Hola!

Hi! I love the world of Eldarya and recently decided to write something about it. I am not a native speaker and English is not my specialty, but I hope to learn with something I enjoy doing!

[caeli16]

I was still, rooted in the grass. The violent tremors don't scare me, it was what was on the other side of the portal that scared me. Something, a sixth sense prevented me from moving, as if I knew it inside me. That everything was about to end. I close my eyes. The last years passed before me, those in which I had been conscious. Years? Hours. Anger, sadness, confusion, love, affection, death. All screenings. The faces of those who had accompanied me, loved me, supported me passed before me, like a film. The warmth of the skin under my fingers, the lips on the lips, the hands in the hair, the arms that held tightly the bodies of those I had known. Can you love what never existed? Maybe I had always known it, which is why I had always let myself be carried away by events, I had certainly experienced them, but had my choices really had any weight? No matter, the time has come, the clock was about to strike. I sighed, I really wasn't ready to leave Eldarya. Abandon her, forever. Open your eyes, the light filters through the window. I grimaced, how long had I slept? Too much time. I was late. I got up to close the curtains, from my window I had a perfect view of the forest that bordered my villa. Who knows, maybe I’ll go for a walk later.

📝 I wanted to write down what in my head was a more dignified end than it was, we've all thought about it at least once. And I must say that it has something melancholic that makes it possible. I apologize as always for my English.

[caeli16]

Wait a second

excuse me for a second, while the heroes of the round table are busy evacuating all the fairies, no one and I mean NOBODY was thinking about Ezarel??? Can you believe that neither Nevra nor Santa Erika has it in their brain that their friend, I don't know, should be contacted? warned? taken beyond the portal? Do they literally not think about it? I don't know, is the poor Christian left to graze in his new country life without realizing that his world is ending? I am speechless. I am increasingly shocked by the way in which most old and new dynamics have been treated. Maybe I missed something? I don't know, I have no words.

p.s. sorry x my bad english

[demmeter]

Oh my. I can't believe I'm this emotional, but eldarya ending truly made me feel so nostalgic.

I discovered this game when I was 14. I can still remember I played it at first because I was on Nath's route in MCL and there were memes going around at the time about some "blue Nathaniel." I obviously was on Ez's route all throughout the first season.

I dropped MCL because I used to think it was so mediocre compared to eldarya... Eldarya was just THAT good back then. It was sooo interesting, the characters were well written, the set up was amazing! It was my obsession for YEARS! I would say it all started going downhill from episode 17 on.

I love this game, I always will despite it becoming so incredibly bad through the last 4 years or so. But I'd like to remember all the moments that made me think it was a great game, like when Ezarel wore a moustache, or when I first realized nevra was not just a skirt chaser, but also an incredibly capable guy (remember that pic of him with the kappa??) I also remember when chapter 7 came out and I first saw the illus, I was so excited, or when Ashkore put his finger over our lips, also the chapter where we have a drink with the main 3, the shock I felt when I discovered Ez had a thing with Ewelein, when we first got our own room made by out guy, it being a window to their personalities, all of us trying to figure out what their backstory was, when we used to make conspiracy theories over why Ezarel didn't like being touched, Nevra was such a womanizer and Valkyon never talked, the anticipation we felt over solving all of the mysteries... There are so many good things about Eldarya, and I wish for all of us to keep them in mind.

I have no idea if Chinomiko still checks Tumblr posts, but I would love to tell her that she created an INCREDIBLE game, with incredible characters, and that I wish that she could've had the chance to be more involved over the last few years. I know that if she had been, the game would've kept being what we loved.

Finally, I hope beemoov understands that rushing a story is a terrible idea, it's even worse to erase such dear characters for the players that have PAYED a lot to see their storylines. I hope you do ir better from now on, and I wish there were events with eldarya where at least for a little while, the story was what it used to be.

This truly is a love letter to game dude, I can't believe I'm being so dramatic, but eldarya truly has been an important part of my life, my first ever hyper fixation.

Also, I would like to keep writing for eldarya, I know I haven't posted in a while, and I can't say I will post regularly, but every now and then I will.

[caeli16]

Good afternoon Guardians,

As you may have seen, the announcement for episode 8 was published in English. This is due to the fact that Scintillante can no longer afford to continue with the translation of Eldarya into Italian and she has had to make the sad and very difficult decision to stop translating the announcements on the forum, as well as the episodes.

We know this has a major impact on your gaming experience and we apologize for the inconvenience. The release of the episodes of A New Era will not undergo any change: the episodes will arrive on your screens as always.

Have a good day!

Questo annuncio è comparso sul forum italiano, ora, capisco che con l’incendio la Beemoov abbia perso in termini economici molto, ma non mi sembra nemmeno giusto e corretto nei confronti delle/dei giocatrici/giocatori italiani non avere più episodi/eventi/annunci (l’annuncio dell’ultimo episodio era completamente in inglese, nemmeno a far la parte di usare google traduttore).  nella lingua del server. Persino i titoletti delle varie sezioni sono alcuni in inglese altri in italiano. A questo punto elimini direttamente il server e come in Moonlight Lovers mantieni solo i server delle lingue che puoi permetterti di tradurre. E’ ingiusto continuare a guadagnare da un server ITALIANO che, tranne il forum, italiano non è. Considerando anche il fatto che potrebbero esserci giocatrici e giocatori (come la sottoscritta che o ci prova o usa Google traduttore ma dato che il computer riconosce il server italiano non mette neanche la possibilità di tradurre il sito web cosa che invece è possibile in Moonlight Lovers) che non hanno una conoscenza tale della lingua da potersi permettere di giocare e capire gli episodi in inglese. Nel mio personale caso ho continuato a giocare gli episodi a fatica nella speranza poi di avere, un giorno, delle traduzioni. Traduzioni che non arriveranno mai. E’ giusto, quindi, continuare indirettamente a finanziare un server italiano per modo di dire? Persone che di inglese ci capiscono poco continueranno a giocare? Mbah….

This announcement has appeared on the Italian forum, now, I understand that with the fire Beemoov has lost a lot in economic terms, but it does not even seem fair and correct towards the Italian players / players not to have more episodes / events / announcements (the announcement of the last episode was completely in English, without even playing the part of using google translate). in the language of the server. The titles of the various sections are also some in English, others in Italian. At this point you delete the server directly and as in Moonlight Lovers keep only the servers of the languages ​​you can afford to translate. It is not fair to continue earning from an ITALIAN server which, with the exception of the forum, is not Italian. Considering also the fact that there could be players and players (like myself who either tries or uses Google translate but since the computer recognizes the Italian server does not even offer the possibility of translating the site which is possible in Moonlight Lovers) who do not have such knowledge of the language that he can afford to reproduce and understand the episodes in English. In my personal case, I continued to play the episodes with difficulty in hopes of having translations someday. Translations that will never come. Is it right, therefore, to continue to indirectly finance an Italian server so to speak? Will people who understand little English continue to play? Mbah ….

[caeli16]

They reported me that the same thing happened on the Hungarian server .....      I wish that "this inconvenience" and "sad and very difficult decision" are momentary, but I doubt both servers will ever revert to their original language.

[caeli16]

Good afternoon Guardians,

As you may have seen, the announcement for episode 8 was published in English. This is due to the fact that Scintillante can no longer afford to continue with the translation of Eldarya into Italian and she has had to make the sad and very difficult decision to stop translating the announcements on the forum, as well as the episodes.

We know this has a major impact on your gaming experience and we apologize for the inconvenience. The release of the episodes of A New Era will not undergo any change: the episodes will arrive on your screens as always.

Have a good day!

Questo annuncio è comparso sul forum italiano, ora, capisco che con l’incendio la Beemoov abbia perso in termini economici molto, ma non mi sembra nemmeno giusto e corretto nei confronti delle/dei giocatrici/giocatori italiani non avere più episodi/eventi/annunci (l’annuncio dell’ultimo episodio era completamente in inglese, nemmeno a far la parte di usare google traduttore).  nella lingua del server. Persino i titoletti delle varie sezioni sono alcuni in inglese altri in italiano. A questo punto elimini direttamente il server e come in Moonlight Lovers mantieni solo i server delle lingue che puoi permetterti di tradurre. E’ ingiusto continuare a guadagnare da un server ITALIANO che, tranne il forum, italiano non è. Considerando anche il fatto che potrebbero esserci giocatrici e giocatori (come la sottoscritta che o ci prova o usa Google traduttore ma dato che il computer riconosce il server italiano non mette neanche la possibilità di tradurre il sito web cosa che invece è possibile in Moonlight Lovers) che non hanno una conoscenza tale della lingua da potersi permettere di giocare e capire gli episodi in inglese. Nel mio personale caso ho continuato a giocare gli episodi a fatica nella speranza poi di avere, un giorno, delle traduzioni. Traduzioni che non arriveranno mai. E’ giusto, quindi, continuare indirettamente a finanziare un server italiano per modo di dire? Persone che di inglese ci capiscono poco continueranno a giocare? Mbah....

This announcement has appeared on the Italian forum, now, I understand that with the fire Beemoov has lost a lot in economic terms, but it does not even seem fair and correct towards the Italian players / players not to have more episodes / events / announcements (the announcement of the last episode was completely in English, without even playing the part of using google translate). in the language of the server. The titles of the various sections are also some in English, others in Italian. At this point you delete the server directly and as in Moonlight Lovers keep only the servers of the languages ​​you can afford to translate. It is not fair to continue earning from an ITALIAN server which, with the exception of the forum, is not Italian. Considering also the fact that there could be players and players (like myself who either tries or uses Google translate but since the computer recognizes the Italian server does not even offer the possibility of translating the site which is possible in Moonlight Lovers) who do not have such knowledge of the language that he can afford to reproduce and understand the episodes in English. In my personal case, I continued to play the episodes with difficulty in hopes of having translations someday. Translations that will never come. Is it right, therefore, to continue to indirectly finance an Italian server so to speak? Will people who understand little English continue to play? Mbah ....

[i-donot-forget]

Is there any chance that Mathieu is like Jake in Avatar? sent by humans to infiltrate but then falls in love with this world? No? Just me? okay 

[caeli16]

YesYesYesYesYes. I'm with you!!!!

[olimpsia]

ELDARYA SPOILERS

“You shouldn’t worry about the feelings of the dead, they no longer have them”

THAT STINGS

[caeli16]

Many may disagree when I say that in reality, in theory, if you want to do a cynical and objective analysis of the situation, Karenn did not say something wrong. Surely it was indelicate to make a 'shot' but it remains in line with the character - cold and pragmatic (at least on the outside) - that Karenn has always shown himself to be. And perhaps what has been interpreted as malice is nothing more than her attempt to reassure her and tell her that Valkyon would think the same. Because, I repeat, she must have been a bitch and numb, but that's what Valkyon told her to do and that she most likely would have thought. However, it remains an indelicate sentence to say to a "widow" but also to a friend, but the reality remains and is in line with the characters, at least in my opinion.

[caeli16]

As I mentioned in my previous post I would like to start writing headcanon / scenarios or if you are interested in sharing your thought / theory and commenting it together. In case you are interested, below I give you some information about my writing (what I mean / am willing or not to write, in case there are variations I will update the list):

As for the romantic headcanon / scenarios, I would prefer to write mainly about Ezarel, Nevra, Valkyon and in particular Lance. Leiftan and Mathieu are not characters I know (and that I particularly love) that I don't think I would be capable of;

for headcanon / scenarios the same is true but including Leiftan and obviously all the different secondary characters (even if they are cooler with those of NE);

for the moment I do not think about writing NSFW, I am not very capable I prefer to read it but I do not exclude the possibility of inserting soft hints in a headcanon or in a scenarios.

If you want something special, specify it in the request itself! If, on the other hand, the request concerns your OC you can attach details (if necessary, I will write to you) or write to me in private. As for the timing, it depends on the request and from the moment it will arrive I will try to be as productive as possible. I'm waiting for you, write me here!

[caeli16]

My idea about the characters: Mathieu

Hello! I'm back and in view of episode 8 I decided to finish that "column" about boys! Only Mathieu was missing, and to tell the truth I don't have much to say about the boy.It has nothing new and nothing special, it can be defined as a "breath of fresh air" in that cemetery (literally) that has become the HQ. In short, only in the last few episodes the climate with flirtations has lightened, but an apparent calm remains hanging on a razor's edge. The boy seems to me almost the missing piece in the types of boys. He is "the eternal child" who plays playboy but fails (the only one will always be the nice version of Nevra, nothing will make me change my mind). Overall he is nice, nice, in short, a friend with whom I would go for an aperitif once a week, but they are tastes. I find it anonymous alternating moments in which it reminds me of Valkyon's innocence or Ezarel's sympathy. But the illustrations are pretty sweet, especially that of the elevator. I don't like to compare it to other flirtations, because I repeat they represent different types of guys, with some analogy of course, but mh ..... I don't know if you know what I mean. It may be that we do not know his background or it may be that he too uses a mask to hide his true self and his feelings (Erika's Red Cross instinct is just waiting for this) but for now I am not clear who he is in its entirety (and honestly I don't even have an interest in knowing but they are tastes). However, one aspect that I find interesting and that piques my curiosity is its ambiguity. I will be paranoid as I am used to twists or treachery in this game, but Mathieu does not tell me all or right. I don't remember who said it (if you remember, please tag) but I do remember reading something that underlined how there is an ingongruity between the image he wants to give of himself and what he really is. Wow, joining the Absinthe guard is not a trivial matter, and you certainly don't enter it by 'lot'. In short, you don't have to be a complete fool. Alajéa was certainly not a science well, but I remember that in her own way she has always been useful and had specific and particular skills (By the way I would like to see a lot of an interaction between Ezarel and Mathieu, I think it would be funny!). Then always as he emphasized I don't remember who, how can you say you come from the earth and don't know this scene?! 

Even if you don't like the movie genre, the Titanic must have seen / heard about it in 23 (random) years of life! It's like saying you come from Italy and have never tasted pasta with sauce. And the fact that, as usual, Erika did not give it weight gives me the idea that it is not a coincidence, a detail left to chance. Basically Erika is a bit like the protagonist of those cartoons where maybe a character wears only a mask that covers his eyes and nobody notices who he really is. In short, I have well-founded suspicions about Mathieu, and I hope they are real just to add a little sparkle to the matter. In conclusion Mathieu does not excite me as a character, but I hope that in the course of history it becomes more relevant and less obvious. However, I do not deny that it would not hurt Erika to have a balanced relationship, unless Mathieu is a disciple of Leiftan.

As always, sorry for my macaronic English, let me know yours and if you want to write / ask me something the mail is open! 

[caeli16]

Lately I have been reading many theories about Huang Hua and his ambiguous behavior. Honestly, his behavior from the beginning seemed very particular to me. As soon as she wakes up, despite Erika having mysteriously appeared while there were already people in the room, she keeps her ‘hidden’ until she officially warns her. It’s as if she’s committed to having all of her power somehow returned to her. Even the choice to free Lance: I think it’s just a pawn. It was a smart choice to free the dragon even though there were valid reasons not to. Lance is undeniably very strong and is now linked to the figure of Huang Hua. Also as for Lance it is very strange that two minutes after being resurrected you tell me that my boyfriend has fled with the ex and the mother of a dead child or that he has given himself to a crazy joy and you don’t tell me who the responsible for my disappearance is free and that our paths will meet very often? Not to mention the obvious contradictions of Huang Hua herself: first “I’ll make sure she doesn’t meet you” two minutes later “You’ll go on a mission with Lance, your missed soulmate who ignores you, your former friend / lover who treats you like a poor fool, a boy who tries to flirt with plants and finally with Koori”. Don’t worry, you’ll have fun. In short, it seems that he is doing everything to attack what little remains of Erika’s mental health. If I were malicious I would also think that she wants to attempt her life by taking her out of the game, but I don’t think she is so reckless and above all Erika, or rather what Erika represents, is very useful to Huang Hua. As already said by @partyineldarya it seems that even not telling her about Lance right away but waiting for their meeting and therefore a slightly psychopathic reaction, BUT AS RIGHT, by Erika Huang Hua wants to discredit the image of the angel that, if she wanted to, she could have a strong influence. Another obvious contradiction is wanting to give Erika a place in her gleaming guard by treating her like a child and keeping her in the dark about her. It is evident that that place would have been just a facade, in fact regardless of her guard Erika has the right to know what the hell is going on since it is thanks to her that they are alive and well. I repeat everything that Huang Hua does seems to be a way to increase her image of her with meaningful actions made only of appearance or seems to want to discredit the girl. Huang Chu also offers interesting food for thought which, however, can be misunderstood voluntarily or not. She says that the choices of leaders are not always right and must be followed. Although he is also the head of the absinthe guard, he seems to me an intelligent and sometimes very suspicious person. It may have been an implied warning, but apparently Erika captures the most insignificant details. In conclusion Huang Hua is a very ambiguous character who undoubtedly arouses suspicion, I do not think she will be the main villain but she is probably not the pure and sincere friend who has always wanted to believe it was her. p.s. It’s not really like Miiko to disappear and send letters ‘sometimes’, I don’t know, it doesn’t seem like a behavior she would adopt even if she were no longer an integral part of the guard. Even Nevra talks about it with a badly hidden melancholy that makes me think.

Sorry for the mistakes, I hope you understand anyway!

[partyineldarya-deactivated20210]

^ I deleted that post because it’s such a minor detail, but why Huang Hua asked Alderic to deliver important message? She MUST have know that when (not if) he failed with his task, Gardienne would be late for a meeting and look unprofessional. Also, decission to force (I know it’s a strong word, forcefully persuade may be better phrase here) Gardienne to make a speach without any preparation… Sending her on a v important mission, while knowing v well how weak and unprepared for it Gardienne  really is… Those details may be just Beemoov’s problems with coherent plot but…

But it could be interpreted as HH trying to discredit Gardienne and that also would make a sense. Look, this is a huge reach on my side, but: 

Of three powerful races:

Dragons- only Lance left, and he committed terrible crimes, served only part of his punishment, noone would believe him, stand behind him, treat him as hero. Independent, but his reputation is tarnished. No danger here. 

Aengels: Leiftan who IMHO at the begining is a bit hesistant towards Gardienne, but still hugs her, smile at her,  after talking to HH starts really distancing himself. What did he heard from her? Leiftan is charismatic, a wise, strong warrios (just like Lance), and has this advantage that lots of faeries treat him as hero for his White Sacrifice. Playing with his low (not WKing him, he deserves it) esteem could rule him out of competion for any power. 

Which leaves Gardienne, who not only has sacrified her life, no, she was an active hero before it! Important person to many! Well liked. Famous. So presenting her as a bit unstable would be useful IF

IF

…HH’s plan was to strenghten fenghuans’ position in Eldarya. For many years they were the only one left from legendary races. It may comes with some privileges. 

It’s propably just awkward writing on Beemoov’s side, but I like this theory of HH not being a squeky clean politician. 

[caeli16]

Speaking of politics, even during the blue sacrifice and during that segment of the meeting we witnessed, the fenghuan did not seem clean politicians, also because they were the only ones of the three great races to come out unscathed. Her people as well as herself are a bit ambiguous.

[caeli16]

Lately I have been reading many theories about Huang Hua and his ambiguous behavior. Honestly, his behavior from the beginning seemed very particular to me. As soon as she wakes up, despite Erika having mysteriously appeared while there were already people in the room, she keeps her 'hidden' until she officially warns her. It's as if she's committed to having all of her power somehow returned to her. Even the choice to free Lance: I think it's just a pawn. It was a smart choice to free the dragon even though there were valid reasons not to. Lance is undeniably very strong and is now linked to the figure of Huang Hua. Also as for Lance it is very strange that two minutes after being resurrected you tell me that my boyfriend has fled with the ex and the mother of a dead child or that he has given himself to a crazy joy and you don't tell me who the responsible for my disappearance is free and that our paths will meet very often? Not to mention the obvious contradictions of Huang Hua herself: first “I'll make sure she doesn't meet you” two minutes later “You'll go on a mission with Lance, your missed soulmate who ignores you, your former friend / lover who treats you like a poor fool, a boy who tries to flirt with plants and finally with Koori”. Don't worry, you'll have fun. In short, it seems that he is doing everything to attack what little remains of Erika's mental health. If I were malicious I would also think that she wants to attempt her life by taking her out of the game, but I don't think she is so reckless and above all Erika, or rather what Erika represents, is very useful to Huang Hua. As already said by @partyineldarya it seems that even not telling her about Lance right away but waiting for their meeting and therefore a slightly psychopathic reaction, BUT AS RIGHT, by Erika Huang Hua wants to discredit the image of the angel that, if she wanted to, she could have a strong influence. Another obvious contradiction is wanting to give Erika a place in her gleaming guard by treating her like a child and keeping her in the dark about her. It is evident that that place would have been just a facade, in fact regardless of her guard Erika has the right to know what the hell is going on since it is thanks to her that they are alive and well. I repeat everything that Huang Hua does seems to be a way to increase her image of her with meaningful actions made only of appearance or seems to want to discredit the girl. Huang Chu also offers interesting food for thought which, however, can be misunderstood voluntarily or not. She says that the choices of leaders are not always right and must be followed. Although he is also the head of the absinthe guard, he seems to me an intelligent and sometimes very suspicious person. It may have been an implied warning, but apparently Erika captures the most insignificant details. In conclusion Huang Hua is a very ambiguous character who undoubtedly arouses suspicion, I do not think she will be the main villain but she is probably not the pure and sincere friend who has always wanted to believe it was her. p.s. It's not really like Miiko to disappear and send letters 'sometimes', I don't know, it doesn't seem like a behavior she would adopt even if she were no longer an integral part of the guard. Even Nevra talks about it with a badly hidden melancholy that makes me think.

Sorry for the mistakes, I hope you understand anyway!

[caeli16]

I am in crisis, a part of me would like to buy everything immediately, the most reasonable part of me advises me to wait at least a few days. How do you behave or will you behave?

[caeli16]

tell me that you are thrilled without telling me that you are thrilled

[caeli16]

1000 manaa is only good if it's the down payment.

[caeli16]

I feel a little bit Miiko going crazy because she doesn't understand anything and she doesn't have the situation under control ... all that's missing is a stick and someone to throw in jail ...

[caeli16]

I have read several posts but still don't understand the situation. The first three episodes of NE will have to be replayed (speaking of TO I do not express) but how will the new coins work? How will the "recovery" of illustrations / clothes / family work (just thinking about it makes me pass out)? Is it all a big question mark or am I so upset that I don't understand?

[caeli16]

The warm rays of the sun caressing your pale cheeks, the day is drawing to a close. You are no longer used to that delicate sensation on your skin, it seems centuries have passed since the last time you let yourself go to a sweet caress, overwhelmed by tiredness and feelings. Smile, it's actually been a while, seven years. You don't believe it yet, actually. You unconsciously cling to the hope that this is all a crazy, stupid joke. The first few days you basked in the sweet illusion of seeing the mischievous elf appear with his blue mustache. He would have burst out laughing, making fun of you for falling into a well thought out joke. But it was not, hours, days, weeks have passed and you have never been able to overcome that blanket of melancholy feelings that grip your soul. The crisp air lashes you on the skin, maybe it also shakes your soul that is still too unconscious, you get chills. Thoughts weigh you down, they keep you anchored to what is now past. You sigh, shake your head in the vain hope of getting rid of all your worries. You get up, the grass is fresh under your bare feet, close your eyes and enjoy a little more the soft pampering of the sun, which slowly begins to set. You approach the headquarters, shoes in one hand, suddenly you stop. You narrow your gaze, frown uncertain what to do. You take courage and reach it. You stop behind him, you observe an indefinite point of the landscape. -Will you hit me from behind? You don't answer, you sit next to him. -What do I owe this honor to? You look at him, you allow yourself to reflect your crystalline purple in the cold ice of him. - I was walking It's up to him to keep quiet, suddenly an unknown weight weighs on you like a boulder. The words quiver, they want to flow free, they leave your lips. Lance looks at you, tries to scrutinize you, it's not the first time. Lance is like that, you realize. He needs to discover, to know. It all stems from her visceral need to know his origins, to find everything there was to find and learn. Curiosity then turned into hatred, anger, revenge. -Did I hurt you? He smiles mischievously, raising an eyebrow. He looks coldly at the small scar on the palm of his hand. -Very, I was afraid of not recovering Puffs pretend annoyed, roll your eyes, let out a shy smile. -I didn't want to hurt you, but I don't want you to think that my actions were guided only by the effect of the poison. Maybe it was all amplified, but I was angry. Enraged. I wanted you to know. The dragon next to you remains silent for a few seconds, looks at the horizon -I know, I expected it. I just wanted to talk, civilly You hear him hesitate, it's strange. You had never heard Lance speak uncertainly. You don't know how to answer. I realize that you have been selfish. You were hoping you could pour all your hatred, all your anger, all your helplessness on him. If he deserves it, he deserves it all. He knows it as well as you do. But you can't. He is unfair. -Have you thought about the proposal? -Thing? A half smile appears on his tired face. You realize it just now, Lance looks exhausted. You would dare to say that he hasn't slept peacefully for a long time, you would like to tell him that you too can't take it anymore, that at night you get lost in memories and regrets. Shut up. - Didn't you hear right from your hiding place? I told Mathieu that I should train you. Blush, you did not expect to have noticed your presence. You look down. -I can trust? -This is up to you to decide. These are his last words, he gets up and leaves them there. You get lost looking into the void, a part of you, perhaps the most carefree, quivers to chase him, tell him that yes, you need that thrill. You want to be in control, get lost and then find yourself. But he stays there, he stops. The sun has come out, the shadow begins to engulf the landscape. You torment yourself in the hope of finding an answer, because now you are like that. You need immediate and sure answers. You need it to move forward, not to get lost without a light to guide you. Eventually you get up and go home. You don't find anyone on the way to your room, and for that you thank whoever is up there. You're not even sure about this anymore. Warm, under the covers, just before sleep welcomes you, but you decide.

This is the first time I have written a story in English, I apologize for any catastrophic errors : )