Marami akong naiisip isulat pero hindi ko alam pano ako magsisimula. Siguro sa dami ng mga yun nag uunahan sila makalabas para maisulat na sila dito. Nasa clinic ako ng mga oras na ito ha, walang patient so browse browse kay friend kong c Youtube, then nasa recommendations ko yung commercial ni Jollibee. Its about Love without expecting anything in return.
Minsan sa buhay natin, nag ask na tayo sa mga sarili natin na, bakit ako? anong kasalanan ko? saan ako nagkulang? or di kaya what did I do to deserve this kind of love and care, etc.etc.etc.... To be honest, hindi ko din alam ang sagot, haha! what I know is everything happens for a reason. I mean, ngayon kung tatanungin mo ang sarili mo, ano ka ngayon kung si X ang nakatuluyan mo? Anong career meron ka if ganitong course ang kinuha mo, ilan na anak nyo at paano kayo ngayon ni ganito kung kasama mo parin sya hanggang ngayon? Sometimes its ok to look back, its ok to say Hi from the past, because its a PAST, na hindi mo na maibabalik at walang mawawala kung kahit once in a while makita mo si PAST.
My friend asked me, sayang kayo ni ano noh? 8 years din yun. Look at him now, successful, my asawa at may anak na. So akong si chismosa nakinig naman. Knowing that PAST person in my life had a big part on me, of course seeing him makes me happy. Happy in a way dahil natutupad nya ang mga dreams nya sa buhay na once pinangarap nyo together. You may not be with him while he is reaching his dreams but sometimes you have to go separate ways so you can reach your dreams too.
Kapag nagmamahal ka you are being 1, yes its true but still the reality is.. You are 2 individual people with 2 different lives. You have your own dreams, he has his dreams and what you can do to each other is to support each other, lift each other and not to sacrifice one’s dream dahil lang sa mahal mo sya.
They say May mga pangarap na hindi natutupad, yes I agree! But it doesn't mean na tapos na ang buhay mo because of that. You have to chase for it. You have to follow the path that God wants you to take. You have to love yourself more than anyone else. MAhalin mo sarili mo without asking anything in return, because yourself will give you what you deserve.
At the end of the day, its you alone. Even though you have your loved ones, you have partners. It will be you, it starts with you.
Once I lost myself, because I loved too much, and that was the biggest mistake of my life, but also served as my greatest lesson in life.
So once you saw your X, just be happy. Because if you are happy enough to see them then to see situations with a silver lining that is what you called self love. Self love where negativity could not grow and foster in your life.