About me
Where do I start? I used to have a blog called scarsmood that was pretty fun for making poetry and therian talks. It was very trauma based so once I got that over with I was ready to move onto something new.
After lots of therapy my identity went from a threatening wolf
To a willow ptarmigan
How does one get there?
It was a lot of trial and error initally using my own created species as a place holder until i figured out a what birds i felt most connected to. That would be mekruh
Which sort of does still make its influence on me i love showing off my phantom "ears"
Willow ptarmigan is very spiritual for me. I've had dreams of being a willow ptarmigan as my double and sometimes other grouse. I go out and do ptarmigan things until I wake up. It feels great!
That really confirmed to me I had a deeper connection ptarmigans were essential food sources of early people in northern Europe which is where my family is from some 100 years ago.
I find everything to be fascinating looking carefully at plants and animals and trying to be as small as possible. I have a bold personality when im shifted for a prey animal but i do still get scared.
Sometimes I freeze in place pretending to be a stick. Sometimes I run away. Sometimes I get puffy and try to look large. My animal brain always feels a more complex in different areas like plant identification. I can be scared and still but still identify a plant in the pitch black.
I love being a ptarmigan. Feel free to ask away!
















