Am I wrong to want a boyfriend?
I sincerly hope I’m not the only one who feels this way.
It is now normal to read about relationships anywhere, especially online. We see pictures of sweet couples where the guy usually shows his affection for his beloved and is often captioned “Relationship Goals”. These are the times when we tell ourselves that we will achieve that someday or we somewhat pity ourselves and say “Buti pa siya. Gusto ko na rin ng ganyan.”. But let me ask you this: Are you really, REALLY ready for a relationship?
There are always two sides on everything; the good, and the bad. Like what Angelina Jolie said in The Tourist, “People always have two sides. We must learn to embrace them both.”. Relationships are hard work. Not only the romantic ones but also the relationships we have with our family and friends. Conflicts are inevitable and we must learn to live with them. When it comes to family, there really are times where you can’t stand them just because of this and that, but we choose to ignore it or to let it go because we love them. Same goes with romantic relationships. You must learn to overlook their flaws because you love them more and choose to make it work.
I am in a point of my life where I want a boyfriend. Not because I wanna feel good about myself na finally may nagkagusto na sa akin, definitely not because of “sexual tendencies”. Maybe it’s because I wanna feel in love. The feeling of getting a “Good morning beautiful.” text from someone special, of someone constantly asking what you are doing. Baka naman katext lang kelangan ko. I’m really not sure. With my experiences in life, I definitely miss being in love. I have experienced being in love, and I wanna feel it again. The feeling of having someone to hold you and tell you everything is gonna be okay.
There’s this running joke: “Gusto ko ng boyfriend na may kotse and marunong magdrive.” Ano ba talaga hanap mo? Boyfriend or driver?? Haha. Kidding aside, having someone to accompany you anywhere are just one of the things we get when we are someone’s girl.
There are times that I wanna ask God for a boyfriend. But being NBSB, I’m scared that the guy God will give me now will be my future husband. If he’s great then why not, but what if he turns out to be a total jackass? So instead of praying for a boyfriend, I just tell myself that even though I feel that I am emotionally ready, God may think otherwise. It took me long enough to get over my last “relationship” and it wasn’t even a real one. It was a what if situation. Minsan naman naiisip ko na baka naman ‘yung guy na para sakin na ibibigay ni Lord hindi pa ready to be in a relationship kaya hindi niya muna binibigay sa akin. Minsan naman naiisip ko na baka naman gusto ko lang magka-boyfriend kasi I wanna feel what other taken girls feel, what the world pressures us to feel and have when we are with someone.
I know when the time comes (maybe when I meet “the one”) I will read this post again and laugh at myself. I will laugh on how shallow my crisis was. I will eventually come to realize how God made sure the timing was right and I will be thankful for that.
So the question still remains: is it wrong to want having a boyfriend? The answer depends on you. If you’re wanting it for the right reasons or not. If you are wanting it for the right reasons then God will give it to you. Just remember that it won’t all be good times, but surviving the bad times will make you stronger and will make it all more worth-while.











