MIKEĀ //Ā Ā partyforgotā:
@chaermolypiā asked:Ā āSometimes I feel like Iāll never have it together.ā [ from will! ]
late nights | no longer accepting! Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā i guess weāll go crazy together, right?
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā itās what theyād said that halloween ofĀ ā84. and mike had meant it. he might not have been the best friend since then, but he still meant every word of it. will was still his BEST friend. the two had been thick as thieves since kindergarten and mike truly wouldnāt be able to blame will if he wanted absolutely NOTHING to do with mike after the shit heād pulled since first arriving in california, but the point still remained.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā he mightāve been a shit friend in the past, but starting now, mike would be there for will. they both NEEDED each other; it was clear as day. being apart for six months mightāve made the heart grow fonder, but it did nothing to quell the confusing feelings mike had been conflicted with since the day will left.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā he was still confused. he didnāt think heād ever not be confused.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ hey, well, i guess thatās why youāve got me here, right?Ā ā he says after a moment.Ā āĀ to help you get it together.Ā ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā the amount of time in which will has spent hating himself somehow manages to seem both obsolete and justified in mikeās presence. itās a terrifying, garbled MESSĀ of emotions that heās been dealing with over the last several years, always knowing himself to be different, yet the understanding of what that truly meant would only grow more prevalent as he aged.
Ā Ā Ā Ā heās a FREAK. someone to be automatically hated by society for the feelings he couldnāt control, and sometimes, that made it seem okay for him to hate himself, too.Ā
Ā Ā Ā and then there was his predicament with mike, who always had a surefire way of throwing willās entire world off kilter whenever he so much as glanced his way. heās embarrassed to realize the amount of time heās spent staring at his best friend since his arrival in california, and yet no matter how hard he tries, itās like a gravitational pull that continues to direct his eyes towards him.
Ā Ā Ā of course, mikeās words of comfort bring a familiar sense of conflicting emotions. heās overjoyed to hear them, yet simultaneously, it only makes his problem all that much WORSE. sometimes it was torture, although during the moments in which will let himself simply feel, it was heaven. he wishes it was easy to block out all the bad, but his thoughts are so loud.
Ā Ā Ā Ā a tiny hint of a smile tugs at the corners of willās lips despite it all, heart racing. āi⦠think you may have bitten off more than you can chew with meā¦ā he murmurs quietly, hunching up his shoulders slightly as he forces himself, once again, to look away.Ā āi just- iām not sure any amount of time- or help could... fix me...ā