Living on my own
4 hours away from everything I know. I went from spending 100% of my time traveling around the area to visit friends and boyfriends. Now I spend all my time applying for jobs and watching netflix. I feel this constant loneliness and desire to be around people who love me. I love my life up here, donât get me wrong. Iâm working on making friends and I love living with my partner but I miss everything so much. Getting out of bed has been a little difficult but I do it. Iâm keeping to a schedule which is helping.Â
The apartment is getting more comfortable now. We have a bed, rug, and Iâve decorated the bathroom. I have a guy who I plan on meeting up with ....even though I just remembered I said I might not be dating for a while. Obviously I like dating. I miss PA quite a lot, but of course I expected that. What I didnât expect is how much he misses me. Before I left he wasnât treated me very well, but of course heâs new to poly so mistakes will be made. Now though, heâs been amazing. Better than he ever was. It honestly breaks my heart to not call him my boyfriend, but boyfriends always treat me well, they come and visit, and they certainly donât break their promises and not check in with me. Boyfriend is an earned title and he hasnât earned it this time around. So here we are. Iâm happy, but also not. Itâs confusing but I wouldnât have done anything differently. No regrets.Â
