I am Sumi or you can call me Su! I'm an 18 year old who has never left the MCYT/mc roleplay sphere!! My pronouns are Sun/Suns/Sunlight and They/She
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Art mediums??
I draw both traditionally and digitally! Most of my digital art comes from the Roblox game: Spray Paint! but I'm trying to start using Krita more often as well.
As for writing i have started to utilize Ellipsus for my drafts which i then copy over to my Ao3.
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MCYT (obviously, but more specifically-) Lifesteal, MCSR, (getting into) Unstable Universe
BanG Dream! Girls Band Party | Bandori Party
Jujutsu Kaisen, Naruto, (getting into) Chainsaw man
Toilet-Bound Hanako-kun
+ Many Many more but these are the main ones i go back to time and time again
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Here you can find me posting mainly finished art with the occasional ramble about characterization or other fic ideas rolling around in my head!! I lovee to ramble about things like my characterization or rationalization of minecraft mechanics in fics so if you ever have a question or want to hear my take on something please ask!!
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"Derapchu was actively feeding her information to minute and his team" isn't... true. derap didn't tell them anything except that zam wasn't using the base they already knew about. i seriously argue that derap strongly considered betraying, and told minute that he would, but just did not actually betray zam or atlas because he did not in fact take any actions that harmed them (except for the consequences of zam deciding derap had betrayed)
maybe you and anon should fight to the death or like make out…Just some options yk,,,
But i think you both are saying similar things, Derap's betrayal didn't really accumulate to anything but stir up Zam's paranoia yeah? I still think that counts as a betrayal of sorts, definitely feels like it when Derap wouldn't own up to it or explain himself when Zam gave him the chance to.
Lifesteal and betrayals are strange and it just comes down to one question. Is intent more important than the results?
Is Derapchu considering betraying the team, leaving his options open, more a betrayal of trust despite nothing coming of it? Is Zam killing Derap, without talking to the rest of the team and without being certain on Derap’s betrayal, him betraying their team’s (atlas’s) trust, EVEN IF Zam was right in the end? Derap had the intention, Zam had the results, but if you ask me- both of them did commit a betrayal.
I think what counts as a betrayal is in the eye of the beholder to decide, and in Zam’s case she needed him to be betraying so that everything would start to make sense again.
A lot of this couldve really been solved with some easy communication but well, lifesteal and it dont get along too good do they?
okay its messy and awful but i rambled more and answered the ask so im going to sleep now, everyone pray for my keyboard.
also a reminder that my ask is always open and i love rambling so if you want to ramble i can then ramble over your thoughts too, it keeps me partially sane
reading your threads bc its fun thought i'd say this as someone who did watch s6 live from multiple POVs:
Zam didn't necessarily betray Derapchu (first) if you think about it generally but I do agree with saying its a betrayal in a way. I just think it's a justifiable one. she had every right to be paranoid though as Derapchu was actively feeding her information to minute and his team who were literally seconds off from finding her for an almost entire stream until she finally faces them funnily enough. He also has this historical tendency to "betray" teammates as punishment when he dislikes their actions. + his language towards Zam building up to this point slowly got more and more rude towards her behavior and was more hurtful than helpful. But benefit of the doubt and allat, it does seem very antsy to not have that "100% guarantee."
Derapchu justifies his actions later by saying he actually saved her in a way when he told the chungpire she no longer used that base but she literally saved herself bc she lied straight to his face and said she doesn't use it anymore when she kept coming back to it. So it does make some of his argument null. Minute also just didn't believe derap despite derap being totally willing to work with him just to get petty satisfaction but this does lead to Zam losing the valuables shulker but I don't think that case was derapchu's fault necessarily.
As for the woogie guilt trip stuff, he did guilt trip her, that doesn't make him "bad" or uncaring but he did do that. He has this thing where he kind of worships(?) or like pedastals Zam into something that they aren't and reduces them to a role. I really like this part of their dynamic but it is considered typically unhealthy. tldr: he can be reasonable and still try to make Zam feel bad for disagreeing? with? him? (<- it's much more complicated than that I just thought this was funny)
communication yap is great though because this is something that consistently stems from zam's character on LS especially in season 4 but quite literally no one is that great at it on lifesteal. like Derapchu only did really well before because he watched her streams and vods and highkey stream sniped her. I think they were good teammates during the mawn/zaun arc but he did undeniably do that to reinforce their relationship. zam is still bad at communication currently but did get a little better in s7. shoutout bing to some extent
Zam seemed pretty obviously miserable during this point in atlas so yeah, a lot of her chat was against it but there was a lot of vague backseating in a way. It's more common for roleplay streamers, but chatter will try to push their agenda or somehow allude to something they want to happen. Quoting stuff from chat for Zam isn't rare to see if it makes sense for them to say. Really fun to see in the vods though
I do give props to woogie with his character despite how condescending he was to fem ccs on especially lifesteal during that era. woogie's perception of Zam is just incredibly intriguing to me because if you're not sniping zam's inner monologues or solo think-pieces, it is very very hard to understand their actions and also very cool to see how nobody completely understands their character on lifesteal. minus maybe spoke? facade meant to be dismantled by the viewer and all that
from ur reactions this just tells me you've gotta watch season 3-4 in it's full glory because I'll always justify paranoia from this smp. sorry for this text wall, I think your reactions are very fun though
hihihihihihih mini thank you for the ramble back on my ramble, i LOVE s6 of lifesteal (obviously) but i'm also decidedly not as big of a stream/vod watcher as much as i was in previous mc fandoms so this is very much appreciated!!!!
This asks context is this post of me vod tweeting some end of s6 princezam vods, ill cut it off here but be prepared for mega rambling if you click the keep reading. This will not be a clean ramble, i do not have the sanity for that! Sorry in advance! okay!
I totally agree that Derap was the one to betray first! I was so very confused leading up and during that talk with Derap if he actually did anything- bc even zam herself wasn't very sure. Learning later (i think in the same vod?) that Derap had actually betrayed, like confirmed confirmed, made it obvious that he did betray the team first but it just wasn't obvious in the moment.
(And some added context to my rambling, is i was very much watching these vods for the purposes of trying to understand Woogies character, i couldnt find his vods, so me talking about zam betraying the team was me trying to think on Woogies side of things a lot of the time.)
Zam did have every right to be paranoid, but when Woogie logs back on after derap telling him "she doesn't trust any of us, she just killed me, yada yada," it's a pretty big betrayal of trust i'd think since zam doesn't communicate anything prior (due to her being paranoid over woogie too but well yeah). Especially since like, when Woogie and her talk before he goes to talk to derap, she's not even that sure nor convincing. like she kept saying she "needs to be right" about it and she just kinda sounds insane. It can be justified, it is in the end, but in that moment Woogie knows that Zam: 1. doesnt trust any of them (him), 2. killed one of their very limited teammates on the basis of him betraying her/the team, and 3. that if #2 isnt correct, if derap DIDNT betray, then theres no easy way to come back from that.
Really loved that bit, zam asking: "how could i ever come back from this” if he killed derap for no reason, and woogie responding: “you dont have a choice”.
That team, team Atlas/republic/verylockedin whatever you would call it, was holding on by a fucking threadddddd and if Zam had been wrong? If Zam let the paranoia get to him and killed a teammate they very much needed? One that had his reviving materials- the only goal of their team-- then everything might as well be over. Zam knew that, its why he needed to be right about derap. Woogie also knew that, its why hes so upset that Zam may have shot their team in the foot over nothing, and is very meanly trying to shove him into reality. I think its such an interesting moment/s, their argument, esp with how everything turns out. Woogie is really trying to resolve things super quick, like that would fix everything. it doesnt really fix anything in the end does it.
I really love your information on Woogies idolization of/putting a role on Zam!!! I think in the past (post from january) i got those vibes but its been quite a while so i probably discarded that train of thought on accident and made him more normal...#woops. And i kinda agree with the guilt tripping, in my last thread its more obvious that i think Woogie is kinda fucked up, but during the argument i was a little biased since i did not infact know about derap n all. i think this idolization, looking back on it, is very obvious during thee argument bc i can def see it as woogie thinking zam is better than that/being upset at the fact that Zam isn't acting how he "should". they make such a fucked up pair.
I know i only really got to see the end of their dynamic progression, after rek, but its sooooo funny watchign them kinda flip flop between who is suicidal and who is convincing the other to keep going in a given moment. Zam is doomering after Flame dies, then woogie comes up acting the same way over Rek and its just a mess. Zam throws himself into the void after woogie leaves to talk to derap, and then woogie tells him not to do that again before eventually saying he cant go on any longer and zam having to try to get any hope into him. i hate them,
ALSO the idolization from woogie to Zam makes so much sense of why he was so hurt by hearing from zam (derap first but zam not denying it) that he didn't trust woogie either. I wonder if in woogies mind his idolization also kinda made him think him and Zam were closer/trusted than they were,--- but well then woogie says hes always seen derap and zam more as a pair and himself as the odd one out so idk actually IDK idk idk idk....just thoughts.... i think woogie is such a messed up character just pretending to be normal and has brief moments of clarity before going back to his delusions, i think these delusions also include trying to fix their team despite not caring for the fight or really the cause at the end, i think woogie is a character who lies all the time including to himself, i think im rambling
yeahhh...communication and lifesteal do no not go together, i've just sorta realized how Zam is like the best example of that turned up to the max loll. The chat stuff is also interesting, like knowing that Zam WAS right in the end about Derapchu made her reading off of chat about sus stuff seem less insane but i still wonder about that "if". I kept finding myself reading chat a lot during her vods and its so interesting how fast chat can turn into an echo-chamber. I skimmed like 2 Woogie vods and its very much not the same vibe over there for the most part, more reacting than thought pieces/echoing, probably to do with the fact zam is rping basically the whole time hes on stream.
And perhaps i should watch more early lifesteal stuff...i have this problem where i think i have to react to everything i watch and make art/think pieces on it ( i bought deltarune chapters 3/4 when it came out, i have not played the chapters yet) and most the time i am not prepared to do that mentally or current obsession wise so i say "eventually" and never interact with it, but i really do love lifesteal. i would also love to stop feeling like such a larper with my takes cause i really really love lifesteal have i said that i really really love it i really love lifesteal!!!! Thank you for reading and indulging in my rambling's! I kinda love to be wrong about takes when the person has thoughts and more knowledge to back it up, i also love to see other peoples ramblings, and i love people reading my rambles so. this was very nice. sorry this isnt a clean ramble, im still very unsure on my woogie thoughts unlike the other characters i usually ramble about so its just a mess over here. thank u again!!
EVERY TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP HAS INTIMACY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS NOT A ROMANTIC ONLY THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! QPR'S ARENT BOUNDARY BREAKING BECAUSE THEY CONTAIN A LEVEL OF INTIMACY THAT MAY BE DIFFERENT FROM A FRIENDSHIP, THEY ARE JUST A DIFFERENT TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP!!!!!! ITS NOT SHIPPING!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO KILL ALL OF MCYT TWITTER!!!!!!!!
Being on mcyt twt will convince you that you are the only sane person left. and then you talk to your friend, who doesn't quite understand everything, but is at least trying and you remember that there is hope out there. youre not insane youre just in a place full of dumb teenagers who need a hot take posted before they can think. its okay.
EVERY TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP HAS INTIMACY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS NOT A ROMANTIC ONLY THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! QPR'S ARENT BOUNDARY BREAKING BECAUSE THEY CONTAIN A LEVEL OF INTIMACY THAT MAY BE DIFFERENT FROM A FRIENDSHIP, THEY ARE JUST A DIFFERENT TYPE OF RELATIONSHIP!!!!!! ITS NOT SHIPPING!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GOING TO KILL ALL OF MCYT TWITTER!!!!!!!!
To everyone but you, who will never have met the you before.
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I guess i never posted her here, huh. Okay so i turned Subz into a girl - classic sumi. Say hi to Zubz!! I was thinking about how subz - zubz -'s purple scar-virus-disfigurement-thing is just a thing that's accepted by the people around them as something they're always had. I even gloss over it in my fic bc its just not the focal point of them, but it got me wondering about the version before the purple stuff (and how this new her is the only version people will remember as "normal")
"I wish you met me before I was like this" - Small doodle and extra rambing in keep reading
Quote from my warden arc fic, it wasnt there at first but i love to make things about my fic so its there.
also some screenshots of ideas ive had about the purple stuff. this is an important note that i kinda dontt care for subz outside of/before the warden arc atm, is there a huge reason for the purple stuff- maybe- but in my mind it frankly isnt my business. and i like making shit up. idk i just dont think the purple thing really NEEDS a canon explanation anyhow cause its NOT the point of her character. its just there as added fun, id rather much touch on depression and anxiety with her more so yeah.
anon i love you- yes i answer asks i love love love to ramble- it is 1 in the morning- and i love love love constructively being told im so wrong /gen like promise you i WILL be responding in full sometime soon — i feel like i come off very pretentious and know it all when i make rambling threads about characterization and things but the truth is half the time im making it up to whatever sounds right with my self limited knowledge so i love examples and explanations thank you anon and goodnight everyone else
another random lifesteal smp thought is like, i think the reason i like it specifically so much is bc where else do you get to see stories that fail as much as you do in lifesteal.
failed traps, confusing betrayals, the lack of conflict, the over the top destruction, the miscommunication, lackluster character arcs, stories that abruptly end, story plots that are shoved into the narrative, and so much more. so many things dont go how players intended/wanted, and sometimes they can work too well that it may not even be interesting! because of all this you get these hypocrite & messy characters and a messy storyline, and its beautiful.
i think lifesteal is at its most beautiful when things fail.
A big issue with online queer discourse is you never know what queer level your opponent is. You could be arguing about he/him lesbians with someone who thinks men can’t be bisexual
This is actually something I've been thinking about since this stream happened, I just never knew how to phrase it well. It really made me puzzled back then too, why Bacon said it was never his goal to get banned, when... it was. I'm curious what might've changed his perspective on it.
Before the second clip, he's baiting them into banning him. Takes of his armour, makes it seems like he is one heart. He wasn't on one, and be wouldn't have have gotten banned. But... was it that? Was that when he realised he didn't want to get banned? When it came down the withdrawing the hearts, was it that point when he decided he didn't want to die? Or sometime way before?
It's obvious why Bacon didn't manage to fully,, meet the same path and fate as Subz. The difference of their approach is already striking. Bacon viewed it as a void arc type of project, it's why Zam supported him so much too, because she recognised that he wants to fix their failure. But Subz went into it knowing this is his last project, knowing that there will never be anything for him ever again. It's interesting, that Bacon had to let go off everything and everyone he had close to him to immerse himself in this role, while Subz already lacked them. That's difference number 1
Bacon's approach was rallying the server, to unite them to work against him. Subz's reasons were selfish more than anything, it was closure.
And, of course. Bacon did get banned. He had taken off Subz's coat, he had ended this arc, but he gets banned. He is his "regular old self". Bacon doesn't get banned when he is trying to be Subz, he gets banned when he is himself again.
Besides, his reasoning for being a good enemy, is that he is easy to kill.
Bacon: hopefully I can unite everyone against these wardens and give them a better enemy than FlameFrags. I was talking to Zam about like "I'm gonna kill FlameFrags", such a boring enemy, I told him "Wouldn't you rather have any enemy like me? Much easier to kill?"
See, I feel like im a great enemy to have. Well, I don't know. Maybe not. I dont know you know everyone on this server thinks they can beat me, they think they whatever I do I can— i don't know, I still think that's not true
I'm not doing this to prove anything, but it might prove something along the way, right, like if it does, you know, I don't know
Chatter: don't you think it might be too repetitive for them though?
Bacon: It's only repetitive if they make it repetitive. It's probably repetitive for me, spawning wardens, and you know. There's so much they could do, the possibilities are endless for them
anyway repetivness? Whatever dude. When I'm banned its done, so you know. If they wanna end it, they can end it, just put some effort in
Zam: he's normal again! Is that it?
Rek: Oh my gosh he is!
Bacon: Yeah, I uh, didn't actually, I didn't actually want to get banned off the server. i'm gonna be honest.
Zam: Yeah I mean that's fair Just getting his stuff back. Oh he's back to normal
Bacon: I um. I don't really want go get banned. Subz, Subz, had this own stuff going on, he uh, he wanted to be banned off the server for the wardens and then he left before ever getting banned. And that really wasn't ever my goal. And I think I want to go back to normal to not spawning wardens, not in the Subz cloak
Zam: just regular old Bacon
Rek: i like regular, not warden spawning Bacon
Zam: yeah, I'm glad youre back to normal
Rek: welcome back, welcome back bacon
Woogie: I have a question. So did you figure it out? Did you undertsand why he did all this?
Bacon: Um, I think I made some good progress
#Is it really suicide if dying's all you've ever known <-- is it really dying if you come back--is it really death (being banned) if its not guaranteed to be permanent (reviving)! what does death mean to players that are familiar with dying. how do you process someone being banned, being gone, when you may have the chance to revive them eventually? what if one does not want to be revived! what if one just leaves and never returns! how do you grieve on lifesteal, when killing and dying is all you can do. Whats the difference in wanting to be banned off the server by code and not hearts if the end result is the same?
sorry i think lifesteal is such an interesting medium and setting-- there are so many metaphors to be made and questions to be asked about the characters and how they go about their twisted lives.
When the goal of the server is to dominate-- to get 20 hearts, or gain unlimited power over others, or to just simply survive -- and one WANTS to instead be banned, how does that change players preconceptions about what lifesteal is.
This is actually something I've been thinking about since this stream happened, I just never knew how to phrase it well. It really made me puzzled back then too, why Bacon said it was never his goal to get banned, when... it was. I'm curious what might've changed his perspective on it.
Before the second clip, he's baiting them into banning him. Takes of his armour, makes it seems like he is one heart. He wasn't on one, and be wouldn't have have gotten banned. But... was it that? Was that when he realised he didn't want to get banned? When it came down the withdrawing the hearts, was it that point when he decided he didn't want to die? Or sometime way before?
It's obvious why Bacon didn't manage to fully,, meet the same path and fate as Subz. The difference of their approach is already striking. Bacon viewed it as a void arc type of project, it's why Zam supported him so much too, because she recognised that he wants to fix their failure. But Subz went into it knowing this is his last project, knowing that there will never be anything for him ever again. It's interesting, that Bacon had to let go off everything and everyone he had close to him to immerse himself in this role, while Subz already lacked them. That's difference number 1
Bacon's approach was rallying the server, to unite them to work against him. Subz's reasons were selfish more than anything, it was closure.
And, of course. Bacon did get banned. He had taken off Subz's coat, he had ended this arc, but he gets banned. He is his "regular old self". Bacon doesn't get banned when he is trying to be Subz, he gets banned when he is himself again.
Besides, his reasoning for being a good enemy, is that he is easy to kill.
Bacon: hopefully I can unite everyone against these wardens and give them a better enemy than FlameFrags. I was talking to Zam about like "I'm gonna kill FlameFrags", such a boring enemy, I told him "Wouldn't you rather have any enemy like me? Much easier to kill?"
See, I feel like im a great enemy to have. Well, I don't know. Maybe not. I dont know you know everyone on this server thinks they can beat me, they think they whatever I do I can— i don't know, I still think that's not true
I'm not doing this to prove anything, but it might prove something along the way, right, like if it does, you know, I don't know
Chatter: don't you think it might be too repetitive for them though?
Bacon: It's only repetitive if they make it repetitive. It's probably repetitive for me, spawning wardens, and you know. There's so much they could do, the possibilities are endless for them
anyway repetivness? Whatever dude. When I'm banned its done, so you know. If they wanna end it, they can end it, just put some effort in
Zam: he's normal again! Is that it?
Rek: Oh my gosh he is!
Bacon: Yeah, I uh, didn't actually, I didn't actually want to get banned off the server. i'm gonna be honest.
Zam: Yeah I mean that's fair Just getting his stuff back. Oh he's back to normal
Bacon: I um. I don't really want go get banned. Subz, Subz, had this own stuff going on, he uh, he wanted to be banned off the server for the wardens and then he left before ever getting banned. And that really wasn't ever my goal. And I think I want to go back to normal to not spawning wardens, not in the Subz cloak
Zam: just regular old Bacon
Rek: i like regular, not warden spawning Bacon
Zam: yeah, I'm glad youre back to normal
Rek: welcome back, welcome back bacon
Woogie: I have a question. So did you figure it out? Did you undertsand why he did all this?
Bacon: Um, I think I made some good progress
"Bacon doesn't get banned when he is trying to be Subz, he gets banned when he is himself again." and "It's probably repetitive for me, spawning wardens, and you know...anyway repetivness? Whatever dude. When I'm banned its done, so you know." - depressed bacon is so real to me like like plsease do we see this am i insane please
its like, call me crazy, but subz and bacon were BOTH depressed- just just a little differently. If you asked me i'd say Bacons also grieving Subz but but what do i know.
Bacon saying he never wanted to be banned- when thats obviously not the truth- is soooo its so insane. 'no yeah guys sorry i was just depressed for a couple months nah i didnt really wanna die hahahaha dw bout it' idk i i think we should kill him.
he adopted subz's plan-- INCLUDING THE BAN WISH-- to understand him better. And he totally fails because he throws in the preconception that subz was doing it for the betterment of the server (activity), which isnt even half of it.
its so cool. bacon doing the wardens to help with activity, adopting subzs death wish, and then pretending like the activity was actually the only reason (just like he thought at first with subz). idk theyre crazy im rambling i love this post thank you
short ramble post cause i had like 4 ramble threads on my alt twt about this already but, damn s6 zam had ISSUES 😭😭😭😭 I was vod watching from her pov cause woogies vods are lost to time and its just. #ihatemylife #ihatemyteam final boss😭 😭 😭 her and woogie are highkey just as crazy as her and derap, two suicidal *besties* who go back in forth of trying to convince the other to keep going. its such a damn mess at #reallylockedin team
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