There's a time & a place to die, but this ain't it ♪

Hi & welcome to my blog ☺️ . This blog will mostly consist of me trying to navigate through my learning difficulties & mental illnesses while trying to hold onto the light ☀. I like to reblog pictures of animals & plants 💖. Sometimes I post things that could be triggering such as suicidal ideation, as it's something that I struggle a lot with. However, I do my best to tag trigger warnings.

[catsandcourage]

But who am I to give a damn

When my own body turned on me

[lilliness]

[zay4ik]

[cutepetsuwu]

Nice Cat Nap https://ift.tt/2RRsDBJ

[mostlycatsmostly]

(by marion1967)

[catasters]

[kittens-jpg]

[estrellablogg]

Ölmek için fazla ölüsün..☀️

[catsandcourage]

Me: *wants to drink & OD*

Me @ me: probs shouldn't do that before work.

Me back @ me: mothers probs shouldn't neglect their daughter when they need them most. But some mothers do that anyway.

Me @ me back at @ me: touche!

[catsandcourage]

I'm so frazzled, exhausted & teary. Last two days the flat above me has been blasting music & has been shrieking along to it non stop. I had counselling, I started to cry at the end so the ended finished so it felt really ubrupt. I'm back at my flat & I just want peace please. I wish I wasn't such a pathetic twat who can't leave the house by themselves unless they have something like an appointment. The noise is invading every part of me, I can't do anything to distract because it's just so loud. I just want to go lie in a nice quiet ditch & just die into the plants.

[forkittykitty]

the eyes of a killer

[catsandcourage]

Someone who's old enough to be my mother pls come mother me & say what I imagine mother's should say like it's going to be ok! I'm here for you!

[catsandcourage]

My GP last week said she'd phone me this morning between 07:30-08:00 as she had no appointments left & going on annual leave next week. So I was awake since 05:00, anxious I'd missed the phone call & started having flashbacks. Part of me was glad that I'd get a phone call so I wasn't in the middle of it by myself but embarrassed at the same time as I can't speak or function in the middle of a flashback. But it's now 10:20 & she hasn't called. This is really sad & pathetic but I have like this massive hole in my chest from the lack of support from my parents & my GP not phoning feels like she's rubbed salt in the wound lol.

[cinnamonical]

ゴロゴロそう~

[catsandcourage]

Sending you hugs (if wanted) and lots of support, hope everything gets better for you and your surgery helps 💜🌻

Thank you 💜. I could really do with a hug. Thank you for being kind, I really appreciate it! Feel so lost in it all. Don't think I'm mentally strong enough to go through with this. Don't even know if there's any point to this all because there's no cure, just surgical intervention to get rid of the affected areas, only for it go grow back.

[catsandcourage]

My mother is retired, she just chooses to work & she's chooses to work on the day of my surgery. At least my dad doesn't choose to be unwell enough to be in hospital. What's her excuse?

[fruitie]

dropping by to feed my friend’s cat 🍃 her name is vinegar !