Becoming a Sissy Shemale

My Journey to becoming a sissy shemale fag

[candicesissy]

Come back plzzzzzz 🥺🥺

This comment means that you appreciate the expression of my thoughts. Thank you so much for the compliment.

[candicesissy]

How to deal with feelings of guilt after ejaculation and wanting to take off your dress immediately

Two ways. The first is chastity cage so that you can't ejaculate. The second is time. After a long, long time, you won't feel much guilt or be as disgusted. You'll learn to accept yourself even without the sexual desires, which is what alters your perspective in the first place.

[candicesissy]

I've been crossdressing for a long time. I went on vacation to live as a girl for the entire time I was there. I did things that girls do on vacation. I met a man who appealed to me. I sucked his cock and let him fuck me in my gurl pussy. Do you think that I've become a sissy?

What do you want to hear sweetie? That you're a sissy faggot? Well, I think we all know the truth no? Do real men dress like a girl, act like a girl, and get fucked like a girl? No? Then for all useful purposes, you must not be a man. What does that make you then? Hmmmm.

[candicesissy]

Didn't you have a series of posts on eating your own cum

I don't think so. It could've been a part of my writing, but I rarely write about eating my own. I always prefer someone else's.

[candicesissy]

How long have you been a sissy?

“How long have you been a sissy, and what do you think that you started being so. Again I absolutely love your writings in the depths to which you understand what it means to be a sissy, that really gets me sexually excited in someway” I’m not sure whether you’re born a sissy or you’re raised as one, but by the time you realize it -- which is the time when you first try on women’s clothing, it’s too late. It maybe a type of sexual imprinting, it may not. If I had to guess, I would say that it is. I believe that deepest core of being a sissy is a trifecta of humiliation, sexual pleasure, and femininity. It’s these three bonds that complete a sissy. Researchers believe that as high as 5~25% of population have some type of sadomasochistic traits, and I personally believe, without any evidence, that this number is somewhat higher. At any rate, connection with humiliation and sexual pleasure is well established. What is the most humiliating act for a boy just about to enter puberty? In the SNS space, these traits are widely accepted, but in playgrounds, boys still tease other boys and call them girls when they can’t run as fast or can’t protect themselves. And when curious boys try on their sister’s panties or mother’s bras, the most feminine and intimate article of clothing they can find, a conconction of humiliation and sexual pleasure rushes through their veins and becomes etched into their brain. This point on, you’re a sissy forever -- you’ve started out with lingerie, but you’ll be complete with a cock inside of you -- this is the realization of your greatest humiliation as a playground boy.

You see, this is what separates gays and transpeople from sissies. Sissies must have vestiges of their dick left. Of course, you’ll call it a clit or lock it up with chastity to further degrade yourself, but you need something that resembles a dick. Why? Because a women having sex with a man isn’t humiliating, and transwoman having sex with a man is just that.

With gay people, they’re in love with each other, and there’s something beautiful about that. But with sissies, this is a source of great confusion. Almost all sissies are hetero, they know so because they’ve fallen in love with a girl before. But as they progress with their journey and yearns for higher doses of humiliation, they want kneel down before another man and feel inferior. They want to arch their back while being penetrated from the back, and be spanked like a little girl. Basically, they want to push this idea that “being a girl is humiliating” as far as they can. See, sissies aren’t in love with a man. They’re in love with the idea of submitting before a man.

When a sissy is starting out, they’re confused because they love women but want to be fucked by a man. As they age, they still love women, the sexual desire wanes, while desire to be humiliated becomes constant. And as they become more confident people, they will realize that labels like “gay” or “sissy” really doesn’t matter. You like what you like. You used to love women while love being a sissy, but mark my words, your libido for woman will decline while your fetish will remain relatively constant. That means that you’ll become more of a sissy every, single day, not less. You’re a faggot. Say it out aloud. Just admit it. You want dick. Your first experience might not be great, just like most teenage girls. But you’ll never get rid of the desire to want more, so you’ll come crawling back to the land of faggotry, cocksucking, ridicule, pain, self-denial, embarrassment, makeup, panties, high heels, hypnosis, chastity, hormones, and so much more.

So how long have I been a sissy? Since I tried my mom’s bras when I was in fifth or sixth grade. What does it mean to be a sissy? Well fuck me while I’m dressed like whore, so I can act feminine and be humiliated. This is beyond sexual pleasure now. It’s redemption. You just feel so free that you don’t need to pretend anymore. All this fear and stress of being found out is no more when you’re being fucked by another man. That’s another reason why you love being a faggot, faggot.

[candicesissy]

When you take hormones does it really shrink your dick? And is it true if taken long enough your dick won't get hard again?

I’m not on hormones yet, but from what I hear, it doesn’t shrink your dick but makes it seem so ‘cause it doesn’t get erect as much. If you take anti-androgen with estrogen/progesterone, your body stops producing much of your testostrone, so you do lose your erection within months, depending on the person. I did hear people’s erection coming back if they stop, but after 6 months to a year, it will most likely be permanent. However, I’m not in a medical field, so take what I said with a grain of salt. I’m all for sissies and feminization, but this hormone stuff needs to be done with extreme caution and medical support.

[candicesissy]

Are You Gay?

This is an interesting question that is hard for sissies to answer for two reasons: 1. Sissies are biological males, but we are not men. 2. Sissies generally don’t fall in love with men, but with cocks and the idea of being effeminate submissive. We generally don’t want to talk and get to know men; we just want to be fucked and degraded.

The thing about being called gay is that sissies need an element of humiliation, but being gay is so widely accepted (rightfully so) in the popular western culture these days that it’s almost cool in some social circles. Many sissies, however, will at least feel a mild excitement from being called out as a gay person. One, they might be embarrassed for whatever reason, and two, if someone says it in an insulting or demeaning tone... well it doesn’t matter what they say if the tone is just right.

But what many sissies will have learned over the years is that the brain is more malleable than people originally thought. If a man fucks a sissy just right, over and over, the sissy may actually develop real feelings for him. At this point, the man has claimed the ownership of the sissy’s body and soul with his superior cock. But is this really a gay relationship? Biologically yes, but mentally no, because the sissy at this point is no longer a man but a little girl.

So I personally don’t identify as a gay person, although I might just say that I am out of convenience, or I might enjoy being called as one from time to time by a woman. Yeah, we sissies don’t even know who we are, but that’s okay. How the world categorizes us isn’t that important. What is important is knowing what we want and admitting it, which is wearing pretties bras and skirts, putting on make up, and acting feminine. I want to be called a sissy faggot, and have men penetrate me in a domineering fashion. There is no question when it comes to what I want. I like what I like, whether I like it or not - as in, I can hate the fact that I’m a cocksucker but I still love sucking cock. The world may not understand, but I don’t care.

Do you like wearing panties while salivating over big black cock? Well of course you do. Why else would you be reading this? Own up to it you gay little faggot. Admit it. Live it. And stop hating yourself. You’ll experience liberation beyond no other.

[candicesissy]

Just wanted to say thank you for having such a lovely blog! Reading through the things you’ve posted/liked has helped me become so much more comfortable with who I really am! Thank you!!

Thanks. These bits of confirmation means a lot to me.

[candicesissy]

Hi I have been confused for a long time and reading the bucket so spoke to me

Thanks. That one was more abstract than my other writings, but it just felt right.

[candicesissy]

Being a Sissy

It’s not so much the act of sex itself. It’s the act of kneeling down before sucking cock. The act of kneeling or bowing down before another human being is associated with making oneself look smaller, look less important. It transcends all cultures. You can take a picture of the scene and no one on this earth would ever doubt who is the superior, more powerful being in the picture. It’s the act of bending down and lifting my ass up high, so that the dominant can insert himself onto me. Again, I’m not the one who is penetrating. In an act similar to a conquer marking his land by placing a flag, one will insert himself onto the submissive, who has little choice but to take it.

It’s the act of painting your dick sucking lips bright red or pink, so that it will look so pretty enclosing a cock.

It’s the act of going shopping for a lingerie, and when the clerk knows that you want to look pretty for your daddy.

It’s the act of yelling out “Oh God I love cock. I’m a faggot. I’m a cock sucking faggot,” while being used. Being a sissy is not just about cross dressing or having sex with men. It’s more than that. It’s about power, or the lack thereof. It’s about being dominated. There’s no need to cry for sissies, or feel any pity. We love the shame, and can’t have enough of it. If anything, tease us and ridicule us for how pathetic we are. Trust me, sissies will never tire of being called a faggot or being a laughing stock, because the weak needs to be validated often. I for one, wish people would call me a sissy cock sucking faggot every moment of my life. It’s just our nature. There is no such thing as enough cum and ridicule for a sissy.

[candicesissy]

Foreverever

Sew one button, doesn't make u a tailor; cook one meal, doesn't make u a chef; but suck one cock and you’re a cocksucker forever. -- Reference: Elon Musk’s tweet on Catherine the Great and horse fucking.

[candicesissy]

I"m dressed like a girl again. Thanks for reposting my asks. I like telling you what a sissy I am and having you answer. My pathetic little limp clit hasn't been in a pussy for months. It has been in panties though. My little girl dress is so cute I never want to take it off! I love seeing myself in makeup and tits. What a pathetic little sissy I am.

Yes, and you’ll never be able to shake off those thoughts, never ever. You can mentally cage yourself, or be free as a sissy faggot. The choice is yours. Being yourself is the hardest choice you can make as a sissy, but one that will bring you true pleasure, for sure.

[candicesissy]

I'm a sissy faggot who likes dressing up like a little girl and playing with my dick. I wear makeup, dresses, nail polish, pantyhose and a wig. I like to look at myself in a full legnth mirror and stroke my dick. The more girly the better.

If I may I add, you apparently like admitting, especially in public, of your faggotry. You ARE a sissy indeed, and I bet you’ll never escape it. Now tell me, do you quiver when a daddy inserts his cock up your ass and tells you what a good girl you are? Good fags always do. XOXO

[candicesissy]

Hii do you have a Twitter?

No I do not. I like to write long, methodical posts, and Twitter is not an ideal medium for my type of writing. I also feel a bit uncomfortable coming out COMPLETELY, just because of the nature of my work, although at this point, it probably won’t make much of a difference since virtually everyone thinks I’m gay anyway. I always tell myself one day, I’ll post a video of my faggot self taking daddy’s cock and let that information be out on the internet forever...

[candicesissy]

You are a faggot.

If you want to try wearing panties and bras, you want to try wearing panties and bras.

If you like putting on a dress, you like putting on a dress.

If you want to suck on cock, you want to suck on cock. 

If you want a man to impose his will on you by putting a cock up your ass while you’re dressed like a little bitch, you are a sissy faggot.

No ifs and buts. It’s that simple, really. You’re a sissy faggot. You don’t like men, you revel at the thought of real men conquering you. Before you worry about others, before you think about your social life, before you think about your career, start from the simplest, truest, most foundational fact about you, as if you’re peeling an onion until there is nothing else to peel. What would you see? I think I know. A sissy. A faggot. This is the starting point.

So how do you act in front of others? Like a man? Well, you’re not only lying to yourself, but you’re lying to others. I get it, you don’t want to come out at work. And that’s fine. I won’t judge you if you want to achieve financial independence first. But do know that you’re deceiving everyone around you, and no matter how much you fake it, there are some things that you just won’t be able to “make it.” And every year, you’ll grow a bit more tired of lying to yourself and those around you.

If you’re a fag, you’re a fag. You’ll never unknown that fact, and you can’t hide it from yourself. Free yourself, and liberate your body, mind, and spirit. Put on that makeup like a sissy femboy that you are and scream “I love your cock” when a real man penetrates you and splits you down the middle. Trust me, it will be more than a penetration of the body. It will be the liberation of your soul, and the ultimate time when you throw away your mask into the trash bin. There can be no more doubt in your mind when you’re the one wearing lipstick, kneeling down as your skirt touches the ground, sucking on his dick, and lowering your panties so that his cock will prod inside of you. Yes, if you enjoy all this, you enjoy all this. You’re a fag. Welcome sissy boy. You are fucked, literally and figuratively. You might as well enjoy the ride.

You’re welcome.

[candicesissy]

I love being dressed like a woman. D cup forms, makeup, jewelery, pantyhose, tight blouse to show off my tits, short skirt to show off my legs. Two rubber panties, one with a hole for my clit, KY and a vibrator in my pussy. Do you think I'm gay? I'm not. Just like being fem. I want to feel like a woman!

You asked a question (Do you think I’m gay?) and answered it yourself (I’m not). So I don’t have much to add there.

Personally, I want to go beyond feeling like a woman, and be a pathetic faggot. Well, I am already, but affirmation is always a plus for a sissy. I wish everyone who reads this blog will go around and tell me what a weak, submissive cocksucking faggot I am.

[candicesissy]

Get on it

You are a strong woman.

It takes strength to admit to yourself and others what the society looks down upon and ridicules.

It takes courage to accept yourself after constant battles.

Admit to yourself that you want cock. You can’t help yourself that you get a hard-on when you see naked boys.

You can’t resist wearing panties, bras, and high heels.

Be yourself. Find a real man that is willing to make love to you. One who will insert his cock deep inside of you, like you’ve envisioned forever. With every thrust, your masculinity will seep out, and you’ll be begging him to tell you what you’ve always wanted to hear, that you’re a cocksucker, that you’re a faggot, that you’re a little girl.

And how much you love it.

That’s just who you are.

So get out of your little closet, and take off your mask.

The world will see a little girl inside, with thick mascara and slutty lipstick. A weakling who wants to be submissive to a real man who dominates.

You see, there can be no other way. It’s just a matter of time before you give in. Remember, that you WILL give in some day. It’s just a matter of whether you’ll be in front of your computer jerking off, or you’ll have a real man’s cock up your pussy like you’ve always wanted.

I think we both know what you would rather have. You wouldn’t be reading this if you weren’t a faggot. You wouldn’t have a hard-on right now if you weren’t a sissy.

So get on it and live your life the way that you were meant to live.