NeverEnding Story

Ballerina to Mathematician to Anthropologist. I am who I am today because of the choices I made yesterday.

[bunnyxchoo]

I always believed that LOVE conquered all things. Classic Disney movies night after night, fairytale stories before bedtime, and dreaming of Neverland. Perhaps it was my parents upbringing with their naive idea to implement such thoughts to my head and to avoid the harsh reality of the world. But I'm a big kid now to understand between the "rights" & "wrongs" and the "reals" & "fakes". I have responsibilities beyond what I can mentally handle and little time for daydreams. What is depressing of all is the inner child inside me is diminishing before my eyes and the harsh fantasy that a fairy will drop dead cold once I stop believing in them completely. (What would Peter Pan and the Lost Boys say! The horror!) Yes, I'm an adult now and it's time to move on from my childish games and dream. And importantly, LOVE does not conquer all things... It's one harsh truth I need to take in and move on.

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All too familiar...

I've been down this road before... The difference between then and now is that I know what is up ahead. I will fall no doubt, but this time I may not get back up.

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CHEWY, I KNOW YOU’LL SEE THIS AT SOME POINT DOESN’T THIS LOOK LIKE US?? DOESN’T IT?!!

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That moment before getting to the bottom comment and thinking how much this gif resembles my roomie and I.  Great mind thinks alike OR is it that we've grown accustomed to thinking alike??? LOL~

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Pouring Rain

On a rainy night as this one right now, as the sound of raindrops hits a surface, it's inevitable but to think of you.

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Just simply watch me dance and you will understand.

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Gotta love the NEW GIRL casts ^-^

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the Storm will Pass...

I'm an optimist, not a pessimist. I truly love the world around me and the people I share it with. I put a smile on my face not to show people I'm happy-go-dovey individual, but to put another smile on their face. I am happy, well most of the time. HAHA~ I only want people to see and enjoy the sunshine and not the passing storm that happens within me. Lately, I have been struggling to keep control and not let the dark past take over. Gradually each day I feel as if I'm losing my grip and fear soon enough I will lose complete control. No one needs to see that. "You are the one person I never wanted to cry in front of." - for many reasons.

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Incredibly irritated, anxious, no control week...

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Prince Charming vs The Knight in Shining Armor

Prince Charming.  So many girls spend their lives chasing and waiting eagerly for this so-called Prince Charming. Such a name paints a picture of gentle, quite, nice boy, well mannered, perfectly groomed, with perfect family and a perfect fairytale castle. Literally screams out ‘PERFECT everything’. What's wrong with this so-called Prince Charming? It's completely dull. 

On the other hand we have The Knight in Shining Armor. Seated atop his noble steed, sword in hand, ready for action. The Knight is brave, bold, and willing to search out, fight and forever defend the Princess. He seeks out for adventures and slaying dragons... fearless, reckless adventures.

[bunnyxchoo]

There is no desire more powerful than sex. Sexual desire looms so large that nothing stands outside of it. But luckily there is only one such desire, for were there yet another there would not be a single person in all the world capable of the Way.

Buddha's words, #22 from The Scripture in 42 Sections

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January

Halfway into January of the new year and I haven’t quite completed any accomplishments that would satisfy my inner-self excitement. What is holding me back? Lame excuses of still being in school…Only 2 weeks into winter quarter and I’m already behind struggling to catch up to my schoolworks. The lack of determination and focus is dragging me down from being on TOP of my game.

What is currently on my mind: I simply yearn to sit down with my best friends, sipping on coffee and tea just laughing our asses off. This small fantasy of mine is not happening anytime soon, as the physical distance between all of us gradually grows. We are growing up, going our separate ways, living our lives with added responsibilities, and soon we’ll be deeply consumed individually. But it’s okay, the day will come when we all see each other in one setting. I simply just miss you all

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Monday night productive study time has been replaced with knitting and many episodes of Big Bang Theory.

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The cold weather finally approaches and chilly winds are blowing. Gravity effortlessly makes leaves fall to the ground leaving trees bare.

Once again it's that time of the year where I reflect upon the past 11 months.  Among many events that happened this year, some are more significant than others leaving behind an imprint of how the year 2012 will be remembered. With only ONE month left ahead, there's plenty of time for unexpected surprises around every corner that can result my change of heart. But for now, I'm happy.

[bunnyxchoo]

Current thoughts

- my leg muscles are deadly sore. - bipolar weather. - "YOU" are a complete idiot. - mountain high amount of schoolwork this weekend. - clubbing tomorrow for the first time? - "That ignorant fool." Why do I even bother.

[bunnyxchoo]

today's RANDOM thought

There are things in life that you cannot possibly control.

Time and falling in love.

Tick tock, time will continue to pass even if your watch stops.

You can only manipulate the use of time to your advantage… that's it.

Love, it's inevitably.

You don't choose to fall in Love, it just fucken happens.

[bunnyxchoo]