BATTY

[calamitydarkbloom]

I can’t stop reading the terrible things he’s said to me. Over and over again. It’s destroying me.

[calamitydarkbloom]

This hit me hard. Who takes care of me.. when I went through that experience all alone.. I am still alone through all of this. My heart hurts. Instead of support, I get treated so terribly that it breaks me down even more.

[calamitydarkbloom]

This hit me hard. Who takes care of me.. when I went through that experience all alone.. I am still alone through all of this. My heart hurts. Instead of support, I get treated so terribly that it breaks me down even more.

[calamitydarkbloom]

i just need a hug.

[calamitydarkbloom]

:(

[calamitydarkbloom]

Important

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMYdAC5YE/

[calamitydarkbloom]

I’m too scared to talk to anyone.

[calamitydarkbloom]

I’m too scared to talk to him :(

[calamitydarkbloom]

My Wish

https://www.tiktok.com/@user140886664/video/7163164977807904042

[calamitydarkbloom]

I shouldn’t talk to him, or anyone for that matter. I don’t want to make his life worse.

[calamitydarkbloom]

I won’t talk about my feelings again

[calamitydarkbloom]

I wish we could go back to being happy together and spending a good time with each other without having to pretend

[calamitydarkbloom]

The Things He Does For Me

- GOT ME HOGWARTS LEGACY!!!

- My Favourite: Tells people about us and how he wants to marry me (ive never felt so happy and loved)

- Buys me chocolate on my period

- Offers me supplies (bandages, etc) to help me

- Travelled so far just to see me countless times

(It’s really a lot especially considering how busy he is)

- Used to go on drives just to talk to me and took me seriously

- Always nice to me and validates my feelings 

(It hasn’t been like that for a few months, but he’s always done it before that and it has made a large impact on my life and I’ll never forget it.)

- Helps me out when I have problems (I realize it’s too much of a bother and I need to stop talking about my problems)

- Protects me, like when he stood up for me many times when no one else did and spoke to everyone that affected me to make sure I was being treated right, and he always makes sure I’m safe and never lets people talk bad about me

(No one’s ever done this for me and it’s something I will never forget. Sadly, I realize he just did those things so he would stop feeling bad about it, but it’s still everything to me. I feel really bad about how he feels bad over it and I know I shouldn’t tell him about everything that happens to me but he said it’s worse if I don’t tell him at all and it makes me sad that he’s affected by these things. I just want to lie and not tell but I hate lying to him so I never do. It really is my fault that these things happen and I feel bad that he deals with it)

- Bought me things like space, sloth and sonic socks, the amazing owl coin that I can’t stop staring at, a prepaid card (solves all my problems!), two invertible octopus plushies including one that I obsessed over (he’s so thoughtful), and more

(Even if he gives me something as little as a chunk of dirt, I’d put it in a jar and carry it around with me forever)

- Showers me with compliments and tells me so often how I’m gorgeous, etc.

- Always makes me feel better whenever I have self-esteem issues (because of him, my self-esteem has been getting a lot better than it ever was and he is an amazing person)

- Makes me feel loved (he always has something good to say to me or about me and tells me he loves me a lot)

- Gives me the best hugs (makes me feel safe and comforted)

- Makes me feel better when I’m down and comforts me

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[loved-ones]

Crazy how trauma makes you push people away when all you want is love.

[calamitydarkbloom]

"It's important for you to communicate your feelings of discomfort to your partner and express how their actions or words are impacting you. It's important for your partner to understand and take responsibility for their actions if they have hurt you. And it's important for both of you to work together to find a solution and to improve the situation.

However, it's important to remember that it's not healthy to be in a relationship where one person consistently makes the other feel hurt or uncomfortable. If your partner continues to hurt you and does not seem to care about your feelings, it may be a sign of an unhealthy or toxic relationship.“

[calamitydarkbloom]

If I just let him hurt me he won’t leave me, right?

[calamitydarkbloom]

He wants to just be friends…