candied

i do what i want and sometimes capture it on camera. in my 20s... in every sense of the word

[sweatermuppet]

age 16: the world isn't worth living in

age 24: been getting into greek yogurt & birdwatching lately

[candied-marlboro]

clean sunday. been reading The Icebreaker, cooking weekly meals, and generally enjoying these long winter evenings

[septemberkisses]

the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.

[candied-marlboro]

[candied-marlboro]

[hauntingyourself]

I go to the evil trail and I take an evil walk

[godenteredmybody-deactivated202]

[candied-marlboro]

the beginning of september

[icarusgf]

august is like the sunday night of summer

[candied-marlboro]

every summer i encounter something related to It whether its the novel itself, movies on repeat or some bits of the landscape around me. this year its... well... felt like pennywise was really somewhere round the corner...

[candied-marlboro]

strangely enough my melancholy ass was cured by mcu, especially by bucky barnes. i have no idea how or why but it worked! this man gives me peace and thats all i want right now. which means i am constantly seeing bits of bucky everywhere i go

[candied-marlboro]

witchy times

these past few days i was trying to cope with the fact that spring is officially over. how? i feel like i just blinked and now it’s june! crazy how time goes so quickly. wearing long dresses under an oversized sweatshirt with dirty tennis shoes, eating an ice cream, trying to really enjoy the beginning of summer and overall feeling like marianne from “normal people”

[candied-marlboro]

bucky barnes’ book list

“Catch-22” Joseph Heller

“Mother Night” Kurt Vonnegut

“The Quiet American” Graham Greene

“Our Man in Havana” Graham Greene

“Without Conscience: The Disturbing World of the Psychopaths Among Us” Robert D. Hare

“The Stranger” Albert Camus

“The Psychopath Test” Jon Ronson

“Blood on Snow” Jo Nesbø

“Norwegian Wood” Haruki Murakami

“Amerika: The Man Who Disappeared” Franz Kafka

“Let's All Kill Constance” Ray Bradbury

“Joyland” Stephen King

[candied-marlboro]

in full bloom. i’ve seen a squirrel under the bridge... turned out it was a rat... but still... nature:D

[candied-marlboro]

one of the most precious things about endings, beginnings movie is how they pictured daphne’s state of mind. she isn’t clinically depressed, she just feels depressed. there’s a whole big difference. daphne is confused and overwhelmed, her past life doesn’t exist anymore, and that’s so scary to start a new chapter, to begin all over again. she cries alone but smiles genuinely around others, she eats and takes care of herself but has her little sudden moments of insecurity and sadness. she sinks into overthinking easily but at the same time manages to find pleasant distractions. she sins and breaks vows, but not in a harmful way to her body and mind. she makes mistakes but not because she wants to hurt and punish herself. she just wants to live and enjoy life. that’s the difference. feeling bad isn’t constantly being depressed. it’s about truly enjoying moments of happiness when you can but feeling down when you’re alone at night and repeating the process until you feel better. and eventually you always will. recovery is about being around others, about being true to your passions, to being grateful and open to all the new beginnings

[candied-marlboro]

one summary for both fresh and endings, beginnings movies:

morally questionable attractive man finds interest in dark-haired girl with bangs, love affair problems and a passion for art

[candied-marlboro]

was ironically doing groceries right after watching fresh

what i was expecting: painfully handsome guy would examine my selection of worcestershire sauce and a bottle of wine and use a really bad and really ambiguous pickup line of him knowing a perfect meat to go with this merlot

what i got: annoyingly talkative old lady insisted on me inspecting several tea packages and telling her which one contains loose leaves instead of tea bags...