Charlene

Sydney, Ask me something.

[charlenesaywhaat]

I'm honest and it costs me, for most of the time. I find myself sitting in regret, wondering if I should've just bit my tongue harder. I react so quickly.

[aidashakur]

[charlenesaywhaat]

I have the love of my life who I adore and respect so much.

I bought my own place.

I have a secure job.

My family is always there for me.

I have everything in front of me and so much more.

Just stop for a minute, and just think how wonderful life is. A messy series of events.

[charlenesaywhaat]

I can't believe I ended up (emotionally) spiralling this weekend. There's days where nothing will phase me and then days like these, where anything and everything will make me cry. Sometimes I wonder, if people knew how their behaviour affected others, would they be changing it? Is it the lack of empathy or self awareness? I realised talking to others and listening to their opinions does not help me at all because I know I just want to be comforted. I don't want to be told I was wrong in that situation and add to my pool of negativity. Feelings happen so quickly and unnoticeably .

And by the time I make sense of it all, I'm fucking over it.

[tkkatherineblog]

[miseducatedmelanicmuse]

[charlenesaywhaat]

These moments where I catch myself really feeling how the wind gently touches my face. When my mind focuses on my external surroundings, I truly feel blessed.

[elegantstyletastemaker]

Had to share this @WeHeartIt

[babes]

[charlenesaywhaat]

I'm going day by day. Focusing on the present. Learning from the past. Controlling what I can and acknowledging the fact that life isn't always going to go according to plan.

[charlenesaywhaat]

Maybe I am addicted to how he is when I'm upset. It's the way he holds me and tells me how much he loves me in that moment. I could be at my worst and he still looks at me with so much desire. Fuck, I'm so lucky to have this love right in front of me.

[charlenesaywhaat]

I struggle going out with some of my friends. It's hard to talk about my life because I feel insecure about it. I just feel like a massive loser who has barely achieved anything. It's just easier dealing with myself, rather than to constantly be around people.

[charlenesaywhaat]

It almost feels like I'm not the person they wants to invest a lot of their time in, like they only see me in their own free time. Facetime or a phone call seems to be enough. And when I get upset about it, I feel stupid and selfish.

[akindplace]

Call this a reminder, a wish, a prayer, a mantra, or call it nothing but hope: that tomorrow we will wake up feeling a little bit better. And on the they after, a little more. Life doesn't have to be perfect, but we can still heal. We still have time to do it. Let's not give up. Let's go to bed tonight with that in mind. Let's allow ourselves to believe it and to work towards making it happen. Neither of us, the one who writes this and the one who reads it are alone now. We are moving on and making the changes we need, little by little.

[charlenesaywhaat]

I've made nothing but time, for myself. It feels good to feel in control. Knowing that people won't upset me or make things complicated. It's nice to have time out.

[charlenesaywhaat]

I feel terrible, but I projected my frustration, in hopes that maybe she’ll understand where I’m coming from. It’s never the case. I need to give up and stay silent. Some souls are not meant for empathising.

[charlenesaywhaat]

Lately things feel a bit messed up. I’m happy one second and the next I’m completely a wreck. My emotions seems so irrational. I can’t even comprehend why I feel certain ways. I’ve been trying to figure out whether its me, my relationships or my environment. Honestly, the feeling of unhappiness rushes through me and it’s a struggle battling this on the daily. There are days where I’m busy and I can push these feelings to the side. When I’m not, it’s hard. I just want to scream from frustration.