iâm a college student and sometimes i think about u just messing around with me and ruining my self-esteem by degrading me and being with other people and your posts have altered my brain chemistry
[a cheeky bit of manipulation and brainwashing never hurt no one. also, today i have a potluck!! i made some edible cookie dough (lemon and white chocolate + double chocolate)]
C/W: Degradation, Cuckquean
I imagine most people start life with a sense of invincibility. The idea that they're at the top of the world and can do anything. That they're important and mean something, the star of the show.
I'm going to take that away from you.
I'll make you obssessed with me. Every thought in every moment will be dedicated to me. Some small part of your mind constantly buzzing at the anticipation of seeing me or reading my next message. You'll find yourself looking at your phone in the late hours of the night waiting for a reply, and a piece of your ego will already have begun to shrivel up.
And then I'll introduce you to degradation. All these nasty, terrible things that I say to you while my cock's buried down your throat. Words that would normally make you lash back angrily... you'll let them go.
A part of you will understand that this is the only way you'll get my attention. By acting the role of a "stupid, brainless cocksheathe" or a "worthless piece of fuckmeat". I'm an adult now, you'll tell yourself, I'm allowed to have some consensual fun. You'll degrade yourself more for me, realising how much more time I spend with you when you're like this. When you're so cockdrunk, you'll do anything to make me cum.
That's why you'll begin to wonder if you've fucked up after I back off a little.
The messages coming in slower, the sex more infrequent, the sweet nothings becoming... nothing.
And then one day you'll wake up to a new message from me. Eagerly, you'll unlock your phone to read it just to find a video. Dark and grainy but it's obvious what it is. My cock... buried in someone else's cunt. You'll have spent hours on end choking on my cock, by that point. You'll know every vein of it. Besides it, you'll read, "met this bitch last night. she's been clenching her cunt around my cock and it feels so good. you should learn how to do that for me."
A part of you will break. You'll wonder if this is all one horrible nightmare. Did it mean nothing? We'll have never confirmed a relationship but... wasn't it as good as one? All the mini-dates, the movie nights, the sweet words I poured down your ear, the way I pushed you further in bed than you could have ever imagined. It wasn't... cheating, right? We weren't actually together-together.
You'll muster up your courage and reply with something cool and nonchalant. "I'm glad you enjoyed your evening" or "That's cool, you sound like you had a good time". Something detached. You'll lay in bed, skipping your classes, seeking the easiest way to get it off your mind. By touching yourself.
Sharp knives against your heart as you rub away those feelings of insecurity and shame. No. Not away. You'll fuck yourself to those thoughts. You really are a three-holed cum dumpster. A fleshlight. And men... have many fleshlights.
You'll still meet up with me, but something will have changed. A desperate need to prove yourself as you push yourself to the brink of exhaustion. Choking yourself harder on my cock. Slapping yourself till you're red and welting. Putting your tongue in places you'd never even wanted to think about. You'll notice the sex becoming more frequent, even as the number of videos in our messages pile up.
And eventually... you'll find yourself touching to those videos too. You'll think about the sounds I make with other girls. You'll think about their tits jiggling and my lips moaning. My hands all over their bodies and their legs wrapped around my waist. Until nothing else makes you cum harder.
I imagine by then you'll finally break and ask to join in. To see what it looks like... not through a screen but with your own eyes.
You'll try so hard to be the cool, fun fuckbuddy that's an equal part of that threesome... but we both know you'll always end up making out with my balls while I fuck her. Every time. You'll always be the one licking my cum out of her cunt. You'll always be the one I degrade as I fuck her.
But at least you'll get my time and attention, right?
