Currently having a really hard time reconciling with the fact that I’m alive. Like I’m actually sick to my stomach and sobbing because I just can’t do it right now. I’m just tired and I want to believe this all has to be for something but it really feels like it isn’t. I belong to nobody. I contribute very little. It just bulldozes me out of nowhere. I try so hard to hold myself together until I just can’t and I break down into a stupid ridiculous mess and then I just feel worse. fuck this shit I’m so over it.










