•Victoria Summer•

Wife|Mother|Future Mortician Cannabis|Octopi|Art

[byetoriav]

JADE

There was a girl who one day awoke and everyone she ever loved was in the same room. Mingling, having a great time. All of them. They laughed, danced, sang, ate, smoked, drank; just enjoying that moment. A moment full of unconditional love. You see, for everyone she loves had died. She knew this was merely a dream. And for that she wept. But this dream was beautiful; a sort of therapy if you will. She took in every moment, every second, she took the night by storm. She let each and every soul know just how much she loved and missed them. She embraced these last dances; she felt at ease, relieved; like the sadness was almost never there. She did it. She had one more night with her loved ones. That one last night she’d been craving; longing for.

Little did she realize, she’d never had to give it up. She’d soon come to find ….

…. This wasn’t a dream at all …..

All of her loved ones had died …

She, had…. Died.

Dancing her final dance.

Reunited again.

[byetoriav]

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[prickly-pickle-cat]

I'd like to propose the idea that Remus Sanders glows in the dark. Not brightly; just a sort of soft, toxic waste, sort of deal. Or just a few spots, like freckles, that glow like a bioluminescent octopus.

[byetoriav]

Weather the Storm

You know that saying “when it rains; it pours”? It seems to be the truth for most. Same as “kick me while I’m down”. It’s like once one thing happens, a million other things follow; whether it be a few drastic things, or a million little things -fucking life - right? 

What most people don’t realize is - most of the time it’s just a test. A big fat ugly life test. As you weather the storm thats brewing, there’s a beautiful rainbow waiting for you. Again with the choices; It’s up to YOU to decide to be brave and face it. 

Many times we think it’s the end of the world. Everything’s crumbling around you and it feels you have no control what-so-ever. But you absolutely do! 

We all face our own storms; they teach us lessons, many and many of lessons. you just have to open your eyes and look; open up your ears and listen. Soak it in. Every single ounce of it. Come out stronger, riding that gorgeous rainbow.

[byetoriav]

You have a choice. Live or die. Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice. Every time you don’t throw yourself down the stairs, that’s a choice. Every time you don’t crash your car, you re-enlist.

Chuck Palahniuk, Survivor

This hit me hard tonight. Think about it. 

[quotespile]

“Just as real events are forgotten, some that never were can be in our memories as if they happened.”

— Gabriel García Márquez, Memories of My Melancholy Whores

[byetoriav]

Dancing with the Devil

There comes a time in your life where you can either; A-Run, hide, give up, and eventually die. or B-Accept whats happening, pick up the pieces, and do something about it. 

I say this as my life is crumbling before me and i have been presented with those two choices. Surely, as any normal minded person, i would chose B. But that hasn’t always been the case. In the Past, I’ve been known to tuck tail and run. I’d give up; I wouldn’t care. At one point my main goal was to die. DEATH. 

Today as i sit here in this fucked up situation that Ive found myself in once again, I’ve got a brand new attitude. I’ve chosen B for pretty much the first time in my life; at least the first time I’ve been sincere about it. 

You see, four years ago i was an addict. I was on my last leg. i had hit rock bottom. Now, my rock bottom is different than others. I still had a home, still had family, still had a job even; but mentally, i was destroyed and simply did not care anymore; i didn’t even want to live. i was consumed by my drugs of choice and my mind ran with that, making my already dark and morbid mind even more twisted. I fought personal demons, monsters, and i danced with the devil. 

Today, I’m sober, I’m a wife, I’m a Mother. I’m in Mortuary school. I’m a completely different person; yet I’m the same. I’ve fallen into a hard time and it’s the perfect opportunity to dance with my long lost friend - the Devil. It’s up to me to make that choice; every single day. And every single day i choose option B. Every single day forward i will continue to choose option B. 

It’s all about growth and acceptance. Accept your past; and grow from it. DONT DWELL ON IT. EVER. As Human Beings we learn and grow daily. we are capable of so much. You yourself are capable of so much. Life got you down? Stand up and change something. Do something. Be something. Don’t just dance with the Devil; who knows when that last dance will be..