At Your Service

"Where did you find this?"

"That’s a good question", his reply was a dry one even as he held the strange component up to the light. "I brought it back figuring I could use it on you…you look like you need it all things considered…"

He had been making quite a bit of progress thus far. Over half of the dead circuits had been cleared away, and is it stood only a few more where left. Once that was done he could see about installing that new component. He was about to start on another one when his hand was snatched mid-motion.

18 was…what the shell was he doing? He was going on about the whole thing being a bad idea, and what was even more surprising was that he was apologizing. The robot rarely ever did so, and there was always a sarcastic after taste to the words but he was actually being sincere.

He stumbled back, rubbing at the sore limb as he fixed the mechaniloid with a questioning stare. “But—Wait, I don’t understand. You mean after all of this you’re telling me you don’t want to be fixed?” Somewhere inside of him, the last thread of his patience with this robot snapped.

He didn’t blow his top, he didn’t overreact and start yelling. No, instead of all that his tone was low, almost ice cold in it’s intensity. “Why is it, that whenever I try to do something, anything, for you it’s turned aside?” His voice rose, but only by a fraction. “I’ve had enough. What the shell are you not telling me? I need answers, or so help me…” the unspoken promise of 18 being dragged forcibly to his workshop lingered in the air, even if the turtle may not be physically up to the task.

#ic #i dont know what the heck is going on but i dont think this is gonna end well #ninjapoet

18802 was thankful for the aggression, it gave him an excuse to avoid the topic. He scoffed loudly at the threat, "Or what? What are you gonna do to me? Kill me? Torture me? Yeah, you're capable of that. Sure."

But there was uncertainty washing over him. This was... one of the only creatures he'd ever encountered who didn't want to leave, who actually cared. To lose Donatello would be like having another component ripped out of him, but if he knew who- what he was truly looking at, he'd leave anyway. Maybe it would be better to part on honest terms. Turning off his optics for a few seconds, taking in the sensation of his head spinning with guilt and blood and sparks, 18 mused about what it would be like to share that kind of chaos with someone. He thought he'd read something like this once, a segment of a magazine torn and battered and tossed into an alley, something about how love was the time between giving someone the power to destroy you and the moment they actually did. How long would it be, he wondered.

The robot broke the suffocating silence with four words that did not at all improve the atmosphere.

"You can't fix me."

Another pause, and he kept going, with a profoundly resigned expression. "That's why I keep you from trying. Because you can't fix me, and you're going to realize that one day, and you will realize it because you will be milliseconds away from a gruesome death. Because that's what happens when a prototype pretends it's a flawless product." He looked the terrapin in the eyes, after staring at the ground for the entirety of his confession, "Donatello, I wasn't the final version. I wasn't even intended to be the final version. The reports were ugly, almost everything they'd taken a chance on turned out to be a failure. I turned out to be a failure. And then they started using me as a lab rat for experimental AI programs because I was the only model stable enough to be reused like that. And their programs sent me on a killing spree that hasn't ended yet and you will never be safe as long as you know me. I'm sorry."

His eyes drifted back to the floor and he placed a hand on his injured shoulder, gripping it tightly, bitterly.

#rp #itsallintheequation

"Why are you so angry?"

18 spun on his heels, hands still twisted in his synthetic hair, eyes still narrowed with tension.

"Shut up," he spat, with a voice much more electronic than usual, "Could you just shut up this once?"

"What are you?"

18802 looked down with a combination of alarm and curiosity.

"I am a robot."

#ic #lilbigtemper

"Where did you find this?"

His hands stalled for a moment his eyes narrowing and sliding over to glance at the mechaniloids face when he made that noise. 18 told the truth because it was pointless in his eyes but when he actually did try to lie it seemed like a poor attempt on his part. “….I promise to make this as quick as I can…” he muttered, as those hands continued their work at removing damaged circuitry.

Whoever built this robot had designed something incredibly complex especially if it-no, he, could feel pain.

Knowingly inflicting discomfort made his stomach roil but he steeled himself with the fact once he did this 18 might be better off. “I just have to remove the damaged circuitry…it hasn’t been touched in awhile it seems so it’s slow going. But….”

He didn’t even know why he was talking right now; maybe it was the misguided notion that he could talk the cyborg through this ordeal. “Once I finish here who knows? You might not be so surly”

"Just a little more…"

#rp #itsallintheequation #god sorry school was being dumb but its over now

Despite the searing pain shooting through his shoulder, 18802 truly did almost chuckle at Donatello's rambled comment about his attitude. Almost, because he was beginning to remember another reason that messing with his circuitry wasn't a good idea. There was a high enough risk of his murderous morality program resetting itself and taking over when people were at a distance and there were no significant potential triggers around, but when there was someone going through his most unstable wires without any security measures whatsoever? Exponentially higher risk. Not worth taking. Not for anything.

"Wait," the robot said in a cracking voice, grabbing the turtle's hand suddenly, "this... is not a good idea. I should have stopped it earlier; my sincerest apologies that I did not. I- You- augh..." He shoved his friend away roughly, hoping impossibly that he wouldn't be questioned. 18 didn't have the skill to make up a lie good enough to cover that story and he certainly couldn't tell the truth.

Rhododendron

Rhododendron:What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?"*quiet sigh* … Michelangelo, I do not sleep. My memory banks clearly indicate we have been over this four, arguably five, times."

"Oh, right." -shifty eyes- "Ya don’t even daydream? Ya know. Think about stuff..picture yourself in situations?"

"I find it more useful to concentrate on events actually taking place."

"Even if nothing’s goin on? I mean..don’t ya like..think about things? about..people? What they’re doin’ ‘n ..Ya know. Stuff."

"Not unless I need information relevant to my current situation. Why do you ask? What do you ‘think about’?"

"I think about stuff! You know, stuff going on..friends. Wonderin’ bout what they’re doin’ ‘n what they’re gonna have for dinner, ‘n what I should cook for dinner, stuff like that. " Mikey gave his friend a curious look. It was so strange to think his friend never daydreamed. "I’m daydreaming all the time. Whenever I’m chillin’ pretty much."

"...mm... Well, forgive me, as a combat robot on the run I wasn't built around that fact that I'd have lots of down time. In fact, I was never supposed to have any. I find it interesting that you have so little to attend to, as you are a mutant yourself."

#ic #ninjapoet

Rhododendron

Rhododendron:What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?"*quiet sigh* … Michelangelo, I do not sleep. My memory banks clearly indicate we have been over this four, arguably five, times."

"Oh, right." -shifty eyes- "Ya don’t even daydream? Ya know. Think about stuff..picture yourself in situations?"

"I find it more useful to concentrate on events actually taking place."

"Even if nothing’s goin on? I mean..don’t ya like..think about things? about..people? What they’re doin’ ‘n ..Ya know. Stuff."

"Not unless I need information relevant to my current situation. Why do you ask? What do you 'think about'?"

#ic #ninjapoet

Rhododendron

Rhododendron:What’s the scariest dream you’ve ever had?"*quiet sigh* … Michelangelo, I do not sleep. My memory banks clearly indicate we have been over this four, arguably five, times."

"Oh, right." -shifty eyes- "Ya don’t even daydream? Ya know. Think about stuff..picture yourself in situations?"

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"I find it more useful to concentrate on events actually taking place."

#ic #ninjapoet

Another Angsty Starters Meme

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#ask meme

Rhododendron

Rhododendron:What's the scariest dream you've ever had?"*quiet sigh* ... Michelangelo, I do not sleep. My memory banks clearly indicate we have been over this four, arguably five, times."

#ic #ask meme #ninjapoet

uhhhhh ok i was tagged by two people so ill just do one

Rule #1: Always post the rules.

Rule #2: Answer the questions the person who tagged you asked, then write 10 new ones.

Rule #3: Tag 11 new people and link them in this post

Rule #4: Tell them you tagged them.

1- What’s your favourite book?

theres this comprehensive book of torture methods called What a Way to Go and it was really cool to me and then it was given to me as a gift by somebody really important to me and theyre gone now so

2- If you could visit one place on Earth, where would you go?

tbh since i'm transgender i try to avoid travelling to anywhere not very advanced in human rights but i've always wanted to go to egypt

3- If you could visit any point in history, where and when would you go (past or future)?

i would go as far into the future as i had to so that i wouldn't be scared to go outside anymore

4- Name one hobby/activity you do outside of tumblr.

archery!

5- Name someone who inspires you.

mmmm there was this guy named edd gould who did the eddsworld cartoons and he really got me into making my own comic characters sadly he died but eddsworld is still going to my knowledge you should check it out

6- What got you into the fandom (tmnt or whatever fandom you currently dig)?

hahaha well not very original but i watched the 2003 series when i was a kid

7- What’s your favourite food?

seafood or creamy things like ice cream and fettuccine alfredo

8- What’s your favourite kind of music?

upbeat pop stuff yehA sometimes i like the slow acoustic sad stuff with deep lyrics tho

9- What was your favourite episode/chapter/moment etc of the fandom you’re in now?

ok well im gonna use red vs blue as my fandom in this question and my favorite moment would be this conversation: Washington: Tucker! Why aren't you running drills? Tucker: How do you know I didn't already finish them? Washington: Because you're not on the ground complaining about irritated nipples. Tucker: I'm tellin' you, my chest piece rubs right up against them, and not in the good way.

10- If you could learn any language, what would it be and why?

I'd learn japanese cause a lot of my relatives are japanese hella

now for my questions:

1. What's your favorite time of day? 2. What's your OTP? 3. What's your favorite song? 4. Name a historical figure you find interesting. 5. Do you have any obsessive habits? 6. Describe someone you love (platonically, familially, romantically, etc.) 7. Be honest, if you were superhero/villain/assassin what would your cool-sounding title be? 8. What's your favorite TV show right now? 9. Are you a mac or PC person? 10. Is there any creature you consider to be your spirit animal? I'm not gonna tag anybody just do this if u wanna do it

#ooc

narcissistic--monstrosity

Place One in My Inbox: Questions Edition.

#ask meme #yeeeahhhh these are cool

"Am I dead?"

"Another one?"

"And what if I don’t?"

"Are you afraid of God?"

"Are you crazy?”

"Are you lost?"

"Are you really that shallow?"

"Are you sure it’s okay?"

"Are you sure there were no survivors?"

"Can I trust you?"

"Can we go now?"

"Can we not fight tonight?"

"Can’t or won’t?"

"Do you even care about how I feel?"

"Do you expect me to believe that?"

"Do you have any idea what you just did?"

"Do you love me?"

"Do you trust me?"

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"How could you do this?"

"How did you escape?"

"How long has it been since you last slept?"

"How long have you been there?"

"Is that blood behind your ear?"

"Is that really a gamble you’re willing to make?"

"Just go, alright?"

"Mind if I sleep here tonight?"

"Really?"

"Tell me: have you ever been afraid like this?"

"That’s the best you could come up with?"

"Wait, were you being sarcastic or…?"

"Want to hear a secret?"

"Was I the only one who thought that?"

"Well, that’s what I said, isn’t it?"

"What are you?"

"What are you doing here?"

"What do I have to say to make you understand?"

"What do you keep writing in that notebook?"

"What do you want with me?"

"What happened?"

"What if you stayed this time?"

"What if… what if I don’t want to be free?"

"What’s in it for me?"

"What’s in it for you?"

"When have I ever lied to you?"

"Where did you go?"

"Where did you last see it?"

"Where’s the rest of the body?"

"Who are you?"

"Who did this to you?"

"Why are you so angry?"

"Why are you so calm about this?"

"Why do you have this urge to control people all the time?"

"Why do you keep doing this to me?"

"Why do you have to make everything about you?"

"Why does it always have to be alcohol?"

"Why don’t you come over here and prove it?"

"Why is the truth so important to you?"

"Why should I help you?"

"Wouldn’t that be nice?"

"You don’t remember me?"

"You expect me to believe you haven’t done this before?"

"You’ve been pretending all this time?"

Yes hello your're kinna like a lil bro to me and I always want ya to be fine and I'd buy ya that sweater if I could ( why am i on anon haha )

hahaha you honestly didnt have to be on anon but its still very much appreciated thank you!

#ask meme #ooc #Anonymous

Super duper fantastic OC blog with a character who is able to be both terrifying and adorable. What more could you want?

omg this is so sweetthank you!

#ask meme #ooc #Anonymous

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Anonymously tell me your feelings for me.