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Est. '91. Lover of all animals. Army wife. Horse rider. Newcastle born; North QLD Resident. Dog person. Chocolate enthusiast. B psyc grad. Child Safety Officer. Country tunes make me happy. Forever wandering; not lost. Sasch.

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19.12.22 It’s been a while. Lots has gone on. Just thought I’d drop a line

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15.08.2022 currently internally melting down over how I am going to “do life” if I make the changes I’ve been manifesting. Why am I freaking out if it’s what I want? A potential new job in a private practice, the dream internship role, I’m a year into my internship and maybe about a year left, I might have a side hustle feeding and riding the neighbours horses. I could not ask for more at this point and I should be stoked that it’s all at my finergtips.

Instead. Melting down. Self doubt. Imposters syndrome.

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It’s weird. I don’t feel like the average female. I feel a bit bad? One day I’ll have children and I’ll love them. But I don’t want them. I’ll do that for my husband, not for me. I’m not maternal. Honestly part of me thinks there is something wrong with me, part of me feels guilty for not being more normal. Gosh I don’t know how to articulate it. At the end of the day it won’t matter anymore

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On such a high after supervision this morning. Gosh I just think the world of my supervisor. I have so much to learn but I truly have this yearning to be a psychologist and be part of a movement that truly helps people.

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27.07.2022 squats for hump day after a 4km run earlier in the day. Can’t wait to have thick, muscular thighs to protect my pathetic knees

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27.07.2022 squats for hump day after a 4km run earlier in the day. Can’t wait to have thick, muscular thighs to protect my pathetic knees

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26.07.2022 I was supposed to have a riding lesson this arvo but the wind picked something horrendous and it was cancelled. Which to be honest I was not super bummed about because it’s a lot of effort to go to after work. Anyway its supposed to be re-scheduled for this weekend.

So I ended up doing the vault workout this morning - only changed I made was using an ab mat for my push-ups. I did tbt first 15 without one and had to break that up into 10 and 5. Overall my fitness has truly slipped so I just need to work back up. Sad. Anyway I stopped the wall ball partway through round 6 and then broke up every round after that. The only thing that I didn’t break up was the lunges - it was a sneaky killer of a WOD! Anyway since I didn’t do a lesson we ended up going for a short walk down the lane with the pups and then i started what will be my “Strict Pull Up Program” which is a variation something we did at my old boxy o build strict strength. I figure it’s worth focusing on whilst we don’t have a bar I can kip on. The vid is of the easier grip, hoping to do this for a few weeks and be able to reduce to the smaller band and then no band!

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23.07.2022

I had bit of a rest day yesterday, just an easy 5km walk with my mum. But today’s workout kicked my ass. I’m really not as fit as I think I am at times, as fit as I was last year when I was going to CrossFit 5-6 times a week and doing tough programming. I do sometimes wonder if I should invest in some other programming to help me get back to that. Street Parking is fantastic though(affordable), I think maker it’s more just me needing to figure out how to use it more effectively to get a good combo of strength, WODs and cardio…

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21.07.2020 when it’s 0530 and you’re still asleep trying to get to your 1RM squat. 80 kg for this morning which I’m pretty sure is an improvement from last time? These robotic knees are never gona work in my favour but 80 is good for now.

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Aaaand this is what I was talking about. Nowhere near 80 kg these days 😢

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22.07.2022 a few squats followed by an SP workout - four rounds of 10 box jumps, 20 hang power clean (25kgs), 30 air squats. I feel like I’m always starting over, a memory came up from two years ago and I was squatting not much less. Now my good knee is giving me grief too!! Anyway, consistency is key.

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19.07.2022 upper body workout to give the old legs a rest after a 5 km earlier in the day. Day 1 so far has gone well

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19.07.2022 today marks 1 month till I’m 31 years old, I just vomited a little in my mouth. I don’t feel that I have achieved what I wanted to by this time in my life, but that’s okay there is still time and I have a lot to show for my years. I thought as a bit it a challenge I would try and shake things up for myself this month and come up with a new routine cutting out bad eating, maintaining my daily exercise, increase time spent on my internship, start actively job seeking and getting back into early mornings which are particularly hard in winter. I really just want to be the person I want to be, and stop feeling sorry for myself. So as a treat today I’ll waste some time and do up a new timetable with my new plan in place!

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18.07.2022 average looking gal does workout and flabby bits and dimples are all over the place hahahaha. These are not flattering shorts on me…

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17.07.2022 bit stoked with my baby. I had been hoping to get Oscar out this year, but things have not turned out as hoped with Oscar being quite unsound and getting body work and rehab rides. My little ring-in is now my first choice and I’m aiming for an event in October, which is still ages away but he needs more exposure for it to be a successful outing for us both

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12.07.2022 Working on getting low. This was followed by a street parking workout that was a massive fail bahahaha.

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Cleaned up the box a few weeks back. Love working out at home 🏋🏾‍♀️ definitely not training as hard as I did at CrossFit, but the last fortnight has been much more consistent 🙌🏽

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In the bath. Sweating out my toxins making room for the gin I’m rehydrating myself with.