Update For Those That Want to Know
I’ve been quiet for a long time. I know and I wish that was different. Some of my lovely readers have expressed some concern that maybe I’ve disappeared into the ether, never to return. Hopefully that is not the case. I’m trying to inch back into the “real world”, maybe even do some writing.
Several months ago at the beginning of the fall, I nearly died. Seriously not trying to be dramatic here. It was bad. Even with my dearest friends and much of my family, I’ve been sparse with the details because I didn’t want them to worry. Currently, I have a treatment, but not yet a cure. More doctors appointments ahead for me, I’m afraid. I hope to have some news soon. It’s been a very frustrating experience.
If you don’t feel well and you KNOW something is wrong, please don’t let some asshole doctor who thinks they know better than you tell you that you are just being dramatic or ridiculous. DEMAND THE BLOODWORK!!!! I cannot express that enough. I was seriously sick for years but I had multiple doctors tell me there was nothing wrong with me. It was only when I was quite literally in the emergency room terrified out of my mind that someone finally did a simple test that could have been done years earlier. But, sigh, I’m trying not to fall into a deep well of regret and dwell on all of the time that was lost. We know now.
So, my mind hasn’t been focused much on writing in recent months. I was able to get some chapters of Gossamer Threads updated in the midst of all of this drama. (Although to be honest, I had already written most of those last summer and they were just sitting in my cloud waiting to be edited.) There are even a couple of GT chapters and one Torched chapter sitting in a paper notebook waiting to be typed up. Maybe this weekend. (I say this to myself every weekend.)
My stories aren’t abandoned. They really aren’t. I will get to them. I promise. Just not right now. The struggle to find motivation (and quite honestly, the energy) to write has been tough. There are still so many ideas swirling around in my head that I can’t wait to write. It will happen. I just need to get well first. It’s funny though that a kind comment I received completely out of the blue on a story I wrote years ago the other day made me want to continue the story (just a tiny bit… not four hundred chapters or anything). I currently have about 3000 words written for a second part of Desperate Times, Desperate Measures, the sequel to The Silver Mage’s Captive I NEVER thought I would write. But yeah, a second part of that may come out soon. It’s really sparked me. Maybe a part of me just wants to dip back into a familiar story from a simpler time in my life. Who really knows?
All of this to say, thank you for sticking around with me. I’ve been writing ridiculous stories since I was six years old. It’s been an amazing (most of the time) experience being able to share them with others the last eleven years.
I ask simply for patience and maybe prayers or good vibes or whatever you believe. Life has been a real struggle for the last several years. I’m finally seeing a light at the end of this long tunnel. ❤️