Gemini

[butcherdheart]

I now understand why people choose to eliminate themselves

[butcherdheart]

The hardest part is watching people who owe you money enjoy the holidays,traveling across the country, out with family and friends, living it up,while they keep feeding you excuses. The bank isn’t working. They were sick. Something came up. Promises after promises.

Meanwhile, I’m sitting here waiting, just hoping for enough to buy my son a small gift, a new piece of clothing, or take him out for pizza or a simple picnic, something he’d enjoy. I can’t do any of that, yet I have to watch the same people who made promises live freely and happily.

Is this what adulthood really is? Is this how life works? Because it honestly hurts, carrying that quiet pain in your chest, having no one to help, nothing you can do, and still having to smile like everything is fine.

And as if that isn’t enough, there’s the back-to-school pressure on top of it all,fees, supplies, uniforms, constant stress with no breathing room. Add unemployment into the mix, and this whole situation just feels overwhelming. It’s one thing piling onto another, and honestly, it’s driving me crazy. The uncertainty, the waiting, the responsibility, the silence, it’s a lot. I’m trying to hold it together, but right now everything feels fucked up, and I’m exhausted.

[butcherdheart]

[darkpoeticsoul]

[vexheart]

[terrorignitis]

Juansen Dizon, i am the architect of my own destruction

[butcherdheart]

I'm truly the architect of my own downfalls

[sometiktoksarevalid]

[butcherdheart]

[butcherdheart]

[perfectfeelings]

“Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.”

— Nico Lang

[mournfulroses]

Ōtomo no Yakamochi, from a poem featured in From the country of Eight Islands; an anthology of Japanese Poetry

[butcherdheart]

[thoughtkick]

“Stop justifying, defending, and explaining yourself. If something is correct for you, move forward with confidence.”

— Unknown

[pinnipetal]

I do really think that the use of ChatGPT and genAI by students highlights the fundamental flaw of our education system focusing almost entirely on grades and test scores rather than generating curiosity and inquiry, which produces individuals who fundamentally do not understand that the purpose of an assignment is meant to be to learn *how* to do something, not simply to produce a product you can turn in to get an A+

[inkcobwebs]

𝚋𝚞𝚝 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚖 𝚒 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚖𝚢 𝚎𝚖𝚙𝚊𝚝𝚑𝚢? 𝚠𝚑𝚘 𝚊𝚖 𝚒 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚜𝚎𝚗𝚜𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚝?

˚. ✦.˳·˖✶ ⋆.✧˚

[istilllovingyou]

𝙎𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙢𝙚𝙨 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙮,

"𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪, 𝙗𝙪𝙩…"

𝙏𝙝𝙖𝙩'𝙨 𝙬𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙬𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙮. 𝘽𝙪𝙩 𝙩𝙝𝙚 "𝙗𝙪𝙩" 𝙩𝙖𝙠𝙚𝙨 𝙖𝙬𝙖𝙮 𝙛𝙧𝙤𝙢 𝙩𝙝𝙚 "𝙄 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙮𝙤𝙪."

𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬𝙨 𝙣𝙤 "𝙗𝙪𝙩𝙨," "𝙞𝙛𝙨," 𝙤𝙧 "𝙬𝙝𝙚𝙣𝙨."

𝙄𝙩 𝙨𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙮 𝙚𝙭𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙨 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙖𝙡𝙬𝙖𝙮𝙨 𝙚𝙭𝙞𝙨𝙩𝙨.

𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙝𝙖𝙨 𝙣𝙤 𝙗𝙚𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙤𝙧 𝙚𝙣𝙙.

𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙨 𝙖𝙣 𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙙𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙢𝙞𝙣𝙙.

𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙚 𝙞𝙨𝙣'𝙩 𝙖𝙣 𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙨 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙢𝙤𝙤𝙙.

𝙒𝙚 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙖 𝙥𝙞𝙚𝙘𝙚 𝙤𝙛 𝙞𝙩 𝙞𝙣 𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙝𝙚𝙖𝙧𝙩𝙨.

[whendidmythoughtsgocrazy]

I would have kept choosing you forever but you made me choose myself.

k.b. // by @/brennenbeckwith - tiktok