To my dearest,
I am not sure where to start, I have been thinking of all my actions until know and I realized I was the most stupidest and selfish person on earth, and the trust is I don't deserve you, not one bit. You have always been the best partner for me, very understanding, amazing, and hardworking. That was when I realized, I was not the best for you, I was the total opposite, naive, stupid, and reckless, I am not someone who should be loved, but you are, you deserve the best, and I am truly sorry if I was not your partner that you need anymore. You have always cared about me and my well being, but I forgot about yours, you needed to be cared for too, and I am always going to regret everything that I did that hurt you immensely, because you are the purest and loveable person I have ever met in my whole life. I know you are my first, but I was really ready for you to become my last, I was ready to be disowned by my family if they do not accept me if need be, I am saving up for us, for our future and our home, that was not a joke, I actually have some already, because I wanted your family to be able to see that you can depend on me with your life, and I wanted them to accept and love you and me as lovers. Thank you for existing for being the one I can truly call the one who got away, and the one I can never unlove. You are my whole life, my heart and soul, without you, I am empty and hollow. I am selfish because I could not let you go, but not seeing you anywhere and cutting me off completely hurts even more, because I still want to see you and root for you even if it means you are not mine anymore, because I love you and I will always love you even from a distance. You will always be my first love, my greatest love, and my biggest heartbreak, in which I ruined on my own accord, not you, but me. It may take time, but I will do my best to be better for me, but you will always be my inspiration, admiration and my conclusion.















