Lottalife

my own world

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Blurry

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Pernah sangat dekat, sampai akhirnya menjadi sangat canggung

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Apa arti kata adil sesungguhnya? Tapi yang gue sadari emang bersikap adil atau setara itu sulit diwujudkan

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I feel powerless and useless. I know that i cant do this, but baby, i'm sorry. I just being selfish, just for today, let me feel this

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I might be little upset when someone reply my question or req with something i dont like. But yeah, its not like i need you to replace my stuff, just want to know how you behave in share house.

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Hi baby, lets meet in november, will ya?

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I want going back to my comfort zone. I need my home. Not a home which can't make me feeling safe

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Even i dont want but i have to. Right?

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I shouldn't cry over trivial things. Don't i? But i can't help it. Sometimes i just wonder what went wrong. How i supposed to do. This past 3 month i thought really hard. Idk why i'm feeling like we're not capable to each other anymore

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So this is how you want me to act

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Because this is first time for me either. And i'm not expecting it. Its hard for me too

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At some moments i regret my decision

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Am i a burden?

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You just don't realize sometimes your word can hurt people

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I'm not used to it

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What i'm really afraid has coming. Its too soon. And i dont want to face it yet

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Need time to heal.