Carenyosa

I'm a bitch, I'm a lover I'm a child, I'm a mother I'm a sinner, I'm a saint I do not feel ashamed I'm your hell, I'm your dream I'm nothing in between You know you wouldn't want it any other way

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‌hindi ako makatulog, gusto ko lang umiyak ng umiyak

‌ang dami dami kong naiisip, ang dami daming tumatakbo sa isip ko, kinakabahan ako na natatakot

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‌hindi ako mapakali hindi ko alam kung bakit,parang tanong ko lang sa sarili ko bakit

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‌bakit parang failure lahat, ginawa ko naman lahat pra sa atin pro bakit prang hindi pa sapat

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‌my kulang pb?lahat walang natira bakit prang kulang pa dn nabibigay ko.

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‌gusto ko lng maging masaya bakit parang ang hrap kunin

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😑 (at Al Barsha 1) https://www.instagram.com/p/B6liIelp1m3WCmfW8R0snKfUETyuPUU0W_Sdcs0/?igshid=1i1ewjsi0bdlv

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Quiet Moment

I need a moment please.

i need a peaceful life

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iiyak mo lang lahat. Pagkatapos nun, tapos na.

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Check if he is happy

Want to keep your man?Don't always check if he is cheating, check if he is happy.

Medyo nakaka potang inis ito, you know why? Kasi isa itong reason para makakuha sila ng butas sayo, like sasabihin nila na wala na silang privacy dahil naka log in ang account nya sa phone mo.

Una check first, anong history ni guy bkit mo yun ginagawa kasi... Cheater sya

Cheating is not a choice its a decision. Kung hindi kna masaya sa relationship nyo better go out amd leave her, nde yung habang nasa relationship ka pa nakikipag landian na sa iba.

Pangalawa, you are in a relationship, karapatan ng partner mo malaman kung ano nangyayari sayo, loging in your account on her phone does not mean stalker na sya o nakabantay sya dahil kung ikaw walang ginagawang masama kampante ka sa sarili mo, at as long as nde ka iniistorbo o inaaway dahil lng sa my mga ka. chat kang ibang babae - BE THANKFUL DUDE! malawak utak ng jowa mo

Pangatlo, hindi palaging ikaw ang dapat tinatanong o chinecheck kung masaya pa o nde na, ask dn your partner baka meron dn syang mga sama ng loob sayo o my mga points sya sa relationship nyo na pikit mata nlng nya iniintndi dahil nga open minded sya!

Pang apat, matuto rumespeto sa feelings ng iba, think before you speak and never threatened your partner na pag tinopak ka mgiging gago ka ulet? or pag napuno ka iiwan mo sya, go ahead, atleast sayo na ng galing db? Ikaw nga na hindi perfect tinangap nya so ung pakawalan kapa kya?

Panglima, acceptance dude! Matuto kang tumangap. ng pagkakamali mo, her shortcomings are not the reason for you to cheat or to take her for granted, tandaan mo, maraming mas better sayo pero she choose you. Same as her.

Bakit ko ito sinasabi kasi sa totoo lng, masarap sumigaw ng

PUTANG INA MO! HINDI KA KAWALAN AT HINDI KO ITO DESERVE!

-tagay ng redhorse

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Queen

Tonight, I'm gonna have myself a real good time

I feel alive and the world I'll turn it inside out, yeah

And floating around in ecstasy

So don't stop me now don't stop me

'Cause I'm having a good time, having a good time

I'm a shooting star, leaping through the sky

Like a tiger defying the laws of gravity

I'm a racing car, passing by like Lady Godiva

I'm gonna go, go, go

There's no stopping me

I'm burnin' through the sky, yeah

Two hundred degrees

That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit

I'm traveling at the speed of light

I wanna make a supersonic man out of you

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SELF LOVE

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Marami akong naiisip isulat pero hindi ko alam pano ako magsisimula. Siguro sa dami ng mga yun nag uunahan sila makalabas para maisulat na sila dito. Nasa clinic ako ng mga oras na ito ha, walang patient so browse browse kay friend kong c Youtube, then nasa recommendations ko yung commercial ni Jollibee. Its about Love without expecting anything in return.

Minsan sa buhay natin, nag ask na tayo sa mga sarili natin na, bakit ako? anong kasalanan ko? saan ako nagkulang? or di kaya what did I do to deserve this kind of love and care, etc.etc.etc.... To be honest, hindi ko din alam ang sagot, haha! what I know is everything happens for a reason. I mean, ngayon kung tatanungin mo ang sarili mo, ano ka ngayon kung si X ang nakatuluyan mo? Anong career meron ka if ganitong course ang kinuha mo, ilan na anak nyo at paano kayo ngayon ni ganito kung kasama mo parin sya hanggang ngayon? Sometimes its ok to look back, its ok to say Hi from the past, because its a PAST, na hindi mo na maibabalik at walang mawawala kung kahit once in a while makita mo si PAST. 

My friend asked me, sayang kayo ni ano noh? 8 years din yun. Look at him now, successful, my asawa at may anak na. So akong si chismosa nakinig naman. Knowing that PAST person in my life had a big part on me, of course seeing him makes me happy. Happy in a way dahil natutupad nya ang mga dreams nya sa buhay na once pinangarap nyo together. You may not be with him while he is reaching his dreams but sometimes you have to go separate ways so you can reach your dreams too.  

Kapag nagmamahal ka you are being 1, yes its true but still the reality is.. You are 2 individual people with 2 different lives. You have your own dreams, he has his dreams and what you can do to each other is to support each other, lift each other and not to sacrifice one’s dream dahil lang sa mahal mo sya.

They say  May mga pangarap na hindi natutupad, yes I agree! But it doesn't mean na tapos na ang buhay mo because of that. You have to chase for it. You have to follow the path that God wants you to take. You have to love yourself more than anyone else. MAhalin mo sarili mo without asking anything in return, because yourself will give you what you deserve. 

At the end of the day, its you alone. Even though you have your loved ones, you have partners. It will be you, it starts with you. 

Once I lost myself, because I loved too much, and that was the biggest mistake of my life, but also served as my greatest lesson in life. 

So once you saw your X, just be happy. Because if you are happy enough to see them then  to see situations with a silver lining that is what you called self love. Self love where negativity could not grow and foster in your life.

and I thank you!

xOxO

Kheng

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Kite Beach #uaeholiday (at Jumairah Beach, Dubai,UAE) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bq47gAIA_Lv3SvehWdtqqadpSOOOShFpGr4Ppw0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=x312w3gygdj8

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k.bye 😪 #inithingelse #werble (at Dubai, United Arab Emirates)

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Happy Fathers day to me!

oh yes! I'am a proud single mom so what??? Come on guys its 2018( lakas maka nadine lustre)🤣 but seriously, hindi madali maging single mom, hindi madali ang mag bear ng isang human nature sa maliit mong tummy at imbrace ang labor pains na akala ng mga lalaki ganun lang kadaling manganak! How I wish maranasan din nila ung labor pains yan, even for 1 damn minute ng buhay nila✌🏻 Kapag single mom ka hindi ka maka ihi ng mg isa nor i say makatae ng matagal at mag muni muni sa banyo like we used to do nung tayo e dalagas pa. kapag single mom ka, wala ka ng gana mamili ng mga mok up, kulerete sa mukha, lahat eh sa baby mo, ang cute ng mga damit nila lalo na pang porma, ang cute ng mga shoes prang gusto mo twinning kayo hhahahaa! kapag single mom ka, gusto mo kunin nlng lahat ng sakit ng anak mo kapag hindi sya ok kapag single mom ka ung kakainin mo isusubo mo pa sakanya then makikita mo smile nila sa mukha after nila matikman ung masarap na fudang kapag single mom ka gusto mo ibigay sa anak mo ung best, gusto mo ibigay ung mga bagay na di mo naranasan ung bata ka gusto mo palaging my ngiti sa mukha nya kapag single mom ka ngiging clown ka sa harap ng anak mo mapatahan mo lang sya nagiging composer ka mapatulog mo lang sya nagiging bampira ka sa puyat kakabantay kapg my sakit sya kapag single mom ka lahat lahat ng lungkot at self pity na sayo at the best part nun hindi nakikita ng anak mo na malungkot ka kaya natin itago ung pain at panghihina kapag feeling natin suko na tayo magaling tayong artista sa harap nila ang hindi nila alam na unti unti tayong nauubos pro despite sa lahat ng un ang lakas lakas pa rin ntin at ang tapang ntin harapin ang bagong bukas. Hindi ibig sabhn ng single ay mg isa, ang pagiging single mom ay simbolo ng katapangan dahil nakaya nyang bumuhay mag isa ng isang nilalang ng my dignidad Salute ako sa mga inang kayang mag tiis para sakanilang mga anak. Mga anak, hindi kami perpekto bilang ina, hindi man namin kayo mabigyan ng isang perpektong pamilya pero kaya namin kayong bigyan ng isang magandang kinabukasan. Hindi nasusukat ang isang pagkatao kung buo o hindi ang kanilang pamilya, kundi kung paano ka pinalaki at hinubog ng tama, may takot sa Diyos at malasakit sa kapwa.

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masarap daw tulog nya kasi malamig #myforeverlove (at Dubai, United Arab Emirates)