Active April 22

SW:145 CW:132 GW1: 125 GW2:120 GW3:110 GW4:100 UGW: 95 Wants Mutuals!

[celeste-d11]

What do you guys tell yourself to starve? I’ve been struggling lately

[celeste-d11]

I’m back again lol and I keep eating

[celeste-d11]

My loose jeans fit tight someone please help me stop binging!

[celeste-d11]

Hey guys It’s been a while and I’ve gained 6 pounds. I kinda stopped tracking calories but I’m eating sm eveyday so im gonna try this diet and track here :)

[celeste-d11]

I ate 915 calories today becuase I’m trying to boost my metabolism but felt so guilty I literally wasn’t even hungry the whole day I went to dance and burned so total calories is 672. I honestly just want to starve lol

[celeste-d11]

I finally told a friend about my Ed! She is helping

[celeste-d11]

It’s been a really shitty two weeks. I’ve at over 1000 calories almost every day and havnt check my weight but probably above 120 again. I’ve been so freakin hungry. I’m still going through the same cycle of starve until after school then binge. I wish I didn’t feel like shit every time I ate

[celeste-d11]

Here’s my plan: Eat super less calories now and my ultimate goal weight is 95. What I’m going to do is drop to 90, then slowly start eating around 1,400-1,600 calories a day or the normal amount. Since my metabolism has slowed down cause of my eating habits, I have 5 pounds of extra weight I am allowed to gain. Instead, once I get back to normal eating, I will actually be at around 98 by the end of it

[celeste-d11]

Oct 1, 21

Breakfast: Crepe - 101

Lunch: skipped

Dinner: Lentils and Ice cream :/ - 623

Snacks: None

Cal Eaten: 724

Burned: Dance and 2 1/2 mile wake - 580

Total Cal: 144

Carbs: 18g

Fat: 6g

Sat Fat: 2g

Protein: 2g

Reflection: I thought today was gonna be a 0 cal days but ig 144 isn’t bad. I was at a bday party and ate SO MUCH ice cream. I didn’t need to

[celeste-d11]

Oct 1, Happy first day of October guys!

Breakfast: I made bake oats for the first time. They were so good! - 85

Lunch:Rice Cake and Rice crisps - 84

Dinner: Ravioli - 274

Snacks: Cookie - 171

Cal Eaten: 614

Burned: Dance - 389 Burnt

Total Cal: 225

Carbs:33g

Fat:5g

Sat Fat: 2g

Protein: 5g

Reflection: Today I ate a lot of dinner becuase I knew I had dance. I really need to get an Apple Watch for accurate calorie burning. I am not mad about today though. I need to start eating less snacks though

[celeste-d11]

That feeling when you can’t have a social life because your ed has taken over everything around you. When you can’t concentrate on one thing for too long without getting hungry. When you take hours to finish your homework because you get distracted and think about food. When you get in the shower and have clumps of hair falling out. When you can’t do things you used to be able too because the motor parts of your body are failing you. When your always freezing to the point where you are shaking. When your losing time. That feeling when your still not skinny and would do anything to be.

[celeste-d11]

Sept 29, 21

Breakfast: Skipped

Lunch: Curry - 27

Dinner: Zoodles (This is my new safe food!!! They are sooo low in cal; 1 cup is like 20 cal and I made low cal sauce that was DELICIOUS)

Snacks: Croissant, Cookie, Coffee - 198

Cal Eaten: 303

Burned: None

Total Cal: 303

Carbs: 44g

Fat: 12g

Sat Fat: 2g

Protein: 5g

Reflection: Should have ate less. I binged yesterday. I ate 866 and wanted to fast today but only made it to 6pm. I felt dead today and all the guilt from yesterday crushed me. I’m trying to forget about it ig

[celeste-d11]

Sept 27, 21

Breakfast: Smoothie - 56

Lunch: Skipped

Dinner: Coconut Rice - 298

Snacks:Cookie, yogurt, and protein bar.

Cal Eaten:659

Burned:231

Total Cal: 428

Carbs: 60g

Fat: 15g

Sat Fat: 8g

Protein: 10g

Reflection: I didn’t do good. I didn’t stay in budget. I even burned calories and still didn’t. I understand it know and will do better tommorw.

[celeste-d11]

Am I the only one who cares more about what’s on paper vs what I’m actually intaking? I hate that’s so much. For example, i will eat a tablespoon of ice cream and pretend I ate a teaspoon on my calorie app. This makes it way less accurate but I can’t put the actually number. It hurts too much. Tomorrow, I will have 450 calories eating budget and I won’t use water to cut out calories. Every time I eat, I drink sooo much water to burn calories but I’m not sure whether it actually burns as much as I think. So I’m not counting it tomorrow and seeing how it goes!

[celeste-d11]

Sept 26, 21

Breakfast: Smoothie Bowl - 31

Lunch: Pasta Salad - 208

Dinner: Pasta salad - 330

Snacks: Rice Cake, Cookie, candy - 206

Cal Eaten: 778

Biked 5 miles: 230 burnt

Volleyball 2 hours: 230 burnt

Water: 200 burnt

Total Cal: 118

Carbs: 19g

Protein: 2g

Fat: 0g Sat Fat: 0g

Reflection: I worked out a lot today and got to treat myself! I never realized how many carbs were in pasta gonna cut that out of my diet mostly

[celeste-d11]

Sept 26, 21

Breakfast: Skip

Lunch: Corn and Lentils - 156

Dinner: Indo Chinese - 133

Snacks: Starbucks, gummies, and I got to try crumbl cookies!

Cal Eaten: 659

Biked 6 miles: 336 burnt

Water: 140 burnt

Total Cal: 183

Carbs: 26g

Protein: 4g

Fat: 8g

Sat Fat: 3g

Reflection: today I had a really great day! I went shopping a bunch and everything and tried crumble cookies for the first time and STILL had to eat some cauliflower. The crumble was worth it but not the cauliflower. I need to start eating healthier tho. Less sat fats.

[celeste-d11]

Sept 24

Breakfast: Milk - 104

Lunch: Crepe and candy - 288

Dinner: Skipped

Snacks: 2 Rice cakes and yogurt - 137

Cal Eaten: 529

Water: 173 burnt

Total Cal: 356

Carbs: 55g

Protein: 9g

Fat: 12g

Sat Fat: 6g

Reflection: at my friends house for the whole day so ate candy besides that idk y I ate so much