[caitlynjohnston3]

now i’m embarrassed for falling for your bullshit lies and those fake tears

[caitlynjohnston3]

everyone was right about you but i didn’t want to believe them because i thought you were better than that.

[caitlynjohnston3]

i’m actually so depressed being back home wtf i don’t like it here

[caitlynjohnston3]

i honestly don’t even think i’m ready for a relationship. i feel like i’m all over the place and just having fun and living my own life and i just don’t feel ready for the commitment with someone else. i like the idea of a relationship but in the long run i really can’t hold myself down for that right now. so i kind of fucked myself but whatever i’m just goin with the flow.

[caitlynjohnston3]

do i really connect with you?

do i just like the idea of you?

can i see a future with you?

is a relationship going to interfere with our family?

is a relationship even going to work?

is this really what we want?!!

[caitlynjohnston3]

i thought i was over with choosing between people but then ANOTHER ONE has to come in and now i gotta choose but i mean... do i really have to? :/

[caitlynjohnston3]

i didn’t know you felt anything towards me but now you’re talking about what we should be and i don’t know how to feel. i didn’t think we’d end up like this

[caitlynjohnston3]

i know i shouldn’t be stressing over this bc i know it won’t even work out but like i am and it’s all i can think about and i just have no idea what’s gonna happen

[caitlynjohnston3]

i didn’t expect any of this to turn out the way it did and now i don’t know what to do

[caitlynjohnston3]

who would’ve known that my crush since i was like 10 years old who is 7 years older than me would fall for me. like woah, that came out of no where. now all i want to do is spend time with you but OF COURSE i left the day after we FINALLY confessed our feelings

[caitlynjohnston3]

if you come back to california you should hmu ;)

[caitlynjohnston3]

it sucks sharing something special with someone who lives so far away

[caitlynjohnston3]

thank you for making my last night in arkansas magical

[caitlynjohnston3]

it’s crazy how you wake up everyday not knowing if that day will change your life forever

[caitlynjohnston3]

it’s sad to say but i hope one day i’ll forget about you. i want to forget about every part of it.

[eliminated]

[caitlynjohnston3]

if they didn’t care or love you anymore they wouldn’t talk shit. remember that.