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Romanticize your life. Make it into a movie that you’ve always dreamed of. Don’t let no one stop you from making your life enjoyable, not even yourself. Make it beautiful, make it worth living.

I feel myself drifting. I’ve been so incredibly happy for so long but always scared that my sadness would come back. I’m trying my hardest to radiate light but I don’t know if I can. So many people in my life are toxic. I’ve let so many people in who don’t get me or care about me. I want to pull back but then I become the villain. Sometimes I miss the old me. The bitch who didn’t give a fuck. All I want is peace and joy. I want to feel pretty and laugh with those I truly love. I feel like a shell of a person and it’s just a lot for me right now. I’m sick of having to make elaborate plans and processes to be happy in the name of self-care. Why is it so hard for me to just enjoy life? To live? I feel trapped- a feeling that isn’t unfamiliar to me. I’ve felt stuck in the life, this body, this world for so long. Whatever maybe this is just the retrograde talking but idk.

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I’m running for president under the slogan “fuck around and find out”

Watch me transform into a queer unicorn for world pride 💜🌈✨

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“She’s like a second chance for me. I was widowed very young. My husband died in a car crash. Our daughter was only six at the time, and I barely got to see her because I was always working. She was mainly raised by my mother. I remember on the weekends she always wanted to go to the cinema, but I’d suggest other activities because it was our only chance to talk. But things are different with my granddaughter. I have all the time in the world. I can focus on her completely. She lives in another town, but she visits once a week and we spend the whole day together. I look forward to it all week. I prepare her favorite foods, mostly cheeseburgers because she loves cheeseburgers. We go on walks. And we sit in the park. And we paint a lot. And we read books. This morning we played hide-and-seek in the apartment. Her head was always sticking out, but I pretended not to notice.” (Barcelona, Spain)