this is a callout for cam, who pressured me into sex when i was sixteen years old and she was eighteen.
her current urls (that i know of) are malwares, houndloves, and chelseahotels.
previously, sheās written at the urls detcctive, warknown, forcewith, palmburnt, batsend, goldentape, syngt, dooweets, mediaeyed, baciamis, kinemasent, guerrillalose, coastalsnore. her resource blogs have included movierpmemes and badabings.
tw: pedophilia, rape.
iāll start by putting this out there: i donāt have access to our skype logs, where we spoke. it was pre-discord, and iād moved to a new skype account some time after that. when i log into my old skype account, none of my old conversations with anybody at all are available. i donāt have any proof that we had sex (i donāt know what proof of that would even look like). to be as transparent as possible, iāll supplement with all the details i can remember. i know i do not have concrete proof. i also know that my reputation on here is flimsy, at best. i am putting everything i have on the line right now, because iām tired of keeping this to myself. if this helps at least one other person not get hurt, then iāll have done my job.
i met cam in the fall of 2015. i was 16 years old at the time, cam was 18. my main blog was jchnlowe (a blog for john lowe of american horror story; i later changed the url to detlowe), and hers was detcctive (an oc named laura woods). we hit it off pretty quickly and soon became platonic friends. we spent a lot of time on skype together plotting and chatting about whatever came to mind. she even did me a favor and helped me with a personal project i was working on, reaching out and gathering information then sending it to my personal email (i still have these emails, but the name tied to camās is not cam, so idk what good screenshots for that would be. i guess if you want them you can hmu privately).
we stayed friends through the new year and into the spring. in march, she told me that she and her mother would be traveling to new orleans. i live about an hour out of new orleans, so she brought up the idea of coming to see me while they were out. i said yes, and i got excited about it:
link here. john lowe and laura woods were in reference to our muses.
at some point before our meet-up, cam brought up the idea of us having sex. i agreed to it, because i was sixteen years old and a virgin and losing my virginity to a trusted friend seemed like a good plan. before cam schemed this up, iād expressed no sexual interest in her at all. i knew she was an adult and i wasnāt, and i had no previous desire to be anything more than platonic friends.
between the time we planned to have sex and the time we actually met up, cam become more persistent about having a sexual relationship with me. we began sexting; i remember we had some form of skype sex/sexting at least twice but it couldāve been more. on one occasion, she made reference to wanting to see underneath my ācatholic schoolgirl skirt,ā as she knew i was in catholic high school at the time. i remember more sexually explicit details about these exchanges, but to preserve whatever privacy i have left, iām choosing to keep those to myself. if you really wanna know, you can ask.
we met on april 9, 2016; i posted this to johnās blog:
link here. (laura woods, again, in reference to camās oc).
it was a saturday afternoon; cam and her mother had visited the new orleans aquarium that morning, and her mother dropped her off at my house. we went into my bedroom and talked for a little while. she gave me this, a drawing sheād done:
we sat on my bed for a little while longer before she said something along the lines of āso, are we doing this or what?ā so we had sex. i remember lots of little details, like her asking me if i wanted music and telling me sheād drunkenly bought a kid cudi album on itunes, but iāll spare you the more explicit ones. it was not the most pleasant experience.
afterwards, we sat around and i put on the force awakens. i sat there beside her on my bed in a very weird state (confused and a bit regretful) as she told me about how her friends had recreated the starkiller base scene from tfa using legos. we didnāt finish the movie; she left not long after that. once she was gone, i got on a snapchat call with a person who, at the time, was a very good friend and long-time rp partner of mine, and recounted the whole story.
cam and i naturally fell out of contact a while after that. it wasnāt until a couple of years ago that i knew how fucked up this experience had been for me; the realization that it was wrong slowly crept up on me.
i know itās been four years, and i shouldāve spoken up sooner. i kept this to myself for so long because until i accidentally stumbled upon her blog this week, i didnāt know she was still active in the rpc. when i decided to write this callout, i messaged her myself. the idea made me feel sick, but i wanted to see if i could discreetly get her to verify things like the drawing she left me, since i donāt have a ton of proof myself.
she blocked me without a reply, and i donāt know how else to take that than an admission of guilt! i cannot rest easy knowing sheās still on this platform that already hosts such a pedophilic culture.
cam took advantage of me because i was sixteen years old and a virgin. she does not belong on a platform or community with as many minors as tumblr rpc has.