That Girl

#thisis26

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Crave your own presence more than you crave the presence of others, enjoy yo self 💁

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Being an introvert allows me to care about humanity and despise human beings, simultaneously.

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One step at a time is okay. Baby steps are okay. Forward momentum is the key.

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Dogs are the best thing ever

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Who are you when the curtains are drawn?

When you put down your phone And let down your hair. When you wash off your war paint And slip into something cozy. Do you cry softly Into a pillow Or do you howl at the moon with the wolves?

Who are you when the curtains are drawn?

Do you dance around And sing at the top of your lungs? Or do you sit in the corner chair With a book and a cup of tea, Slowly escaping reality.

Who are you when the curtains are drawn?

Do you comfort and love yourself Or do you look to any deity available? Do you leave them drawn Or do you breathlessly fling them open?

It’s important to know Who you are in the dark.

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Passion or nothing

Biggest life crisis I think I've ever had: Is it worth it to work somewhere that doesn't match your morals, ethics or standards but does match your bank account versus going on and just doing things you love even if it means sacrificing your quality of living. I still don't know for sure but here are some thoughts: Money is awesome. Passion is everything. I'll see you on the other side.

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Doing what you love

Its not easy. If you are currently doing something that bring passion and fire to your heart, keep doing that and never stop.

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Spilling all your coffee is the adult equivalent of losing a balloon.

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Change

I always need change, I get itchy. I hate the mundane, redundancy of the day to day. I love challenges and learning new things. The ironic this is I'm also terrified of change and new things because it challenges my perfectionism complex and my need for control, stability and competence. Change is on the horizon, I can feel it in my bones.

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Priorities

"Don't say, "I don't have time” say, "It's not a priority". Using this language reminds me that time is a choice. If I’m not happy about the way I’m spending my time, I probably have the ability to change it,” - Laura Vanderkam It's amazing what a change in perspective will do.

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Purple rain

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You know what sucks?

Yeah I do. When he comes back time and time again, so you wait, only to find out he actually just wants to be friends. You were pretty enough to get him through, that was your use. When he asked you to not shut him out, and then he shuts the door in your face a week later. When he asked to be higher on your priority list and be communicated with more often, so you do. And then he just stops communicating all together. When you finally let your walls down just to be put inside a friend box. When you heard countless negative comments but continued to look past and get to know him yourself. You have a few bad weeks and everything changes. When he knew you were vulnerable but let you go there anyways, knowing his own intention full well. When all you want to do is care about him and be a part of his life - and he wants you to go away. That’s what fucking sucks.