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Name: Caden "Cade" Todd || Age: 17|| Host Type: The Cool type|| Sexuality: Pansexual Child of Highly Influential Todd family, Mother of the Ouran Host club... even though I'm a boy. Please feel free to order our new host club merchandise.

[amandahazel]

Ugh

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Pardon me for saying that I don’t think it’s quite the same for us. 

Yeah, you're probably right..

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Oh hey, don’t apologize or anything. You’re totally alright. I was just saying it’s there if you need it, you don’t have to do anything. Pffft. Why haven’t you eaten anything today? You need to eat.

Then I hope you figure it out and if you’re feeling bad, that you feel better.

Thanks. If I need anything then you're a bed away, I won't forget. Well I been sitting here talking to my room-mate about my feelings and my stomach just kinda reminded me who' s the real master so now I'm starving. Grab Lunch? 

You're really a good person Kid

[cade-todd-blog]

Right then. I don’t care what we talk about, even. We could talk about you, the Host Club, turtles, life, or… the grass. Anything. The offer’s still there.

You’re here, but are you alright?

I'm sorry, I just need to get my shit together and I'll be fine Aaron. Don't worry about me okay? How about we talk about the fact that I haven't eaten all day, I'm starving. Thank you, It means alot 

I don't know.. 

[cade-todd-blog]

Well yeah, keeping them to yourself is one thing but you made it sound like you wanted to go all robot on everything. Something have you troubled? I know it’s not much, but if you wanna talk, I’m in the same exact room- whenever you’re there, anyway. I may not understand the Todd family, but I can’t understand if you don’t let me try.

And how about you? Are you happy?

Hmm I don't whether I just don't want to feel or just keeping them to myself it's been a toss up the last couple of days.Ye... No I'm fine.. really. If I have any troubles updating my control panel I will let you know. You want talk about my cold-blooded, lack of heart-warming moments, sucess is measured by how much work you put into it, everything has to be perfect family? Not much to talk about really because we are never around each other that often. 

Me? I'm here 

[notshabby]

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Who You Are (Jessie J cover), by Ed Sheeran

[cade-todd-blog]

You can’t possibly be that stupid. In fact, I know you’re not. I know you’re smarter than that. Feelings can cause problems, but so can trying to ignore them and pretending like you don’t have them. You’re only human, Caden Todd. I couldn’t care less what your family does, how they act. You mold yourself.

What can I say? I’m happy.

I don't think I'm stupid. Sure I have feeling but some I would rather keep to myself, I'm not pretending if they aren't there. I am human but I'm not reckless Aaron Bryant. I know when to just quit before things get to much to handle. You're right but I am who I am because of them. You wouldn't understand 

Yeah, That's good 

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[cade-todd-blog]

I figured it out. Saw the mistakes of up and down. Meet in the middle. There’s always room for common ground.

[musically-inclined-scarlett-dea]

Take a Breather || Scarlett and Cade

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Scarlett raised an eyebrow, “No. Not small, a normal timed one. Which means thirty to forty five minutes. Minimum!” She said with a firm nod before looking over at him wide eyed. “I’m not mean! Your take that back,” She said with a pout placed on her lips childishly. “It grew on you to be called ‘mommy’? Has it become some kind of fetish, maybe?” She joked trying to keep a straight face as she spoke but failed, a grin forming on her lips followed by a good bit of laughter. “I’m joking!” She said waving her hand in the air at him as if to dismiss her own, rude joke.

Scarlett tilted her head to the side slightly glancing over at him. “You’d do that? I’ve gotta warn you before you even offer… education isn’t exactly my thing. I’ve got ADD when it comes to focusing on something for too long that doesn’t hold my interest.” She said honestly, with a small shrug. She didn’t expect to amount to much in the brains field, in all honesty she was relying on her music talent to try and make something of herself once she became an adult. She had nothing to really fall back on, except being a bartender she supposed. “You might, but you could also have been doing it wrong! You can’t make it boring like you do when you’re studying like this.” She said with a nod to the books.

Looking around the room as he spoke her blue hues landed on the piano. “Come on,” She nodded grabbing his hand and standing up pulling him with her then walking over to the piano. “When I taught myself to play this, I never even looked at a music sheet.” She said honestly while cracking her knuckles then playing twinkle twinkle little star. “It’s easy if you just listen to the song, then match the keys to it. As for making music, you just play what sounds right.” She noted playing the tune to her own original song, This Town (which is by Clare Bowen). “Sounds better when there’s a banjo accompanying it as well as me singing.” She said sheepishly glancing over at him.

When it was music involved, Scarlett always relaxed and was much more at easy, willing to talk about it for hours if she was allowed to.

Caden sighed " That is such a long time! Come on.. that's not doing work" His laughed " Of course you're mean! I will call you miss Grinch" Caden's eyebrows lifted at the mommy comment " No I don't think I would want anyone calling me mommy in the bedroom.. to odd" he was serious but a smile grace his lips when Scarlett swore she was joking. "It's fine, it was actually kind of funny" 

He carefully nodded " Don't worry, someone has to help the twins keep there grades up. I like a challenge" he smiled to ensure her  that he would help her no matter what. There was something about Scarlett that Caden not only respected  but he wanted to be there for her. He could tell that her life wasn't easy but somehow she still smiled genuinely and he could respect that. " How about you give me lessons, Cool guy who can play the guitar that's pretty sexy if I must say so myself. My books do take a lot of my free time" 

The other girl guided Caden across the room, her hands were really small and warm... it was cute. "Hmm, so no formal teacher huh? That's really cool" he watch the concentration on her face before she started playing." So play what you feel? I'm not really in touch with those feelings" He heard the melody enter his ears and for  a moment he was swept away  to somewhere esle away from the work or the stress but the soft hum of the music. His snapped open when the song stopped.. he was stunned. " That was perfect Scarlett, really beautiful and I think you should sing for the host club" 

This girl was something special and Caden wanted to know her more

[cade-todd-blog]

Sure, you can take care of yourself physically, but depriving yourself of all teenager things is kind of…making yourself grow up a bit fast, isn’t it? Not that you’re really… well, you’re mature enough. I don’t know. If acting like you have a heart is a weakness, then maybe you’re better off being weak; that’d be the only sense of weakness in you, but it’s an error that’ll always be there whether you accept it as one or not. You feel, Cade. People feel.

I look.. what?

At least I'll live long, what is that teenagers do? Growing up fast is apart of the Todd lifestyle, always work hard always do more than asked. Maybe and I thought the same thing for a moment but people like me don't get the luxury of having a heart... causes to much problems it's my main problem right now. In time I can forget that any of these feelings are there, that's my plan. People do I just don't want to.

  You look happier...

[amandahazel]

Ugh

[cade-todd-blog]

There’s just a lot of stuff on my metaphorical plate right now.

Happens to the best of us. I could understand, my plate is more full than my own liking

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Why shouldn’t you have said that? All it shows is that you have a heart like everyone else; you’re human, Caden. And that’s sweet of you— really, it is, that you wouldn’t want those who care for you to worry, but… I don’t know. All I’m saying is at the end of the day, remind yourself that you need to take care of yourself, too. It’s safe to say you manage a Hell of a lot, and without you, it wouldn’t function right- but as careful as you lead on to be, I don’t think you apply that to yourself much. 

What?

I just shouldn't have. That's the problem Aaron having a heart is a weakness and I can't be weak. I workout, I eat pretty healthy, and I sleep almost a good amount of hours I'm healthy. I just wouldn't know what to do if those doors closed, I have a lot riding on the success. Sometimes I wish that I could be like the rest of you guys but That's just not who I am. Lately I don't know things have be different.

  You look.. nevermind

[amandahazel]

Ugh

[cade-todd-blog]

Oh, no, Ouran has been great. There’s just a lot of stuff going on right now. I mean, life and all.

I get it, I love Ouran but life has a way of bringing it's own problems to the party

[cade-todd-blog]

Normal is boring, I’ll give you that. But I don’t think it’s exactly the most exhilarating thing in the world to have a mid-life crisis at the age of twenty either; at the rate you’re going… I mean, do you ever just think maybe you should calm down a bi—Nevermind, forget it. I sound stupid because I’ve never been in a situation like you have, and I guess it doesn’t make a lot of sense to me but that’s a part of who you are, isn’t it? I have schoolwork to worry about and you have… everything else.

I-… yeah, If you say so.

Very boring. I think I'm having a mid-life criss right about now actually. I should but I'm scared that if I stop then I be left with to my actual problems so work is a good distraction. I work hard so the people important to me have less to worry about.. I shouldn't have said that... forget it. I do the things I do for personal gain. 

Hmm

[amandahazel]

Ugh

[cade-todd-blog]

It’s been my choices. She’s never approved of what I decided to do with my life. I guess that’s why she shipped me here so I didn’t worry her or bother her or whatever it was.

She probably just wants the best for you but doesn't know how to show it. Ouran isn't that bad, maybe it's gonna give you the time that you needed. 

[amandahazel]

Ugh

[cade-todd-blog]

Oh, my mother and I never got along. That’s the problem.

Not to be rude but Why is that?

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The only lie I told there was the not-workaholic. You work way too much and it’s always on your mind; don’t you ever wonder what it’s like to act like every other teenager? To get out and enjoy yourself without all the numbers floating around in your head and haunting you at night? I mean, I’m an honor student but even I know I can’t handle work all the time.

Yeah? Whatever happened to being an open book, Cade?

I am not a workaholic by choice...it's more deeply wedged in the fabric of my being kind of thing. Normal ... that's such a boring word isn't it. What do normal teenagers do exactly. I don't meet a lot people to enjoy things with so numbers are what keep me busy. You just have to worry about school work but my mind been have other departments of work. 

Somethings are better left to myself, makes life easier 

[cade-todd-blog]

Now if I’ve been gone for two days, what on Earth makes you think I’d want more of a break away from my loving, not-workaholic roommate? You’re right, a break is nice and all but not when I’m five seconds away from bashing my head in with the nearest text book.

You’ll never know if you keep hiding away from me.

Hmm your kind words are nice but lies are not needed. If you're having a mental breakdown then I will stay then again .. work is important. Honor student you have to keep those grades up so that you can lower your debt 

It's for the best I stay in my corner of the room