Get me out of here, so I can breathe

indie oc as penned by dylan.

[calidumflammae]

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                                     dylan. 31. est. he/him.

discord available upon request. (usually not for rp purposes).

never be afraid to send memes. even if it’s just questions about the mun/muse. i absolutely love receiving messages. just slow at replying.

i have other blogs besides dakota! they will not currently be linked here, but can be found under this tag.

my default is paragraph or prose depending on what the situation calls for. i type single space small, sub text without capitalization, but with bolding and italicizing. i do not match others, you do not have to  match me. i sometimes add icons, other times i don’t, it’s all a matter  of how many icons i have, and how lazy i am at the moment. if for any  reason you need me to change my formatting because of sight problems  please let me know.

this probably will be updated at some point.

[calidumflammae]

THINGS DYLAN & KAT HAVE SAID    :      IRONICALLY OR UNIRONICALLY   

.

“ANGST GREMLINS!”

“BABY DEPOT.”

“WHAT’S THE THING THAT’S LIKE THE CONE OF SHAME BUT FOR HUMANS?”

“DO WE HAVE A ROLLING PIN FOR FUR?”

“THEIR BRAINS ARE BOTH EQUALLY FUCKED, YOUR HONOR.”

“I THOUGHT I HEARD A BITCH.”

“PRAYING TO SATAN FOR THE DOGGO”

“HE LOOKS MEAN - AND I’M INTO THAT.”

[calidumflammae]

i guess dakota’s new blog but also bennett’s blogs are shadowbanned or whatever because none of the posts are showing up in the tags. so go check out my opens here (dakota) and here (bennett)

might just have to add them to my new multi muse blog and be done with it.

[maroonstained]

                             AIN’T THAT THE WAY

                                                  SHIT ALWAYS ENDS?

[maroonstained]

                             AIN’T THAT THE WAY

                                                  SHIT ALWAYS ENDS?

[calidumflammae]

after much deliberation, i’m making a new blog for dakota. and possibly changing some things up. please like this post if you’re interested in me following you from his new blog when it’s ready.

[calidumflammae]

after much deliberation, i'm making a new blog for dakota. and possibly changing some things up. please like this post if you're interested in me following you from his new blog when it's ready.

[supersources]

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[calidumflammae]

And I wake with your memory over me

                That's a real fucking legacy to leave .

[perspectivestarters]

Perspective's Sentence Starters; MIDNIGHTS by Taylor Swift (Part I)

LAVENDER HAZE

"Meet me at midnight."

"You don't ever say too much."

"You don't really read into my melancholia."

"You handled it beautifully."

"All this shit is new to me."

"I feel the lavender haze creeping up on me."

"I'm damned if I do give a damn what people say."

"I just wanna stay in that lavender haze."

"All they keep asking me is if I'm gonna be your bride."

"The only kinda girl they see is a one night or a wife."

"I find it dizzying."

"You weren't even listening."

"Talk your talk and go viral."

"I just need this love spiral."

"Get it off your chest."

"Get it off my desk."

"I just wanna stay."

MAROON

"We lost track of time again."

"You were my closest friend."

"How'd we end up on the floor anyway?"

"I see you every day now."

"I chose you."

"So scarlet, it was maroon."

"How the hell did we lose sight of us again?"

"Ain't that the way shit always ends?"

"Carnations you had thought were roses, that's us."

"I feel you, no matter what."

"I lost you."

"Looked up at the sky and it was maroon."

"I wake with your memory over me."

"That's a real fuckin' legacy to leave."

ANTI-HERO

"I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser."

"Midnights become my afternoons."

"My depression works the graveyard shift."

"All of the people I've ghosted stand there in the room."

"I should not be left to my own devices."

"They come with prices and vices."

"I end up in crisis."

"Tale as old as time."

"I wake up screaming from dreaming."

"I'm the problem."

"I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror."

"It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero."

"I'm a monster on the hill."

"Pierced through the heart, but never killed."

"Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism?"

"I've realized all this time."

"Life will lose all its meaning."

"She's laughing up at us from hell!"

"It's me, I'm the problem, it's me."

SNOW ON THE BEACH

"I saw flecks of what could've been lights."

"It might just have been you."

"Life is emotionally abusive."

"Time can't stop me quite like you did."

"My flight was awful, thanks for asking."

"It's like snow at the beach."

"Weird but fuckin' beautiful."

"This scene feels like what I once saw on a screen."

"I've never seen someone lit from within."

"To hide that would be so dishonest."

"It's fine to fake it 'til you make it."

"I can't speak, afraid to jinx it."

"I don't even dare to wish it."

"Your eyes are flying saucers from another planet."

"Can this be a real thing, can it?"

"It's comin' down."

YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN, KID

"Summer went away, still the yearning stays."

"I play it cool with the best of them."

"He's gonna notice me."

"We're the best of friends anyway."

"You're smoking with your boys."

"I didn't choose this town."

"I dream of getting out."

"There's just one who could make me stay all my days."

"I waited ages to see you there."

"I search the party of better bodies, just to learn that you never cared."

"You're on your own, kid."

"You always have been."

"I picked the petals, he loves me not."

"Something different bloomed."

"I'll run away."

"I called a taxi to take me there."

"My dreams aren't rare."

"I gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this."

"The jokes weren't funny."

"I took the money."

"My friends from home don't know what to say."

"I saw something they can't take away."

"There were pages turned with the bridges burned."

"Everything you lose is a step you take."

"You've got no reason to be afraid."

"Yeah, you can face this."

"You're on your own, kid. You always have been."

MIDNIGHT RAIN

"He wanted it comfortable, I wanted that pain."

"He wanted a bride, I was making my own name."

"He stayed the same."

"All of me changed like midnight."

"My town was a wasteland."

"But for some, it was paradise."

"My boy was a montage."

"I broke his heart 'cause he was nice."

"He was sunshine, I was midnight rain."

"But for him, it's every day."

"All the love we unravel."

"The life I gave away."

"I guess sometimes we all get just what we wanted."

"He never thinks of me except for when I'm on TV."

"I guess sometimes we all get some kind of haunted."

"I never think of him except on midnights like this."

QUESTION...?

"I remember."

"We had one thing goin' on."

"I swear that it was somethin'."

I don't remember who I was before you."

"You painted all my nights a color I've searched for since."

"One thing after another."

"Fuckin' situations, circumstances, miscommunications."

"I just may like some explanations."

"Can I ask you a question?

"Did you ever have someone kiss you in a crowded room?"

"Then what did you do?"

"Did you lеave her house in the middle of the night?"

"Did you wish you'd put up more of a fight?"

"She said it was too much."

"Do you wish you could still touch her?"

"It's just a question."

"Did you realize out of time?"

"She was on your mind with some dickhead guy."

"It was one drink after another."

"Fuckin' politics and gender roles."

"You're not sure and I don't know."

"I just may like to have a conversation."

"Does it feel like everything's just like second best after that meteor strike?"

"What's that that I heard?"

"That you're still with her?"

"That's nice, I'm sure that's what's suitable."

[calidumflammae]

like this post for a short sentence starter. (will do tonight after work / tomorrow);

[theirkink-deactivated20240130]

⊰• ·٠ ❝ fucked up plots time v. 001 ❞ ٠· •⊱

trigger warnings for dubcon/non/rape, incest/stepcest/twincest, stockholm syndrome, mental illness mention, abuse, murder, torture, bullying.

muse a is currently coming to terms with a traumatic life event/is dealing with mental illness and decides to find a therapist. her doctor recommends muse b, who specialises in hypnotherapy, and after a few sessions, muse a and muse b develop a rapport. unbeknownst to muse a however, every time muse b puts them under, muse b is only molding muse a to b’s every whim. as muse a begins to realise how they act to certain cues, and their unexpected growing attraction to their therapist, muse b has already completely psychologically their patient to obey their every command.

muse a is the new in town, and enters their community feeling positive about the new opportunities that await them. in their apartment building, muse a meets muse b, a young and shy member of the same gender, who muse a immediately embraces as a friend. however as time passes, muse a begins to notice things missing from their apartment, and muse b appears to be morphing into someone completely different, far more confident and outgoing than before. before long, muse a becomes paranoid, as they are frequently mistaken for muse b, and finds themselves secluded to the little apartment building. there, after much time spent holed up, they discover that muse b has begun to date the person a had originally been pursing, that muse b had now taken a’s position at the job they previously worked at, and that muse b is wearing all of those clothes that went missing from a’s apartment.

muse a is a member of a sports team and constantly picks on muse b. little does muse a know that muse b is currently dating muse c, the coach of the team, and one day after practice, the two corner muse a to teach them a lesson. alternatively, muse b’s parent/s are the ones who put muse a in their place.

muse a and muse b are twins who’ve always done everything together, despite being different in personality. muse b has always been the more dominant of the two, and behind closed doors, this behavior takes its form in unimaginably perverse ways. 

muse a is the nerdy kid in school and is constantly being bullied by muse b. when this bullying crosses another line, muse a decides to bite back.

muse a and muse b are (step-)mother and daughter. after having been at each other’s throats for some time, they decide to mend their differences by spending some time at the family holiday home. however, for some weeks now, muse c has been hiding out from the local authorities in the holiday home. muse c is considered armed and highly dangerous. when muse a and muse b arrive, they find that the home is certainly been occupied in the family’s absence, however what they soon discover is far more horrifying than a few bread crumbs and crumpled sheets.

muse a is a serial killer who has been plaguing muse b’s home town for the past few months. after an evening jog, muse b is abducted and brought back to muse a’s lair. muse a’s decision to target b is because of intense infatuation, and after some convincing, muse a decides to spare muse b, on the one condition that muse b stays with them forever.

[calidumflammae]

‘  i was fine till the night that your friends introduced me to you.  ’

[bitchcunthaver]

thinkin about cute, adorable domestic scenarios like baking together and getting absolutely railed over the counter or cleaning on a quiet sunday and getting snuck up on while doing dishes and they just quietly kneel behind me, tug my shorts and panties down and eat my pussy or coming home after an outing and getting immediately pinned to the wall or--

[dirbenaffleck]

Hunter Parrish as Clay Haas. Quantico ( 2015 ─ 2018 )

[calidumflammae]

It’s just grappling👀 #dayinmylife #military #forbiddencoconut #usa #w #grappling #marines #airforce #army #navy #kesfet #Love #fyp #comedia

It’s just grappling👀 #dayinmylife #military #forbiddencoconut #usa #w #grappling #marines #airforce #army #navy #kesfet #Love #fyp #comedia

someone said: is it too late to join the military 😂

[moogle-resources]

𝐉𝐈𝐌 𝐇𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐎𝐍'𝐒 𝐒𝐇𝐀𝐃𝐎𝐖𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐂𝐑𝐘𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐋 + 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐃𝐀𝐑𝐊 𝐂𝐑𝐘𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐋 𝐁𝐘 𝐉.𝐌. 𝐋𝐄𝐄.

feel free to change pronouns/etc as needed !

❝ coming of age is a journey, not a destination. ❞ ❝ i was hoping i might ask for the inconvenience of your hospitality . ❞ ❝ i have seen many places in my travels , but this is certainly the place i would call most different from where i come from . ❞ ❝ sibling rivalry can be difficult . ❞ ❝ it seems there’s more to your story than you’ve said . ❞ ❝ they’ve told me that much , but i prefer water fresh from the spring . ❞ ❝ there is a reason one’s duty as a soldier ends only in death . it changes you . ❞ ❝ there’s a thorny nettle growing . ❞ ❝ i may keep my lips sealed , but the truth garners singers wherever it goes . ❞ ❝ please ⸻ please , i don’t know what plagues you . i mean you no harm . ❞ ❝ you always know how to be in the right place at the most inconvenient of times , don’t you ?  ❞ ❝ songs of brave heroes thwarting villains … they give you hope , yes ? gets you through the night ? ❞ ❝ you could’ve helped yourself if you fought back . ❞ ❝ those kinds are all talk . give them a little fight-back just once and they’ll leave you alone forever . ❞ ❝ journey ? where i come from , i think we’d call it running away . ❞ ❝ don’t let others pick on you like that anymore . ❞ ❝ a rock is good for one of two things: throwing or hiding under . pick whichever you want , but the more quickly you decide , the better .  ❞ ❝ at the very least , i promise i won’t let you down . ❞ ❝ we don’t have time to stand around like sticks in the mud . ❞ ❝ doesn’t that scare you ? ❞ ❝ songs carry truth . ❞ ❝ i don’t believe in vengeance , but i don’t want what happened to me to happen to anyone else . ❞ ❝ oh , you must tell me the songs you know . i’d love to hear them . ❞ ❝ anything you sniff and still want to eat can’t be poisonous . ❞ ❝ i can’t help but feel like there’s something you’re not telling me . ❞ ❝ how would i know ? this is new to me too . ❞ ❝ i guess they’ll tell songs about us , then . ❞ ❝ oh , plenty of things are said in language by accident  . ❞ ❝ you cannot save me . ❞ ❝ you’re not strong enough to save them . ❞ ❝ stay away from me ! who are you ? what do you want ? ❞  ❝ show me your pain . i want to help . ❞ ❝ supper sounds great , but not if we’re the ones in the pot . ❞ ❝ a stone in each hand leaves no room for a third . ❞ ❝ holding on to things too tightly will prevent you from moving forward . ❞ ❝ if i let go of the things i care about , then what’s the point of going forward ? ❞ ❝ what we surrender , we may be given . what we lose , we may find again . ❞ ❝ for every one there is another . ❞ ❝ i heard voices . last night . saying horrible things . ❞ ❝ words can take on many forms . ❞ ❝ an archer knows the path of an arrow from either end . ❞ ❝ may we meet again , even be it in a different form . ❞ ❝ what good is wisdom when it can’t be understood ? ❞ ❝ even those that are good are connected to those that are not so good . connected in ways we don’t understand . ❞ ❝ i’m not a child ⸻ let me go with you ! ❞ ❝ what you’re planning is reckless ⸻ and dangerous ! there must be another way !  ❞ ❝ there’s no other way . so this is MY way . ❞ ❝ the heroes always find another way . ❞ ❝ do you hear what you’re saying ? this is death ! ❞ ❝ your power will end , just you wait and see . ❞ ❝ if it’s my fate to fall here , then i’d rather do it as a hero than a burden . ❞ ❝ how long have you been betraying us ? how long have you been feeding us lies ?  ❞ ❝ your purpose is to be a sacrifice . a small price to pay . ❞ ❝ even if i survived , i’d never be cured . ❞ ❝ stop it . we’re getting out of here together . together or not at all !  ❞ ❝ when you need me , i’ll be with you . ❞ ❝ run and live ⸻ for the both of us now . ❞ ❝ i was so worried i’d lost you too . ❞ ❝ you’ve been through so much . ❞ ❝ you deserve time to mourn . ❞ ❝ i know you want to fix this , but you shouldn’t hurt yourself in the process . ❞ ❝ i don’t need your help . ❞ ❝ i know you’re full of darkness now , but please remember ! remember who you were before ! ❞ ❝ i’m a traitor, remember ? ❞ ❝ i’m not ungrateful. i just don’t want anyone else to get hurt. ❞ ❝ not everyone is against you ! ❞ ❝ i’m going with you , no matter how much you wish to go alone . ❞ ❝ you’ll only slow me down . ❞ ❝ now we have our own villains to defeat . ❞ ❝ just because the world is falling apart doesn’t mean you can’t treat yourself a little. ❞ ❝ sorry . i didn’t mean for this to take all day . ❞ ❝ before you wonder ⸻ it is bad news . ❞ ❝ you should not say such things . ❞ ❝ i can’t risk the safety of my people anymore . please understand . ❞ ❝ please don’t die . ❞ ❝ we will always face hard times, but it’s important to remember that our sadness can often be what becomes our strength . ❞ ❝ there’s no weakness in sorrow or grief . ❞ ❝ i only fear that my sorrow will not be enough to grow anything  . ❞ ❝ are you saying you think this is some sort of trap ? ❞ ❝ i think we should run . ❞ ❝ i’ll speak to you like i speak to everyone else ⸻ with respect, if you deserve it . ❞ ❝ i’ve had enough of patience , and i’ve had enough of you . ❞ ❝ take it . i think it was meant for you . ❞ ❝ then we will go . i trust your instinct . ❞ ❝ i didn’t ask for your help . ❞ ❝ what are you so worked up about ? ❞ ❝ how dare you speak this way to me ? ❞ ❝ you’re enjoying this , aren’t you ? ❞ ❝ that was an accident . it just came out like that . ❞ ❝ i didn’t know you had it in you . i liked it . ❞ ❝ you’re just worried i might need protecting . ❞ ❝ when i’m with you , i have someone looking out for me from a different perspective . that’s important to me .  ❞ ❝ may all light not true be swallowed by darkness . ❞ ❝ don’t start any fights. please. ❞ ❝ why get into a fight at a time like this ? ❞ ❝ calm down ! stop waving that sword around , for starters . ❞ ❝ you’ve just seemed … different , is all . ❞ ❝ you don’t have to be strong for us . ❞ ❝ you do not understand me at all . ❞ ❝ i want nothing more than to be gone from this place . ❞ ❝ just one moment . i am going to say goodbye . ❞ ❝ stop messing around . we’ve wasted enough time . ❞ ❝ i feel like every time i try to accomplish something , i’m too late . ❞ ❝ i shouldn’t have gotten my hopes up . ❞ ❝ this was a foolish plan to begin with . ❞ ❝ is that my fate , then ? to go mad ? ❞ ❝ i don’t know that story , so i couldn’t tell you the end of it . ❞ ❝ that’s nice , but it doesn’t help . ❞ ❝ seems i really can’t do much of anything . ❞ ❝ that is your choice to make . one can be either the weaver or the woven . the singer or the song . ❞ ❝ was it the only thing you could do , or a thing only you could do ? ❞ ❝ i feel like i can hear the whole world from up here . ❞ ❝ i regret my trust . i regret it dearly . ❞ ❝ this body won’t last . ❞ ❝ i don’t like this . why you , and why do you have to go alone ? ❞ ❝ where are they ? tell me before i kill you ! ❞ ❝ i am the one who will put you and yours in your graves . ❞ ❝ you are more fickle and traitorous than i thought . ❞ ❝ you deserve what’s coming to you . ❞ ❝ i’m glad it came to this . i was tired of pretending to like you . ❞ ❝ i’m sorry. i didn’t mean to do whatever i did , i just didn’t want you to die. i hope you aren’t angry with me . ❞ ❝ it wasn’t your fault . let’s agree to all be sorry and all be forgiven . ❞ ❝ is it possible , or will we die for sure ? ❞ ❝ you’re just mad i fooled you ! ❞ ❝ a minute ago you were trying to kill me ! ❞ ❝ i don’t think you’re in a place to negotiate . ❞ ❝ oh ? now we’re in a mood to bargain . ❞ ❝ we are all doing what it is we do ; what is our nature and our character . right and wrong are a complex song .  ❞  ❝ we must show mercy , even when we are not shown mercy ourselves . ❞ ❝ i would rather believe that we can unite for the good of our people , not revenge . ❞ ❝ if we could understand the grand song , we would be able to find our way .  ❞ ❝ we have to cut our own paths . ❞ ❝ we have to make the choice between being the weaver or the woven . the teller and the told . the singer and the song … but i choose to be both .  ❞ ❝ stop berating yourself for doing the things your heart calls you to do . ❞ ❝ i especially admire your courage and your loyalty to all that is good and right . ❞ ❝ that is the price of success , and there are more prices to be paid . ❞