses.
your eyes widen, mortified at the thought of his family knowing anything about your sex life.
"we've got a convoy moving military-grade weapons through the narrows. gcpd isn't making it in time."
jason sighs, pinching the bridge of his nose.
"i'll be there in ten."
"jay," you whine before he even cuts the phone off.
"honey, i'll be back as soon as it's over." he presses a kiss to the corner of your mouth before finding your lips. "it'll be fast."
he kisses you again, all slow and deep. he knows it drives you crazy, but he feels like a damn monster, leaving you with flushed cheeks and pouty lips. your lips chase his when he moves to pull away, but his hand finds the curve of your jaw, pulling back to gaze down at you.
"don't look at me like that," you mumble, knee bumping his hip as you chew on the inside of your cheek.
"like what, sweetheart?"
his eyes drop, racking your body once over.
"like you wanna put me through the mattress when you know you can't."
he laughs at that, doubling over upon sliding off the mattress. you want to throw a fit, but the city needs him.
"i'll make sure to come through later, honey." he presses one last kiss to your lips before regrettably slipping out of your shared apartment.
you count the seconds, minutes, until it ascends into an hour. an hour becomes two, and then three.
your core is still slick with the afternoon's rendezvous. your mind shifts to images of him out in the field, sweat-slicked skin glistening as he moves skillfully. your thighs clench when you hear his voice in your head, imagining a few deep grunts falling from his lips as he pins someone to a wall nearby, all big and strong.
all yours.
your hand finds its way between your legs, pressing into your core through the lace of your panties. a soft gasp echoes in the quiet space of your bedroom.
a few taut circles to your clit make your knees bump one another, but you need to work five times as hard to make yourself unravel.
your fingers feel so puny, almost equating to nothing when you think of jason deliciously parting your slick walls with his thick digits. they slide home, pumping at a slow pace.
it feels as though youâre forcing yourself to moan. your back lifts off the mattress just barely when your palm bumps your clit, a pained whimper leaving your lips.
youâve damn near got your fingers stuffed in your cunt up to your knuckles!
between switching endless positions and sliding a pillow beneath your hips, you just canât seem to find the spot that jason always reaches with zero effort.
youâd been at it for about an hour, your fingers starting to cramp up and the skin beginning to prune. tears of complete frustration kiss your cheeks, lips swollen and pouty after all of your biting from not being able to reach your high.
you canât be bothered by the faint clatter coming from the living room. the thud of heavy boots and rustling of tactical gear make jasonâs presence known, yet your fingers keep weakly moving between your sore walls.
âhoney?â his voice is muffled through the door, but it comes husky, laced with exhaustion.
when he pushes your bedroom door open, though, all tiredness is gone from his being.
youâre truly a sight for sore eyes.
legs parted, shirt hiked up your tummy, exposing the soft curves of your breasts, and a gaze that pleads for him to make you feel good. his name falls from your lips in a broken whimper, more tears bubbling over before you can stop them.
he doesnât think twice, crossing over to the mattress in two long strides before grabbing your ankles, pulling you to the edge of the bed. your hands immediately find his shoulders as he settles on his knees in front of you.
âi need you, baby,â you babble. âplease. i c-i canât, honey. couldnât wait. tried making myself feel good, but all i need is you.â
he just watches you, shushing you as he rubs a calloused thumb over your cheek, wiping your stray tears.
ââs okay, baby, i got you.â
he tuts when he looks down at your puffy folds, all irritated from the incessant assault of your fingers. he blows softly, pressing a chaste kiss to your mound before flattening his tongue across your folds.
âshouldâve waited for me, pretty girl,â he coos once your back bows off the mattress, instantly seeking out more of him.
he moves slow enough to soothe the ache, but lets his tongue prod at your dripping entrance every few laps, fucking into you so sweetly. his lips purse just right, sucking on your clit. he switches between each move, working you closer to that edge. he hums against you and a wrecked moan shamelessly rips from your chest.
you prop yourself onto your elbows to watch and your suspicions are confirmed: itâs him.
yes, he makes you feel amazing, brings you pleasure youâve never experienced before. but the sight of this god-sent man alone is enough for you to finally come undone.
your thighs begin to tremble and he wraps his arms around either leg, keeping you in place to make sure you donât start running when that coil in your tummy starts tightening.
âjay, mmphâfuck, baby,â you babble. âiâm s-so close.â
the last syllable is plundered by a moan, thighs threatening to clamp around his head. just then, one hand drifts toward your heat, pinching your clit while his tongue coaxes itself between your walls expertly.
"let go, doll," he murmurs, pressing impossibly close to your core.
a desperate whimper rolls from your lips, legs shaking as you finally come undone. he doesnât let up right away, lapping every last drop of your slick like it gives him life.
âjay,â you whine, feebly pushing at his shoulders before he sits back on his heels.
ânever gonna try to get yourself off again, right, princess?â
your stomach flips. you want to smack that shit-eating grin off his beautiful face, but you know that you wouldnât dare to take matters into your own hands again.
âwouldnât dream of it, honey.â
you toe at his shoulder, playfully nudging him. he catches your ankle, kissing from the soles of your feet, up your legs, up your torso, before pressing his lips to yours. his tongue slides into your mouth like it belongs there, letting you taste your own arousal.
ânow,â he starts, fingers tugging at the latches of his gear. âi think i promised you something pretty big earlier, didnât i, sweet girl?â
your bottom lip tucks itself between your teeth.
âthink i agreed to put you through the mattress or somethinâ like that, right?â
his arms find the backs of your knees, nestling them comfortably in the crooks of his arms. your breath catches as you trace every move carefully. his chest fixes itself against yours, pinning you to the mattress.
he hums.
âi always keep my word, sweetheart.â
he kisses your collarbone and in the next half hour alone, youâd have lost count of how many orgasms he pulled from your body.
âyou know i do.â
a/n: uhhhh i didn't know how to end this đ dk if i love it or not
Summary: Tim likes...monitoring and failsafe measures in a relationship. But he's also down bad. Warnings: Tim's stalker tendencies?
You learned very quickly that the public perception of Tim Drake was a lie.
Or not a lie, exactly. Just a half-truth, like most things about him.
To the world, Tim Drake was the polite one. The reasonable one. The Robin who grew up into Red Robin without breaking too loudly. He was the kid genius, the awkward genius, the one who spoke too fast when he got excited.
Tim Drake loved quietly in public.
He loved like a complete menace in private.
From the beginning, you had beenâŚremarkably unbothered by the vigilante thing. That alone seemed to short-circuit something in his brain.
You didnât flinch when he disappeared out of your window at midnight. You didnât panic when he came back bruised. You didnât ask him to stop. You asked if he wanted soup or silence.
That, more than anything, convinced him you were dangerous to his sanity.
He introduced you to his family carefully, like he was afraid you might spook. Bruce, who watched you like he watched everything. Alfred, who decided he liked you immediately and made sure you were never without tea. Dick, who clocked the intensity in Timâs eyes within minutes and raised his eyebrows but said nothing. Jason, who smirked and muttered something about âfinally.â Cass, who studied you, then leaned against you like a cat choosing a favorite chair.
You fit. Too well.
So Tim did what Tim always did when something mattered.
He planned.
It started small enough that you didnât question it.
A package waiting for you at the end of the week. A scarf, absurdly soft. A book youâd mentioned once in passing, a specific edition you hadnât even realized existed. A pair of boots that fit perfectly, like heâd measured you while you slept.
âYou didnât have to,â you told him the third time it happened.
âI wanted to,â he said easily, eyes bright behind his glasses. âYou survived another week. That deserves a reward.â
You laughed, assuming it was a joke.
It wasnât.
By the time you realized the gifts had become routine, it was already normal. Expected. End-of-week offerings like a ritual he refused to skip. If you protested, he only smiled and kissed your knuckles and said, âLet me take care of you.â
You let him.
You let him do a lot of things.
Your phone buzzed constantly with check-ins, not demanding, never accusatory. Just Tim being Tim. Home safe? Did you eat? Text me when you leave. Your location was shared automatically, a quiet little icon that pulsed on his screen wherever he was.
Once, you forgot your phone on the kitchen counter.
By the time you realized and went back for it, Tim was already there.
Not waiting in the doorway. Pacing inside.
âYou didnât answer,â he said, voice too level.
âI left it inside,â you said, holding it up. âIt was on mute.â
His hands came up to your face like he needed to anchor himself. He breathed you in, slow and shaky, then kissed your forehead too hard.
âI donât like not knowing where you are,â he said softly.
You threaded your fingers through his hair. âIâm right here.â
That helped. Some.
The locket came a week later.
It was beautiful, antique gold, delicate engraving. Inside was a photo of the two of you, taken candidly, your head tipped back in laughter, Tim looking at you like you were the moon.
You wore it without hesitation.
You didnât notice the tiny tracker tucked beneath the photo.
The teddy bear came after that.
It was ridiculous, oversized, soft, clearly expensive. Tim pretended it was a joke, shrugged when you raised an eyebrow.
âSomething to keep you company when Iâm not around,â he said.
You hugged it. It smelled like him, he had sprayed his cologne on it. You slept with it tucked under your chin, fingers curled into its fur.
Tim watched from a camera hidden behind one of its eyes.
Not like a stranger would. Not like something cruel.
He watched the way you breathed when you slept, the way you murmured when you rolled over, the way you clutched the bear tighter when your dreams grew restless. He watched because you were beautiful when you forgot to guard yourself. Because knowing you were safe made his chest settle.
Sometimes, your sleepy sounds pulled something darker from him. Something needy and sharp and wanting. His hand would slip under his pants.
He never told you that part.
What he did tell you, he told you shamelessly.
âI think about you constantly,â he said one night, sprawled on your bed, bo staff leaning against the wall. âLike, clinically. If I brought it up to a therapist theyâd prescribe something.â
âYou already have a therapist.â
âSheâs very proud of my coping mechanisms.â
You rolled your eyes. He caught your wrist, tugged you closer, grin crooked and dangerous.
âYou know,â he murmured, lips brushing your ear, âsometimes I wish I could just crawl inside you and sleep there. No noise. No distractions. Just you.â
You stared at him. âTim.â
âI know,â he said cheerfully. âUnhinged. Iâve accepted it.â
In bed, he was worse.
Teasing. Patient. A menace with a smile.
He praised you like it was his job and ruined you with it anyway, voice low and intent, eyes never leaving your face. Every sound you made felt like it belonged to him.
When you tried to hide your reactions, he only tilted his head, amused.
âLouder,â he told you, thumb warm where it rested on your clit. âMake it pretty for me. I know I taught you better than that.â
The way he said it, half pride, half mockery, made heat curl low in your stomach.
He let you handle his gear, his weapons, his staff. He watched the way your hands wrapped around the smooth length of it, the focus in your eyes.
Possession, with Tim, was never about control for its own sake. It was about certainty. About knowing. About making sure nothing, no one, could take you from him without going through hell first.
When you curled around that ridiculous teddy bear at night, Tim Drake smiled into the dark, utterly undone, already planning what heâd give you next.
Despite him enjoying being a menace, he'd melt at praise.
The first time you caught it, youâd been standing in your kitchen, surrounded by groceries you hadnât remembered asking for. He was unpacking them with brisk efficiency, already organizing your pantry like he lived there.
âYou didnât have to do all this,â youâd said, gentle, automatic.
He froze. Just for a fraction of a second. Something tight passed behind his eyes.
So you tried again, without thinking too hard about it.
âThank you, babe,â you said instead. âThat was really sweet. Youâre so thoughtful.â
The effect was immediate and catastrophic.
Tim went still like heâd been struck by lightning, shoulders slowly creeping up toward his ears. His mouth opened, then closed. His ears went pink. Then red.
âOh,â he said, faintly.
You tilted your head. âYou okay?â
He nodded too fast. âYeah. Yeah. Totally. Fine.â
But his hands shook for the rest of the evening, and when you kissed him goodbye, he clung to you like you were oxygen.
You tested the theory the next week.
Another end-of-week gift, this time a necklace that matched the locket perfectly, understated and elegant, exactly your taste. You didnât protest. You stepped into his space instead, cupped his face, and smiled.
âThank you,â you said softly. âYouâre so good to me.â
Tim made a sound. A small, helpless one.
From that moment on, it was over for him.
You learned quickly how easy it was to undo him. A little praise, warm and sincere, and he was gone. Eyes bright, smile soft and stunned, devotion written so clearly across his face it almost hurt to look at.
If heâd had a tail, it would have been wagging.
He fetched things for you without hesitation. A glass of water. Your sweater. The charger youâd left in another room. All you had to do was sigh or mutter about inconvenience, and he was already moving.
And when you thanked him he went pliant.
Physical affection turned him into something boneless. Youâd learned that too.
Youâd pull him down onto the couch, straddle his lap, and kiss him slowly. His hands would hover at your waist like he didnât trust himself to touch. Youâd pepper his face with soft kisses, cheek, temple, jaw, until he melted, nuzzling into you like he needed to be held together.
Your fingers slid into his hair, tugging just enough to make his breath hitch.
He whined. A small, needy sound he didnât even try to hide.
âYouâre so cute when you help me,â you murmured once, smiling against his mouth.
Tim buried his face in your neck and breathed you in like he might cry from it.
He needed reassurance the way some people needed sleep.
Sometimes it slipped out of him late at night, when you were tangled together in hoodies and sheets, the city quiet beyond the windows.
âYou wonât leave me, right?â he asked once, voice carefully casual in a way that fooled no one. âI alreadyâŚI already have everything planned.â
You stilled, listening.
âWeâll live in a big house,â he continued, words tumbling faster now. âNot like my parentsâ place. It wonât be miserable. Itâll be warm. Lived-in. You can have whatever room you want. Iâll buy you all the pretty clothes and jewelry you like, but inside weâll just wear old hoodies because thatâs better. And...and if you donât want biological kids, thatâs fine, Iâll get a vasectomy, itâs not a big deal...â
âTim,â you said gently, lifting your head.
He stopped instantly, eyes wide, searching your face for alarm.
You cupped his cheek. âHey. Pause.â
His shoulders slumped, shame flickering across his features. âSorry. I just...â
âI know,â you said, kissing his nose. âI love that youâre serious. I do. I just need you to breathe with me, okay?â
He nodded, pressing his forehead to yours. âOkay.â
You meant it when you said you had nothing to hide from him.
So when he asked tentatively if he could borrow your phone sometime, you handed it over without hesitation.
That trust wrecked him more thoroughly than anything else.
He lay beside you on the bed, scrolling quietly while you read. He went through your notes app first, heart pounding, expecting lists. Plans. Fantasies. Proof that you were already building a future in your head the way he was.
There was nothing.
No timelines. No secret hopes. No meticulously outlined dreams.
His chest tightened.
Pinterest was next. Boards upon boards of things you liked: colors, textures, aesthetics. Then, finally, two boards that made his breath catch.
Wedding dresses.
Engagement rings.
Nothing else. No venues. No themes. No saved vows.
Just silhouettes. Cuts. Metals. Stones.
His disappointment lasted maybe five seconds.
Then his brain kicked into gear.
That was enough. He could work with that.
He gave your phone back without comment, curled into you, kissing lazily along your jaw like nothing monumental had just happened inside his head.
It wasnât until two nights later, when you were half-asleep and tucked under his chin, that he said it.
âClear your schedule in two weeks,â he murmured, kissing your temple.
You hummed. âFor what?â
âIâm proposing that weekend,â he said calmly, like he was reminding you to pick up milk. âIâll give you options.â
You blinked. Once. Twice.
Then you laughed softly, pressed a kiss to his throat, and said, âOkay.â
Tim exhaled like the world had finally clicked into place.
your breeding kink Dick drabble got me thinking about Tim with a breeding kink âşď¸
(this is a req but donât rush to complete it, this time of the year is buuusy for writers lol)
you had expected TIM DRAKE to laugh when you had said it; maybe roll his pretty blue irises, swat at your nose playfully-- when you accused your boyfriend of not missing you during his two week stake-out mission.
but all you had gotten, much to your surprise, was a half-hearted scowl, and a sudden iron grip on your upper forearm dragging you to your bedroom.
tim's chain, silver and sleek, dangled within your face tauntingly as the plap, plap, plap! of skin reverberated throughout the confinements of your room-- each thrust pointed and mocking at your words. "you really think i didn't miss you?" tim groans near the shell of your ear, tongue darting outwards to lick a crude stripe up your neck, "think i didn't fuck my fist to the thought of filling you up with my cum every chance i got?"
"fuck, tim--!" you gasp, legs locking and twitching around his waist, your heels digging into his lower back-- only keeping his cock snug within your cunt and kissing your g-spot. "i--"
plump lips kissed raw collide onto your own-- effectively shutting you up. again and again and again, tim continues to drive his dick into you with a reckless sort of passion; one that doesn't always need to prove anything-- but tonight, very much does. "well i did," tim mumbles against your lips, hips slamming against yours, "wasted so much of my cum when it shoulda been inside of your pretty fuckin' pussy instead,"
a pretty arch off of your bed forms at tim's words, your back pressing your chest impossibly closer to your boyfriend's. your nipples, stiffened and cold, brush against tim's chest and your entire body shudders.
"but it's okay," he concedes, slowly pulling his lips away from your own-- a string of saliva keeping you both connected mockingly. "'cause i'm jus' going to keep cumming inside of you, again n' again," he whispers, black strands of hair clinging to his forehead, "til' i don't have anymore left to fill you up."
one of tim's hands dips in-between the space of both your sweat slicked bodies-- his fingers easily finding your clit, only to roll tight and precise circles onto the sensitive bud. your head tilts backwards, further into your pillow, at the sensation-- and you cry out incoherently, far too cock-drunk to say anything tim can understand.
his laugh ghosts across your lips, coupled with the sweet sound of his moans. "yeah, bet you'd like that," he murmurs, almost to himself as his cock continues to drive in and out of your sopping cunt, "fuck-- with the way this pretty pussy s'milking me, i don't think it'll take long,"
your cunt clenches and spasms at his words-- his dick pulsating within you, leaking pre-cum, in response. your entire body quivers, a visceral sort of urge yearning impossibly for your boyfriend's cum.
"maybe i'll get you pregnant," tim blurts suddenly, a strangled moan falling from his lips at his own words-- as if the arousal the idea brings him is insurmountable and incapable of being contained. "breed this gorgeous pussy,"
"yes--!" you gasp, helplessly twitching closer to tim's body, as if in an attempt to get you closer than physical barriers will allow. "please, need you to cum inside of me so, so bad-- give me a baby, prove you missed me,"
your desperate rambling is akin to heroin for tim; his hips stutter into your body, cock pulsing and twitching achingly within your pussy-- which is soaked almost to an embarrassing extent. "fuck," tim curses, crease between his brows deepening as his thrusts grow erratic and hand moves passionately at your cunt, "m'going to cum," he announces shakily, bottoming out within you. "shiit, been wanting to cum inside you so badly, fucking stuff you so full of me you'll be dripping for weeks."
the repeated pulse of his cock inside of you is addictive-- sending shocks of pleasure and ecstasy down your spine, all the way to your toes. your lungs exhale deeply, and suddenly-- your own orgasm comes crashing down onto you.
your entire body quakes in tandem with tim's. as his cum floods your pussy, the fluid barely leaking out of you-- your cunt twitches and smothers tim's extremity; squeezing, milking, begging for more of his release.
even following his orgasm-- tim doesn't stop. the lewd noises emanated from your pussy only grow in decibels as the night drags onwards, his cock emptying all it can supply into your womb repeatedly.
when your frame turns to jelly upon your bed, spineless in his grip-- tim just dips his head low, lips dusting along your jaw and towards your mouth. "told you," he whispers, pressing spontaneous kisses into your skin, "missed you so bad, baby," his cock twitches within your pussy-- his tip swollen an indecent shade of pink from tim's three prior orgasms inside of you-- "i'm almost offended you didn't believe me."
beneath him, your own irises roll; one of your hands carding through tim's black tresses, fingers scratching idly at his scalp despite still being impaled on his dick. your body shudders around him as you speak; "well, i do now,"
"yeah?" tim asks skeptically, hips raising ever so slightly, only to roll lazily back into you-- both of you sighing in euphoria as he fills you to the brim again. "only took me fucking three loads into you for you to listen,"
"shii-it," you whisper, feeling tim's tip grind against your g-spot.
the man smiles into your skin, "m'not finished," tim groans, "i think this pussy can take more."
you open your mouth to protest, but tim's thrusts beginning for the umpteenth time that night shut you up quickly.
"please," tim exhales, "you said you want me to prove i missed you, so that's what m'doing,"
the bed creaks underneath the weight of both of your bodies, combined with tim's steady movements.
"please just let me cum inside of you again, i need it so badly-- n' i know you need it too."
loren's thots:: highly anticipated tim drake breeding kink drabble whew. i saw dilf tim and it gave me the motivation to do this, but i could totally see this becoming a longer, proper piece based on dilf!tim drake like yum. this ones short but sweet, i think
who's reaching? who's letting go?
who fell first and who fell harder
including | dick grayson, jason todd, tim drake, damian wayne & roy harper
art by stefphe on tt for jason, zeromack0 on X for tim, malenjoyer on ig for roy
playing | hula girl- the neighbourhood
dick grayson- you fell first, he fell harder
Letâs be honest, heâs quite a pretty sight, and when you actually got to know him properly, you learnt that he was so much more than he presented himself. It was easy to fall for him, all charm and natural attentiveness, and he cared so much about you without being overbearing that it was hard to hide.
When he got to learn about what made you, you, he just couldnât look away from his feelings and had to face the truth that he had fallen so, so down bad that it was embarrassing for others to witness. Heâs the complete opposite of nonchalant, so it didnât take long until he confessed and you started dating, and the rest is history.
jason todd- he fell first, he fell harder
Jason has the natural tendency to people watch under the excuse of âknowing his environmentâ to keep his façade up, but in reality, he had been staring at the drop-dead gorgeous person who had been reading for 5 consecutive hours without moving an inch in Gothamâs public library. After getting himself pumped up, he finally got the guts to talk to you and start and easy conversation that led to a first date, which then lead to another, and another, and, well, you get where things went.
You truly are the light of his life and heâs eternally thankful of your relationship. Not only he ensures you are as happy as he can make possible, but he feels so much love oozing out of you when you look at him that itâs impossible for him not to be head over heels. Disgustingly in love, like his brothers say.
tim drake- he fell first, you fell harder
Youâre pretty much his ideal type, what can I say. When you came to the cafĂŠ where your friend worked at ordering a quadruple shot of expresso into your americano, something captivated him. He came up to talk to you while you worked tucked away in a corner, and after momentary confusion, you got more intrigued as seconds pass, leading to him getting your number, texting you the moment he did a quick background check (some habits never die or whatever).
Now donât get me wrong, Tim absolutely adores you and would give you his kidney without a second thought, but sometimes, you fall after his work. Even if he does end up retiring after, work was always a priority, which meant that you sometimes fell into second place. Nevertheless, heâs such a doting partner, making sure you never had an issue in your life, and he makes an effort for you, always.
damian wayne- you fell first, he fell harder
âIt was destined to beâ you friend said, âtbh I always knew they had something going onâ a classmate thought. The both of you had a childish rivalry at university that it was almost endearing to watch. You didnât feel an ounce of envy or anger towards him, but rather a high school crush that spiralled deeper every time he smugly raised his eyebrow at you when he got right a question that you didnât. Being honest, one-sided rivalry was such a great idea to get him to talk to you, even if itâs for bragging his higher grade âby 0.75%, but still more than youâ.
Damian really struggled to realise his feelings for you, and even an intervention was staged by his brothers because he couldnât physically stop talking and thinking about you. He confessed in such a Damian Wayne way, always proper but very targeted towards the enjoyment of both of you. Now, he knows how you take you tea in the mornings and at what temperature you like the bath to be, and he loves way more than heâd ever admit being the only one who knows you that well.
roy harper- at the same damn time
You two match each otherâs freaks TO THE SECOND. You fell at the same time he started catching feelings. True friends to lovers, youâd been friends for some time already, meeting through your other friends, and you just liked to hang out with each other. At some point in time, those hangouts turned into dates, and friendship evolved into something more.
Completely interlinked, you two had a connection like nothing ever seen. Arguments are rare because you shared the same ideas on almost everything, knowing when something was a true issue or just other things talking. People enjoy being around you two because you can be both the most in-love couple the world has ever seen and still be your own person with individual personalities.
perv!tim drake definitely has a camera installed in his reader's room
(NSFW AHEAD, mdni)
he calls it a safety precaution when it's anything but.
at first, it was barely noticeable, placed in an inconspicuous spot that you'd look over constantly whilst cleaning. the fact that you'd barely paid attention to that specific corner had his mind running. what else could he get away with without you knowing about the camera hiding there?
he's glaring at the computer screen like a hawk, a pair of your underwear in hand -- stolen, obviously, as he'd taken the chance to rob your drawer of a few items. the fabric glides over his erection, shaky moans filling the room, watching you strip down at just the right view. gosh, how he loved the length of your legs and the swell in your breasts, fisting the desperately leaking head of his cock.
pre had formed an embarrassingly large damp spot against your panties from his incessant masturbation whenever you came up on his screen, back arched and bottom lip bit between his teeth hard when he jerked it at merely the thought of you discovering his perverted game. if tim could jump through the screen just to put his dick between your thighs, he'd do it in a heartbeat.
you bend over to grab one of the stray clothing items on the floor, a sharp inhale at his lips at the sight of your cunt. "shit," he whimpers, tears at the corners of his eyes. he really shouldn't be rubbing one out to you when he's supposed to be researching for a term paper. Still, your body was his weakness, and his curiosity for the camera got the best of him.
goosebumps form over the pale skin of his shoulders, imagining what it would feel like to have your heat wrapped around his cock. his sight becomes blurry, and the buildup at his cockhead finally bursts. head thrown back against his desk chair, hot ropes of cum stain the fabric of your missing panties. it felt so filthy, so out of place... too late to think much on it now, though, as his favourite show was on for the night.
summary: when midnight marks the second year anniversary since damian's death, you make one desperate wish in the midst of your grief before falling asleep. when you wake, you find damian waiting in the apartmentâas if he never left.
pairing: damian wayne x reader
content/warnings: angst, hurt-comfort, grief and loss, mentions of previous death, emotional reunion, yearning
Grief is a companion fond of making you dream.
"Beloved."
Damian stands before you in the kitchen, in his most-worn sweater, the one you swore you stuffed in the back of your shared closet when it had lost his scent.
The scent of toast, your favourite kind slathered with jam, lingers in the air and the familiarity of this sightâof him awake at an earlier hour to prepare you a simple breakfast, feels like a faraway dream.
You're struck by his voice, the tone and cadence your memory never managed to capture. You had to be dreaming still. Even when the edges of him are so life-like, not fuzzy like you're used to when you reach for the figment of him in your sleep.
He can't be standing in your kitchen, the one you used to share with him two years ago, because he is dead. Your Damian is dead.
You don't move, not immediately. You watch life breathe in and out of his chest, and feel the long, dragged seconds stretch between the distance, the pads of your fingers pressing into the cold slab of the counter, frozen in place.
He doesnât push. Doesnât corner you, or raise some pointed remark on your distance. He only waits, as if thatâs everything heâs willing to do. Damian has never been good at being patient, but in the wake of his appearance, itâs all he seems to be doing.
You're afraid. To speak, make a sound or move that could shatter the perfect image. You expect to turn your head just slightly off-angle, and find yourself in your sheets once more, and the life-like version of him will be gone. The ache of his absence still clung to you, even more so at the sight of him, like a sore wound you can't resist running over.
Your stomach grumbles lowly at the scent of breakfast, empty from a near sleepless night and a skipped dinner. At that, he finally shifts his gaze, and you find your breath stolen from the way that striking, unwavering green pierces through you.
âYouâre starving.â
The prospect of a dream falls away, and reality strikes you hard when the stature of him remains, words falling out his mouthâsomething your dreams have never achieved. You donât listen, coming up to him like a stormâhands trembling as you raise them to slowly, tenderly cup his face.
He lets you, unmoving as his gaze sinks deep into yours. Your fingers trace over his cheekbones, where that scar should be. The last you had saw of him, unmoving in the hospitalâwhen the mere sight had rendered you immobile, shaking uncontrollably till someone had to drag you out the room. Your hands trail down his jawline, over his neckâyour touch trembling over his unharmed skin. When your hand dips to where his heart should be, he captures your hand and guides it back to his face, fingers laying over yours as he presses it against his cheek, soaking in your warmth.
His own skin is barren of its expected, scorching warmthâand his lashes flutter once before his eyes fall shut, mesmerised.
"Damian." You gasp softly.
He shakes his head faintly, almost in warning not to question further. His gaze opens, and it pours over you openly, hungrily.
"Are you real?" Your whisper comes out as a broken plea, head tilting as you look at him. There are no inconsistencies, even the faint scar where a blade had passed through his palm when he was but a boy, the same raised skin you used to press your lips over in the solemnity of the night, wishing he never experienced a pain like that again.
An undercurrent ripples below his steady gaze, conveying an answer you can't uncover. "I am here, beloved."
"How?" Your voice tremors, teetering madness.
âYou called.â
Your brows furrow together, the vagueness of his statement twisting your thoughts into a whirlwind. âNo.. I called for you every single day. Since you've been gone.â
His expression fractures in your admission, that undercurrent in the dark green, sweeping you with its darkened shadows. You canât read it. Not fully, failing to truly understand the depth of his gaze that reminds you that this isnât a dream or a recreation of any normal morning from before. Damian has always looked at you with want and devotion, yes, but it has never seemed almost inhumane.
Your burning questions still linger on the precipice, torn between relief and despair, when Damian closes in. His lips capture yours almost desperately, and you realise instantly in your grief that you had forgotten this side to him. Rare, and smothered by self-controlâbut existing regardless, is his intensity.
The sound of his name between your lips is lost, muffled by the way his free hand manoeuvres the back of your head to bring you impossibly closer to him. Itâs real, it has to be, this push-and-pull as if he canât decide whether he could ever get enough of the taste of you.
You have held yourself together for two yearsâbut youâre close to falling apart in the scent of him, so overwhelmingly home, something youâve been trying to capture through his cologne bottles, his shirtsâbut nothing compares to the real thing.
He doesnât fare much better, lost of all his composure as he consumes you. Itâs devotion, the way he holds you like youâre the only anchor keeping him tethered to reality. âI am here.â His lips brush over the corner of your mouth, tremoring. âIâm home.â
"We need to tell your family." It's the first logical thought that's formed since you lost strength in your legs, landing on the tiles with your hand still grasped in his, knees pressing against one another. "I should be calling Dick."
His lips press together, something manic crossing his gaze but you donât see itâtoo wrapped up in the novelty of a miracle that shouldn't exist. You needed to hear it, have it confirmed for you to your own faceâ that you werenât the only one who sees Damian. Your steps quicken towards the entrance, hands reaching for your coat that has your phone right by the front doorâtossed on the ground after stumbling home the night before.
Damian grabs you by the wrist right as your fingers brushed the fabric, tugging you back. Your widened gaze meets his own fervent expression. "Damian?"
"I canât predictââ His hold falters, softening in its clutch. ââwhat happens when you walk through that door."
Your brows furrow, letting him pull you gently back towards him. Your free hand comes up to press gently against his cheek, caressing once. "What do you mean?"
His jaw clenches, a rare tension seizing his features. Or rather, one you didn't recognise on him at all. Fear.
"Earlier, I had tried the door." He explains slowly, as if the words pained him. "I had reached for the lockâand something changed. I wasn't here, or anywhere. It was silent and I didn't truly exist, not till I found myself back in the kitchen."
Your mouth dries at his words, lips parting with the low thud of anxious dread gnawing away at your gut. You had been so relieved, you hadn't even begun to name all the possibilities of this miracle having a short-end you haven't seen coming.
"Oh." You mutter, fingers fumbling loosely in the air as your hand drops to your side. "Okay. That'sâ"
Scary. So fucking terrifying that you can't even voice it out, the thought that he could just disappear as quickly as he reappeared back into your life.
"Maybe we can try?" Your voice lacks the confidence of someone who's willing to put the possibility of never seeing the only person she's ever loved again on the line. "If I go with you this time, it mightâ"
Might work. There is nothing you detest more than the what-ifs that overpower the old, a bitter habit that's sprung to life now that it has new fears to feed on.
He nods briskly at the suggestion, but the tension in his jaw doesn't fade. "Listen to me. Ifâ"
"Damian, if what you're about to say is anything to do with disappearing or leavingâyou're not allowed to say it." You cut him off.
His lips clamp together, gaze averting to the door. "I only aim for us both to be prepared."
Unlike last time. The insinuation lands coldly against your exposed skin, and you immediately move to tug the coat on to rid yourself of the forming goosebumps. You didn't want to be reminded of that first lonely night in the apartment, when the news hadn't yet settled inâand you were surrounded by bedsheets that were filled with his scent.
Call it human desperation, needing to believe in only the good outcomesâbut you refuse to think further than the events that have occurred in the past twenty minutes. Damian is back, that is all that matters. The rest, you'll both figure it out together.
His hands immediately come up to the sleeves, helping you to put the coat on. The simple action renders you breathless, the way he was equipped to you like a shadow, tuning himself back into step with your own movements. You had forgotten that feeling, of puzzles pieces fitting perfectly together that it made life easy.
"I'm more than prepared." Your reassurance for him, or yourselfâyouâre not sure which bears more comfort. "Come on, Dami." The nickname rolls off like a soothing mantra, one normalcy laced within all the abnormality of the situation, of his presence lingering near your side like a shadow. "You better prepare yourself. You're about to experience intense familial affection."
It's easier to pretend, that anything other than a happy family reunion was bound to happen, to seal in the fact that he's really here. That's all your mind is leading towards, this impossibility existing on the morning of what should've been your second year anniversary.
His lips finally twitch, a soft smile gracing his lips as he takes your hand. It's warmer now, as if life was slowly bleeding back into him. It reassures you immensely, and your fingers tighten into a reassuring squeeze around his.
"How haveâ" He falters, grip tightening unintentionally over your fingers. "âthey been?"
"Itâs not been easy." You answer truthfully. "Bruce is taking it the hardest, his habit of burying himself in work has worsened. He needs you to snap him out of it the most, I think. Dickâhe's trying to keep everyone together, but I worry for him even if he keeps pretending he's fine."
Your fingers twist the lock, opening the door. His hand still remains firmly in your grasp, and your eyes widen, gaze twisting to him in hope. "Still here." You murmur, waving your interlocked fingers with yours in his gaze.
You see it too, the faint relief that flickers in his expression. That's the very last thing you see.
The moment you take one step out the door into the threshold of the hallway, your raised hand comes up bare. The space where Damian used to occupyâis now empty.
"I swear he was here." You plead, watching as Dick paces around the apartment. "Damian was right here, and he was talking to meâand we were coming to see you."
He runs a hand over his locks, and you can tell he doesn't believe you, as much as he is trying to genuinely listen. You know it sounds cruel, going on about how his deceased baby brother is alive and well. That it makes you sound insane, overcome with grief enough to hallucinate Damian's existenceâbut you know that he was really here.
You aren't hallucinating, even if you had to push down any arising doubt as Dick finally stops in his tracks, turning to face you.
He looks exhausted. Packed with cases, wrinkled shirt haphazardly put on, bags under his eyes. Still charmingly Dick, but drained of the spark that used to brighten his gaze.
He calls out your name, and you hear it immediately. His deflection, his concern. You shake your head, but he raises a hand.
"Youâ" He swallows, and you see him assessing the right way to deliver his words. "âhave been through a lot. I understand, I really do."
"Dick." Your voice comes out as a plea.
"But if you've been seeing Damian." He goes on. "I think it's time we find someone. For you to talk to."
He thinks you've gone crazy.
"Dick, I'm not crazy." You plead. "Or grieving. Damian was right here, I was telling him about you and Bruce. He made me toast."
His gaze switches to the uneaten plate, and softens into what could only be pity. You have to swallow back the bitter taste at the sight of it.
"It's your anniversary, right?" He asks.
You stiffen, before giving him a bare nod.
"I should've called." He sighs, placing the blame on himself. "I had remembered it being around this week, but work's just been so busy andâI'm sorry. I know it must've been difficult to go through this day alone."
"Please, Dick." You stand up from the couch, walking over to where he stood. "You have to believe me."
His expression tightens, a sigh leaving his lips. "I can't."
"Why?" You plead.
"Because if I do, I would've lost him twice." He admits honestly, a rare fracture of truth beneath his usual composure. "I can't let myself think that, because I have people who need me to be here, to be grounded."
You flinch, as if he struck you. His expression immediately crumbles in regret, but he doesn't take back his words. His lips part in an effort to try and smooth out the mess laid out in front of him, when his phone rings.
He curses inaudibly, tugging at his pockets to take out his phone. His gaze falls to the contact name, and his lashes narrow. He looks to you, an apology already splurging out of his lips. "I'm sorry, I really have to go. It's an emergencyâbut I will come visit right after."
You shake your head. There isn't a point if you didnât have proof, and if he wasn't going to believe you, it'd do you both better if you didnât dig into the wound so carelessly. "It's fine." Your throat squeezes tight on itself, making it hard to form your words coherently. "I'm sorry I called you all the way here, I know you've been busy."
"Hey." He calls out to you reassuringly, even as his ringtone vibrates lowly between the two of you. "I'm always here if you need me, you got that? Being busy doesn't mean I can't make time for you if you need a listening ear."
You nod stiffly, as convincingly as you could. "You should go, Dick. City needs you."
He stares at you, concern flooding his gaze once more. You smile weakly at him, pushing at his shoulder towards the door. "Go." You reassure him. "I'll text you if I need anything, okay?"
He nods once, lips pulling downward in consideration before his phone starts ringing again at a louder volume. He lets out a low sigh, hand coming up to squeeze yours over his shoulder in a comforting manner. "Anything, alright?" He murmurs.
You give him the barest nod, watching as he walked out the door, closing it behind him. The moment the door clicks shut, you find yourself on the kitchen floor.
Your sobs rack your body violently, your palms covering your mouth as you let it out. You don't know how long you spend, keeling over yourself as you rock back and forth, tears streaming down your cheeks before you eventually found yourself laying on the cool tiles, the only sensation that registers to your body.
You don't know how many minutes you spent going over the words shared between you and the Damian you swore was right in front of you, the scent of toast still lingering in the air before your eyes finally fall shut, body shutting down from exhaustion.
When you wake, you find yourself tucked in your sheets. You vaguely remember laying on the kitchen floor, not even having the energy required to drag yourself to your bedroom. The room is dark, which means the entire day has passed. Did Dickâor someone else come in through the door and carry you onto the bed?
You don't think you locked the door, but you don't trust in your memory to recall any recurring events in a faithful manner. Your gaze shifts from the window where the glow of the street lamp illuminates a warm tint over the streets, before your neck cranes to your right.
A shadow sits at the corner of the bed, back facing you.
Your heart nearly drops to your feet. Your call doesn't dare sound hopeful, almost frightened. "Damian?"
His head shifts, and green eyes, haunted by shadowsâmeet yours.
"Are you my imagination?" You whisper. "Am I dreaming again because if I am, this is justââ Cruel.
He doesn't answer, lifting himself off the corner to sit beside you instead. Slowly, his hand takes yoursâand there it is again, that fading ebb-and-flow of warmth between his fingers.
"Talk to me." You say numbly. "Or I'll really think I'm going insane."
"I don't knowâ" His voice fills your ears, and the relief is almost sickening. "âhow to fix this. Or make it easier to bear. I am only worsening your pain."
Your lip trembles, and you bite at it to keep something, anything from flooding out. "Do you know what day it is today?" You murmur, exhaustion plaguing your voice.
Damian doesn't even pause to think. "Our anniversary."
"Yeah." You smile wryly. "You missed it for the second time this year."
His fingers running over the beat of your pulse, freeze. The faintest whisper leaves his lips, and it is nothing short of broken. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay. Youâll make it up to me, wonât you?" You swallow thickly, trying your best to keep it together. "I was going to take you to that Thai place we love down the street, after meeting your family. Thought it'd be a good welcome-back present of some sorts, y'know?"
He stays silent, but you spot the clench of his jaw, the thick lump forming at his throat.
"This is so sick." You laugh weakly, tears pooling at the corner of your eyes. "What kind of reality is this?"
You hear the faint whisper of your name. His hand traces over your temple, brushing back the loosened strands. "I'm sorry." It comes out stronger this time, as if the vowels have finally found suit a place in his vocabulary.
"Stop apologising." You scold softly. "I want you here."
He understands your request immediately, scooting closer and falling into the sheets as his arms wrap around you. In the weight of his embrace, you finally let yourself fall apart a little, face buried into his chest and inhaling his comforting scent.
"Your heart.â You whisper, unable to sense the rhythmic beating youâre used to finding. âWhere is it, Dami?â
âWhere itâs always been.â He murmurs, arms pulling you impossibly closer.
There is a missing link, something youâre terrified of missing. He is real, as even your mind canât conjure something as complex as the halftime beat of his thumb brushing against your lower back, or the way his fingers brush through the nape of your neck, finding your temple and resting over it with a soothing amount of pressure.
âYouââ Your voice trembles, afraid to ask. âHow is any of this possible?â
âI donât know.â He answers honestly. âI only know that you called. I was finally able to answer.â
The rules settle quickly, the doâs and donâtâs of his existence. When you walk out the front door, he disappears, but not entirely. He merely reappears in the kitchen as he did the morning you found him, time operating as a frozen capsule within the walls of your apartment, with your current present tuned down to a low, buzzing humâenough for his presence to stay. When you exit the apartment, itâs as if life comes flooding back in motionâroaring in its intensity that Damian simply vanishes. Not home, or anywhere. As reality intended.
You canât have people enter the threshold of the apartment either, not without Damian completely disappearing from the rooms. Your only attempt had ended with Dick pleading with you to see a professional.
The conversation still lingers like a bitter aftertaste of stale coffee, when you let yourself imagine his exhausted, frantic expression when you searched the apartment upside-down in the hopes of letting him see his baby brother again.
You donât call Dick over much after that, only the here-and-there messages that you've recovered and that you're doing better. You donât mention Damian, and the texts tentatively recover into a semblance of the norm, his usual check-ups and quips before he disappears into his long list of responsibilities.
You adjust, creating something sacred out of the cruelty, and you make things work, to reduce the risks of his disappearance to only what was neededâfor work, or quick supply runs that are now meant for two. You have to, because youâd rather have Damian with the shattered edges of reality falling in on you, than lose him forever.
Your head rests on his chest late in the night, updating him on the past twenty-four months of your life through your photo album while he watches you, trying to bring some of the outside world in for him. Thatâs one strange loophole, that so long as itâs only you who witnesses it, he doesnât fade from existence. You had tried face-timing Tim once, and felt the sudden emptiness of Damianâs weight beside you. The tears were difficult to explain, as was the way you frantically ended the call after, refusing to show how shattered you felt.
Loopholes were small miracles, ones you were trying to exploit in the hopes the world would carry on without punishing either of you for testing the waters. That eventually, youâd find a way to right the mess.
But you know itâs not enough. How could it be? When paranoia runs so rampant, or the quiet lingers too long when youâre in a different room, and you canât stop yourself from checkingâfrom slamming yourself into the door to catch him staring at you, as if he expected your anxious movement minutes before.
Damian is nothing but a master at concealing his own doubts, from letting his frustrations plague your own wearing strength. It does not change the fact that he is still human. You find him mostly at your desk when he assumes you've finally fallen asleep, pen in hand with his hand running through his thick locks, growing out at the edges from not having been cut for weeks. You never see what heâs writingânot before he hears your quiet footsteps and gently folds the paper away.
He would reassure you silently, a warm, gentle touch over your face, cupping them in his hands and pressing soft kisses over your skin to replace your worries. Heâd whisper âIâm realâ over and over again till youâre sure even your imagination couldnât conjure the trace of his fingers down your lower back, the way his gaze softens when you finally let yourself fall into his embrace.
You donât ask unless heâs willing to speak of it, because Damian in his own way is coping with this fractured reality, where you are only able to have each other in the confined walls of your home, without him being able to truly live in this world. You know it takes a toll on him, youâre just waiting for him to realise he doesnât have to remain strong for the both of you.
You let him have the peace of doing what he feels he must, scribbling away in urgency into the paper, because for as much as Damian has lost normalcy in his life, you could only give him whatever he was able to still grasp.
âHey, you! Itâs been so long since weâve seen each other!â Steph exclaims, pulling you into a hug.
âMissed you too, Steph.â You huff at the impact, a warm smile spreading across your lips.
âWhere have you been?â She continues, pulling back to analyse your face with a scrutinising expression. âWoahâactually, you look great. Have you been skipping less dinners?â
Your lips part automatically, almost wanting to say Damianâs taken up the cooking. It falls shut immediately, along with your expression. Your voice is tender, testing your words carefully. âYeah, something like that.â
âGood. Iâm obliged as the wiser one to have nagging privileges since Dick isnât hereâno matter how busy life gets, you canât skip what makes life worth living.â
âChocolate chip pancakes?â You raise a brow.
âThat too.â She grins. âBut Iâm really glad to see you. Itâs been ages.â
Your heart tremors with guilt. Ever since Damian reappeared back in your life, youâve been putting off so much. Life outside had begun to feel like an intrusion, a compulsory step before you made it home to where the miracle sparked, suspended in time. Even now, youâre terrified the one night you let your guard down, you might come back to an empty apartment. Where youâll fall asleep and he wonât be there at the corner of the bed, waiting for you to bid him closer and being dragged into his embrace.
âItâs really good to see you.â Your voice softens, taking in the sight of her blond locks, her purple sweater, and the underlying relief in her expression.
Her smile brightens and her arm wraps around your shoulder, dragging you along. âCome on, Iâve got this new place I want to check out. Heard the ownerâs a huge fan of Spoiler.â
âYouâre not going to bargain deals with your merchandise, are you?â
She hums a sweet tune, head facing forward.
âSteph.â You snort.
âWhatâitâs a good strategy.â She shrugs. âTell me itâs not genius.â
âItâs definitely classic you.â
âYeah, classic me is a genius, same diff.â She grins, steps rushing slightly whenever she gets excited, particularly when it comes to food. The door bell jingles when you both step into the small bistro, the scent of honey and sugared powder filling your nose.
You can imagine Damianâs nose wrinkling at the overly sweet scent, but the thought doesnât have time to stick before Stephâs already pulling you over to the corner seating, with a perfect view of Wayne Tower in the distance. Your gaze flickers to the tower, before drawing it back to Steph whoâs looking over the menu.
âDamian would hate this place.â She says suddenly.
The tilt of your lip freezes, and she casts you a knowing look. âYou thought it.â Steph murmurs, placing the menu down. âI know that look.â
Your lips part, mouth dry. âWe donât have to, Steph.â
âNo, itâs okay. I don't want you feeling like it's a no-go zone with me.â She smiles gently. Thereâs that part of her you never stopped admiring, her bravery to speak for what others never dared to see. âI do actually miss making fun of him.â
He misses you too, you want to say. He misses you all.
âSometimes, I wish he left something for us.â Steph murmurs, her smile lessening into something honest. âHe was loud with his actions, and he could never resist an insult butâit just feels like I have nothing much to remind myself of him.â
You pause, her suggestion seeping into your bones. Your gaze widens imperceptibly, but she doesnât notice.
âThereâs Titus, of course.â She jokes wryly. âThat beast always tackles me whenever I visit the manor. Guess I know where he got his manners from.â
Youâre half-tuning out, because that could be it. Damian could write something so personal to each of themâso theyâd at least he know he exists somehow. In this world.
âYouâre right, Steph.â You mutter, lost in thought.
âOf course I am. Have you seen Titus recently?â She snorts. âWeighs a truck if he jumps you from the back.â
You shake your head, a fond smile tilting your lips upward. Maybe finally, you have a chance through this loophole, a way to bridge the unseen and the present. You may have a way to bring him backâpast the walls of your home.
The nature of Damian is beginning to reform under his bones. The burn of his questions, how he goes silent when he formulates a plan, only without the hesitation he once held in the first few weeks on the prospect of breathing life into the abnormality of his existence.
âWhat was your wish?â Damian murmurs, gaze peering over you as you tumble into the sheets, feeling his arms slowly wrap around you, pulling you closer to his side of the bed. âI heard you call my name, but nothing of your request.â
âIt was the same thing, always.â You recall faintly. âThat I didnât want to ever get used to coming home to our apartment alone. That I could see you again, and remember what life used to feel like with you.â
The specific details of your wish echo in your thoughts, your mind capturing onto the specificity of your words. You feel his mind register it faster than yours, but he doesn't form any accusations, not the way your own brain immediately pinpoints to.
âIs that why you canât step a foot out of our home?â You realise, dread thumping patiently as it inches closer to guilt. âWhy no one can see you except for me?â
He calls out your name, stopping you in your tracks. âIt is not your fault.â He says before youâve even voiced it out. âDo not carry on a burden that isnât yours to bear.â
âWhat ifâif that's the reason, would you stay?â You ask in the dark. âThis doesnât feelââ
Sustainable or fair orâhorrible words pile on top of the other, right at the tip of your tongue. You feel the paranoia that traces along the edge of every conversation you have with himâlike the waiting still hasnât ended. That the world hasnât quite let loose of its claws on either of you.
âFor as long you want me, Iâll always be here.â Damian reassures you, hand lifting to press against your cheek, grounding you.
Thatâs impossible, you almost want to say. Youâll always want him.
âWhat about you?â You ask quietly. âYou look tired, Dami.â
He stares at you for a beat, and you feel the gears in his mind turning. His under-eyes are clear of dark circles, his body shows no signs of exhaustion, although you know he hasnât truly slept since his return. You feel it sometimes in your half-awake state, when he lets his guard downâand the trace of his fingers over your pulse.
âIt is difficult to rest.â He answers honestly, a dry swallow in his throat. âIt does not feel like living. There is no calling for survival, not when I am trapped in place. I am not wholeâbut the feeling fades when you are here.â
âI want to make things better for you.â You wish desperately.
His gaze softens at the edges. âYou are.â
âI want to actually try something. I have an idea, Iâm not sure if itâll work or change anything.â You admit. âI know youâve been writing every night. I was thinkingâwould you write letters? To your family? Steph mentioned that sheâd like to have something to remember you by.â
His hold tightens over your shoulders, before forcing himself to relax.
âI just thinkâit might work.â You go on, fingers pressed softly against the expanse of his chest, right where the fabric bunches over your gripâwhere his heartbeat should be. âIf they believe it too, I donât knowâit sounds silly.â
"Beloved.â He calls, his expression twisting in consideration. âIâve⌠already written letters.â
Your lips part in astonishment. Has that been what heâs been doing this entire time? âLeave it to you to already have a plan.â You tease softly.
His lips quirk slightly, but thereâs still that lingering solemnity in his gaze thatâs never fully lifted. âIâve written letters for you too.â
Your brows furrow. âWhyââ
Looking into his eyes, you spot the knowingâthe underlying preparation of a man not truly believing the cards are in his favour.
âNo.â Pushing yourself away from the sheets, out of his embraceâyou stare at him wordlessly, that familiar pounding beginning in your chest.
âTell me you havenât been writing goodbye letters, Damian.â You plead.
He only watches you, choosing to remain silent becauseâhe could never lie to you. Not without you catching it in the twinge of his expression, the purse of his lips.
âNo, I donât want to think thatânot when the impossible has already happened.â You shake your head. âI canât handle a goodbye.â
âIt is not a certainty.â He reminds you.
âI know but I have to believe.â Your voice breaks. âI believed every night, that somehow, youâd come back to meâand you did. So, I donât want a goodbye, Damian.â
âI want you to live your life.â You admit in earnest. âNot to be sealed in here, waiting only for me. You are so greatâyou deserve the chance to be so much more. If there is even a possibility, I want you to fightâto get your life back.â
You are asking a difficult task, for Damian who doesn't put faith in what he can't predict without data or evidence. You see the argument, the calculation weighing in his mind but then he looks at you andâsomething in him gives. For all that heâs fought for, defying even the rules of the dead, half-whole in a world that once belonged to him as much as it does to you, he has never found the strength to say no to you.
âAlright.â He answers softly. âI will try.â
He has broken his promise only once in your entire lifetime of knowing each other, but tonight, you place your trust in himâthat heâd keep this one.
The letters are a brilliant plan. Itâs the most hopeful youâve felt in weeks. Damian waits by the door, a safe two feet away from the threshold where he had last vanished through the hold of your fingers when you both attempted to cross.
âThis will work.â You mutter, strapping on your boots.
Looking back to him, Damianâs already watching you, your favourite coat already over his forearm. He doesnât make a comment, but when you lift your arms for him to put on the coat, as the sleeves loop throughâhe leans in and closes the distance.
He doesnât loosen his hold, tugging you closer till youâre wrapped in his scentâand his lips crash into yours. Itâs anything but soft, nothing withheld. Itâs a promiseâunspoken, and a Damian unraveled. Your free hand wraps instinctively around the nape of his neck, tugging softly at the dark waves that have grown past his usual desired length.
A low sound vibrates against his throat, the intensity of him burning through his skin. It is not a goodbye, you remind yourself, refusing to let anything wet prick at your eyes. You are going to fix thisâand he was going to come home.
âI love you.â You gasp against his lips, mere seconds after he finally parts to let you have air.
His hand rises to cup your cheek, gaze focused over your featuresâbefore finally looking you straight in the eyes. âI am yours. Every part of me always.â
You swallow thickly. âAlways.â
You want Damian. You want him in all the worst parts of himâthe part of him that left and never came back, the part of him that immediately thought to make your favourite breakfast in the first instance of his return, the only person who you wanted to spend the rest of your life with.
âIâll be right back.â You promise, grip tightening over the letters.
His gaze flickers with want, uneaseâa multitude of emotions so vulnerably human, and you understand. Youâre the only who will. He lets you take a step back, and you can feel it even when you turnâthat he never takes his eyes off of you.
Itâs a reassuring weightâof course, till the letters disappear from the grip of your fingers the moment you step out the door. Time splits on itself when your heart dropsâgaze snapping to your empty hand, proof of his existence written tirelessly in the thick stack of letters gone without a trace. When you spin back around to your apartment, the sight of Damian behind you disappears with it.
He's gone.
You don't move. Not for a few minutes, staring into the empty space where he once occupied. The door remains open, the buzzing roar of life beyond the threshold numbed to your senses. Eventually, when reality hits you right below your ribs, you do what was only inevitable. You break.
Damian reappears an hour past midnight, one of the longest instances heâs ever gone missing from the apartment. One of the days you truly needed him, you spent alone waiting. He finds you crumpled on the kitchen floor, hands emptyâgaze staring blankly into the wall. The wall that holds memories, picture frames of your life with himâand your eyes peer soullessly into the distance.
You faintly register the stir of tension in the air, but youâre tired. Itching faintly for something to happen, the clock ticking down in your mind rendered useless. Your last solution has failed.
Damian stands in your kitchen as he did the first time, when it had all seemed like a dream, and you have nothing to say.
Damian eventually speaks, and it is nothing you want to hear. âWe must cease this.â
Your head cranes, looking at him with defeat. Still, you shake your head weakly. You spot that familiar fire, lit in his gaze when his jaw clenches at your stubbornness.
Of course you recognise it. That fire you faced before he had gone out that door two years ago. Your biggest regret had been letting him go, not fighting harder. Itâs just thatâyouâre so exhausted. You need time to think, to replan, to not feel like youâre on the verge of puking because youâre so afraid and you canât do anything about it.
âThere is no denying this. Every instance I reappear, I see your griefâand I am reminded that I am the cause of your suffering.â He says, low and pained. âThat I have failed you, and even now, I chain you.â
âDamian, stop.â You plead, trying to shut it out.
âIt is the truth.â He states numbly. âYou are not living. For as long as I remain, youâll be chained to the memory, and I have to watch you lose yourself because I am not able to let you go.â
âI have failed you.â He repeats. âBut I will not be the reason that you do not live. For as long as I remain here, never truly whole, neither will you.â
âDonât you understand?â You snap. âI havenât been whole! Not since the day you died. You leaving wonât change that. Our realityâit isnât ideal, and itâs terrifying that every time I open that door, I fear I wonât ever see you again, but Iâve lived more now than I have in these past two years.â
âYou are still hurting.â His narrowed gaze assesses the trembling of your body, the dullness in your eyes. âTell me it is enough. Having me hereâa fracture of who I used to be.â
Your lips part, and your heart tremors with a painful ache. âI donât care.â Your voice breaks. âAs long as I have you, the pain is nothing compared to not having you at all.â
âBut I do.â He pleads. âI refuse to be your chain. The reason your life is reduced to this. You told me that I deserved to be something more. Have you not considered that I want the same for you?â
âWhat do you want me to do, Damian?â Your voice croaks, exhausted. âWhat do you propose we do?â
âI want youââ His expression tightens. ââto rescind your wish.â
âNo.â Stumbling in your step as you try and fail to rise from the tiles, heâs in front of you in seconds.
You push weakly at his grip that steadies you, anger churning something bitter in your gut that heâs so willing to throw away his promiseâthe only one you have left for him to keep.
He calls your name, pleadingâurgent. "I think this is the end."
"No." You shake your head adamantly, tears soaking your cheeks. "Please."
"I love you." He murmurs. "I love you, and I do not expect your forgiveness."
"What about always?" You break. "Please, I can't lose you again. I can'tâI imagined this life with you, Damian. I can't have you again, and lose youâplease. Don't go."
His composure shatters the second those words leave you, regret sweeping his entire expression. "I have failed you."
You don't want to hear this. You want him to stay, and for this stupid wish to lastâand for the universe to answer your desperate cries to not take him away.
"I love you." Grabbing a fistful of his shirt, you clench tightly as if it could prevent the striking of the clock taking him away. "I can't love anybody else, it's only ever been you."
"I love you." He whispers in devotion, voice raw. "I have only ever seen you. It was always you."
Was. As if he's already seen the inevitability of his going.
"Damian." Your voice is scattered, torn between misplaced rage and desperationâbut none of it holds true. "You promised meâthat you'd never break your promises. Why?"
Why did he go out on that mission? Why did he not heed your words on waiting for back-up, for someone to be by his side? Why did he leave you alone in this damned apartment, waiting for his return only to open the door to Dick's blank expression battered, where he had to watch you fall in on yourself.
"You should've listened to me." Your fists dig into his chest. "You should've stayed home, with me. Instead of that stupid missionâand leaving me alone. You idiot."
"I know." He murmurs, letting you take it out on him. Even now, he was accommodating youâtaking in all your anger even when you didn't want to leave it at this.
You're picking a fight, because you didn't want this to end. Whenever you got in an argument with Damian, he'd refuse to leave it till it was solved. Somewhere in your logic twisted by grief, you wondered if even his determination for your forgiveness would outweigh the cruelty of your wish.
"Fight, damnitâDamian, fight." You cry out, tears forming a puddle onto his shirt. "Don't leave it at this."
"Beloved." He whispers, gazing at you with so much love, it leaves you hollow.
"I wrote letters." He whispers, memorising you with intent. "As many as I could."
You faintly register his words, somewhere beneath the numbness your body is undergoing to process the heavy, sinking chain dragging at your heart.
"I know it's not enough, it never will be." He mutters. "But I wrote them to keep you company. To scream at me, to hate meâeverything. What I never got to say, nothing is amiss."
A low, mocking huff leaves his lips not long after his words. "You can burn them if it reminds you of my failures, or if you wish to be part of the memory of me when it only serves you pain. Butâ"
He swallows, fingers tightening around you. "If you wish to hear my voice, to have me by your sideâI am there. In those letters, you'll have me, always. My last thoughts, my wishesâthey're all of you. They've always been about you."
âNo, this canât end.â Your voice breaks. âPlease.â
âIt will end eventually.â His voice lowers, attempting to soothe the cutting truth of his words. âIt is my only mercy that I can face you this time, before I go.â
âWhy does it have to end?â You mutter into the dark. âIsnât this enough?â
âIt is more than Iâll ever deserve.â He confesses, pressing his lips softly to the crown of your head.
Your words are lost on your tongue, a horrible taste of grief rendering you immobile as you collapse fully into his touch. He holds you, that same pressure over your temple, fingers brushing over the nape of your neck.
âTell me.â Your body succumbs before your mind, eyes closing shut. âEverything. From the start. I want to hear it all. Please.â
His fingers linger over your temple, before brushing back loose strands of hair to tuck behind your ear. You feel it then, finally, the low thump right where his heart should be. Then, he starts, and you hear the story of how the two of you met from his eyes. You let yourself fall into step with his memory, the last youâll ever hear of it. In the knowing of a goodbye, you focus on the slight tremor in his voice, the tight grip of his handâand how his faint heart was finally beating now that youâve given it back.
You find the stack of letters in the morning, kept neatly in your drawerâall addressed to different names. Father. Mother. Brown. Drake. Grayson. Todd. Duke. Cassandra. The list went on. Your own stack is separated, in a thick bundle that mustâve began from the first time you caught him writing.
The world was impossibly cruel yet fair, his letters remaining despite the impossibility, the scent of him still coating the paper. He is gone, and the existence of him remains.
Life is heightened back to its usual roar, the faint chaos of the streets beyond the walls of your apartment playing as if nothing had ever changed. The quiet greets you like an old friend, and there is no shuffling of the sheets when you wake, no toast at the counter.
Your fingers grip at the first letter, trembling as you open the first. You hear his voice immediatelyâand nothing prepares you for it, as if he sealed himself within the pages. You feel the warmth of his touch, the low candor of his voice, reading it to you.
"To my beloved.â
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I have never actually sobbed over a fic before. Tears down my face and shaky exhales, holy shit. I can't properly articulate what this has just done to me.
The money Iâd pay to have Jason Todd shirtless, on his stomach with sweatpants hanging low while I straddle his slutty waist and leave hickeys all over his back, and munch on his shoulders like heâs my favourite snack, and mess up his hair with my fingers, and give him neck kisses that would make him groan, and squeeze his biceps because theyâre so bigâ