“love who you love shamelessly. it’s ok to still be figuring out who you are.”
Life has never been easy for Joshua. He was homeschooled by his parents, Laura and Taylor, and sings and plays piano, guitar, ukulele, bass, drums, and some saxophone. He grow up with five artistically minded sisters. that used to put him in a Snow White dress and have him run around the house. No wonder he was so confused growing up. His family saw crying as a sign of weakness and taught him to suppress his emotions which he believes is the root of his failed romances and he could never give as much of himself as they needed or deserved.
Joshua is finally ready to talk about all that—albeit quite carefully, and only up to a point. For the time being, that means therapy which he's been in since he was 19 years old, meditation, long ice-cold showers, dissecting self-help books and poems on his fire escape. Josh dealt with negative body image issues that developed into "serious problems" due to being routinely abused in his childhood by a family member and in his adolescence by a different unnamed older man.
When asked whose career he looked up to, he mentioned Harry Styles and Sabrina Carpenter. More on Sabrina later. Joshua met Olivia Rodrigo on the set of "High School Musical: The Musical: The Series" Their on-screen chemistry as Nini and Ricky seemed to bleed into real life and the two began a relationship. They had become costars, best friends, and lovers. Joshua was her first love and the first guy she ever slept with. It was clear they had a strong bond and the world loved seeing the two together on screen acting and singing together. Their relationship was short lived as Josh began to spend more time with Sabrina who he had met after he sent her an dm on Instagram to talk about songwriting and the two quickly bonded becoming best friends, spending time together as well as with her sister Sarah. It had all started out so innocent but soon it was out of control and Josh knew he had to do something. He broke up with Olivia telling her he needed a break. Two weeks after he broke things off with Olivia he began to date Sabrina, having mutual friends Olivia soon found out plus Josh and Sabrina weren't hiding their relationship anymore and were seen out kissing several times in public. Olivia responded badly and wrote her heart in her words telling the world that she had been betrayed and insinuating Sabrina was the cause. Sabrina hit back with her side of the story and Josh was stuck in the middle of his former lover and his current lover.
He wisely remained mostly silent about all of this, Everyone was asking him about Sabrina and Olivia to which he responded. ."Why don't we focus on these women for who they are? Let's focus on the art that they're making and how great they are instead of their relationship to a boy." Josh would break his silence in a song and he and Sabrina would write two songs together and duet on them about the situation but Josh decided not to release the songs in the hopes the feud would die down. His health was starting to show strains of the stress and he needed the drama to stop. Josh became seriously ill and was hospitalized with septic and heart failure: The doctors told him that he had a 30% chance of survival and if he had not checked into the hospital within 12 hours, he would have been found dead in his apartment.
Josh and Sabrina would break up after a year and she said that it was her first real heartbreak. She said he told her that she couldn't be his first love but would always be his favorite. Josh was the one that Sabrina gave her virginity to and the break up hit her on a deep personal level.
Three talented stars all growing up and feeling heartbreak for the first time. Their music said it all though Josh didn't put out as much as Olivia and Sabrina did. When asked why had hadn't made any new music Josh replied. "I've had a hard time writing just because it's been so painful, and I've had a hard time facing it in the way that I need to. " Josh came out as bisexual and turned to religion to try and turn his life around. Recently, he contacted both women looking for closure. Sabrina gave it easily and playfully jokes about him on her tour. Olivia was more guarded with the heartbreak still on her mind. It was something she seemed to never get over as much as she tried. The two made plans to hang out and admitted they both still had feelings for each other.
connections: Exes: @olivisrigorp and @carpesabrina
