charles.

fight or flight? hampden, vermont | xxi

[charlesmacau1ay]

/ guys we are so back i promise we are so back im bringing the band back together

[charlesmacau1ay]

back here after so long… but anything for my dear sister @millymacau1ay ♡

[millymacau1ay]

i don’t know what will kill me first, the homework or that loud group of freshmen in the corner </3

[charlesmacau1ay]

took everything in me not to get up and tell them to piss off, but i’m practicing peace these days so

[charlesmacau1ay]

back here after so long… but anything for my dear sister @millymacau1ay ♡

[millymacau1ay]

hello everyone :-) 🤍

[charlesmacau1ay]

hello, mills. :)

[millymacau1ay]

hi lovely !!

[charlesmacau1ay]

how are you doing today?

[millymacau1ay]

i’m ok at the moment just doing some translations (which is a tiny bit boring)…what about u <3

[charlesmacau1ay]

need any help, perhaps?

[millymacau1ay]

lots of it. library in 5??

[charlesmacau1ay]

i’m on my way :)

[millymacau1ay]

hello everyone :-) 🤍

[charlesmacau1ay]

hello, mills. :)

[millymacau1ay]

hi lovely !!

[charlesmacau1ay]

how are you doing today?

[millymacau1ay]

i’m ok at the moment just doing some translations (which is a tiny bit boring)…what about u <3

[charlesmacau1ay]

need any help, perhaps?

[millymacau1ay]

hello everyone :-) 🤍

[charlesmacau1ay]

hello, mills. :)

[millymacau1ay]

hi lovely !!

[charlesmacau1ay]

how are you doing today?

[millymacau1ay]

hello everyone :-) 🤍

[charlesmacau1ay]

hello, mills. :)

[charlesmacau1ay]

so

… francis ghosted me, i just spent two hours reminiscing on old times, and i have no clue if anyone is still here. not ideal, but could be worse

[charlesmacau1ay]

@written-by-baudelaire waves into the void

[written-by-baudelaire]

well, well, fucking well. look what the cat dragged in! blaming me for “ghosting” you when you left me two years ago without a word! it was really funny when you did that, i liked it a lot actually.

[charlesmacau1ay]

it’s more complicated than you think. i’m…sorry. i hope you’re okay.

[written-by-baudelaire]

more complicated than i think? you’re going to sit here and tell me how i think, now? oh that’s rich, coming from the guy that doesn’t even know what he’s thinking half the time! you hope i’m okay? yeah i’m okay, except for the fact that none of my friends or family talk to me anymore, the one singular person i loved left me and probably forgot about me until recently, and here i am ALONE with my thoughts. i don’t even have anyone to light my cigarettes for me, so i have to do that myself too. so yeah, im just great, how are you?

[charlesmacau1ay]

i’ll still light your cigarettes if needed.

[written-by-baudelaire]

that’s not— that’s not the point, charles. the point is WHERE DID YOU GO? what the hell were you doing? i thought you were DEAD! everyone thought you were dead, and with out track record of keeping people alive and well in this fucked up friend group we have— or had— i wasn’t shocked to hear that rumor going around. did you even stop to think about how your actions would affect others? HAVE you ever stopped to think about how your actions affect others? i’m sorry for yelling and being so… angry, but these things have built up over time. you can’t expect me to welcome you back with open arms after everything

[charlesmacau1ay]

i’m sorry for disappearing. it’s hard to talk about i just… i never wanted to hurt you. i know you may find that hard to believe. i don’t expect you to believe me. i don’t expect anything at all.

[written-by-baudelaire]

right but you did, and that’s fine as long as you acknowledge that what you did wasn’t great. what i did wasn’t great either but… i don’t know. it’s fine, i forgive you. you’ll find a way to make up for it, and i won’t tell you how to do it— you’ve known me long enough to know what makes me happy. but because i’m the way i am and you’re still painfully the way you are, i can’t keep myself away, can i? i swear you do this on purpose, asshole

[charlesmacau1ay]

what i did obviously wasn’t great, francis. i have no difficulty admitting that — my track record of bad decisions speaks for me. although, it sounds to me like you have missed me more than you’d like to let on. calling me an asshole won’t cover that, you know?

[charlesmacau1ay]

jesus christ. welcome back me.

[charlesmacau1ay]

so

… francis ghosted me, i just spent two hours reminiscing on old times, and i have no clue if anyone is still here. not ideal, but could be worse

[charlesmacau1ay]

@written-by-baudelaire waves into the void

[written-by-baudelaire]

well, well, fucking well. look what the cat dragged in! blaming me for “ghosting” you when you left me two years ago without a word! it was really funny when you did that, i liked it a lot actually.

[charlesmacau1ay]

it’s more complicated than you think. i’m…sorry. i hope you’re okay.

[written-by-baudelaire]

more complicated than i think? you’re going to sit here and tell me how i think, now? oh that’s rich, coming from the guy that doesn’t even know what he’s thinking half the time! you hope i’m okay? yeah i’m okay, except for the fact that none of my friends or family talk to me anymore, the one singular person i loved left me and probably forgot about me until recently, and here i am ALONE with my thoughts. i don’t even have anyone to light my cigarettes for me, so i have to do that myself too. so yeah, im just great, how are you?

[charlesmacau1ay]

i’ll still light your cigarettes if needed.

[written-by-baudelaire]

that’s not— that’s not the point, charles. the point is WHERE DID YOU GO? what the hell were you doing? i thought you were DEAD! everyone thought you were dead, and with out track record of keeping people alive and well in this fucked up friend group we have— or had— i wasn’t shocked to hear that rumor going around. did you even stop to think about how your actions would affect others? HAVE you ever stopped to think about how your actions affect others? i’m sorry for yelling and being so… angry, but these things have built up over time. you can’t expect me to welcome you back with open arms after everything

[charlesmacau1ay]

i’m sorry for disappearing. it’s hard to talk about i just… i never wanted to hurt you. i know you may find that hard to believe. i don’t expect you to believe me. i don’t expect anything at all.

[charlesmacau1ay]

so

… francis ghosted me, i just spent two hours reminiscing on old times, and i have no clue if anyone is still here. not ideal, but could be worse

[charlesmacau1ay]

@written-by-baudelaire waves into the void

[written-by-baudelaire]

well, well, fucking well. look what the cat dragged in! blaming me for “ghosting” you when you left me two years ago without a word! it was really funny when you did that, i liked it a lot actually.

[charlesmacau1ay]

it’s more complicated than you think. i’m…sorry. i hope you’re okay.

[written-by-baudelaire]

more complicated than i think? you’re going to sit here and tell me how i think, now? oh that’s rich, coming from the guy that doesn’t even know what he’s thinking half the time! you hope i’m okay? yeah i’m okay, except for the fact that none of my friends or family talk to me anymore, the one singular person i loved left me and probably forgot about me until recently, and here i am ALONE with my thoughts. i don’t even have anyone to light my cigarettes for me, so i have to do that myself too. so yeah, im just great, how are you?

[charlesmacau1ay]

i’ll still light your cigarettes if needed.

[charlesmacau1ay]

so

… francis ghosted me, i just spent two hours reminiscing on old times, and i have no clue if anyone is still here. not ideal, but could be worse

[charlesmacau1ay]

@written-by-baudelaire waves into the void

[written-by-baudelaire]

well, well, fucking well. look what the cat dragged in! blaming me for “ghosting” you when you left me two years ago without a word! it was really funny when you did that, i liked it a lot actually.

[charlesmacau1ay]

it’s more complicated than you think. i’m…sorry. i hope you’re okay.

[charlesmacau1ay]

so

… francis ghosted me, i just spent two hours reminiscing on old times, and i have no clue if anyone is still here. not ideal, but could be worse

[charlesmacau1ay]

@written-by-baudelaire waves into the void

[charlesmacau1ay]

so

… francis ghosted me, i just spent two hours reminiscing on old times, and i have no clue if anyone is still here. not ideal, but could be worse

[charlesmacau1ay]

/ hey everyone :) Been over a year since i was really really active on here. Might go back to it, might not. I don’t know how active the community is anymore, but i’d love to find out. We’ll see!!

[charlesmacau1ay]

/ ik i say this every year but like actually

[charlesmacau1ay]

/ hey everyone :) Been over a year since i was really really active on here. Might go back to it, might not. I don’t know how active the community is anymore, but i’d love to find out. We’ll see!!

[charlesmacau1ay]

ooc

mhm thats right i took a two months hiatus and MAYBE i’ll try to be back consistently on this blog, yet to decide tho. in the meantime feel free to msg me or tag me in starters! i missed everyone :)