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Owning Up To Your Mistakes

I wrote about some really bad decisions I made about my freelancing career. I already lost that great opportunity.

A great client who was so forgiving, gave me chances and was actually one of my highest paying clients. I took that for granted.

And yes, I’ve lost sleep because of this mistake. I’ve been trying to convince myself that it’s okay. No one’s perfect. But still, I feel bad for doing something terrible to a client.

I know how the business works. If I don’t submit a project on time, it could incur financial losses on my client’s end. My biggest mistake was not providing an update sooner. I should have been honest about what I was going through.

Anxiety attacks are bad. As a writer, I could sit in front of my laptop for hours without any words coming out. I try to blog just so I can get that writing momentum, but then it just doesn’t happen when I’m already supposed to write for work.

What’s done is done. The only thing I can do now is to learn from that mistake and I shouldn’t allow this to happen again.

I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I now learned a lesson the hard way. I hope I can become a better freelancer after this.

Deep Trouble

I’ve never been this affected when missing deadlines. I am not a perfect freelancer, hence missed deadlines every now and then. I try my best though to submit earlier than promised.

This time, however, I’m already way past deadline but I still can’t seem to get my mind on the right track. I swear, I shouldn’t even be typing on this blog right now because it’s a waste of time.

I already logged off most of my social media accounts so I won’t get distracted but my brain is just not in the right focus.

I can’t even ask help from anyone because it’s no use. Like really, how can people help me? Give me advice? I already know what to do, it’s just that I’m having an extremely hard time doing it.

I swear after finishing this task, I will relax for 2 days straight, no disturbances. Then I will start fresh and brand new. Everything will be so much better.

Still Trying

I made a terrible mistake.

I value my freelancing career so much that I’d rather earn very little to nothing than sacrifice my reputation and what I have already built.

For years now, I’ve been enjoying the perks of being a top-rated freelancer with plenty of perfect to close to perfect reviews. These ratings made way for more opportunities to come my way.

However, I bit off more than I could chew. I tried so hard not to do this because I already made a similar mistake in the past. I thought I could handle certain jobs only to end up with too much stress, anxiety attacks, missed deadlines and irate clients.

Now, I am just completing one final task that’s taking up so much of my time. It’s really difficult. The job is supposed to be easy and I could have done it 2 days maximum but I’m on my second week now.

I am so ashamed of what I have become as a freelancer and I promise I will make it up to my client - even if that means not getting paid for this job and losing this opportunity completely.

I will start from scratch. I will stop being greedy and thinking about the $$$ more than the quality of my work and my relationship with clients.

This blog post marks this huge change in my life. I promise to deliver. I’m making this promise to myself and not to anyone else.

I am hoping for the best.

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Looking Back, Not Turning Back

It’s been over three years since I lost my “last” day job. I often look back, sometimes even tempted to turn back, but I don’t think I ever will.

Just a few months ago, I accepted a job that gave me a really nice title and allowed me to work from home most of the time. I only have to show up during important meetings and shoots. A couple of weeks back, I quit.

I was supposed to be really happy with that job. After all, the position granted to me remains a dream for countless writers. The paycheck was not exactly as attractive as I wanted it to be, but considering the fact that I am working for a startup and I am not required to work 8 hours a day, then it seems like a fair deal to me.

I will write about the reasons I quit on a separate post.

I had to update my LinkedIn account because of that recent job. I realized that LinkedIn has changed so much since I last used it. I explored the website and maximized its features. I saw how there are thousands of great jobs being advertised - some of those are office jobs with offer packages that are too good to resist.

Today, I am writing this post simply because I want to do something with my time and stop myself from applying to those jobs. I know that with a little bit more patience, I will finally climb up my career path without having to give up my very comfortable office space at home (which is basically my bed).

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