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boficionado:

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] It isn’t that I don’t feel close enough to them [DuzMachines97] It’s just… complicated [DuzMachines97] We rely a lot on each other [DuzMachines97] Kind of… serving as one stronger whole, you know? [DuzMachines97] We’re a team. A unit. [DuzMachines97] And I guess part of me feels like I broke that

It was the simplest way he could think of to explain the very complex situation he had with his brothers. It wasn’t just that they were a team, really; it wasn’t even how much they relied on one another. The team was what made them strong, and pulling out a gear served the same function as removing a vital component from a car. Without it, nothing worked as it should.

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] I just wish there was an easier answer [DuzMachines97] I know there’s not [DuzMachines97] But I’m a genius [DuzMachines97] I don’t say that lightly [DuzMachines97] I’ve always had all the answers [DuzMachines97] They’re used to that [DuzMachines97] And now…………………………………….. [DuzMachines97] I don’t

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] you want an outside perspective. someone who isn’t used to you always having the answers. i think, subconsciously, all of you are expecting you to know what to do to fix something that can’t be fixed. [anticlam] you need someone you can talk to without that expectation, even if none of you realized it was even there.

It sounded a lot like maybe that was the problem, to Rei. Donnie, and his brothers, were so used to Donnie fixing their problems that coming across one he couldn’t fix was straining everything and none of them seemed to know enough to put it into words to move past it.

She wouldn’t mind being a soundboard if he needed it.

#boficionado #REPLIES EIGHT YEARS LATER #forgot my verse tag tho i'll fix that later

jinruui:

✖┆ Well, she’d certainly grown quiet, hadn’t she? Aside from the fact that she usually didn’t speak at all, her half attentive shrug was all Izaya needed to know that she was obviously thinking, lost in the whirlwind of thoughts he’d managed to kickstart. It was enough to force another smug smirk to his face, especially so when Rei eventually reached out to tug at the bottom of his jacket.

But instead of speaking up, he’d simply answer silence with silence; leading the other along as she clung to him while they made their way through the crowd. Part of him wanted to point out her innate dependency, but he was honestly curious to see how long it would take her to notice the subconscious habit.

He’d give her a few minutes at the most, enough for the pair to round the corner to head down a different street.

Why did this feel so familiar? Like she’d done it a thousand times before? As Russia Sushi slid into view ahead, Rei shifted her attention back outwards from where she’d been lost in trying to solve the mental puzzle, instead paying attention to her surroundings.

Somehow, she noted, she’d managed to half plaster herself against Izaya’s side as they’d walked.

And she’d been comfortable with it.

explain, she demanded once they were inside and seated, sliding her phone across the table to him. why does this feel familiar?

#jinruui #v; hearts over time

stardust-hybrid

“I take it that’s a yes?” Sephiroth asked as the girl crowed in close to him. Perhaps she was struggling to speak after such a close call. And, he supposed, he was a bit of a flashy sight down here in the slums. But if she was only going to speak via proximity, he was going to have trouble getting her home.

He knelt down to be more on her level, less intimidating. “Just lead the way and I’ll make sure you get back where you need to be with no concern for monsters. My name is Sephiroth, by the way.” He held his hand for her to shake, hoping she would relax a bit, at least enough to point him where to go.

catluckseven

Rei offered another nervous smile, gaze flicking to his hand uncertainly. He was clearly expecting her to shake it, but that’d mean touching him, and she had no idea what she’d see if she did that.

Wasn’t sure she wanted to see it.

But it’d be rude not to, either. Sliding her sleeves down over both of her hands more on reflex than anything, she carefully took his hand, keeping the fabric between their skin and avoiding his as she shook the hand.

Home, at least, was easy enough. Just through the alley and around a few corners. That wasn’t too far for him to follow.

#stardust hybrid #v; future sight #hello friend look what blog is back from the dead

boficionado-a

He knew that feeling. Almost too intimately in fact. On nights when it felt like the unsettled feeling in the air was thickest and his brothers seemed the most unsettled, he wished he could just… vanish. That he was gone, away from the lair. Or even that he had actually died in that tunnel. At least then the grief would’ve been fleeting. They would have moved on.

Or at least he hoped he would’ve. He was a genius, but he couldn’t exactly guess how someone’s mind would react.

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] That had to have been scary [DuzMachines97] I guess… now I can relate [DuzMachines97] I mean, it’s my legs and not my voice but [DuzMachines97] It’s like my whole life, sixteen years of hard work and training and knowing exactly how my body worked… [DuzMachines97] It’s all gone

A deep sigh heaved out of him as his dark eyes closed for a moment, considering what he wanted to say. He felt a little better for his outburst, slightly less frustrated, but that didn’t mean he had stopped feeling bad for blowing up. Especially now that he knew she was as aware of what this felt like as he was.

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] How long did it take? [DuzMachines97] To start… I dunno, feeling like you were used to it, I guess [DuzMachines97] If… if that’s okay to ask, I mean

catluckseven

Rei tapped her fingers nervously on the keys as she read his replies, chewing on her lip. How to explain it, exactly? Especially since she’d been so young, and not nearly as in tune with herself as Donnie clearly was. She’d been mute longer than she’d been verbal, honestly.

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] tbf, i was only like six when it happened so i’ve been mute longer than verbal, and kids bounce back a lot quicker than older people but? [anticlam] at least a year probably. give or take? there was getting used to the muteness itself which was surprisingly quick, it was dealing with the depression and the uselessness and learning all new ways to cope that were the real struggle. those were what took time. [anticlam] but i don’t think anyone really gets used to it, not really. especially if they had the ability before, because we’re the people who know what we’re missing and what it was like to have it.

The brunette sighed, leaning back in her seat and tilted her head up towards the ceiling as she scowled. How to say what she needed to say without being preachy or being insulting about his family?

[anticlam is typing...]

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] you need someone to talk to. someone who gets it and won’t judge or be offended when you blow up, and who you trust to listen to you when you need it. confident, i guess? i had a journal for a bit, and my brother and i have that twin brain thing going on so i could trust him but [anticlam] and not to knock your brothers because they obviously love you a lot and you clearly care about them -- [anticlam] but they don’t sound like they’re going to be equipped to be the support system you need in this moment, when it comes to talking about this and how you feel about it and how it’s affecting you. they’re trying, but judging by that blow up, you don’t feel close enough to tell them what’s really in your head. [anticlam] and that’s hurting all of you. if not now, then later when you start resenting them for not doing enough while hating yourself for it, and they feel guilty for being unable to do more.

#boficionado #v; summer blaze

boficionado-a

Damn it, he was crying. He hadn’t meant to snap, or get angry. Rei had been one of the few people he really felt like he could talk to outside of his family… and while a lot of his other online “pen pals” had been chatting with him, expressing concern over his situation and offering condolences and support (including a few people who offered to donate to help with hospital bills, which he continued to politely decline), she had been the one who behaved the most human about it.

Frustrated, he rubbed his palm against his eyes.

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] I’m sorry

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] I shouldn’t have snapped. I’m sorry. [DuzMachines97] It’s just… [DuzMachines97] This could be so much worse. The accident could’ve killed me. It could’ve taken away way more than my ability to walk. [DuzMachines97] I just don’t know how I’m going to do this

He paused in his typing, wiping his eyes shakily again. He could hear his brothers talking in the other room, the same hushed tones as ever, and it stung. Deep down, he knew they didn’t mean to make him feel this way. The intention was never to make him feel like a burden or that he was useless. They were just worried… almost as lost as he was, and probably even more scared.

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] Wait [DuzMachines97] You never told me you couldn’t talk [DuzMachines97] I mean that’s not [DuzMachines97] I don’t mean that like it changes anything [DuzMachines97] Now I’m like thirty times more sorry than I was before for blowing up like that about this

catluckseven

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] nothing to apologize for. i get it, remember? i had my share of blow ups when i lost my voice and had to learn how to navigate the world without it on top of everything else, even if they weren’t exactly verbal. my brother had to deal with a lot of capslock for a good while. it was tough. [anticlam] so don’t worry about it, really. [anticlam] but yeah it’s not exactly something to drop casually into conversation so it never really comes up i guess.

Rei paused for a moment, fingers hovering over the keys as she considered what she was going to say next. She hadn’t ever really told anyone some of this stuff before, but if anyone would understand, he probably would. Especially now.

[anticlam is typing...]

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] i never really told anyone this before but in the early days i thought it’d be better for everyone if i just disappeared. [anticlam] i had to sign language and it was frustrating and slow and i hated every moment of it because i felt so stupid for struggling with it, and for making my mom and brother learn it just so they could understand me when my hand got too cramped from writing or typing everything i wanted to say. [anticlam] my mom suddenly had to work a second job and was always tired and now my brother was trying to take care of both of us because i’d retreated into myself and here i was selfishly making them learn a whole new language to cater to my needs and i couldn’t even learn it properly. [anticlam] so when i say i understand, i promise that i really do mean it. and that it does get better. not the same and maybe not perfect but better than it is right this minute. it’s always going to be hard and it’ll never be fair but that’s pretty much everything anyway.

#boficionado #v; summer blaze

boficionado-a

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] I DON’T KNOW HOW [DuzMachines97] I’m so LOST and I’m CONFUSED and all anyone does is look at me like I’m BROKEN [DuzMachines97] I CAN’T EVEN GET AROUND ON MY OWN [DuzMachines97] I hate this so much this is a disaster I don’t know what to do anymore [DuzMachines97] I don’t know how to make this better [DuzMachines97] I’m sorry I just [DuzMachines97] I’m scared and I’m alone and my brothers just look defeated and it’s all my fault

catluckseven

She paused for a moment, fingers tightening around her phone, and scowled down at it as her temper flared; abruptly she snapped it closed and dropped it to the bed, throwing herself across the mattress to grab the laptop on the desk and flip it open. Once the computer had loaded, her fingers began to fly over the keys furiously.

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] I KNOW, DONNIE. [anticlam] everything’s different now and it’s terrifying and lonely and no one who hasn’t experienced it really gets it because they can’t get it. it’s something alien and horrifying to them so the most they can do is pity you and say how sorry they are and make sad offers to help and look at you like they think you’re broken, and nothing is ever going to be the same again.

[anticlam is typing...]

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] and that’s because to them you are broken, donnie. people have a tendency to view people like us as less than whole, just because we can’t do the same things they can. like not being able to walk, or being unable to speak makes us less. they don’t mean to, but they do. [anticlam] you think you’re broken too. you were so used to being able to walk that now that you can’t it’s the absolute worse thing in the world to have ever happened to you, right? you came out of it alive and breathing but the world is ending for you just because your legs don’t work anymore.

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] but you know, you’re more than just your inability to walk. don’t let it define you. i made that mistake [anticlam] it’s really lonely here.

[anticlam] and i didn’t even realize i was until you sent me that stupid cat pun [Message deleted] [anticlam] don’t go there. it’s a hard place to leave once you’ve found it. you’ve got friends and family who want to help you get better, so let them. you’re going to need that support, trust me.

#boficionado #v; summer blaze

boficionado :

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] But I don’t know how to adjust! [DuzMachines97] I screwed up the whole team dynamic! [DuzMachines97] We’re a team… [DuzMachines97] Our father’s trained us in martial arts since we were little…….. [DuzMachines97] We’re supposed to work as a unit………….. [DuzMachines97] And here I am messing everything up [DuzMachines97] Like always [DuzMachines97] Donnie the screw-up [DuzMachines97] That’s me

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] you can start by not calling yourself a screw up. i haven’t invented internet travel yet and i’m not above punching disabled people. [anticlam] the whole thing is going to be a learning experience for all of you. stop sulking over mistakes you can’t fix and relearn the dynamic. find a new place.

#boficionado #v; summer blaze

boficionado-a

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] But it’s not [DuzMachines97] It’s not gonna be okay [DuzMachines97] My brothers are all exhausted [DuzMachines97] I can tell they’re tired [DuzMachines97] They don’t want to deal with this [DuzMachines97] And they shouldn’t have to [DuzMachines97] I totally messed up [DuzMachines97] I made a stupid mistake and now I’m just [DuzMachines97] I’m such a screw-up

catluckseven

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] they’re your brothers, donnie. they’d rather deal with this than deal with you being dead [anticlam] it takes a long time to adjust to a major change like that, you know. you need time to find your new equilibrium, and to learn how to work around this. this isn’t the sort of change you get used to overnight.

[anticlam is typing...]

#boficionado #v; summer blaze

boficionado-a

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] Just………………………………………… [DuzMachines97] PT today [DuzMachines97] My doctor says I’m not gonna walk again [DuzMachines97] My spine was too damaged in the accident [DuzMachines97] So that’s great [DuzMachines97] I hate it

catluckseven

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] ooooh. oh. oh boy. [anticlam] i’m sorry. [anticlam] but it’s gonna be okay. maybe not the same,

[anticlam is typing...]

#boficionado #v; summer blaze

boficionado-a

[DuzMachines97 is online!] [DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] Hey Rei [DuzMachines97] Sorry I know it’s late [DuzMachines97] Got a minute? [DuzMachines97] （＞д＜）

@catluckseven

catluckseven

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] not too late, but sure what’s up? [anticlam] always got time for you. just doing some last minute homework anyway, so nothing that important.

#boficionado #v; summer blaze #yesgood this is probably going to hurt

boficionado-a

“It’s so creepy! Like. Super creepy. Then there’s the chariots. Triton and Sebastian were both riding in seashells! Those were living breathing members of Triton’s kindom and now he’s using their bodies for transportation.”

catluckseven

[the fact this is clearly acceptable by their society makes it worse like. donnie. donnie, mermaids as a species are sociopaths. don’t ever get kidnapped by a mermaid. promise me you won’t ever get kidnapped by a mermaid. they’ll probably eat you and use your shell for like, a mixing bowl.]

#boficionado #v; summer blaze #laughing in the distance tho bc le in my head is just #''ok but turtle shell is actually great for mixing caustic potions in??''

boficionado-a

“I mean yeah, but I’m more weirded out by the seashell bra. Those had to have been living clams or oysters at some point, right? So is she just… wearing the corpses of her neighbors or something? It’s so creepy.”

catluckseven

[oh my god, what if they were? what if she just like, visited them all the time to talk and one day came over and they were dead and she just ‘hey new clothes!’ and wore them home! donnie she is an actual psychopath]

She was never going to look at The Little Mermaid the same again.

#boficionado #v; summer blaze

ribbonsofred-archived

build a {universe} with me i’ll place the {stars} in your eyes you’ll place the {moon} in mine and we’ll call it {home}

[is it just me or is like, it kind of weirdly terrifying that ariel was completely okay with the fact they were basically eating seafood for dinner in that scene with prince erik. like, what if that crab was sebastian’s uncle? what if she knew that crab????]

#boficionado #v; summer blaze #okay but literally visits new york to disney marathon with donnie tbh #there are some weirdly disturbing things in little mermaid donnie

boficionado-a

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] Omg [DuzMachines97] Ganbarimasu! [DuzMachines97] (و ˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و

He grinned as she typed on about whether or not alligators in the sewer would work. Part of him wondered how Leatherhead would react to being told that… he really was a real live alligator in the New York sewer system, even if he wasn’t down there all the time. Though he did have to wonder sometimes what he ate. What all of the Mutanimals ate, really. It couldn’t be easy, with two of them easily matching the size of all four turtles doubled.

As for hiding from sewer workers… he chuckled. Pity he couldn’t tell her about the elaborate security systems he’d built down in their underground home.

[DuzMachines97 is typing…] [DuzMachines97] That sounds really cool tho [DuzMachines97] Like a ghost rider [DuzMachines97] (See what I did there lmao) [DuzMachines97] But yeah idk where they get the idea of alligators in the sewers [DuzMachines97] I’d imagine it’d be hard to hide something that big for very long [DuzMachines97] They’d have found something by now I’m sure

catluckseven

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] then again, hyper aware sentient alligators maybe [anticlam] that’d be an interesting idea.

Actually, that was kind of an amusing idea. She could totally make a silly webcomic out of that idea, probably. Something fun and entertaining and completely nonsensical, revolving around superhero alligators living in sewers, maybe?

She could use the pictures he sent her for backgrounds and stuff, even. Maybe drag him into storytelling, he’d probably be good at it.

[anticlam is typing...] [anticlam] webcomic idea!!! [anticlam] super sentai alligator rangers: five alligators living in the ny sewers fighting evil. the mysterious sixth ranger gator can join them later. [anticlam] but they’re alligators and aren’t really interested in fighting evil as much as they are in getting out of the sewer to sunbathe and find some food. their mentor is constantly just “ ( ￣┏＿┓￣) why this”

#boficionado #v; summer blaze #she's just 'and i found a headless fairy this is celty'#'she's irish'

toomuchtelly

Ask Memes ;; Sass Edition

You can’t fight me, you’re miniature.

Going to McDonalds for a salad is like going to a prostitute for a hug.

People who think they know everything are a great annoyance to those of us who do.

Get your facts first, then you can distort them as you please.

Laugh and the world laughs with you, snore and you sleep alone.

I hope karma slaps you in the face before I do.

You know, it only takes four muscles to just extend your arm and bitchslap the twat.

Congratulations on being an awful bitch who’s completely oblivious to the fact that everyone hates you.

Wine is constant proof that God loves us and loves to see us happy.

My business isn’t your business; so unless you’re my thong, don’t be up my arse.

I may look calm, but in my head I’ve killed you three times already.

I would retaliate against your snotty remark, but since you resemble a garden gnome, I’d say the joke is on you.

I thought I saw your face on my newsfeed but it turns out it was just a picture of a potato.

You want to walk out of my life, there’s the door. Hell, I’ll even hold it open for you.

I don’t do fashion, I am fashion.

Somewhere out there there is a tree, tirelessly producing oxygen so you can breath. I think you owe it an apology.

I’m only single because I’m too sassy for everyone.

Bitch please, have you seen me? I’m a princess.

I think, therefore I’m single.

Life’s too short to bullshit.

If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun.

When in doubt, freak ‘em out.

I’d rather die my way than live yours.

Weather forecast for tonight: dark.

Two wrongs don’t make a right, but they make a good excuse.

I used to be Snow White, but I drifted.

It’s simple, if it jiggles, it’s fat.

Between two evils, I always pick the one I never tried before.

Tragedy is when I cut my finger. Comedy is when you fall into an open sewer and die.

I distrust camels, and anyone else who can go a week without a drink.

If you want a guarantee, buy a toaster.

#memes

ok i know the words coming out of your mouth basically amount to “don’t fill balloons with propane” but somewhere in that ten minute lecture you mentioned explosions so i’m thinking it’s time for some science.

by which i mean we should totally fill these balloons with propane and see if they do actually explode

#v; summer blaze #open #rEI NO

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