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Yโshtola has been moved over to my multimuse blog @ metamorphoria
Magnai: You know, the more yโs somebody has in their โheyโ, the more interested they are in you. Magnai: With that being said, heyyyy. Yโshtola: He.
alright, hereโs the plan. I will be around during the weekend mainly because I miss Edgetola & I need a bit of a break from my other blog (@dansiere if anyone is interested). -- gonna get around to empty my inbox & drafts I suppose hah.
Midnight, the long, long chime; Here in the quivering darkness I am afraid of time.
Sara Teasdale, from Vignettes Overseas (Florence) in โThe Collected Poems Of Sara Teasdaleโ (via adrasteiax)
๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ย ย ย - ย ย ๐๐๐ผ๐๐๐๐ .
TAGGED BY: @thyellae, the one & onLY
TAGGING: whoever sees this tbh, I have no idea who is still around.
๐๐ผ๐๐ - ย melancholy at best , introspective , severely misunderstood , pleasure in the subdued , helping in your own way , dreams in poetry , the slowness of falling asleep , refreshing meditation .
๐๐๐ - ย ย sunbleached clothes , futures that are too bright , everything at armโs length , balancing intensity , blind encouragement , comfort of sleep , distracting sunspots in your vision , necessity of growth .
๐๐๐๐๐ - ย ย chaos with a purpose , emotions running high , natural comfortable anarchy , high volume , leaving your mark , brief flashes of violence , rambling quickly , the intensity of desire .
๐๐๐๐ฟ - ย running towards instead of away , instinctive motivation , making an impact , knows everyone who knows anyone , playful pranks , mood swings in a split second , collecting old trinkets , uncontrollable focus .
๐๐๐๐ - ย ย serene on the surface , cold blooded heart , love it or hate it attitude , good memories , heavy discussions , sharp determination , relentless resolve , not as scary as it seems .
ใAETHERIAL WINDใ
Cold, I felt. Cold as a garden in winter, gone deep to ground.
Madeline Miller, Circe (via luthienne)
โbury a friend // billie eilish
bold โ ย always ย โ ย often italic ย โ ย situational
in combat, your muse โฆ
โพ ย fights honorably ย / ย fights dirty โพ ย prefers close - quarters ย / prefers range โพ ย ย chats during ย / ย goes silent โพ ย ย low pain tolerance ย / ย high pain tolerance โพ ย ย attacks in bursts / attacks steadily (she deals extreme burst damage with occasional downtimes whenever forced to resort to ice magic instead of preferred fire magic; however, she will ALWAYS try to cast even whenever she is forced to teleport / switch positions. Her to go choices are aero / thunder or scathe; occasionally fire I or foul.) โพ ย ย goes for the killย (if you attack her, you will most likely die; she has no time for mercy) / aims to disarm / ย fights defensively ย / ย strikes first
โพ ย is provoked easily ย / ย provokes their opponentย / teases โพ ย ย gets visibly frustrated ย / ย shouts while attacking (whenever angered or reaching her pain endurance threshold). โพ ย ย uses strategy ย / focuses on the battle / ย experiences conflicting thoughts during battle โพ ย ย rushes in recklessly ย / tries to read their opponent before engaging โพ ย ย fights wildly ย / fights calmly / fights apathetically ย / ย fights with anger (black magic requires you to turn the aether in your body into a weapon; strong emotions will make her spells more powerful) ย / fights with excitement / fights because they have to / ย fights because they want to โพ ย ย fights without regard to wounds ย / ย runs away when wounded ย / hides wounds / ย takes a blow to protect another โพ ย prefers a blade ย / ย prefers a gunย / ย prefers hand to hand combat / ย prefers a bow ย / ย prefers a shield ย / prefers a personalized weapon / ย prefers magic or spells โพ ย their greatest weakness is physicalย (her body is in a state of permanent decay & while black magic does not demand as much of her as white magic, long term use has a toll on her) / their greatest weakness is mental / ย their greatest weakness is emotional
โพ ย ย transforms for battle ย / ย fights as they appear โพ ย relies on strengthย (raw spell power) / ย doubts their strength ย / ย relies on speed (short battles are her favourites) โพ ย ย uses everything they have (when the lives of people she cares for are at stake? Absolutely)ย / ย proceeds with cautionย (she may be ruthless & occasionally reckless but she is not stupid) / ย hides their full potential โพ ย ย exhausts quickly (depends on the situation but she is the kind to attempt & dispose of her enemy as quickly as possible since her body is a wreck. -- her spells are very, very powerful & devastating but sometimes demand a LOT in return)ย ย / has high stamina โพ ย behaves arrogantly ย / ย brags after landing a hit ย / ย belittles their abilities โพ ย uses psychological tactics / ย uses brute strength โพ ย avoids civilians / ย strikes down civilians โพ ย ย damages surroundingsย (black magic is destructive. 90% of her spells consist of explosions) / avoids damaging surroundings โพ ย ย signature fighting style ย / ย makes it up as they go โพ ย mastered skill - set / ย learning their skill - set โพ ย ย fancy footwork / sloppy footwork โพ ย ย messy fighter ย / elegant fighter โพ ย accepts defeat ย / ย refuses defeat ย / ย begs for mercy โพ ย ย compliments their opponentย (she compliments the fight itself or says nothing at all)ย / insults their opponent (snarky insults, mind you). โพ ย ย uses unnecessary movements ย ( flips, twirls ) / ย moves efficiently / ย barely moves (she is a Black Mage / spell caster after all...) โพ ย ย prefers to dodge ย / prefers to block โพ ย defends their blindside ย / ย has no blindside ย / ย leaves blindsides vulnerable
โพ ย ย uses all available advantages ( ex : uses a gun but also throws punches, kicks out while blades clash, etc. ) / ย strictly use one main method โพ ย ย plays around / ย holds back ย / fights ruthlessly / ย shows mercy โพ ย ย waits for an opponent to be ready ย / strikes when opponent isnโt ready โพ ย ย fears death / ย fears pain ย / ย fears killing โพ ย has PTSD (samurai & being in the proximity of swords upset her greatly. She wonโt show / admit it ofc but... yeah)ย / ย avoids fighting โพ ย has lost a fight / ย has won a fight โพ ย ย has killed ย / ย refuses to kill โพ ย ย wants to die standing ย / ย would succumb slowly
Tagged by:ย @aenchantressโ ! almost a decade ago but uh... well. Tagging:ย last seven peeps on my dash; @chaotidesโ, @erleidnโ, @naecromancyโ, @echopulseโ, @breslinโ, @oriphicโ, & @glaciniumโ.
me: โshtola is on a hiatus. I lost her muse again. @breselinโ: *responds to a meme I sent* :))))) me: ah, hello Yโshtola. Nice of you to show up!
God In Fire - Dissidia 012 Duodecim
Another song thatโs been stuck in my head these past few days
Was I raised without love? Or was I born unlovable?
(via alkoholimblut)
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ย ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐!
* ๐ต๐ฐ๐ฒ๐ด ๐ฒ๐ป๐ฐ๐ธ๐ผ : ย in-game cutscenes, Dissidia NT, Opera Omnia.ย * ๐ฝ๐ฐ๐ผ๐ด : ย Yโshtola Rhul * ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ด :ย ย according to her namedays? 29; however, she is 24 physically & around 40 mentally. Age is a fickle thing in her case; theoretically speaking, Yโshtola died at the age of 24 but continued to age mentally while being in the lifestream. Since time runs faster in the aetherial realm than it does in the physical realm, her mental age no longer aligns with her physical one. Additionally, she does not necessarily physically age anymore (more below). -- needless to say, her age as such is horriblyย disjointed.ย ย * ๐ท๐ด๐ธ๐ถ๐ท๐ : ย 5โฒ2โณ (160 cm). * ๐๐ฟ๐ด๐ฒ๐ธ๐ด๐ :ย ย seeker of the sun miqoโte; one of Eorzeaโs many races. A proud, patriarchalย folk generally referred to asย โcat-peopleโ due to their feline trademarks. -- oft found in deserts, living in clans & tribes. * ๐ถ๐ด๐ฝ๐ณ๐ด๐ :ย ย cis female. * ๐ฝ๐ฐ๐๐ธ๐พ๐ฝ๐ฐ๐ป๐ธ๐๐ : ย originally Dravanian (born in the Hinterlands), later made Sharlayan upon entering theย โCircle of Knowingโ at the age of 19. * ๐ฑ๐ธ๐๐๐ท๐ณ๐ฐ๐ : ย September 18, 1554. * ๐๐๐ฝ ๐๐ธ๐ถ๐ฝ : Virgo. * ๐๐ด๐๐ธ๐ณ๐ด๐ฝ๐ฒ๐ด : Verse dependent! She spent the first six years of her life as a nomad before becoming Master Matoyaโs protege at the age of seven. She moving into the otherโs abode in the Hinterlands close to Idyllshire & lived there up until her 19th nameday; after that she moved to La Noscea, namely Limsa Lominsa & lived there for four years ere again adapting more nomadic tendencies & never staying in one place for too long. Most recently, she has settled in the Rakโtika Greatwood, namely Slitherbough, where she has been working as the Nightโs Blessedโs sage for three years. * ๐ผ๐ฐ๐๐ธ๐๐ฐ๐ป ๐๐๐ฐ๐๐๐ :ย single; not one to pursue a relationship as such due to deeming herself bitter & unlovable. She did haveย them in the past (on-off relationship with Yda Hext) but decided to step away from any form of romantic involvement after Ydaโs disappearance. She is not quite sure what she wants either way; her status asย โhalf-deadโ &ย โhalf-livingโ also complicates matters to a ridiculous degree. * ๐ฐ๐ป๐ธ๐ถ๐ฝ๐ผ๐ด๐ฝ๐ : ย Lawful Neutral (ARR - SB), Chaoticย Neutral (SHB). * ๐ณ๐๐ธ๐ฝ๐บ : ย wine & tea in every shape or form; she prefers bitter flavours, however. * ๐ต๐พ๐พ๐ณ :ย ย in her youth,ย her diet was rather balanced & usually consisted out of lean meat & fish alongside a wide array of vegetables & fruits; quite the fan of broth & fish stew or anything with fish in it, really (she spent most of her adulthood in La Noscea & it shows. At least in regard to her favorite cuisines).-- post her death in ARR however, Yโshtola often suffers from bouts of nausea & extreme fatigue that render her unable to keep any sort of food down. She has adjusted accordingly but has grown rather haggard due to it. Her bodyโs metabolism has become โchaoticโ / extremely fast & impossible to properly pinpoint. As such, her diet (like her sleeping schedule) has become just as odd & irregular. Even more so after her second & third death throughout Stormblood & Shadowbringers.ย * ๐ณ๐ฐ๐ ๐พ๐ ๐ฝ๐ธ๐ถ๐ท๐ :ย ย usually fond of the day, but it does not really make a difference to her anymore. * ๐๐ฝ๐ฐ๐ฒ๐บ๐ :ย ย she has quite the sweettooth;ย pastries, chocolate coated fruits, rolandberry / vanilla tarts are high up on her list. * ๐ฟ๐ด๐ :ย ย do frogs & enchanted broomsticks count? * ๐ฒ๐พ๐ป๐พ๐๐ : ย varies; if we go with Shadowbringers it is black & variations thereof, alongside a deep purple & the colour of ash. Before that she generally associated herself with the colour white & red. * ๐ต๐ป๐พ๐๐ด๐ :ย ย purpleย carnations; love & dedication, wittiness & wisdom, capriciousness & unpredictability in a positive sense but also impulse & recklessness, repulsion & a specific kind of hastiness & impatience that invoke harm to oneself or others. Often added to a funeralย bouquet. * ๐๐ด๐๐๐ฐ๐ป๐ธ๐๐ : ย uncertain; she has a clear preferenceย towards women due to her aversion towards men (prompted by her father & general Seeker culture, I will elude on that eventually), however. * ๐ฑ๐พ๐ณ๐ ๐๐๐ฟ๐ด : ย most certainly ectomorph due to the circumstances of her death & rebirth. Ever since she has been drawn out of the lifestream, her body as such has been in a constant state of decay & no longer functions as proficientย as it should.ย She has lost weight, & has troubles putting weight on again, barely sleeps or eats despite craving either fiercely. Additionally, Yโshtola has to constantly alter the very aether in her body to keep it from... well, dying.ย * ๐ด๐๐ด ๐ฒ๐พ๐ป๐พ๐ : ย formerly teal; a very, very striking & bright kind of blue / green. Post her death / time spent in the lifestream her eyes have turned white; a consequence of the โflowโ cast given how it scorched her eyes / burnt them out. * ๐ท๐ฐ๐ธ๐ ๐ฒ๐พ๐ป๐พ๐ :ย ย white with darker highlights mixed in-between.
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fading
Queen of Peace - Florence + the Machine
Like the stars chase the sun Over the glowing hill, I will conquerย Blood is running deep Some things never sleep
I defend myself with the past which is not mine, the archeology of manure: this is not history, nothing ever happened here, there were no battles or victories: only deaths.
Margaret Atwood, from Digging in โSelected Poems I: 1965-1975โณ (via adrasteiax)