getting pretty on purpose

Building my aesthetic and idealized self <3

[capriciouscaprine]

pinned post about me!

started at 200 on Jan. 1, 2023

down to 140 by Jan. 1, 2024, and still dropping!

no ABC or any other named plan, and no specific exercise either, just consuming less overall and making swaps for common foods (Sara Lee De-light-ful bread for example), although my real secret is probably my chronic anxiety!

am an adult and a high school math teacher, no age-based dni criteria or anything, I happen to not post 'adult content' on this account and I think it's good for anyone to see what doing this as an adult is like

aro/ace and nb! technically afab but with hormonal issues that complicate that

let me know if there's anything you'd like me to add to this post, no matter how old it is when you see it!

ETA: btw, still on here in 2025 (down to 120, or 115 if it's a really good week), I just actually put effort in to interacting with people on this account instead of reblogging a bunch of fandom posts in a row like I do on my main, so I post wayyy less

[capriciouscaprine]

other people: 'I decreased x.y since this morning!'

me: two day shipping on any losses no matter what I did or didn't do that day

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did not stick to only coffee/liquids, but was actually overall pretty happy with the day; dinner was not so good bc I impulsively had too much but it wasn't so bad bc I didn't enjoy having had too much for my insides so it was yet another reminder of that I really do want to do this thing properly bc I feel better when I do; the excessive and unhealthy stuff flat out does not make me feel good! I think I'll do a light day tomorrow while I get my laundry put away (actually a big task bc it doesn't all have a home yet)

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the cope among FAs is w i l d: 'double chins are normal' factually no they are not; that is not a standard feature of the average person nor of a person who is average size, and even some pusher people don't have them; a double chin is that stored energy running out of typical places to be stored so now it's being stored around your throat

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actually decently proud of my restart being from 133,2 and not 140; absolutely zero gap at this heft for my height (5'4"), but not bad from my average two years ago of 125; my least was 120 but I wasn't maintaining it; my ultra-least desire is 95, but I don't think I'll maintain that either; I'd rather exist between 99 and 110 as my range instead of 120-130, entirely for the aesthetics: gap and stick supports is thee goal

new daily plan written and shopped for, starting the summer properly today with coffee only to get a quick win asap; today's activities are exclusively gaming and napping, not over-exertion as I'm well aware of how little energy that consumes and I'm not interested in finding myself on the floor from heart rate issues

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the people at my training who huffed and puffed but also took two or three bags of chips to snack on at a time were also the least confident in the room

it was day four and the elevator was broken, with our class on the second floor (they got it fixed before lunch)

people had to travel to get here, some staying in hotels and thus had to bring everything they needed to sleep comfortably

the dining hall was a two block-ish walk from our training building

among many other reasons, these observations make me very glad I downsized and encourage me to maintain and even improve upon my journey

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weekend camera roll

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it’s weird to know not everyone lost their absolute shit at 13

[delicateviolets]

i am the way i am cause there wasnt a single fucking day where i was happy during my 11-14

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last post felt too normal, btw; I am a twisted cycle path who needs to be the best but can't internalize compliments from my students/coworkers/admin supervisors, I want anyone who knows my habits to think they're absurdly perfectionist and impossible to replicate but also feel just a tiny bit inadequate compared to me, which I'll ease the sting of by constantly being incredibly generous and pointing out all of the things they have to do that I don't (primarily raising children) but that almost makes it worse that I'm so self-effacing that they can't even be a little mean to me in their heads, and I'm going to try and win every teacher superlative and use money to become just barely unnaturally beautiful and probably still have breakdowns because that's just who I am as a person

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