Inspired [this] post by @twolegsandbleeds
You've been dating ghost for months...but he refuses to kiss you.
It'd driving you mad. Ghost is more than happy to bend you over his desk, push you against the walls, fuck you stupid wherever you ask for him. But not once does he kiss you properly.
"Simon....do you...do you love me?" You ask one night, back tucked to ghosts chest in your apartment. Never his.
Silence drags longer than you're comfortable with.
"Yes. O' course i do, lovie." He finally replies, dragging one arm over you, pulling you closer as if to end the conversation. But you can't drop it, not after so long of feeling inadequate.
"But...I've never been to your apartment. And you refuse to kiss me...and–" you choke for a second, only realizing you've started crying when your throat goes tight.
"I have kissed you." Ghost corrects. pointedly ignores everything else.
"Yeah, through that damn mask." You hiss, finally turning around to glare at him. Even now, ghost is wearing that stupid thin balaclava he sleeps in "i don't even know what you've look like! I've never touched your face! But you get to see every part of me!"
You don't mean to say it like that, like he owes you what you know is such a traumatic and personal thing, but it's the only way the words come out.
"You won't like what you see." Ghost warns, eyes narrowed and brows pinched in that discomfort you've learned to recognize "I'm not– Easy to love. You wouldn't want to stay."
It's the most vulnerable he's ever been with you.
"You can't make that decision for me. You can't decide how I feel, simon." You try to reason, sliding a hand up to cup his covered jaw. "Please. I love you. I want to love you, if you let me."
Ghost stares at you, silent.
"I....I can't." You want to scream, but ghost gently tucks your head against his chest, rests his chin against you "not...not now. Give me time. Wait for me."
"...okay. I can wait. Just, don't block me out." You sigh, pushing so close you can hear the hammer of his heartbeat.
"I know, love. I'm trying."