since feeling is first;

charley, twenty three, political science graduate with a job in retail. frequently compared to leslie knope. former exchange student times three. forever missing the golden age of livejournal and now rambling here instead. email: [email protected]

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lately, happiness is

seeing one of my favorite people in the world after a year apart communicating only through letters

jumping into a creek naked at midnight with him, my boyfriend, his mom, and another good friend

swimming under a full moon without being afraid of the dark

lying in a full sized bed sandwiched between two of the best people i know

camping with my favorite person in the world and getting to know one of his oldest friends for the first time

hosting the first barbecue of the summer and having literally everyone i invited show up

waking up next to my favorite person three days in a row

kissing in the kitchen, kissing good morning, kissing good night

receiving validation that my boyfriend is invested in our relationship for the long haul

something i’ve been experiencing pretty consistently

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loneliness is better

when you’re not alone. -hello saferide my boyfriend left for a three day backpacking trip with his best friends, who i also hang out with a lot. our other best friend is coming back from europe on thursday. i’m spending the next seven days working. being full-time is great and i’m so lucky to have this job, especially right now, but i’m lonely and sad and jealous that everyone else is having fun and doing all of these great things and i’m just working increased hours at the same job i’ve had for the past three years.

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real houselives

why don’t i know anyone in my day to day life who likes the real housewives like i do? this is not something i want to call my aunts about, but god i need to talk about season five.

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today’s discoveries

my roommate introducing me to jimmy john’s delivery is the worst best thing that’s ever happened to me. i have a problem.

chipotle delivers in bigger cities and i may need to move.

i don’t hate my new job. i might even prefer it to my old one. i might even be kind of good at it.

i’m so not ready to live without roommates. i had to be totally alone at my house for two days, and it was awful.

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i miss you

how nice is it to have that tacked onto the end of an otherwise mundane text from someone you love? even if it’s only been a few days.

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the kid’s alright

will and i have been having a series of off days, but today he told me that he loves me completely, and that i’m totally different from anyone he’s loved before, that i listen and communicate and make him feel safe. it was the first time he’s told me he loves me first, instead of just an “i love you, too.” and besides that, it’s good to feel special. one of our biggest hold-ups as a couple is the amount of time that he spends in his own head, comparing our relationship to his past ones. i know he’s worried, and it hurts me that he can’t always think of me independently of them, but today, i feel better. i know he’s trying. i know he cares about me. we’re alright.

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a survey to start

Where I’m from: california and sweden Where I would like to live: somewhere in the middle of the forest Favourite food: sushi, mac & cheese, avocados, and beer Religion: apathetic Sexual orientation: historically, 94% straight Relationship status: newly not single Favourite book: geek love Favourite movie: submarine Favourite TV show: parks & rec Random fact about me: i just got my first full-time job! Favorite day of the year: christmas Favourite colour: yellow If I have any pets; if so, their names: not yet, but we're adopting a dog soon What I’m listening to right now: orange is the new black What’s my ringtone: daylight by matt & kim What my name means: my real name means garden of holly Celebrity crush: joseph gordon levitt