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The hardest part is pushing him away

Past Tense

I was the girl he used to love. He was the boy who broke my heart. I was the girl who loved him more than what he deserved. He was the boy who loved me even when I’m at my worst. I was the girl who cried and beg for him to stay. He was the boy who cried but left anyway. I was his. He was mine. We loved each other. We were an item. We were special. We were almost there. We surely were happy. I was. We were. He was… a part of my past.

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To the man in the future who will own my heart, I hope you’re not waiting for me to complete you because i don’t have that much to offer. I am not perfect and i hope you’re expectations about me are not that high, i don’t want to disappoint you. Once you meet me, you won’t know the real me until you’ll soend your day with me and if i trust you already then i’ll show you the real me. I am unpredictable and moody. You’re going to have a lot of patience and perseverance. You’ll need every ounce of patience you can get because i will purposely test all of your buttons, through good intentions. There are times that i’ll push you away, it’s what i do when i don’t want to be a burden to you. I’m clingy, yes i really am but that’s because i love you and care for you. I’ll annoy you most of the time and i will irritate you because i love it when someone’s pissed because of me. But don’t you worry i’ll be sweet after that and i’ll hug you tight and shower you with kisses. I hope by reading this letter you still have time to back out if you don’t want me anymore. I still have a lot of flaws and i am telling you these now so that you’ll know who you’re engaging yourself with. I am crazy and noisy when i’m in the mood but most of the time i’m just quiet and i prefer listening than talking. I’m telling you to please be patient with me. I’ll get jealous and try to hide it and i will deny it as much as i can. When something’s wrong i won’t tell it to you, i’ll just let it fade away. I hope you’ll love every part of me and everything about me even though it’s hard to be with me but don’t worry, i’m the one you want to keep for the rest of your life. You can’t find someone like me. I don’t easily fall for anyone. And i hope you’ll be patient in making me fall for you. I’ll appreciate every effort you’re going to make and all the things you can offer. I’d love you with all my heart and soul and every bit of you. I’m not waiting for you but i am praying for you every day to keep you safe. I’ll be glad to meet you one day. Love, we’re going to meet at the right time, when we’re both ready. Please do take care of yourself for now. Love, Your future girl

An open letter for my future boyfriend (via girlbehindthisblog)

MAHAL 💘

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When my eyes turns to white

I have no regrets ☺

hplyrikz

This year taught me that my loneliness has more to do with myself than anyone else. The loneliest I will ever be is when I do not have the strength to love myself.

Marianna Paige (via hplyrikz)

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Goodbye... 😴

11:22PM thoughts 😴

Thoughts

chasingeuphoriia-deactivated202

Can I be alone for a while? Enjoy the noise of the city by myself. Don’t have to deal with shitty people. Give myself a treat. It’s strange, but I’d rather be away from them all than to act like everything’s fine and lie how much I don’t care about them treating me like I’m no one. It’s tiring to assure them that I’m not hurting, that I understand it all, no big deal. But the truth is, I do.

i fucking do // 1-18-‘16, 10:52pm (via chasinqeuphoria)

stargazerinmoksha

You are more than enough to start loving someone again.

Things I should tell her right now, tomorrow, the day after and so on and so on… (via poetryleftbyher)

Yoko na.

Sa dinami-rami ng nasa isip ko, wala akong makwento. 😩💔

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