★ * . : HOLY PYRES !

i've come to burn your kingdom down

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hi i’m not here but i wanna say

1 . every ep where dabi is animated , even for a short time , adds 5 years to my lifespan. i love him. he’s so fucking good. 2 . they changed his dialogue w aizawa and i Hate It lmao

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credit  /  feel free to change pronouns !

‘ tell me about the dream where we the pull bodies out of the lake ’ ‘ it’s more like a song on a policeman’s radio ’ ‘ tell me how all this , and love too , will ruin us ’ ‘ we’ll never get used to it ’ ‘ there are so many things i’m not allowed to tell you ’ ‘ we know where the sound is coming from ’ ‘ the world is no longer mysterious ’ ‘ it’s thinking of stabbing us to death and leaving our bodies in a dumpster ’ ‘ i like him and i want to be like him ’ ‘ someone once told me that explaining is an admission of failure ’ ‘ history repeats itself ’ ‘ i wanted to be wanted ’ ‘ frequently i was finding myself sleepless ’ ‘ i’d like my money’s worth ’ ‘ we can’t punch ourselves awake ’ ‘ sorry about the blood in your mouth ’ ‘ you wanted happiness , i can’t blame you for that ’ ‘ a mouth sounds idiotic when it blathers on about joy ’ ‘ tell me you’re not miserable ’ ‘ imagine being useless ’ ‘ there is no way to make this story interesting ’ ‘ i want to tell you this story without having to confess anything ’ ‘ he told me it wasn’t going to be okay ’ ‘ the minutes don’t stop ’ ‘ every morning another chapter ’ ‘ i wanted to give you something more ’ ‘ i’m sorry i came to your party and seduced you ’ ‘ you want a better story ’ ‘ i can already tell you think i’m the dragon ’ ‘ you still get to be the hero ’ ‘ i take the parts that i remember and stitch them back together ’ ‘ here is the part where everyone was happy all the time and we were all forgiven ’ ‘ the entire history of human desire takes about seventy minutes to tell ’ ‘ unfortunately we don’t have that kind of time ’ ‘ it isn’t over yet , it’s just begun ’ ‘ things happen every minute that have nothing to do with us ’ ‘ i wanted to fall down right there but i knew you wouldn’t catch me ’ ‘ you are a fever i am learning to live with ’ ‘ everything is happening at the wrong end of a very long tunnel ’ ‘ i just don’t want to die anymore ’ ‘ you want to die for love , you always have ’ ‘ let’s not talk about it , let’s just not talk ’ ‘ you say  ‘ i’ll give you anything ’  but you never come through ’ ‘ i’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own ’ ‘ anything past the horizon is invisible , it can only be imagined ’ ‘ you keep singing along to that song i hate ’ ‘ this is the place where everything starts to begin ’ ‘ monsters are always hungry ’ ‘ none of us are going back ’ 

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crawls into dabi's lap, ds in hand. this is his spot now. his gaming nest™ .

@decayn .

               tomura doesn’t ask  ,  but dabi finds he’s neither surprised nor bothered  by that particular fact  ,  arms moving apart from one another to accommodate the man crawling between them just to settle himself atop his legs like a cat wanting both  all  the attention and  none  at all .  he waits until tomura is situated  ,  limbs contorted into some weird position because he  ,  for whatever reason  ,  can’t sit like a normal person but rather insists upon  curling  himself into dabi’s chest  ,  legs half - hooked around him like some weak restraint and head somehow managing to place the  back  of it against his collar bone despite the rest of his body being turned at an angle .  he doesn’t look comfortable  ,  but he supposes he is or he wouldn’t be sitting like that to begin with .  weird  ,  but acceptable .  so rather than question it he instead wraps a single arm around his waist  ,  loose and easily pushed aside should the other wish to and leans his chin down to settle it atop tomura’s mop of a head .  well  ,  tomura’s comfort might be up in the air but dabi at least feels fairly  cozy  here .

                   ❛  whatcha playin’ ?  ❜      he asks  ,  as if he’ll recognize the title given  ------  he absolutely won’t  ,  they both know that  ,  but he’s interested for the sake of small talk  /  he’s interested because  tomura  is and that’s an odd thought to have  ,  actually  caring  for the little pleasures in another’s life but tomura’s a pretty  odd guy  so it evens out  ,  maybe .  in a way .  honestly  ,  it’s just better not to think too hard about it .

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@gamenu .

                there’s murders on the news  ,  wanted posters  &  media coverage  drenched in blood  /  ash  /  decay  ;  there are dangerous lurking ‘round every corner and no one has the excuse of  ‘ i didn’t know ’  with the way things have been lately  ------  and maybe that’s why it seems  funny  ,  seeing this girl out this late  ,  all by her  lonesome .  ‘  no one worried ‘bout you ?  ’  he could ask  ,  as if that’s not a  terrifying  greeting for a  variety  of reasons  ------  but he doesn’t say that  ,  doesn’t  need  to if what tomura’s informants mentioned to him is true .  a question that answers itself .

                ❛  hey so  ,  i don’t really feel like beatin’ around the bush here .  ❜      is what he goes with instead  ,  leaning against the metal pole of the bus sign with a  lazy gaze  fixed on potential recruit .  he’s sure he still looks relatively  creepy  despite the change of phrase  ,  but that’s irrelevant  ;  if she’s spooked by a little  conversation  and  burned skin  then he’s picked wrong  ,  clearly .      ❛  names nicole  ,  right ?  you got a pretty fancy quirk  ---  you wanna put it to good use ?  ❜

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so , i have this stated in my rules but i want to state  &  expand upon the idea that this blog  does operate  under the  ‘ todoroki theory ’ .  that said  ,  i want to address some  stark differences  between my portrayal and what i’ve seen commonly assumed regarding the theory because it  matters  when interacting with todoroki rpers  ( which i’d like to do !  but i also want everyone to know what’s goin on , u feel me ? )  so with that said  ,  let me get into it

i .  i do not believe shouto  &  dabi share the same mother .  i am vehemently opposed to this idea in fact  &  will  ignore it if it turns out to be canon .  they are  half siblings  ,  dabi is endeavor’s son but his mother is someone else entirely .  with this  ,  his mother  was never endeavor’s wife .  meaning i  personally  hc that endeavor had affairs  /  illegitimate children in his quest to produce an offspring that would be a viable heir .  i feel like this is implied from shouto’s comments  /  behavior here and there but regardless , this man is a  piece of shit  and i really don’t think cheating is so far fetched lmao .

ii .  dabi did not grow up in the todoroki household .  because his mother was not endeavor’s wife  /  fiance  /  what have you  ,  she instead lived in a house  (  that he paid for  )  alone with her son and endeavor more or less  ignored them  in the three years it took dabi’s quirk to manifest  ,  sans the occasional visit to check on the health of his son .  after dabi’s quirk manifested  (  which is  ,  as seen  ,  a fire quirk though i believe this mother’s quirk was  mild telekinesis  which gives him bonus  control  over his fire  )  he forced dabi to come live with him for long periods of time  ,  permitting him to see his mother every other weekend at which point she would become angry at the physical state of her child who was often battered to no end  ,  not to mention in a bad state mentally .  when she attempted to stop him from taking dabi or argued  ,  she would often be met with his anger  ,  which extended to physical abuse as well as verbal .

ii : a .  as a related note  ,  i don’t think any of the todoroki children know  /  remember dabi  except for fuyumi  who i personally hc as being around dabi’s age  (  dabi is 23  ,  for reference  )

iii .  the above being stated  ,  around the age of six dabi was already shaping up to be a pathetic heir with a  strong fear of fire  and constant medical visits to address the burns his quirk was searing into his skin  (  an in - depth hc for another day  )  and endeavor eventually permitted dabi’s mother to flee  ,  with the understanding that if she took her son and ran he would no longer support them and she was  not  to tell anyone that her son was his .  she agreed  ,  and she and dabi lived in  poverty  from that point up until canon events .

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can i roach your [ bleep ]

@decayn .

                ❛  oh ?  askin’ is new .  can’t say i mind it  —  better than havin’ you disintegratin’ my pants again  ,  impatient shit .  ❜      a pause  ,  legs uncrossing as body relaxes against the back of the chair he’s situated within  ,  eyebrow raising .      ❛  not as big a fan of your wording though .  got a whole list of alternative verbs you may wanna consider lookin’ into later .  ❜

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honestly like , i think about it a lot and like ... dabi  is  an asshole , and is also a murderer and not someone i’d ever sit here and call a  ‘ good person ’  but i also think like ...

he’s relatively easy to get along with if you’re not an enemy ?  not that he isn’t rude and won’t do dickish things but they’re dickish in the way that like ... some people just  are ?  i’m not sure how to explain it but he’s not  vile  ,  he just lacks manners  ---  he talks and behaves like your average run down , apathetic asshole basically ?  if he’s friends with you his rudeness is about the same as a friend’s would be , where they drag you for fun and fully expect you to drag them back. 

and then there’s the fact that he’s fully capable of being kind or at least encouraging , something he shows blatantly in the ambush / kidnapping arc when twice is ragging on the others for things not going perfectly and dabi replies that they did their best and they should be sure to thank them.  he also notes that everyone gathered there are top tier villains , meaning he has no problem acknowledging the success and skill of others  ---  he even notes that aizawa is as impressive as to be expected  ,  albeit he’s being condescending and shitty when he says it since they’re not teammates.

anyway this is weirdly disjointed but i think the best way to describe dabi is like ... he’s just a dude ?  where the others have this really villainous past and behave as such and give off a sort of uncomfortable / vile aura , dabi is just sort of ... this guy who really admires stain and behaves like a normal dude because he sort of  is one.  not that i’m excusing his murder or the fact that he , too , is a villain and i do believe that in the company of heroes he gives off an intimidating or unnerving aura , but he’s just ... easier , to hang around.  easy to gravitate to for other members of the league , easy to trust and want to listen to. i really do believe that within the league dabi is that guy that basically everyone gets along with , even if he does piss people off here and there.  and i think that’s part of a long list of reasons that shigaraki chose dabi to lead the kidnapping mission because like ... it’s better to have a leader that’s liked than one that’s disliked , it creates less room for error or stubbornness because people want to listen to their friend. 

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kisses the back of his neck

                     HE  TENSES  BUT  HE  ALWAYS  WILL  ,   taut  as  a  wire  beneath  the  warm  palms  of  dabi’s  hands  ,  a  tightrope  pulled  too  tight  ,  threatening  to  snap  beneath  balancing  feet  .          it  is  a  game  they  play  each  time  ,  whether  shigaraki  will  turn  him  away  or  ease  into  him  ,  the  seconds  that  pass  like  the  time  between  a  judge’s  gavel  and  the  podium  ,  wherein  the  verdict  is  not  so  clear  ,  not  so  vividly  certain   ——    the  hair  above  his  neck  tickles  the  place  dabi’s  lips  leave  behind  ,  that  jutting  bone  where  his  spine  ends  .          the  pause  between  the  action  and  his  reaction  is  punctuated  only  by  the  buzz  of  the  computer  in  the  room  ,  the  hum  of  his  twin  monitors  .

there  is  a  softness  here  that  he  does  not  know  fully  how  to  deal  with  ,   evidenced  by  the  way  it  makes  his  stomach  churn  and  the  way  his  hands  come  round  to  touch  the  places  where  dabi’s  hands  touch  him   ——  a  pressure  in  touch  that  soothes  ,  whatever  restless  anger  roils  in  his  heart  stopped  from  boiling  over  ;   he  runs  safe  fingers  over  the  raised  places  where  skin  meets  char  ,  over  staple  ,  over  ridged  texture  .

dabi  could  burn  him  to  a  crisp  ,  if  he  wished   ;   the  thought  comes  to  him  suddenly  .         they  could  both  leave  the  other  behind  in  a  pile  of  dust  and  ash  ,   interesting  that  neither  of  them  don’t  ,  interesting  that  they  both  find  safety  in  lethal  hands  ,  when  other  hands  seem  so  much  more  dangerous  .  

the  gavel  comes  down  ,  and  the  verdict  passes  ,  and  in  dabi’s  arms  shigaraki  tomura  relaxes  ,  leans  back  into  warmth  and  ponders  how  cremation  and  funerals  go  hand  in  hand  ,  how  they  both  leave  behind  fragments  of  a  lived  life  ,  demands  ,      ❛    again  ,   ❜        and  before  dabi  can  ask  it  of  him  ,    ❛    please  .  ❜

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❛ stop movin' around , 'm almost done . ❜ it's a light chastisement at best , failing to /truly/ be bothered by her twitchiness as fingers carefully braid together the last loose strands of blonde hair , finishing it off with a /pink ribbon/ for ' added cuteness ' . ❛ --- there . good enough for you ? ❜

❛     sorry, i just can’t wait to see it !     ❜     he’s lucky she’s not bouncing in her seat  !  maybe she’s overly excited  ,  but it’s been so long since anyone has braided her hair  .  the last time must’ve been when she was a child  ,  a cute little girl with nice hair  ,  hugging her mother after she finished styling it  .  she’s reliving simpler times  ,  in this moment  .  it doesn’t matter how small it is  .

before dabi has even finished speaking  ,  she’s holding a mirror  ,  anticipation turning into pure glee as she admires his work  .     ❛     oh my god  ,  dabi  !  i underestimated you  ——  this is so cute  !     ❜     it’s a little messy  (  mainly due to her hair being uneven and difficult to work with  ,  though  )  ,  but the braid looks adorable  !  toga finds herself wondering how much dabi’s done this  ,  now  ;  he’s surprisingly good at it  .     ❛     you must’ve done this a lot before  ,  do you have a little sister or something  ?  or are you just secretly the kinda guy that braids girls’ hair for them  —  ?  either way  ,  i never took you for a softie  !  like  ,  that’s sooo cute  !     ❜

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★ * . ━━  stranger .

@charspit

              “ Are you — Tomura’s friend You two usually hang out by the arcade together? ”

                ❛  ---  kinda .  why  ,  you lookin’ for him or somethin’ ?  ❜      two eyebrows raised  ;  kinda  young  to be a friend  ,  kinda  plain  to be affiliated with  whatever it is  that tomura gets his cash from .

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★ * . ━━  newbie .

   why was he doing this ?   questions ran rampage within his mind  —- dumb, idiot … that’s what they’re saying, right … ? ( they’re not saying anything, no one has noticed ). rejected from u.a., rejected by his best friend, no where to turn other than what he was told was called the league of villains ( villain … ? yeah, right —— he was hardly cut out to be a hero, let alone a villain ). there was a bitter sense that had built up from the pit of his stomach, rooting itself into his heart, and seemingly taking control of his entire life; and he’s hurt, a pain so severe that he could hardly muster the will to get himself out of bed. had this league not seen potential in him, he’d probably be rotting away in the comfort of his bedroom. 

and he’s silent; caught in the wild fires of his thoughts ( this wasn’t his fault, it wasn’t his fault, it’s not his fault ) … set out on some sort of task to collect supplies. he didn’t bother to pay attention to instructions, however, as anxiety had deemed worry and stress a higher priority at the mention of him having to accompany another member of this league. still, they set out, and he was sure of the fact that he would be told what to do at some point today.

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                the kid’s got talent  ------  got  anxiety  too  ,   and  that’s  where the world of hero’s found fit to  dump him  on the doormat of every other quirkless  ‘ loser ’  who couldn’t fit their golden molds .  why waste time showing someone their  potential  when you’ve got a hundred other  brainwashed idiots  lining up to fill their pockets  ,  bask in the limelight  ,  pretend they  give a shit  with a  big smile  for the cameras ?  

he glances down  ,  toward the kid  ;  society’s a  bitch  huh ?

                   ❛  hey .  look alive .  ❜      thinking  ,  he assumes  ,  that’s where tamaki’s mind has gone  &  he hopes to  rouse  him  ,  drag him back to reality  ,  feet planted firmly in the situation that is this  :  he’s a villain now  ,  and whatever his past may be his  future  is headed  one  direction  ------  someplace brighter  ,  a heros’ pyre  /  a sinners’ pyre .      ❛  save the daydreaming for your downtime  ------  gonna be a real pain if you get caught unawares by some wannabe hero .  you ain’t on  their side  anymore .  ❜

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you are a  holy fire  /  holy pyre  /  you are a  burial mound  for every self - righteous sinner who dares call themselves  ‘ hero ’  (  red sky  /  black smoke  ;  you are dawn  ,  burning  )   |   indie  dabi  from bnha   ,  written by  nyx  |  PERSONALS DO NOT INTERACT

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likes artificial watermelon | sleeps in what they’re already wearing | eats their cereal with milk  | listens to music with earbuds | hates the summer | can recite past the first four digits of pi | eats frosting out of the jar | doodles on their notebooks | can bake cookies | has a garden | has had a snowball fight | eats pancakes without syrup | prefers shorts to pants | can name more than ten superheroes | has a plan for the zombie apocalypse | uses the same password for everything | can’t hold their breath for more than fifteen seconds | watches anime | hasn’t read harry potter | can say ‘I love you’ in more than one language | prefers mechanical pencils | thinks space is cool | takes personality tests more than once to make sure | can’t tie their shoelaces | has a purse | likes salad | likes cool colors better than warm colors | knows how to braid hair | reads biographies | can ice skate | knows their mbti | reads astrology charts | prefers the star wars prequels to the original trilogy | plays video games | reads the newspaper | likes chocolate ice cream better | doesn’t cuss | memorizes song lyrics | collects coupons | has a preferred order at starbucks | likes movie theater popcorn | has seen a play | listens to music with headphones | owns a hoodie | would rather own cds than online copies | has written a poem | can shuffle cards | subscribes to a magazine | double dips when eating | drinks directly out of the milk container | keeps a journal

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Let villains be villains. But, also don’t forget that they don’t need to be in their ‘villain’ mode 24/7

Corporate and political villains will live their lives mostly normally, outside their shady work.

Warlords, corrupt politicians, crooked law enforcers, other unsavory authority figures, unethical doctors, etc, have families and friends, and full lives outside the shitty things they do.

Even serial killers, hitmen, violent fanatics, etc, can have lives; hobbies, friends, romantic partners, and so on.

 Most villains will be shitty people only in certain aspect(s) of their lives, and carry on like everyone else the rest of the time. 

They are still absolutely shitty people but being afraid to emphasize on their human sides, to lose the sight of their villainy, is incorrect, and takes away a lot of interesting aspects of a character for potential development. 

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★ * . ━━ stupid kid .

         IS THIS GUY FOR REAL?  his hands squeeze & pale around the textbook he’d been pretending to study, sitting up nice and tense to better acquaint himself with the severity of the situation.  a stupid part of him wants to bear his teeth, show his guts, lay all of his cards on the table ——  but there are too many civilians.  kids.  casualties. 

SOMETIMES,  THAT STEP FORWARD IS A SHUT TRAP.  “  hey. don’t do this here.  ”  what’s that stuck in his throat, anyway?  ouch.  “  i’ll play along, anywhere but here.  please.  what do you want?  ”

                ❛  damn .  you must really think you’re hot shit if you’re tryin’ to make demands of me right now .  ❜      amusement laces tone  ,  lion clearly unconcerned with the requests of a meager lamb  ;  kid must think he’s  stupid  ,  or maybe he’s just idiot  himself  ?  ------  well  ,  doesn’t really matter .  either he’s wrong or he’s lacking brain cells and both work in dabi’s favor .      ❛  but nah .  think i like where we are .  pretty cozy  ,  actually .  ❜      legs cross  ,  loose  ‘ 4 ′  made with knee  just  nudging the red head’s leg  ;  your space is his space now .

                   ❛  first of all  ...  you were one of those kids that got dragged into  overhaul’s  shit  ,  right ?  ❜      rhetorical  ,  he knows already  ------  already had a nice long talk with  toga  &  twice  about the details of the little  hero raid .      ❛  you wanna tell me where that  little girl  is being kept ?  ❜

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“ fixing a human isn’t the same as fixing a bike , or a car ”

sentence starters  /  accepting  /  @decayn​

                ❛  yeah .  they can get pretty similar though  ;  depends a little on what you’re fixin’  ,  for both .  ❜      is his casual reply  ,  exhaling cigarette smoke  ;  like a bandaid  ,  he thinks  ,  but for something  inside  ------  would help if it wasn’t deadlier than the void he’s trying to fill with it  ,  but he’s never planned for a long life .      ❛  puttin’ a bandaid on a paper cut’s the same as puttin’ some tape on a bike tire  ,  more or less .  different tools but same kinda thinkin’ for jumpstartin’ a car versus jumpstartin’ a human heart .  two wires and a lotta zapping .  ❜      

but that’s not what tomura is getting at  ,  is it ?

                   ❛  ---  but that’s about where the similarities stop .  pain in the ass too  ,  yeah ?  shit’d be a lot easier if we could just pour some’a those  ‘ feel good ’  chemicals in our heads like we do gas in cars an’ call it a day .  ❜      he says it like a joke  ,  lets the corners of his lips curve upward in a bitter sort of  smirk  ,  tugging at burnt skin and piercings in familiar discomfort  ;  he says it like a joke  ,  but it’s really not one .  but they  both  know that  ,  neither of them stupid enough to believe there aren’t people out there that would  kill  for such a solution to their inner turmoil  ------  themselves  among them  ,  if not now then at some point in the pasts neither of them have felt it necessary to divulge to the other .  another drag  ;  his cigarette is almost gone and it’s getting colder outside  ,  even by  his  standards  .  they’ll need to step back inside soon  ,  lest tomura freeze to death  ,  skin and bone and everything  ill suited  to withstand temperatures of lower than 30 celsius . 

                   ❛  can’t do that shit .  but hey  ,  at least there’s distractions .  drugs an’ drinks  ...  like stickin’ duct tape over a severed limb .  ❜      pause .  he puts out his cigarette  ,  lit end twisted on the dead cells of the burnt skin lining his left arm  ;  drugs and drinks  /  sex and nicotine  /  the sensation of burning someone alive in a back alley  .  duct tape  ;  durability varies .      ❛  c’mon .  gettin’ cold  ,  and i hear freezin’ to death’s a pretty shitty way to go out .  ‘specially for someone with a standing like yours .  ❜

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rp sentence starters from  emily curtis’  work  ,  in the absence of the sun

“ you didn’t listen to me when i tried to explain ” “ i have scars so long , so deep , you may never find the ends of them ” “ some people were just designed to be destructive ” “ when we were younger we fought with our fists ” “ hearts don’t shatter , they rot ” “ my biggest fear is that i will end up telling you everything ” “ love , i’ve found , is a very selfish beast ” “ we keep white flags in our back pockets ” “ you and i both know it’s only a matter of time before we get bored ” “ if he does not respect you now , he never will ” “ it’s impossible to teach a whale to walk ” “ we are unraveling ” “ the heart-breaker taught me how to become one ” “ you know i am delicate ” “ we compete to see who can prove they care less ” “ he has a degree in lying and a masters in manipulation ” “ i think that is the saddest thing i have ever heard ” “ i hope karma haunts your sleep ” “ you are not allowed to be the main character of someone else’s memoir ” “ i wish i had the ability to sleep so peacefully ” “ they compete over who can be the best version of generic ” “ fixing a human isn’t the same as fixing a bike , or a car ” “ i’m so run down you can’t even tell what i was before ” “ you fear the damage they could do if you let them know your secrets ” “ to cry over spilled milk is completely acceptable ” “ the tears will not end you ” “ they say freedom is expressed through goodbyes ” “ there is no such thing as a perfect life ” “ i need my old friend patience to stop by ” “ why are we constantly told we know nothing of it? ” “ life leads rivers for those willing to follow ” “ they are struggling too ” “ we’re all equal here ” “ you know how to use those first few words to your advantage ” “ you act like i need you to survive but i don’t ” “ i dream of you in my sleep ” “ thank you for being my armor ” “ learn to take a compliment with grace ” “ i understand now that some roots are just too weak ” “ i want to hear your voice ”