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Not today Justin
he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
occasionally subtle
PUT YOUR BEARD IN MY MOUTH
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Peter Solarz
sheepfilms
Love Begins
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
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Sweet Seals For You, Always
YOU ARE THE REASON
d e v o n
noise dept.
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@canned-experiences
why are you so cutes ahhh now i'm hungry
live dante reaction:
also maybe Daiyu Erin and Ch'unokkun Hong Lu... Daiyu Erin who wanted to live a better life and is evidence that Hong Lu could save someone, that her actions have weight, that things could be different, and Ch'unokkun Hong Lu sort of plugging her ears and going lalalalalalalalalala
return to this choga when you're human again to bhk....
im gyeong-eop frees kim from the prison where he'd presumably be executed for an attempted act of justice labeled as crime. Okay. Okay. I see how it is. I don't have Widesault on me rn just imagine it
return to this choga when you're human again to bhk....
they all make me sick enough to wretch
ch'unokkun hong lu..... agh
i'm gonna be sick. guy who can't imagine a better life for himself where the actions he chooses to do really matter
forgot to nab a screenshot but ch'unokkun hong lu being so far gone that she can't even fathom the joy to be gained out of saving another person. screams
so fond of them
every time i see Canned Experience i just think "meeeee :D" and have trouble reading the text. intervallo interesting so far but i better reread it tomorrow since i'm going out of focus..
iiiinteresting. guy who supposedly has no dreams voice
rodion....i miss you rodion... agh
............ i've got my fucking eye on you
holy shit
well meursault is a bit more than that i'd say but ok. ok.
aeng-du ily aeng-du. that wide-eyed expression...... i adore her so much all of a sudden.
i think about Spider Pyre: Fate Lost (nearly wrote that as Date Lost... guess i have plans for the summer now) Callistolu discussing Erinheim's heart a lot (having overheard the discussion about the AEDD suit and its special effect on Erin's body, specifically the self-charge thing) and Erin either grows more callous than usual or tunes it out due to his personal beliefs about his heart. unfortunately Callistolu is too observant about her audience to not clock this within the first few times, so these one-sided discussions escalate in intensity, gaining a slightly physical aspect (gotta test the ingredient) which only coaxed more verbose defenses from Erin, in turn only letting Hong Lu further probe into the depths of this belief. if it weren't for Erin's feeble mortal form, the satisfaction of proving the existence of Erin's heart moments before his vision fades forever (he won the argument!) would keep Hong Lu inspired for weeks to come (recalling what the Xianren said, how the Kong Family Massacre would keep them entertained for a time period i forget but regardless) if not longer.
empty icon erin... ahhh...
my absence of a human heart #absenceofahumanheart
I wish I had more thoughts on everything right now... why do I have to be tired. Hhh.
Sorry for sappy posting again but I'm thinking about Hong Lu again. Like is anyone gonna talk about his suicidal intentions before he left Daguanyuan?....
I need to talk about Huin's parallel with Hong Lu because I know he'll never admit he's worthy of it. Unlike the gem of the Jia family, he was cast out by his mom from birth, and unlike Baoyu who wasn't allowed to do anything, he was constantly made to do things. Yet he can still understand Baoyu's powerlessness. They both knew deep down that they wanted to do something else beyond the role they were given (Hong Lu wanted to be kind, Huin wanted to write), both of them deeply dissociates from violence to protect their core from being defiled....
I wonder what Hong Lu thinks about his eye. Does he love it, even though it's a cold jade in his eye socket? Huin has complicated relationships with his eyes too. Those are the only part of him that looks different from his father, making him look less like a beast to himself.
Both of them outwardly tries to be gentle, but they aren't kind to themselves until they received that relief from outside. To finally know the truth that they aren't guilty for the things they blame themselves for. Because that's the real thing tormenting them all this time. Even though they were used, it's been going on for so long that they told themselves they must have consented, must have asked for it in some way.... It's not true. They've been just doing whatever it takes for their captors to be happy.... It's an abusive relationship that they need help to break out of.
That's why I appreciate the boss fight so much... the climax being Hong Lu washing away everything... Wash away his guilt, his perceived defilement at the hands of these rotting corpses. You know how hard it was to shower after traumatic SA or just deep depression... that shit can haunt you for life, not letting you feel safe in your own body, always feeling dirty even if you showered.... Only after freeing your spirit could you finally feel clean in that bath.... It still chokes me up to think about it.
empty icon erin... ahhh...
my absence of a human heart #absenceofahumanheart
