lately hope and love is not all i’ve got.
i’m up later than i tend to be. than i’d like to be.
it’s been hard to shake this feeling, hard hard hard!
a friend told me to write what i love, so that’s what i’m doing.
i love my friends; kaylees smile and DOWNness, kalin’s warm embrace both literally and figuratively, ava’s acknowledgment of wrongdoings, alida’s honesty, kiara’s acceptance, eliza’s preservation, angelina’s laugh, eloise’s unhideable face margaux’s jokes, lily’s refusal, bryn’s sweetness, jaspers sillyness, amalia’s openness, especially when it’s hard, lisles questions, arts surprises (because i’m still learning), aydens thoughtfullness, chases whimsy, katherine’s pessimism, kate’s fun, i can go on and on and on
i love rocks and climbing and moving my body, the soreness.
i love the place i’m in, even through the shivers.
i love the sunsets and sunrises when i get to catch them
i love a good fricken book, even if sometimes, to me, that means john green, or slobbering over the pages.
i love trees, especially ones i can get up into
i love a chilly walk with my mom, though usually tainted with an unplaced disappointment or criticism
i love learning, jamming my brain and struggling
i love cigarettes and nicotine, fuxk
a good bike ride where my hair gets caught in the wind
the ocean, crashing waves and succumbing
soft sunshine that warms you up on a rare california day
miserable heat that i’ve become accustomed to
freezing toes and fireplaces
warm tea that burns my tongue on the first sip
the sadness that i don’t often let linger
the light hitting just right
misunderstandings that you clear quickly
a long makeout that ends at just that
napping with someone i love, accusations of romance
loud music, music that i wonder if part of me bleeds
dancing, dancing without a care
jeans that fit just right
there is lots i love, and some things i don’t, but one thing i don’t think i’ll ever escape, is that i know i’ll grow to love it all even with a taint of hate
cus i don’t get to chose it all, but that’s okay
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