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quotes from various sources that i love and stuff I write all mixed up🌙

[chandsakhi]

It's pointless to suffer,

The waves are crashing and rushing in,

And the remains of the ship will soon be all that was there,

So you should leave while you can,

Survive in those rescue boats,

Write yourself a new journey,

And maybe remember me once in a while,

As we bid farewell here,

Amongst crashing waves and splintering wood,

It is a goodbye for good,

I always knew it would come,

Just never how disastrous it would be,

The results are even worse than expected,

Thus you ride the waves away,

All that's left of me is a hand waving out of the remains,

In hopes of being seen,

And in hopes of being remembered...

[chandsakhi]

When Sara wrote a poem for me♥️😌🌸

told her that i loved her,

just not sure if she heard,

the beach was pretty windy

and she didn’t say a word

party dying downstairs,

nothing left to do,

just me, the wind, and dhroovs

[chandsakhi]

Endless torrent of rushing waves, takes me away pull me inside, there's no escape nowhere to hide... Lost in a maze but without Minotaur, how I'll find out is a tangent radar...

[chandsakhi]

We writers,

Bleeding on page,

Bleed our life out of us,

Yet no one knows

Not many even acknowledge us,

Unexisting in ourselves,

Berated and hurt and crying and trying,

Soo tired but we write,

Too sad but we write,

Pages full of ink and scribbles,

Through falling tears and coffe cup stains,

We take it all,

We show it all,

We bear our hearts out,

Not on our sleeves,

In our words in the ink,

The rivers of ink and ideas flowing ,

Constantly,

Yet not many know who we are,

Constantly,

Hiding, crying, running,

So tiring,

But like a drug we come back,

To the same words,

Same ink same pen same river,

All ready to flow again,

Show again,

Hear and be heard again,

But when appreciated?

Never ever or someday when?

Broken and crooked,

Minds and bodies and souls and hearts,

All out of place but right where they should be,

Muddled and muddling through,

Pressure cracks and anxiety attacks,

Depression shows and no one knows,

Life goes on,

Some sing a song,

But we write wrong,

Right or wrong?

[chandsakhi]

Remembrance

I wish to go back to school

Go back to ignorance in pigtails,

To the fun festivals and plays,

And the gatherings of sports and annual days.

The world shattered belief,

But the school was a shelter,

It protected me from the cruelty,

The teachers showered me ever with love and care.

When I left the walls, they said the bird has flown,

But is it the destined journey that I have taken?

Or a wrong path as I crash land in the mud and grass,

We'll never know I guess, until someone rescues me.

Maybe someone will maybe no one will,

After all they say, your blunder is solely yours,

No one else can bear the brunt of it,

Only you can save yourself if you see fit.

[chandsakhi]

My first poem for him

His eyes mix in different shades of moods,

Love and lust and hungry and devoting,

We come together in swirls of colors,

Together all the time but not all the time

Instant sparks causing friction,

There's also stray touches and lingering gazes,

Sometimes I worry ,

It burns through me but doesn't show

Still there's trust, hope and time,

Maybe they'll work their magic,

Make us whole like we should have been,

Together and whole and in love

These strange new desires haunt me,

Stuff I've never had anything to do with,

Now they become daydreams and desires,

And eat me up, contaminate me

I love the way his gaze stays steady,

All the way- on me, filtering his feelings,

Those eyes of his that speak,

Speak of ballads of love and longing and glory

I love his eyes as I stare deep into them,

For the first time i see what deep pools meant,

What getting lost and falling in deep is like,

And how addictive the feeling is

I only want his eyes on me ,

Only for me the special way he looks,

The strange glimmer in those eyes,

Is captured and should be all mine

[chandsakhi]

Ek khat unke liye jinki nazaron ne humare dil me ghuspaith kar li,

Jinki nazaron se behta pyar shehed se bhi hume meetha laga...

Last year isi din maine than liya tha ki jisne itni mehnat ki mere liye, jiski aankein usse zyada bolti hai ...usse mai pyar karungi, dil khol ke pyar karungi, itna pyar dungi ki uske sath khushi baat daki...Aur vaise hi is saal aur aane waale har saal mai yahi chahungi ki tere aaspaas tere pyare dost ho jinpe tu aankh band karke bhi bharosa kar sake.. Jo tuje sahi raah dikhaye... Aur vo humesha tere sath tere sadu se chehre par aai muskurahaatein baatein.

Happy New Year mera pehle pyar, mera panda♥️

[chandsakhi]

Too deep these feelings,they feel things there,

I wonder why they come unprepared,

So foolish so sweet so crazy yet neat,

These feelings just run amock like an elephant fleet.

I wonder when I caught them,

Or when the fall took place,

They say it's like playing with fire,

No one survives the rage.

Like a donkey looks at carrots ,

I look and look away,

I pine and sigh and look some more,

For signs of disarray.

They pull you up and kick you down,

Or so the saying goes,

They make you feel all kinds of things,

For good or for worse.

My tarot reads a joker,

So likely lovesick fool,

But there's no specifics of the extent,

To which it can be cool.

The words don't come, my eyes don't move,

But one place they desire,

A place in a greater fool's heart,

To demolish till I tire.

[chandsakhi]

Tribute to Piyu

Mujhse piya na karte baat,

Na roothe hai na naaraaz,

Phir bhi kat ti aisi raat,

Na vo aaye na kare baat.

Piya na liya hai maun vrat,

Ya karte meri pehel ka intezaar,

Maine koshish ki thi badi,

Piya na sunte ab koi baat.

Na muje dekhe na muje bulaye,

Unka sang muje kabhi na dilaye,

Humesha log ya halaat ya bahane,

Piya ka dil ab meri ore na aaye.

Ab na karte mera intezaar,

Na bulate muje ghumne firne,

Pehle jitna mera sath bhaata tha,

Ab piya utna hi dur bhagte firte.

Piya se karni hai badi baatein,

Par kabhi vo akele nai aate,

Maine to akele hi pyar kiya ,

Dil sirf piya ko diya hai.

Muje bhaate piyu ke meethe bol,

Ab mere liye jo bacchte nahi,

Sare jag se piya ne bol liya,

Ab vo kehte unke jacchte nahi.

Piya ne jaise bejhijhak dil diya tha,

Ab usi dil ko piya humse chupaate,

Shayad ab nai unko humse pyar,

Varna aise kyu vo katraate.

Ye padhke bhi piya hasenge,

Shayad hmm kar jawab denge,

Par piya ke shabdon ko tarasti mai,

Unki nazaron pe marti mai.

Piya ki aankhon me dil dub jata,

Par piya vo aankhein kabhi mujpar na barsata,

Har jaga dekhkar bhi,

Mujhtak na aati, vo nazarein tarsati.

Husn ke alawa dil bhi maang lo na,

Kisine khub gaya hai aisa gaana,

Kash fir piyu muje aise chahenge,

Kash mere dil tak vo pohoch jayenge.

Dosto se bhi chhote star pr piyu hume rakhte,

Fir jane kyu hume gf kehte,

Na koi mehnat na thoda pyar,

Aisa piyu ka karna mujse har baar.

Kehke bhi kya piyu ko sunna nahi,

Kehke bhi kya piyu samajhte nahi,

Bas piyu ko rehna hai duur,

Na naraaz na majboor.🪔🌼

[chandsakhi]

Scraps

A small town girl in a tiny little pearl,

Fixed to her love, safe as a squirrel,

I can't find the words, language seeps out of me,

Like waters on a shore, on a low tide night.

The love is there,

The affection that remains,

Faint scents of memories lingers,

But no matter my lonely fingers.

What cane crashing like a high tide,

Now escapes in a hurry,

Should've been a change of moon phases,

But now ended up a change of heart.

And sometimes the chaos we truly long for,

Was never meant to be a part of our lives,

The hurricane that was meant to flip us,

Ends up somewhere far away... 🌊💫

[chandsakhi]

Luck and love but luck in love,

That rare sentiment or urges old as time,

Has me craving and pining and longing away,

But neither embraces me as the new moon stays.

This storm that i see rearing leagues away,

Won't you send me atleast a trickle of that miracle?

Won't you sweep me away in a whirlwind of colors?

Won't I ever be the chosen one I wish to be?

This storm I accept with open arms,

Won't you let me love and grieve?

Won't you set me free from these earthly bonds?

Won't you stay and shower me with all you affections?

This storm in the horizon it sways so indecisively,

And i sway with it between hope and despair,

Won't you be willy and claim me yours?

Won't I feel the depth I so longed for?

The storm builds, crashing waves, lighting cackles,

As if finally a decision was brought to action,

And approaches me like an answer to my prayers,

Right as it engulfs me body and soul🌊🌕

[chandsakhi]

बेकरार करके हमें यु चले गए।

आपको हमारि‌ कसम फिर ना आऐंगे।। ✨😌

[chandsakhi]

🌻There is solace in knowing that there's someone waiting for you... Only you. 🌻🍃✨🍫

[chandsakhi]

🎴The world is upside down on the other side no?🎴

[chandsakhi]

~ I watch them bleed and burn and hate. Yet I can't help but be consumed by them. I pity their love their hate and fate, but I accept it too like my own destiny. ~🔥🕯🌞

[chandsakhi]

~ from watching them being two different coins, totally different in all choices and all walks to watching them slowly merge into one coin stuck but with boundaries, to watching them turn into two different sides of the same coin and finally splitting into two coins again but there's a difference, they're two coins but closer than before stuck by the hip on the same sides, and it looks annoyingly gross and plain senseless. Watching them defy limits of life , of common sense and of dignity really does open my eyes~

🕊🍃🕯

[chandsakhi]

That Place

Everytime I leave that house, that place, something in me stirs and I feel sad, like crying. I don't know what it is about them as a family or the place itself but they just feel weirdly complete. I love that feeling, even though there's a lot of rules to follow and manners to remember, I still love the complete feeling I get when I'm around them. And that dissipates as soon as we say goodbye. I'm really bad at goodbyes especially with them, because I always cry right after. Now I know that none of their lives will stop because I'm not there, nor will mine but I still cry, and I feel betrayed when they don't feel as sad as I do on saying goodbye so at some point I taught myself to cry only after they're very much out of sight. But I still cry and sometimes I don't even know why. Sometimes they remind me of the good days I had with my M... Sometimes I just miss the essence of them especially my brother K. Him and his family is the only family from among my dozens of relatives with whom I feel comfortable enough to be myself even if a little strict, they're the only people I have any attachment left for and it's not because they buy me gifts or whatever it's because I'm attached to their essence, that vibe they give that I love. I hope someday I'll be able to talk to my brother casually and clear all misunderstanding and make him understand why I am the way I am, and I hope for the strongest of brother sister bond with him, the closest. I wanna be the first person he thinks of when he's happy or he's sad or when he's in a pinch, I wanna be there for him and even though for now I think that's impossible, I'll keep trying until I reach that goal. With their family too, I wanna be comfortable and be understood and feel loved by them and around them and I'll try and keep trying until that day finally comes. I hope someday he'll accept me as I am.And I hope all these wishes come true and someday I'll look back at these messages with a smile of satisfaction. 🕯🌑✨