The Aviary

27/he/him/Willow Ptarmigan Therian Naturalist, Pagan Header by Siarczek

[cautious-callum]

About me

Where do I start? I used to have a blog called scarsmood that was pretty fun for making poetry and therian talks. It was very trauma based so once I got that over with I was ready to move onto something new.

After lots of therapy my identity went from a threatening wolf

To a willow ptarmigan

How does one get there?

It was a lot of trial and error initally using my own created species as a place holder until i figured out a what birds i felt most connected to. That would be mekruh

Which sort of does still make its influence on me i love showing off my phantom "ears"

Willow ptarmigan is very spiritual for me. I've had dreams of being a willow ptarmigan as my double and sometimes other grouse. I go out and do ptarmigan things until I wake up. It feels great!

That really confirmed to me I had a deeper connection ptarmigans were essential food sources of early people in northern Europe which is where my family is from some 100 years ago.

I find everything to be fascinating looking carefully at plants and animals and trying to be as small as possible. I have a bold personality when im shifted for a prey animal but i do still get scared.

Sometimes I freeze in place pretending to be a stick. Sometimes I run away. Sometimes I get puffy and try to look large. My animal brain always feels a more complex in different areas like plant identification. I can be scared and still but still identify a plant in the pitch black.

I love being a ptarmigan. Feel free to ask away!

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Prairie creation

One day mekruh was hungry and asked how will i find food and the grass said you can eat my seeds and my buds but you must throw the rest across the fields and forests when your done

So the mekruh eat the seeds and rummage in the ground for more and asked if the forest had anywhere to sleep the thickets offered their branches so the mekruh slept in the bushes

As a thanks the mekruh turned its soil and pruned its branches.

The grass asked if mekruh could help further and eat some mice that hurt its roots so the mekruh did.

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Victor Adame Minguez

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She's spotted Chris Pratt and she's not letting him make a Juarassic World sequel on her property O_O

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Gives you a cucumber slice and fish flakes

I am overwhelmed with gluttony

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Mekruh origin story

There once was a ptarmigan who lived in the cold with it's family they all had been there for a long time and liked the snow and the cold. They wore dresses to pure white and sometimes would decorate themselves in willow buds. The whole family dances and played. They dug burrows in snow and slept in their warm den.

One day the curious ptarmigan ventured out into the woods and found a bison. The bison was so warm and so fluffy the ptarmigan fell asleep on its back and woke up somewhere completely different and alone.

The ptarmigan quickly tried to find its footing stamping rapidly. And would call to its family making a boom much louder than usual. The ptarmigan found the prairie chicken instead and learned its way grew its ears and its booming song. Then it met other grouse and learned their songs.

Then the ptarmigan buried itself with all its new information and found bones of its ancestors and made a fire. Talking with them asking for advice it grew like them to. Becoming a mekruh.

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I’m gonna be sick

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hate when I go out and see everyone already stacking on top of eachother without telling me

[bunnybunnybnuuy]

snale 🐌 is a type of buny 🐇 if you think aboutt it..

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Hai everybeing !! Sorry for inconsistent posts, we've been having some health issues but we're ok !!

Anyways, some stuff we made today ^ ^

Yet another shelf.. who's surprised lol

New kind of mushroom OwO

Also another mushroom, based off turkey tail mushrooms !! :>

N last but not least some cleaned cormorant vertebrae :3 We plan to make them into a chain with beads on it !!

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claim your badge here

[cautious-callum]

Coming into this realization the mekruh is very important actually its good I know my kintype as a grouse but I think mekruh is also a strong spiritual identity.

Kind of like a creature that is a story and example of who I am

I feel like mekruh specifically embody a lot of my relationship with prairie and grasses. I think in a way, mekruh are almost a way for me to kind of try and describe the living relationship you can have. Instead of using the traditional english "i am with the prairie" or "i like the prairie" which can imply a sort of otherness to the habitat.

Mekruh are me and you and also the prairie or whatever environment you like. I complete mekruh duties like spreading seeds and making nests or plucking dead grass.

Mekruh are mythical fictional creatures that exist in a space where they can jump from person to person and impact them. They have an advantage of not being a physical animal so they can spread more rapidly. I feel like mekruh are just as alive as anything else.

So I need to start writing down more lore in a mythical fashion I think to really get the ball rolling and I think I was missing that previously.

So expect that coming up ;)

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Adopt a grouse

For 15$ take your very own grouse home!

Comes with a high res transparent version :)

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Mask WIP >:)

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Itchy,,

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I feel like folks need to talk more about types fading. We grow up, we change, and we figure out our identity more. That doesn’t mean that what we experienced wasn’t real. That type helped us understand ourselves more and we simply no longer connect with it and that’s okay.

I recently lost my connection to Cloudjumper and no longer feel that I am him. I still love him dearly and what he represented to me as I was discovering my fiction identity will always be important.

I think with all of the younger alterhumans joining online spaces, there is a heavy want to know exactly who you are right at the start. That’s not how identity works. It takes lots of time and you’re gonna make mistakes. The internet has made it really easy for others to shame individuals who haven’t fully figured out their types or change their types. You are growing and changing so your types will change to.

Something might fit right now, but one day you may find out about a creature that represents you more so that connection to the old type fades. That doesn’t make the new type or the old type and more or less valid then the other.

Take your time. There is no rush to finding out who you are.

[cautious-callum]

Oooo I’d love to do a grouse honestly-

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