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i try | 22 she/her

[foolsfantasies-deactivated20220]

Well, not quite what I was going for. Still, here’s my take on Amber (again. I must have drawn 30 fanarts of her).

[koiagain]

I feel So Cringe whenever I express interest in anything You guys can shoot me if you want idk

[fairweathermyth]

i've been hit with a rote thought: both of fitz's daughters have names that sting.

[suchbluesky]

Burn my tomorrows.

this illustration started in like. 2019 when I approached illustration so differently than I do now and I never considered it finished enough. found it in my files because I got nostalgic for Bee and Assassin’s Fate and decided that I gotta post it somewhere.

[fitzlovedcomplex]

Something that makes me really, extremely sad is how throughout the Farseer Trilogy there are moments where Fitz truly acts like a prince and you can see just how good of a king he could have been. The instances where he takes control, becomes Sacrifice, and does all he can for what is right. It makes me even sadder that Verity wanted that for him. That Verity wanted him to hold the throne until his son could, because he knew he could do it. And it just never happened. So many what ifs in FitzChivalry’s life. I mourn for him.

[ode-on-a-grecian-butt]

art by Est Florane

[steamandcream]

thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

[steamandcream]

sorry to put your tags on blast on this insane breach containment post I have since muted, but you're right and you should say it.

It is defeatable. Go for the throat.

[catsvkis]

a fool and a queen

[neatbay]

beloved showing up in bee pov is how i imagine marvel fans feel

[miseria-fortes-viros]

yoooo guys these wings my dad made look INSANE i can’t wait to try them tomorrow

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i don’t think you understand i totally thought we were gonna die locked up in this castle but this fucking genius was like “im going to invent a way for humans to fly”. shout out to my dad he’s a real one fr

[miseria-fortes-viros]

LMAOOO this dude told me to be careful as he affixed the wings to my back…..dad no offense but you just invented flying and we have to go high enough to avoid the king’s archers. soo

[miseria-fortes-viros]

HOOOOLY SHIT YOU GUYS I AM SO AFRAID. THE GROUND IS SO FAR. HOW DO BIRDS DO THIS. OH MY GODS OH MY GODS OH MY GODS

[miseria-fortes-viros]

it’s so beautiful up here

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i don’t like seeing the ground. i’m going higher

[miseria-fortes-viros]

it’s cold and i can’t see anything. not sure if that’s better or worse

[miseria-fortes-viros]

by zeus….what is that thing…….it’s as bright as the sun and twice as warm

[miseria-fortes-viros]

the gods look truly down on me this day…apollo calls to me from his chariot of fire. a mere mortal. he must think my flight such a wondrous feat

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i don’t understand why but he’s coming closer. he is not supposed to stray from his path, lest the sun fall from the sky. why does he look so anguished to see me?

[miseria-fortes-viros]

oh. i am in his path

[miseria-fortes-viros]

it’s so hot…was it this hard to fly before? maybe i’m tired

[miseria-fortes-viros]

the wax

[miseria-fortes-viros]

he really does look like the sun…the light emanates from his fingers, his hair, his skin. he means to catch me. i reach for him

[miseria-fortes-viros]

his skin burns. i cannot hold on

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i slip through his fingers.

[miseria-fortes-viros]

it takes a really long time to fall from the sky. longer than i thought

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i wonder if he cried for me

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i pray to him just in case. i am grateful he tried. my palms are red and cracked from where they touched divinity. the ground does not look any closer than it was

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i have not seen my father since we took flight…i hope he escaped. i hope he will not witness this. i wish i could tell him how joyful these wings made me before the wax melted

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i do not regret it. i have seen with my own eyes what others will only dream of

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i am not afraid

[miseria-fortes-viros]

i am not afraid i am not afraid i am not afraid i am not afraid i am afraid i am afraid i am afraid

[miseria-fortes-viros]

please please please please please pleaseplease

[miseria-fortes-viros]

the gods will not save me. i suppose this is a lesson in hubris. i am forever a flightless thing

[miseria-fortes-viros]

please please please i have no coin for the ferryman if i am to die now i will never reach the realm of hades please turn me into a bird any bird or a bug or something anything please please pleasepleaseplease

[miseria-fortes-viros]

I AM NOT AFRAID I AM NOT AFRAID I AM NOT AFRAID I AM NOT AFRAID I AM N

[clouds-soup]

I love my beautiful wife Amber the beadmaker ❤️ And the other characters too i guess.

[redapparitions]

doodles of bee farseer from right after i finished fool’s assassin. reading the final trilogy at last is bittersweet after delaying for the longest time, i just can’t imagine not having any new adventures with fitz and the fool :(

[weirwoodsugar]

the main thing about rote that ruins me for other books other than like fitz’s entire existence is that why isn’t anybody else writing fantasy novels about living your life on Unacknowledged Romantic Friendship Hard Mode one of the all time most thrilling and miserable ways to live a life. the people long for What Are We representation. they are so me etc.

[felp0n]

Fitz drawing i forgot to post oops!

[janeways-coffees]

Oh no.... thinking about Amber Rote again... amber.... my wife...

[tragediegh]

Something lost

[bobbole]

Sheila Norgate, Raven with Issues