[careyourface]

What if

Nabubuhay ka ba sa mga 'what ifs' na yan. Okay lang. Minsan talaga dun umiikot buhay natin. Minsan kasi doon tayo masaya. Ayun naman mahalaga diba, yung masaya ka. Aanhin mo masakit na katotohanan kung mastress ka lang. Kahit anong sakit naman lilipas din yan. Sa simula akala mo di mo kaya pero magugulat ka nalang malaya ka na sa sakit. Ikot ikot lang. Life goes on. Love wins. Hindi ko na alam kung gaano kaseryoso o kadeep ang post kong to.

[careyourface]

Wait lang

Sandali lang... bago ako tuluyang magmove on, pwede bang magmuni muni muna. Wait lang, ang saya ko pa kasi. Kaso malungkot din. Wala e, kahit anong sabi ko na enjoyin nalang, ang hirap pa ring hindi umasa. Lalo na pag halos lahat nabibigyan mo dahilan, lalo kung sinasabi rin niyang gusto ka din niya. Gusto nga e ano gagawin ko sa gusto niya kung hanggang dun nalang yun. Ganun talaga, minsan may gusto ka. Gusto mo lang. Ako naman si nandyan, si bigay, si sakay, si tago ng feelings na lagi lumilitaw pa rin kahit anong tago. Grabe, pano nga ba magmove on kung araw araw mo katabi sa office, kasama kumain at tumambay hanggang maghating gabi. Magkakantahan pa kayo, duet ganun, feeling mo ikaw kinakantahan habang all the time, iba nasa isip niya. Shet, sakit ng one sided love ah. Unrequited love. Hindi ko alam pero antagal ko na kasi nagmahal ng totoo. Parang papayag na akong maramdaman yun sakanya kahit di niya masusuklian. Wala e, pinapasaya ba naman ako araw araw. Lakas din magparamdam na mahalaga ako kahit di ko alam paano niya napapakita yun kahit iba talaga gusto niya. Ayan, sa ganyan hindi ka ba naman aasa. Yun pala, para lang din sa sarili niya. O kaya kasi nga gusto ka niya dahil gusto ka lang niya. Bakit ganun, kahit gaano ko ilaban, talo. Alam ko naman simula palang taken na siya pero akala ko kaya kong mawalan ng feelings. Kasalanan din niya e. Pafall kasi. Hay pabebe masyado akala niya nakahanap siya instant gf sa office. Ako naman f n f pota. Kawawa. So moving forward, sige sasama pa rin ako sa mga pilit niyang breakfast, merienda, early dinner, gym, inom o ano pa. Sasakyan ko pa rin pagiging clingy niya. Papatulan ko pa rin mga pangaasar at panghaharot niya. Magsstay pa ako ng late sa office kahit tambay lang para makasama siya o kaya magantay galing basketball. Pipilitin pa rin namin maging magkasama sa mga training at people tasks. Mamahalin ko nalang sige hanggang sa sobrang natanga na ako at masanay at matuto na hindi siya mahalin sa kabila ng lahat yan. Ganun talaga strong girl ang peg. Ako lang din naman malulungkot pag umiwas. Either way masakit e. So sige yolo pa rin. Makakabawi rin ako. Masaya ako para sakanya syempre. Sana alam niya yun kahit alam niyang gusto ko siya. Nakakainis nga lang, naisip ko pa na wish na sana katulad niya maging bf ko. Talo e. In the end, siya pa rin gusto ko. Pero sa ngayon lang to. Pag nagtagal at nabalikan ko post na to, may mahal na akong iba. At yung siguradong mahal na rin ako. Hindi naman ako nagsisisi. Nagenjoy naman ako. Okay na yun lessons din sa buhay. Better things are coming. At alam ko magbabago rin ang lahat. Pati set up namin sa office. Tanggap tanggap lang. Pinapalala ko lang emotion ko dahil sa post na to.

[careyourface]

Para sa Yu na nag Ilang-ilang Cafe

Wala e. Mahal niya talaga. Sino ba naman ako. Hamak na seatmate at bestfriend lang sa office. Tagasama maghanap ng regalo sa main bae niya at kuhaan ng opinyon. Tagapagpasaya minsan pag bored siya. Kukulitin pag walang magawa. Kasama kumain at magpataba at maggym at kumain ulit. Pero sa huli iba pa rin daw si highschool classmate. Sana nga totoo na umamin siya na kung wala si girlelet, ako daw. Pero kahit na, hello reality, number 2 ka lang. Kahit pasok ka sa top 7 qualities na hanap niya sa girl, friend ka lang. Tropa ganun. Tropa lang.

[careyourface]

Sessions

Ive been in a complete row of friday night outs with my squad in a while now and it is good. Definitely good. Total hang out without work related issues and stuff plus I get to be close with the one I like. Problem is, he is my friend. Im actually in the friendzone not just pretty sure if it is from the first place coz I am thinking I got him for a while when wejust started being close. I know he is in love with someone else ever since I did not know him. Im fooling myself again, she is damn pretty who am I. It is just weird and amazing how this guy makes me feel actually special whenever we are together or even if we are not, squad wise. He has clingy and childish tendencies which I seem to enjoy tolerating. I have told myself repeatedly not to fall again with these kind of boys but how can you just back off when you are stuck with them in the office. I hate to admit but it sucks when he is not around or even when he just goes home quite early. It is really weird how I seem to feel his presence all the time. He always comes around to tease me of everything but I never get offended wtf is wrong with me. It is really true we only see the truth when emotions have left. And now he lost me at nagiisa lang 10 para sakin. I was caught off guard I think I sounded stupid when I responded. Fuck life. I know he never liked me or even considered any romantic relationship with me. I just hope he is consistent with what he is now so I can eventually move on and still be friends with him without the hopes of him liking me back.

[careyourface]

Never underestimate the power of destiny.

HIMYM

[careyourface]

Makikita na naman kita bukas

Tapos ano. Pipigilan ko na naman ang sarili kong magmahal. 😞 PS: Since nasa twitter na kita dito ako napapost 😥😥😥😥

[careyourface]

Anyone?

I just had this crazy shit feeling of missing nonstop texting or chatting with someone. Not sure if I miss him or Im just bored haha but anyway it resorted to me blogging about it.

[careyourface]

How nice

when people get so clingy to you then suddenly leave you behind

[careyourface]

Puerto Galera for summer 2015 ☀

[careyourface]

What would you do

When you just can't have that one thing you wanted the most

[careyourface]

Oh I'm sorry, I didn't mean any of it. I just got too lonely lonely whoaa~

#fourthofjuly #FOB #paasa

[careyourface]

For the record..

...I still don’t have a boyfriend.

[careyourface]

EY

I’ve been working here for the more than a year now and I haven’t got that satisfaction in my working experience yet. People are starting to leave. Well, they always do in this firm but I mean the people who are close to me. I can’t imagine it yet but sometimes, these people are just the reasons to keep me going through the day even in the mornings when I feel so lazy to go to work. It has become my second home at this point of life and I’m not ready to leave yet. Not until I learn more and get satisfied that I can handle myself outside the firm. I feel like I’m still new to the things I’m doing considering the experience of my other batchmates. When do I get satisfied? or ready? I keep on saying I want a challenging job but I don’t grab it when it’s there. I’m still undecided with what I really wanna do in life that I just let my self go with the flow of what is offered to me inside the firm. I hope next time, I would be writing more about my career aspirations and endeavors instead of bragging how uninspired I am today.

[careyourface]

I’m actually here again

[careyourface]

selfie amidst stressful studying

[careyourface]

i hate you

so much I think it's true love. no.

[careyourface]

weird weird world

well i just kind of stumbled into someone's blog or let me say, a product of what I hate to call stalking. but anyways, I just learned an awful lot tonight. thanks to those damn right articles about moving on. I actually almost half-asleep now. it's a normal sleeping time and I am not yet in the mood to sleep though I dont have anything working on right now. this ends me up blabbering things in here. it has been a while since i have hit that dashboard button so now i just found myself typing. ahh this time of the day really makes one high. or maybe just in my case. i have a lot of things in mind now, like thngs id like to buy tomorrow with my sister and the songs that ive been playing for almost i think 5 hours now. and these are just covers. one of them used to become somehow my friend in HS and it made that I am really lucky to have met such amzing people. annoyingly amazing or just simply annoying. well I just wanna thanks all these people that have brought me to who I am today. Its officially the 2nd day of 2013 and im quite really hung over. i dont know from what or from whom but anyway I thing that i learned is that it doesnt matter. i dont know if I am being coherent right now and my typing really sucks. I am also pretty much confident about saying everything which is nothing in here since from what I know, no one i know follows me here and so my grammatical errors would be tolerated.  i just watched seeking a friend for the end of the world and all these end of the world theme just made me realize how better it would have been if it is had happened. but i guess we just have to carry on now. i wanted to watch Lincoln too but after 10mins, I just closed the tab. Im not in the mood anymore to absorb such movie and it would have been a waste if I just persisted. speaking of would have beens, it pains me to repeat and repeat that phrase, i feel like it keeps on dragging us back to such things that doesnt matter anymore. well. anyway, i really have to sleep now. if id remember to read this post by the time I wake up, i think id have a good headstart, not mentioning its ridiculousness.