Mental Illness Blog

Mostly BPD posts with some ana stuff too SW: 160lbs CW: 160lbs UGW: 95lbs

[gravehop187]

[get-your-fics]

[pariaaaaah]

[bpd4losers]

I like you because you use me, and being used is easier for me to comprehend than being loved

[bbppddd]

[alifechasingchaos]

Safety in Isolation.

When I was a kid, being alone meant I was safe.

There was no one there to be enraged or erratic; no one around who could elicit my fear. I became accustomed to seeking refuge in a quiet space.

Unfortunately, this habit seems to have followed me into adulthood.

I had learned that a safe life is a solitary one, but this sentiment became a catalyst for my lifelong tendency to isolate.

The pangs of loneliness aren’t even enough to draw me out.

I crave to be known while never wanting to be seen.

[lilithaphrodite-deactivated2019]

that dissociative Shit

[its--5am-deactivated20190318]

[why-d0-i-exist]

Bpd probs

Being alone bc you’re too fucked up inside.

[thecheshiresmiles]

everyone: you’re being so mature!

my brain: you know this is just another way of you doing your ‘abandon them before they abandon you’ trick right

me: -cries at 9am on my bathroom floor-

[confidently-conflicting]

Having BPD and attaching to people really strongly and dissociating a lot is so weird because like…. I will absolutely remember you and your birthday and the significance of loved ones in your life and learn your favorite songs and colors and what your aesthetic is, but like, I won’t remember my own age or the month or the year or why I feel certain things so strongly or why some things have a lot of associations with me. In other words, billie eilish was absolutely right when she said “Help, I lost myself again, but I remember you”

[ephemeralelemental-blog]

“you shouldnt do this to yourself it could kill you!!1!”

[struggling-tobe-happy]

quote #6

“ you know you’ve hit rock bottom when people start to care “

[naiveandhungry]

Is anyone here from a family of bigger people or people who just are big on food? And when they comment on your weight loss it doesn’t feel valid or real because it feels like they’re just saying that due to the fact that their idea of ‘skinny’ is morphed from them being so big? I don’t believe them when they say I’m 'skinny’ because I know they’re only saying that because I’m just smaller than them.

[catceramic]

Having an ed be like:

[deadlyfancy]

Me: *doesn’t eat for 3 days*

Me: *faints*

Me: *pretends to be surprised*

[i-want-to-be-thinspirational]

Me when body dysmorphia kicks in: