chem

buzzes past your door riding a skateboard and blasting Eminem’s “without me”

whhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! speeeeeeeeeeeeeed!!!!!

@chemthe-intern

*Bella woke up, hearing the sudden noise. She threw on her jacket and looked out the door of her room, watching what's going on.*

"Woah. Someone seems to be having fun!"

Hell yeah I am!

wooooo!!!-

chem promptly smacks into a wall looking like a cartoon character!

*Bella's eyes widen and she cupped her mouth. She was concerned but she was also trying not to laugh as well.*

"M- you okay over there?"

#chem the intern #chem the dumbass

besides putting a dent in the wall in the shape of my face??? yeah I’m doing pretty good!

buzzes past your door riding a skateboard and blasting Eminem’s “without me”

whhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!! speeeeeeeeeeeeeed!!!!!

@chemthe-intern

*Bella woke up, hearing the sudden noise. She threw on her jacket and looked out the door of her room, watching what's going on.*

"Woah. Someone seems to be having fun!"

#chem the intern #call me Grover from the way I crash and burn! haha

Hell yeah I am!

wooooo!!!-

chem promptly smacks into a wall looking like a cartoon character!

tulparsbotanist

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- ♠♟

What.

What is this.

I dont

What

#chem the intern #//mod: being completely for real. I’m running this through a Caesar cipher right now

it-

that sounds like a Caesar cipher

nurseanya404

you see a galaxy haired mushroom wearing 19-year-old blast down the hallway on a skateboard blaring Green Day now sporting a flag that says “fuck Jimmy!”

anya you’re a fucking queen don’t forget that keep slaying and serving Cunt and I mean that in an entirely platonic way!

anyway speed is key!!!

@chemthe-intern

Serving cunt? Umm, OK. I'm assuming that's a good thing, right?

#chem the intern #anya slays hard

you hear the person yell in a positive way from down the hallway

yes! it means you’re amazing and useful and you are worth it and shouldn’t let anybody get you down!

guess who’s back? back again?

chem is back tell a friend!

I don’t know who the fuck would tell we all are on the same ship! But tell them anyway! I will permeate their mind!

CHEM WHERE ARE YOU

mod: i’m sorry for the long MIA

I have been dealing with some mental health issues and took a hiatus because I was needing a break I’m sorry I didn’t announce that but it was just a sudden need to get away

But I’m back and hopefully I can continue being chaotic and fucking around and being angsty at times like my normal self

#// mod post

[Ivan walks in, his goggles propped up on the top of his head like a pair of sunglasses.]

"...Chem?"

[He sounded remorseful.]

"Uhm.. So about what happened a week or two ago... When I called you stupid. I'm sorry. I was just... Angry, and I didn't mean to make you so upset."

"I hope there's no hard feelings?"

( -@biiologoly )

MOD: i was planning to send this starter a while ago but things got busy and i got distracted so oops!

(mod: again, I’m sorry for this looking weird but Tumblr messed up again?)

[chem took a big inhale, turning it into a sigh while setting down a mushroom that they were looking at]

it’s fine I just don’t like being belittled or treated like I’m a fucking child

I can understand things’s perfectly fucking well if someone just tells me like an adult instead of talking down to me like I am some type of five-year-old or insulting me like I knew all along

And when people raise their voice at me and insult me, it makes me want to just close my eyes and avoid the situation

biiologoly

"You dont have to swear at me." [He says, putting his hand on his hip.]

[Ivan sighs like he's trying to to keep his composure.]

"Chem, It wasn't my intention to treat you like a child. I'm sorry."

"And I didn't think calling you stupid would cause that kind of reaction. I didn't expect you to take me so seriously, and that was wrong on my part."

[Ivan thinks for a moment.]

"But. I will say. You shouldn't be smoking on the ship in the first place. One, because it's unsafe, and two, it causes you to be practically incapacitated. You can't do your job."

well i can’t deal with being aware right now

you saw what was on that photo don’t act like you didn’t

…………i use weed to cope ivan it’s not a dependency or an addiction

It’s just something I use to make my brain numb enough so I don’t have to remember what I went through.

I tried alcohol and it’s okay when i get a buzz but when I start teetering the line of tipsy and drunk I go to places I don’t want people to see…

I got this internship so I could possibly have the money to get therapy or get health insurance for it but it feels like I have been on this ship for years

[chem looks close to breaking down voice cracking and sounding pathetically panicked and upset]

(mod: sorry for taking so long had to take a mental health hiatus)

biiologoly

(mod: ITS OKAYYY I HOPE UR FEELING BETTER ^_^)

"That's an unhealthy way to cope, Chem..."

[Ivan frowns.]

"You need to find a different way to cope with your problems. A temporary high won't fix anything and leaves you delirious afterwards. You can't sit here and hide behind your unhealthy coping mechanism as a reason to act in a way that is irresponsible."

"If you cannot function without marijuana, it is an addiction. One you need to get yourself out of before you turn to worse coping methods, or it gets unbearable. You should talk to Odessa about your mental health, as she would have better advice than I, and you could possibly set up some therapy sessions with her, but... I know how it feels to be depressed. Every day melts together and you feel helpless, but if you continue to lean into the helpessness instead of trying to find different forms of comfort, you'll never be able to get out of that bout. You'll dig your own grave, and get comfortable in it, and eventually, you feel solace. You dont scream for help, or try to get people's attention because you've been so used to laying in that hole watching the days and nights pass you by as you wait to die, for the earth to consume you and your misery."

[Ivan walks a bit closer to Chem, and puts a hand on their shoulder.]

"You need to learn how to climb. You can't stay in that grave you've dug for yourself and say you're climbing and making progress, when in reality, you're climbing up and hopping back down when you get too tired to do anymore. It feels like you've been on this ship for years because so much stuff happens every day. You make new memories, find new people. You do more than bedrot and have responsibilities for the first time in possibly a while. It's a lot for you to take in."

"...You can always talk to me if you need to. I've experienced my own fair share of struggles, maybe I can relate to some of yours and give you advice I wish I would've known myself."

i haven’t dug any grave! and it’s not a dependency!

i……i smoke weed to stop myself from doing things that i’d regret….

i tried anti depressants and they helped for a little bit but then the side effects came out and the depression those pills caused….

[chem chokes a little on their own spit and tears]

i’d never want to experience again….

………but i will take you up on that offer of talking to you….

just don’t tell curly jim or pony express about what i tell you…

#angst #chem the intern

[Ivan walks in, his goggles propped up on the top of his head like a pair of sunglasses.]

"...Chem?"

[He sounded remorseful.]

"Uhm.. So about what happened a week or two ago... When I called you stupid. I'm sorry. I was just... Angry, and I didn't mean to make you so upset."

"I hope there's no hard feelings?"

( -@biiologoly )

MOD: i was planning to send this starter a while ago but things got busy and i got distracted so oops!

(mod: again, I’m sorry for this looking weird but Tumblr messed up again?)

[chem took a big inhale, turning it into a sigh while setting down a mushroom that they were looking at]

it’s fine I just don’t like being belittled or treated like I’m a fucking child

I can understand things’s perfectly fucking well if someone just tells me like an adult instead of talking down to me like I am some type of five-year-old or insulting me like I knew all along

And when people raise their voice at me and insult me, it makes me want to just close my eyes and avoid the situation

biiologoly

"You dont have to swear at me." [He says, putting his hand on his hip.]

[Ivan sighs like he's trying to to keep his composure.]

"Chem, It wasn't my intention to treat you like a child. I'm sorry."

"And I didn't think calling you stupid would cause that kind of reaction. I didn't expect you to take me so seriously, and that was wrong on my part."

[Ivan thinks for a moment.]

"But. I will say. You shouldn't be smoking on the ship in the first place. One, because it's unsafe, and two, it causes you to be practically incapacitated. You can't do your job."

#chem the intern #tw angst

well i can’t deal with being aware right now

you saw what was on that photo don’t act like you didn’t

…………i use weed to cope ivan it’s not a dependency or an addiction

It’s just something I use to make my brain numb enough so I don’t have to remember what I went through.

I tried alcohol and it’s okay when i get a buzz but when I start teetering the line of tipsy and drunk I go to places I don’t want people to see…

I got this internship so I could possibly have the money to get therapy or get health insurance for it but it feels like I have been on this ship for years

[chem looks close to breaking down voice cracking and sounding pathetically panicked and upset]

(mod: sorry for taking so long had to take a mental health hiatus)

[Ivan walks in, his goggles propped up on the top of his head like a pair of sunglasses.]

"...Chem?"

[He sounded remorseful.]

"Uhm.. So about what happened a week or two ago... When I called you stupid. I'm sorry. I was just... Angry, and I didn't mean to make you so upset."

"I hope there's no hard feelings?"

( -@biiologoly )

MOD: i was planning to send this starter a while ago but things got busy and i got distracted so oops!

(mod: again, I’m sorry for this looking weird but Tumblr messed up again?)

[chem took a big inhale, turning it into a sigh while setting down a mushroom that they were looking at]

it’s fine I just don’t like being belittled or treated like I’m a fucking child

I can understand things’s perfectly fucking well if someone just tells me like an adult instead of talking down to me like I am some type of five-year-old or insulting me like I knew all along

And when people raise their voice at me and insult me, it makes me want to just close my eyes and avoid the situation

#chem the intern #ask

[Ivan walks in, his goggles propped up on the top of his head like a pair of sunglasses.]

"...Chem?"

[He sounded remorseful.]

"Uhm.. So about what happened a week or two ago... When I called you stupid. I'm sorry. I was just... Angry, and I didn't mean to make you so upset."

"I hope there's no hard feelings?"

( -@biiologoly )

MOD: i was planning to send this starter a while ago but things got busy and i got distracted so oops!

[sneaks into the intercom room and picks up the mic!]

goooooooooood morning tulpar!!(/ref)

this is your friendly neighborhood dumbass speaking!

I have came here to say that it is shoot your jimmy with a watergun day!!!!!

water guns will be found in the main hub!

have fun! and aim for his greasy ass hair! He needs a shower!!!

- @chemthe-intern

*They can be heard laughing in the background but doing nothing to stop this. Once the intruder is done, they do take over, still laughing all the same*

Well, crew, guess we're having fun today.

Please keep in mind that our co-pilot does take very good care of himself and is very well-groomed, though! Feel free to screw up his routine with this event at the very least.

But please don't be too mean to him! He's doing his best!

(OOC note just to make sure my stance on this is known: please be respectful with those who struggle with self care. i myself have issues that make it difficult sometimes. this is all fun and games but if you ever see someone struggling with those things, please be kind. they're trying)

mod: yeah i want to say if your struggling with self care it’s fine don’t beat yourself up about it living is exhausting sometimes and you lose track of your self care if you are having issues with it try and find someone who you trust to help you stay on top of it

that’s what has helped me because i have been through that type of depression and task freeze

it might help it might not but it’s a good start!

just know you are loved and appreciated and beautiful and you can do this!

#// mod post

Not so gentle reminder to all visiting entities:

STAY OUT THE DAMN VENTS

They are not built to support people and unless you are properly trained in their maintenance, you shouldn't even be near them.

but I lost a ball up there!! I’m gonna climb up there!

Wha— How did you get a ball up there in the first place?

You know what? No, you're not climbing up there! I'll find someone to get it down but there are no unauthorized persons going up there after last time.

okay fine if you’re gonna get it down then you’re looking for a bag of gummy bears! they will taste weird so don’t eat them

anyways i’m going to make sure my other gummy bears are safe!

[the intern runs off without further explanation!]

Not so gentle reminder to all visiting entities:

STAY OUT THE DAMN VENTS

They are not built to support people and unless you are properly trained in their maintenance, you shouldn't even be near them.

but I lost a ball up there!! I’m gonna climb up there!

uh- hey bella do ya have a step ladder

- @chemthe-intern

*Bella was on her bed, staring off into space before looking over.*

"Oh a step ladder? I don't have one but I think we keep one in the cleaning closet."

yeah, I just need it because I have the sudden urge to check the vents for some reason

"Oh like in among us."

Bella you are my best friend, but if you say that again, I’m going to be using you as the step ladder

*She giggled.*

"Sorry I couldn't help myself."

"So why do you have the urge to check the vents anyways."

It’s just kind of like déjà vu!

Like I just have this feeling that there’s something there I need to check to make sure it’s still there

uh- hey bella do ya have a step ladder

- @chemthe-intern

*Bella was on her bed, staring off into space before looking over.*

"Oh a step ladder? I don't have one but I think we keep one in the cleaning closet."

yeah, I just need it because I have the sudden urge to check the vents for some reason

"Oh like in among us."