I think I knew it was coming but my breath still hitched because I was so used to being the one who ruined things. I never believed anyone when they said how much it hurts to get your heart broken until it was me, staring at myself in the mirror with tears streaming down my face begging myself to just hold on and be strong. Telling myself it’ll get better, that it will be okay even though you know it’s not. It is probably one of the most painful things a person has to go through. When you get your heart broken it feels like its shattered into a million pieces. Like someone has physically ripped it out and crushed it. You can actually feel the pain in your chest. It hurts a lot. Emotionally and physically. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. You can’t accept the fact they don’t want you anymore. That all of a sudden they have got up and left you? You wish it was just a temporary nightmare but the sad truth is, it’s not. Its reality. It’s a scary feeling knowing that your absolute everything is nothing anymore. You pray and hope that one day they miss you. You would do anything, it’s like you don’t care about anything or anybody anymore. You just can’t stop thinking about them.. The one that completely broke you. You want the tears to stop falling and more importantly you want them back. More than anything you’ve ever wanted before, because trust me nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the one person you thought would never hurt you. You need them to need you. You want them to want you. You wish they felt exactly the same way you feel for them, but despite all your efforts and hard wishing. You can’t control their emotions. Your world is starting to fall apart. You try to recover, some days you think you’re getting better but somewhere along the way something goes wrong..you get a flashback, or hear a song that reminds you of a memory and it hits you all over again, like a stab in the chest. You fall apart again, for the hundredth time. Your tired, tired of feeling like this. Tired of never being good enough. You feel like crawling under a rock and never coming back out, pack your bags and just leave..because nobody will care anyway. You love this person with all my heart even though you don’t want to any more because loving them hurts but the worst part is you know you always will. You knew it wasn’t going to be easy but you never thought it would be this hard. You’ve been hurt worse than you have ever been hurt before. They stole your happiness, yet you still want them and only them. Your mind is a mess and your heart is a wreck. You’re just one big mess inside. You can feel your mind slowly slipping away from you but you can’t let it show, because your not worth anyone’s worry, right? Your life isn’t worth living anymore, what have you got to live for or look forward too? Nothing. No one see’s how broken you really are. Nobody gets it, nobody really understands. They don’t understand how hard it is to let someone go. It’s so hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember. People tell you it’ll get bet better over time but the truth is, its just getting worse. Time heals nothing. You’ve lost motivation to do anything, the only thing your mind is set on is the person who totally broke you. You couldn’t stop thinking about them even if you tried, even if you wanted to. People ask you how you’re feeling, you tell them you’re “fine”. That you will be okay. The truth is you don’t want to tell anyone how you really feel; broken, useless, alone, clueless, confused, betrayed, fragile, depressed, anxious, lonely, bitter, rejected, crushed, empty, heart broken, on the verge of breaking down. What’s the point, because nobody actually cares anyway?
Its scary how one person can completely break you..
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